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an accomplishment

Sunday, March 30, 2008

I am so please to say that i finished the two walls in my living room with a faux sponge finish. It was great fun and I have the room put back except the paintings. I need to choose a way to change and show a variety of ideas that flow from the creative members of my family that have blessed me with gifts of thier work as well as a bit of my own expression.
I think adjusting to spread out a large job as I did over three monthes made an accomplishment like this easy to do......not to mention making myself feel so strong and capable. I am so tired of seeing my inability to achieve and plan to start finding more and more creative ways to accomplish things.
Spring is here and I will be helping out in the fields, attempting to put in a small veggie garden, work on my neglected flower beds, be a good mom and wife, keep up with my weekly bloodwork and test group responsibilities, my church fun and requirements will be for my spirit, my strength training will be for my body (my muscle tone is far from recovered), and cutting that dang salt out of my diet is my goals thru this period of spring planting.
I guess i should ask if i can garden yet this year before i try that. but i am thinking if i keep my shoes on (hard for me) and wear gloves. I bet i can do this. I miss my fresh food, my jars and freezer food over the winter this past two years...........I miss my chickens and eggs the most. But all in time maybe.........

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BONSTERBONNIE 7/22/2009 10:59AM

    Hey Girlfriend!

We MISS YOU! Get back in touch with us, okay?


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CATZGALORE 4/27/2008 11:10AM

    Am looking forward to doing my entry and hall in faux finish.. first I have to take off the cork and mirrors, LOL!!


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BAYCORNER 4/5/2008 9:09PM

    Spring is sneaking up on us. Won't that be nice. i can see weeds left over from last year that need pulled right now. TOO WET AND WINDY TODAY.

Keep up the good, steady work and keep feeling good.

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WANDAH3 3/30/2008 6:23PM

    Congratulations on getting your painting finished, I bet it looks great.
You are blessed to have a creative family and to have their works of love to display.
I would love to have a small veggie garden, there is just nothing like fresh veggies right out of the garden. But because I don't, I have to make do with the weekly farmer's market. I can hardly wait until they start up again.
Enjoy your day, you sound so much happier in your blogs.


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work in progress

Saturday, March 22, 2008

I have been wanting to perk up my living room for some time now. January I picked out paint. Thru February I took down pictures and spackled holes. March I started taping high low and around the trim. I set on two walls to start with. Maybe co-ordinating and brightening all in one half room step. And last night I put on the first coat of paint, and today the second. I am thinking base coat, and going to leave up the tape for a while and gaze and admire for a bit.....working up courage to try the ragging technique. But my three month work in progress has renewed my self esteme that i can still get things done around here....slowly but surely. :-D And up and down that ladder was a lot of work hoisting myself up and lowering myself down, but i did it. I feel amazingly strong today.

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MARLA7 3/24/2008 8:04PM

    Wow Barb! I'm proud of you! That's much more than I would take on!!! You go girl! ((((Hugs)))) Marla

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CATZGALORE 3/23/2008 1:38PM

    woo hoo!! go you!!

I did some ragging it's not hard and boy I sure loved it. I've moved since then, and I am thinking of doing some here...

Now to convince my husband that it would look good. We still have the cork-and-mirrors decor in our living room. Someone came by that hadn't been here for 20 years and commented that it was still the same!!

It is so good to feel strong and capable. You are!

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WANDAH3 3/22/2008 11:08PM

    What a positive feeling in your blog today. Your room is going to be beautiful after all the hard work you have put into preparing it. You deserve to sit back and admire your hard work.
Just think, if you can sit back and admire and enjoy your new room with all the hard work you put into it, how much more you are going to enjoy and admire the new you after all the hard work you have put into becoming the healthy new you.
Happy Easter and hugs,

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OK I get it!

Thursday, March 20, 2008

I lost it this week. I have had perfect kidney function since the transplant. A wee bit off and I go postal, helped on by deciding to quit taking my anti-depressants because i am getting off the drug that caused the depression. No i didn't do cold turkey, I cut it to half dose for a week 1st like the doc said. But I cried over nothing, spun in circles and didn't know where to start, and went kinda whiney on the hubby and teens. So sad, but it actually worked and they helped me...still are....so what am i doing wrong in raising kids who forget what I ask them to do, and a husband who does the same, they all say sorry sorry I am so sorry i forgot my chores....but good grief it is every week unless remind them I lose it. (old eggs, what should I expect LOL) My mother in law says hubby didn't train well as a kid and had focus problems in school, and I guess the teens had the same thing. Post it notes for them as well. Because I am no longer up to being the brain for everyone. We all need to adjust to the new me in this household, I am no longer the person with the photographic memory and oragized with every minute of my day to maximize my potential. In fact I kind of am happy about that. I like the new me better, I notice the little things, space out on the beauty around me, realize the house will get dirty again tomorrow, so why not hire someone to clean it. LOL Yah back on meds today, and called in the cleaning force to help me get caught up, I am so tired of being sick, when will this go away..........until then lets keep the priorities right, healthy eating, strength training so I can walk better. I like the ball exersizes, and started light weights on my upper body. The anti depressants have mega side effects also, but I realized one good one is the fact that the joint pain is gone, even with the half dose, so maybe i need it while I get stronger....
Oh yah and the fact i didn't hear back from the hospital means my test most likely came out fine this time around.

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CATZGALORE 3/21/2008 11:34AM

    Even though it seems negative to ""go postal"-- you are taking care of yourself!!! Pat yourself on the back! It is really positive to let your family know what you need.

How about a job chart? LOL-- whatever works. I do better myself when I have a list, or my computer tells me what to do... ADD Girl that I am.

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MEYCHEY 3/20/2008 9:01PM

    Hi, and I totally agree with Wanda - great job at finding the positives. Keep it up!

And it's not a bad thing to take your own brain back from the family for propriety use every now and again. Good practice for them to start a little orginal thinking!

Peace and happiness. Meychey

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WANDAH3 3/20/2008 5:13PM

    I read some positives in your blog today...way to go on finding the positives in your day!
You like the new you better, you are noticing the little things, seeing the beauty the surrounds you and your joint pain is not as evident. Keep on finding the positives in your day, blog or journal them. As you focus on the positives you will find that the negatives start to take a back seat until they are out of the vehicle completely.

Have a fantastic Easter weekend.

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spread to thin

Wednesday, March 19, 2008

OK I am not taking my health seriously enough. I am still not making myself top priority on my list of must do each day items. If I do not make myself top priority who the heck do I think is? huh? No one that is the answer, no one. Why is it so easy for me to shove my time for me aside because of other things I think are more important. I mean "think" are more important because in reality...they truly can't be can they? To take 30 minutes to exercise, a half hour to plan healthy meals and prepare the snacks to grab for the day in handy little zip bags to keep me from staring blankly into the open fridge of temptation. OK my fridge is not all that tempting these days, it needs a good cleaning out, organization, so i can have places for the snack attack, places for the planned meals, so quickly I can see what is needed if anything. I have put a wipe off board on the fridge to remind me to buy the needed items. It's so easy to forget otherwise. And paper and pen sit ready on the island to make a list for shopping when anyone goes out next. Maybe i should give up on the wipe off board which ends up being stuff for everyone else to scribbled all over it instead of my organization tool it was planned to be. I mean I got everyone else their own board for their bedroom doors....which they write or draw cutesy things on....kids....husbands what can I say.....the immature level runs high in our home and I have never had much control.
Test results showed my kidney function dropped this week. I am waiting on the second test I had done yesterday. This tension could be part of my problem of focus. I think I will go work some more on taping off my living room to paint it. I have been working on this for weeks now (months?) The chaos some how makes me feel like I am alive with a project underway...........and set wipe off board rules. LOL Mine with post it's of inspiration to be all i can be..............cool

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AMYCUE 3/20/2008 3:17PM

    Makre yourslef a priority I think that's something a lot fo us must face! It's hard but if you don;t no one else will!!! YOU ARE WORTH IT!!! Amy

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WANDAH3 3/19/2008 3:24PM

    Consider that everything you do boils down to choices. You are responsible for the choices you make....do you choose to exercise or don't you. Do you choose to make yourself a priority or don't you. You are important, your health is important. If you choose the don'ts on a constant basis, then you are choosing the consequences that go with those choices. You have been given a second chance at life with your kidney transplant, treasure that and honor it. I'm sorry if this sounds harsh, but you NEED to put yourself first and honor the donation that you received.

I say this because I care,

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BAYCORNER 3/19/2008 3:16PM

    Take care, kiddo. Breathe in, breathe out. Just breathe. Keeping you in my prayers.

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CATZGALORE 3/19/2008 3:03PM

    I identify with what you are saying... I have not made myself priority this week, and gained a few instead of losing a few... because I give in to the Fast Food temptation instead of having meals ahead when it is DH's turn to cook. Instead I get resentful that HE doesn't put my interests first, LOL... I can't expect that. So I have to take care of ME, nobody else is responsible.

Praying about your kidney function. Water, water, water...


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the possitives about a new life

Thursday, March 13, 2008

Now for something completely different, make this week a positive week. For every day of the week find something positive about you/your new lifestyle anything you like as long as it is a positive!

Friday danced and planned healthy meals for my entire family. Some times I have to cook seperate for me and the family, they get a craving stuck in thier head and i just don't feel creative enough to experiment on a alter ego super woman surprize food exchange. But today they raved about the taste of my experiment in health and complimented me a lot. That makes me very happy, to know I can not only adjust myself to a new better healthier life but my whole family as well.

Saturday I seem to be getting more energy, which makes me feel more alive. I am having more and more blue skies in my brain without the fog from the drugs. I have the energy to play with my teens now.

Sunday I went out in the sunshine today, did not hybernate. I am more social. Time change had me and the family starting slow, but walking into church late seemed ok because I don't worry so much about others like they are better than me anymore. We are all people. In the past i would have stayed home and sulked. Eating better and having my blood circulate better with movement makes me more social.

Monday laughed and visited friends and walked outside, noticed my hair is starting to get it's curl back. And tomorrow is an all day biggy at the flower and garden show. I need to start noticing my aperance closer I am thinking. try some style with clothing instead of the tent over what i don't like look. I am noticing i look better, laugh more, glow.

Tuesday fabulous day, got on the bus to the Flower and Garden show in Chicago at 6:45 and spent the day walking and laughing and playing. Found some great healthy eating ideas also. this one booth had fabulous seasoning blends, all natural, some salt and sugar free, that i just blend a bit in a small tub of light creem cheese and use as a veggie or pretzel dip, or I found a small spoon of it melts on veggies instead of butter and wow's the taste buds. they have a web sight. www.strawberrytreefarm.com who could forget that, duh strawberries don't grow on trees.

Wednesday: I am so happy today. I have blobs of paint all over my living room wall trying to find the right tone and color for the new me (more vobrant) And I found it! smiling all day it is a base coat and a ragging tecnique to achieve the perfect gold i want, warm and muted with a undertone of vibrant....for a woman of interrest. My room was a grey green for years. Who knew my tastes would change this month with a kidney transplant....and finding Sparky. This place keeps me grounded, on track, without it i would for sure lose my way on my goal to get and stay stronger.

Thursday prep day i stripped the wall and patched the holes and it's 9:30AM I feel so vibrant and alive i am electric. with the music playing and me as well. This is life! I am finally over being sick (knock knock) and am adjusting to my meds better and better. I am starting to have more energy.

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CATZGALORE 3/15/2008 8:52PM

    I love your post on positives. I need to focus more on the positives too. Thank you for sharing that.

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WANDAH3 3/13/2008 4:30PM

    What a great blog, congratulations on finding the positives in your daily life. When you spend the time reflecting on all the blessings you have in your day, you really amaze yourself on just how great life is!

Have another spectacular day.


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MARLA7 3/13/2008 3:41PM

    Yeah for Barb! You go girl! Sounds like you're having fun while living a good fun-fllled, happy, healthier life! Love ya, Marla Psst..... come paint for me! But bring your green colors...my favorite.

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