Thursday, August 20, 2009
Okay here we are in Iowa (my DH's and my home state) on day three.
It's only day three (but still early) and I have been BAD already..I mean I COULD have been worse..but I'm still mad at myself after losing the 13 lbs. and working so hard at it...then choosing what I KNOW is a wrong food...what triggers us to be bad, or at least self defeating ..why do we do it when the going gets tough? It's almost as if since I'm not in Florida my familiar place I'm not so accountable...anything can go..if I'm off the grid so to speak!
Is it because out of all the vacations in the world to choose from (let's say a grand total of 25) a return to my home state would rank about 24 on the list?
That's not fair you say (especially you Iowans say) Iowa is a beautiful place..heck it's been voted best place to live a few times in "Best Places to Live"..why are you so down on it?
I don't know. I like Iowa as a state..but it's a loaded place for me. I mean loaded with a lotta negativity. I should be past that by this point..geez oh pete..my hubby and I have been gone for thirty years out of our thirty one year marriage. (musing..maybe that's WHY our marriage has survived all those years) Iowa is full of drama for me. I HATE drama. I'm SO DONE with that period of my life!
I'm trying to filter this..while I'm still being bad about my food choices...I'm trying to filter this.
I've already succumbed to a guinea grinder and a tenderloin and we haven't even made it to the Iowa State Fair yet..you know that fairs gonna be trouble! Pork Chop on a stick..that's a given, another guinea grinder, wrap it up! The Bud beer tent where you are bound to run into someone you know (if you can still recognize them..they have a way of looking so darn old at this point)...DH and I..we NEVER age you know!
And..here's the kicker, we haven't even ENTERED the stressful part of the vacation yet..the inlaw phase..as I like to call it. Now that is DRAMA..we could easily have a t.v. sitcom and make so much money!
Okay now that I have flogged myself soundly I can give myself a few pats on the back! With that guinea grinder I had a choice of fries, onion rings, potatoe salad or clear soup! I WANTED (badly) the fries or the onion rings...hey I had already blown my calories for the day so why not just cave to the whole enchillata..but I DIDN'T.. I made at least one good choice I ordered the clear soup! Same with the tenderloin...I ordered the cottage cheese as a side.. I think that was the best choice..I HOPE that was the best choice.
And..hear this I declined, wouldn't even LOOK at the dessert menu no since of looking the beast right IN THE FACE! Big smirk!
So for the remainder of the vacation I'm putting myself on a plan...a plan to be accountable..to myself..and most importantly my SPARK commitment to better health!
PLAN I CAN LIVE WITH AND STILL HAVE VACATION SUCCESS:
Tell myself sternly...ROBERTA (that's my I mean business.. given name)..you CAN have it ALL
you just can't have it ALL at once!!!
Every day (after you have done your exercise) walking, or treadmill,or stair climbs, or free weights you can reward yourself with one Iowa good, but NOT good for you item.
My best game plan for this is to TASTE everything but eat NOTHING in it's entirety..a bite of my DH sausage sandwich, a nibble of my friends pizza slice, a handful of the toasted warm almonds.
Now for the pork chop on the stick..that's a no brainer...I'm gonna have the whole darn thing! I'll walk further and longer, I'll take more steps touring the buildings at the fair, I'll have a glass of merlot, then a glass of fizzy water with a lime! I'll dance more (groan from DH) at the Bud tent, I'll drink the new 66 calorie beer..or maybe even the 55 calorie beer. But I will live my life and enjoy this vacation!
This is the plan..to see if the PLAN ACTUALLY works..is a whole new subject..stay tuned!
Oh...and most importantly I will tell myself every time I look longingly at a big fat calorie diseaster...YOU Roberta..are the ONE in CONTROL...do you want to look like a chub cake for the rest of your (shortened) life..or do you want to OBTAIN your goals...I think I'll stick a mirror in my purse and look myself in the eye...when I ask myself this question...thenI'll add a dab of lipstick and smile at myself....just for affect!
Saturday, August 15, 2009
I'm sitting here this glorious Saturday morning enjoying my delicious cup of java contemplating my busy week end. I've got much to do before the vacation but it will wait for a few more minutes while I reflect.
Each morning of late, I love to jump out of bed, wash my face, brush my teeth and pad into the den in my jammies. There I fire up my trusty Mac and the first thing I do is check my e-mail..invariably there is a long list of Sparkie updates and the ones that give me the biggest little spurt of happiness are those that say "A new comment on your Spark page" or...a New Spark goodie from...or a new comment on your photo...or ____ has added you as a friend.....yippeee..I click and point away!
After that I buzz over to my Spark Teams and the Spark pages of all of my friends and I thank them for the time and care they took out of their busy lives to check in on me. I realize how lucky I am and it starts my whole day with a warm rosy glow...the power of friendship..there just isn't ANYTHING like it! After my friends have been tended to I continue to read the daily reflection, some motivational blogs, and I enjoy the Spark People blogs on nutrition and healthy stuff. Really this is the best of virtual world..and it's all free...amazing!!
I reflect on the power of friendship -- the honor of having a friend. I read in a recent magazine an old proverb that says "One friend in a lifetime is much, two are many, and three hardly possible." I will stand on the rooftop to say I disagree.
I've met sooo many wonderful friends within the short sixty days that I've been on Spark it is absolutely mind boggling.
I am a pretty social person, I attend a lot of meetings, book clubs, teach jewelry classes, I have an active group of Friday night friends, I volunteer, I interact at the art shows I display in...well you get the picture..and believe me within all of those functions, amongst all of those many many people...I haven't connected at the level that I do here on Spark People.
Maybe it's because when we are in Spark world we can't interrupt each other, talk over each other, yak when we should be listening, fiddle with our Blackberry, text, chat, internet surf..... or other rude social no-no's....we are pretty much limited to doing just what we are doing and maybe because of that concentration...we digest more of what is being said to us.
Or maybe the grand connection is because we are like minded (especially teams) or..maybe, just maybe, it's because we might be more sensitive folks in general than the average population. I don't know for sure what the formula is but I DO know for sure... I LIKE IT!
Here on Spark People I've met women that I have great admiration for, each one of them teaches me something different, but it's always something I need to learn. I love each one of them (can you fall in virtual love in 60 days?) without hesitation and with great appreciation.
It does appear to me that they are my Earth Angels...who have materialized for all of the right reasons at just the right time.
To me, my friends have become like family, we share table top discussions, we share our goals, our dreams, our fears. We pick each other up if we stumble, we support and encourage, and take each other to task- if we have to...for the sake of goals...all in the spirit of love and friendship on the pathway to health..I'm talking physically and mentally!
I do not believe I have brushed up against these friends by chance, I believe my angels have put them in touch with me for all the right reasons, it is sometimes just to simple to explain..
it is the face of God within all of us ~~ it is LOVE IN ACTION! Thank you dear angels, I love the angelic like love that you share with me!
Thursday, July 23, 2009
"Celebrate we will, because life is short, and sweet for certain"
Dave Matthews Band
I love this!
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