Sunday, March 30, 2008
I am so please to say that i finished the two walls in my living room with a faux sponge finish. It was great fun and I have the room put back except the paintings. I need to choose a way to change and show a variety of ideas that flow from the creative members of my family that have blessed me with gifts of thier work as well as a bit of my own expression.
I think adjusting to spread out a large job as I did over three monthes made an accomplishment like this easy to do......not to mention making myself feel so strong and capable. I am so tired of seeing my inability to achieve and plan to start finding more and more creative ways to accomplish things.
Spring is here and I will be helping out in the fields, attempting to put in a small veggie garden, work on my neglected flower beds, be a good mom and wife, keep up with my weekly bloodwork and test group responsibilities, my church fun and requirements will be for my spirit, my strength training will be for my body (my muscle tone is far from recovered), and cutting that dang salt out of my diet is my goals thru this period of spring planting.
I guess i should ask if i can garden yet this year before i try that. but i am thinking if i keep my shoes on (hard for me) and wear gloves. I bet i can do this. I miss my fresh food, my jars and freezer food over the winter this past two years...........I miss my chickens and eggs the most. But all in time maybe.........
Saturday, March 22, 2008
I have been wanting to perk up my living room for some time now. January I picked out paint. Thru February I took down pictures and spackled holes. March I started taping high low and around the trim. I set on two walls to start with. Maybe co-ordinating and brightening all in one half room step. And last night I put on the first coat of paint, and today the second. I am thinking base coat, and going to leave up the tape for a while and gaze and admire for a bit.....working up courage to try the ragging technique. But my three month work in progress has renewed my self esteme that i can still get things done around here....slowly but surely. :-D And up and down that ladder was a lot of work hoisting myself up and lowering myself down, but i did it. I feel amazingly strong today.
Thursday, March 20, 2008
I lost it this week. I have had perfect kidney function since the transplant. A wee bit off and I go postal, helped on by deciding to quit taking my anti-depressants because i am getting off the drug that caused the depression. No i didn't do cold turkey, I cut it to half dose for a week 1st like the doc said. But I cried over nothing, spun in circles and didn't know where to start, and went kinda whiney on the hubby and teens. So sad, but it actually worked and they helped me...still are....so what am i doing wrong in raising kids who forget what I ask them to do, and a husband who does the same, they all say sorry sorry I am so sorry i forgot my chores....but good grief it is every week unless remind them I lose it. (old eggs, what should I expect LOL) My mother in law says hubby didn't train well as a kid and had focus problems in school, and I guess the teens had the same thing. Post it notes for them as well. Because I am no longer up to being the brain for everyone. We all need to adjust to the new me in this household, I am no longer the person with the photographic memory and oragized with every minute of my day to maximize my potential. In fact I kind of am happy about that. I like the new me better, I notice the little things, space out on the beauty around me, realize the house will get dirty again tomorrow, so why not hire someone to clean it. LOL Yah back on meds today, and called in the cleaning force to help me get caught up, I am so tired of being sick, when will this go away..........until then lets keep the priorities right, healthy eating, strength training so I can walk better. I like the ball exersizes, and started light weights on my upper body. The anti depressants have mega side effects also, but I realized one good one is the fact that the joint pain is gone, even with the half dose, so maybe i need it while I get stronger....
Oh yah and the fact i didn't hear back from the hospital means my test most likely came out fine this time around.
Thursday, March 13, 2008
FINDING THE POSITIVES
Now for something completely different, make this week a positive week. For every day of the week find something positive about you/your new lifestyle – anything you like as long as it is a positive!
Friday danced and planned healthy meals for my entire family. Some times I have to cook seperate for me and the family, they get a craving stuck in thier head and i just don't feel creative enough to experiment on a alter ego super woman surprize food exchange. But today they raved about the taste of my experiment in health and complimented me a lot. That makes me very happy, to know I can not only adjust myself to a new better healthier life but my whole family as well.
Saturday I seem to be getting more energy, which makes me feel more alive. I am having more and more blue skies in my brain without the fog from the drugs. I have the energy to play with my teens now.
Sunday I went out in the sunshine today, did not hybernate. I am more social. Time change had me and the family starting slow, but walking into church late seemed ok because I don't worry so much about others like they are better than me anymore. We are all people. In the past i would have stayed home and sulked. Eating better and having my blood circulate better with movement makes me more social.
Monday laughed and visited friends and walked outside, noticed my hair is starting to get it's curl back. And tomorrow is an all day biggy at the flower and garden show. I need to start noticing my aperance closer I am thinking. try some style with clothing instead of the tent over what i don't like look. I am noticing i look better, laugh more, glow.
Tuesday fabulous day, got on the bus to the Flower and Garden show in Chicago at 6:45 and spent the day walking and laughing and playing. Found some great healthy eating ideas also. this one booth had fabulous seasoning blends, all natural, some salt and sugar free, that i just blend a bit in a small tub of light creem cheese and use as a veggie or pretzel dip, or I found a small spoon of it melts on veggies instead of butter and wow's the taste buds. they have a web sight. www.strawberrytreefarm.com who could forget that, duh strawberries don't grow on trees.
Wednesday: I am so happy today. I have blobs of paint all over my living room wall trying to find the right tone and color for the new me (more vobrant) And I found it! smiling all day it is a base coat and a ragging tecnique to achieve the perfect gold i want, warm and muted with a undertone of vibrant....for a woman of interrest. My room was a grey green for years. Who knew my tastes would change this month with a kidney transplant....and finding Sparky. This place keeps me grounded, on track, without it i would for sure lose my way on my goal to get and stay stronger.
Thursday prep day i stripped the wall and patched the holes and it's 9:30AM I feel so vibrant and alive i am electric. with the music playing and me as well. This is life! I am finally over being sick (knock knock) and am adjusting to my meds better and better. I am starting to have more energy.
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