Friday, January 06, 2012
I was always a skinny kid growing up, here I am at a Rainbow girls installation (2nd from the left) I never thought a whit about food. When we ate my mom was more of a one pot meal cooker. She didn't think much about eating either and her job as a photo journalist was always primary on her mind...certainly not homemaking. She didn't get married until her mid 30's and didn't have me until she was somewhere around 36ish...something absolutely unheard of in the 50's era.
So like daughter, like mother...I just never focused on food, sometimes I'd even forget to eat and then get this gnawing feeling inside and decide...oh...better eat something. We ate mostly plant based foods, my daddy was a farmer and loved his gardens even after we moved to the BIG city of Des Moines, Iowa. My mother didn't like meats much except turkey...so when she cooked it was usually what came out of the garden fresh. My favorites were wilted lettuce, and new potatoes and green beans. I just loved those dishes as a child.
After I had Josh around the age of 31 I started noticing that I had a little weight left over from pregnancy that was stubborn to drop. I think I really started adding weight in my late 40's to early 50's. I always had a stubborn 10 pounds that I was fighting with that eventually turned into 20, then 30, then 40, and up to 60. So distressing this extra weight is. It harnesses me and reminds me that I really CAN'T do anything by just wishing it away.
So...I'm ready to admit this and get busy shedding it to be the best I can be in the current moment.
I know HOW to lose weight...I just need to LEARN how to consistently practice the healthy habits that keep it off.
That's calories in versus calories out. I have never been a big exerciser for the sake of exercising but I do know that if you get yourself to do it you are rewarded with happy little endorphines that make you feel great...so it's really worth the effort right?
I have NO excuse not to use my treadmill, and I get plenty of exercise vaulting up and down the huge expanse of stairs at our consignment gallery.
You can't tell how really tall they are from this shot...but believe me they are UP there! I run up and down them many times a day with customer questions. This counts as a work out right?
Another thing I need to work on is eating smaller meals more frequently...this is always a challenge because it demands prep time and planning...both things that my crazy topsy turvy lifestyle challenge me to do.
Then...I need to go within and ask me what is REALLY eating me that I am turning to food to supply when I should be getting to the root of the frustration without food props. Hummmm this is where meditation will come in handy...another challenge I need to learn to sit still for and explore.
I know we all have our own individual journeys to explore in what makes us tick and together I know that supporting each other is nurturing and filling and we can do it WITHOUT food...for sure...for sure!