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Practice the victories.

Wednesday, October 15, 2014

I have been working and recommitting to this process again. I make it closer to my desired goal each time. But alas I struggle to stay the course. Eventually I get distracted and my inner toddler comes out shouting about what she wants, while my inner 8 year old States that it is not fair while my inner teenager pouts it doesn't matter anyway.

From time to time I manage to calm myself down and get to work.

I watch Biggest loser from the Internet. I don't remember maybe week 5 one of the coaches said "Practice the victory".

Isn't this a great idea. My mantra can be I am becoming stronger by practicing victory. No more bemoaning what I cannot have. I can have victory and it is totally fair.

I am also planning an ellimination diet for my son so we can see if alergies are causing his stomach issues.

My son leaves in a week to serve a two year mission in Peru. Most big changes will wait until after that.

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EJB2801 11/4/2014 11:39PM

    Sure hope you are/were successful with the elimination diet. When my son was tiny, he had perpetual severe eczema. I tried elimination diets galore since he was exclusively breastfed. But, I never tried all the things all at once. Finally we were able to have an ImmunoCAP series of tests prescribed. I would not have gotten to the bottom of it without it as his list was (and still is at 14) extensive. But oh the joy of seeing his skin clear up at long last! I could finally kiss my little guy on the cheek. We need to test again, but our insurance is not the same so it will have to wait until we have more money saved for our deductible. Anyway, best wishes!

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JUSTYNA7 10/17/2014 5:41PM

    Excellent! It's true. How we see ourselves changes how we move, what we strive for and how hard. I think... it was when I realized I could start eating and moving the way I imagined myself in "victory" that I started doing it consistently. I love this idea. Thanks for sharing. Justyna

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1CRAZYDOG 10/15/2014 2:29PM

    Yes! This is well said.

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NANCY- 10/15/2014 7:28AM

    I hear you!
It is tough to make and honor a commitment to one's self. Lots of stuff gets in the way, including ourselves.

Wow You are stronger than me, letting a child of mine go away for three weeks was challenging never mind for two years.

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Why? Why? Why?

Tuesday, October 07, 2014

Restarting Beck Diet Solution. In the past I was almost down to onederland. Then I turned around and ran back to almost the place I started. I want to move forward and have success again. It is not that what I chose was not sustainable. I just didn't and now the journey seems so long. So here I am again reminding myself why I want to be smaller
The best answer is for my health. I know when I eat better I feel better. That is a fact but is not motivational because hey I am just starting and one more -------- won't matter.

I want nicer clothes, to feel attractive, and to be stronger.

I think those are more personal and will keep me on track better than looking at the list again. But I will add to my card.

I am reminding myself I want to succeed on this journey. I have felt bogged down with all the shoulds I think. I am backing up to try again just a bit at a time.

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NANCY- 10/8/2014 7:42AM

    Congrats on moving forward. To play an violin it takes practice. Repetition gives us familiarity, gets us more comfortable, and gives us the opportunity to build on what is already working.
WTG on being vigilant and hanging in there. Change is challenging, you can do it.
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SQUIRRELMOMMA1 10/7/2014 4:40PM

    For years I wouldn't buy any clothing for myself because I was so overweight. i felt fat and ugly (and I probably looked it too). Then one day I actually saw my reflection in a shop window and was horrified. That started my spark journey. Once the weight started coming off and I bought some new clothes I also started feeling good about myself. I'm not ugly anymore and I like myself a whole lot more. emoticon

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ZZYYGGY3 10/7/2014 3:59PM

    you can do it.

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1CRAZYDOG 10/7/2014 3:45PM

    Good luck. The key is finding something that is sustainable for sure!

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MELYROD18 10/7/2014 3:44PM

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How we make others feel.

Wednesday, October 01, 2014

I took a bit of a break from Spark People. Working and such.

Last week I arrended another friends funereal. This one is OK. We will miss him but at nearly 94 he lead a good life.

He would tell you about his accomplishments. But he would also say " Do you know how awesome you are?" Then he would turn to others and tell them. It was a great thing. He and another old man shared a birthday with my son's friend. The three of them went out to birthday breakfast for several years. He made me feel good. He made my kids feel glad to know him. He was great.

One day last week I did not get up and get ready for work. I am a substitute classroom aide. I got called to work. I hurried to get there. I did not finish drying my hair. A coworker who was kind of grumpy at me last year tried to compliment me. She said I like what you've done with your hair. My response was wash it and leave it mostly wet? I was feeling self conscious. It turns out she likes the color. My gray looks like highlights. It is cool when I look at it.

I could have made it positive. Instead it just turned awkward.

The other day I was a crossing gaurd. I decided to happily greet everyone with a cheerful good morning. I know some kids did not like it. But it did not hurt them.

It is time to get over myself. I think then I will feel better.

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NANCY- 10/3/2014 1:11PM

    " Do you know how awesome you are?" You have given me the gift of this blog. I will now include that question (with answer) for all too often we do do not know how awesome we are.
Kudos on the cheerful good morning... that may be all that was needed to make someone's day.

"He made my kids feel glad to know him." I only hope that folks can say that about me.

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1CRAZYDOG 10/1/2014 10:04PM

    Awesome! It's all in the approach you take in interpreting a word or deed. HUGS

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What if...?

Thursday, September 18, 2014

A very supportive friend sent me a message. She has been struggling for a while now, which I knew. I have been too. We encouraged each other to the brink of onederland. Then slowly life and trials have gotten in the way. We are struggling. I would say together but we both pulled back from SP a bit. We both have had some life struggles. We have pulled apart. Maybe we are overwhelmed or embarrassed. Some days,for me the journey back to success seems just to far. Starting seems just a little too hard and the negative voice in my head says that not making healthy choices doesn't matter and by the way it is just not fair. If inner tantrum burned calories I'd be fine but, I think they just add to depression.

I get to keep my finger. But I still have a long time with pain. Over a month until surgery.

Not sleeping well I only exercised one morning this week.

I have to turn this around. As I was thinking about my friend I was wondering what would happen if I really cared about myself? How would that change my daily choices? Would I be better able to sooth the part of me that says THAT IS NOY FAIR far too oftern and far to loud.

I think about my friend as a strong inspiring woman. Even if she is struggling her story is one I will forever admire. If somehow she could see her greatness would she make better choices. What if I could see my own potential? If I believed this were possible how would I choose differently?

As long as I keep asking the questions the answer might come.

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NANCY- 9/23/2014 7:14AM

    This journey is challenging. Stuff always comes up. Lately I have been reading about acting out of love instead of fear. Exercising out of love, healthy eating because I love.
Hang in there hon!

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1CRAZYDOG 9/18/2014 8:16PM

    Sometimes when the trials are intense, you do drift apart for awhile.

Hope things lighten up for you AND your friend!

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Accepting the compliment

Saturday, September 13, 2014

At the orthodontist on Thursday a young women asked if I am the mother of my 3rd son. She went to school with him in elementary school. He is now 22. She said I look just the same. She followed it up with You look great. I am sad that I am not thinner. But my husband told me I just need to take the compliment. That is hard. I will be 48 next month. I don't look that old.

It is time to work harder to get to where I want to go.

I am frustrated with my A1c. I need to move it 2 points down. I am going to spend the next 2 months focusing on that not weight loss.

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GOODGETNBETR 9/14/2014 9:05PM

    It's amazing that when we focus on improving one thing other things in our lives also improve. I don't think that's a coincidence.

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TRAVELGRRL 9/13/2014 2:59PM

    Well, that was a lovely compliment! Getting healthy is the #1 goal, right?

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1CRAZYDOG 9/13/2014 10:06AM

    Take the compliment!

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NANCY- 9/13/2014 8:34AM

    What a beautiful compliment.
I have started to switch things up a bit working on self love, self care and making myself a priority in order to get my BG down also.
Here's to moving forward.

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