Monday, March 30, 2009
EXCITED? (who, me?) Maybe.
SURPRISED? (Who, Me??) Yes & No.
AMAZED (WHO, ME???) FRAK, YES!!!! (so long, Battlestar G!)
I am excited that I finally lost those last 2 lbs to hit 80, but I fear getting too cock-a-whoop over this & jeopardizing it ALL. (not logical, I know, but feelings often aren't....)
One part of me is surprised that I've managed to stick with my program this long and make it to this point ... another part of me isn't because 80 comes after 78, doesn't it...? (logical, I know, but pedantic....)
But--I have to admit that I am a little amazed at my perseverance in this quest for better health and weight loss.
I am amazed that this past week while attending a luncheon meeting, I looked at a plate of yummy-smelling brownies and ... wasn't interested. (the fruit salad and provolone was more appealling!) This odd (for chocaholic me) behavior didn't strike me as out of the ordinary until later. I didn't have to talk myself out of it: I JUST WASN'T INTERESTED!!!
I am amazed that my "goal" pants fit me well enough on Saturday that I wore them out o f the house!!! [new goal pants, here I come!]
I am amazed that the woman who looks back at me from the mirror has collar bones, and MUCH smaller saddlebags, and has to take her Berkies to the shoe place to add holes for the straps because they are too big.
I am amazed that I find myself standing to do things that I used to always do sitting--and NOT THINKING ABOUT IT. I move more just for the sheer joy of moving, because feet, knees, & hips no longer "talk" to me. I can climb steps like a normal human, and have re-learned how to step off a curb as anyone who has not had knee problems does every day.
I am amazed that men look at me. They look me in the eye (& a little lower....) and smile! And I have even been flirted with in the past month!!! (I've been a fat widow for more than 11 years--this is a VERY new experience!) [Yes, I like it .... duh...!]
I started trying to lose weight in May 2008, but didn't join SP until July. I find it completely WONDERFUL/MINDBOGGLING/STUPEFYING/(pick another superlative adjective of your choice) that in 20 more pounds, I will have lost 100 lbs!!
I know that the SparkPeople site is one of the reasons I am at this AMAZING point in my journey. Without the food diary, the activity tracker, the articles, the weight ticker, the message board, and the other site info this struggle would've been a whole lot harder.
MOST important of all, however, are the caring, supportive PEOPLE (also known as FRIENDS) who have encouraged me when I was down and yelled at me when I was going off the rails. YOU KNOW WHO YOU ARE!
Being able to whine or crow or cheer at and to people who GET IT has been a blessing. I always try and return the favor, because I know how much it has helped me.
Did I mention that I've lost 80 lbs???
Wednesday, March 04, 2009
Friends, Sparkers, Countrypeople, lend me your ears: YEEEEE-HAAAAA!
At the end of January, I gave away almost all of my 3X & 4X clothes to a needy cousin.
Since then I've been wearing 1 pair of thrift store pair of pants w/ 4 tops (2 short sleeves, 2 long-sleeves) and the "best" of my leftover 3X pants. I still have 3 "interview" dressy outfits that look OK even though they are too large.
Today I tried on a pair of thrift store pants which were too small when I got them, but I loved them, so I kept them as "goal" pants. Today ... THEY FIT!!!
They are size 18W!!
So, I dragged my mother out to an outlet store here & increased my wardrobe by 3 pairs of 18W pants & 3 XL tops!!
I AM DOWN 3 SIZES!!!!!
When I started this journey, I cut out a Size Chart from a clothing catalog and have been crossing out sizes as I changed measurements. This has been very helpful--even when I've been between sizes--to know what aisle to wander around in when looking for clothes.
When I was in 3X & 4X clothes shopping was depressing & I got most of my clothes on-line, so I wouldn't have to face the dressing room mirror.
Today was NOT depressing! I'm a LONG way from becoming a Fashionista, but it was exciting to say, "No, Mom, a 1X is too large...."
Can you believe it?? TOO LARGE!!!!!
This is a moment I hope to repeat, and repeat, and repeat until I am at my goal weight--then I'm going to see if underneath all this bravado, an old Fashionista lurks.
I hope you have this experience really soon! It's almost better than chocolate ... and I can experience it every time I put on my new outfits!
(& what A BLAST when THEY are too big...!)
Saturday, December 13, 2008
OK, this is a teensy-weensie downside ... and it made me laugh out loud rather than upset or depress me ... I hope you have one of these moments really, really soon!
I have been out of work since May, and working hard at finding another job. Yesterday I had an interview opportunity with a well-known temp agency. Of course, when one goes on one of these, one wants to look her best, right?
I cannot afford to buy clothes right now and, with a very few exceptions, my wardrobe is TOO BIG (such a nice phrase!). I have one top/skirt that for most of the time I've had it was too small--it now fits a treat!
So, I wore this outfit which needed hose--I HATE pantyhose!--so I dug out my knee-highs to wear with it. These are the queen-size black hose that used to cut into my calves and I was always grateful to take off at the end of the day.
I got to the building, parked and walked in. I decided to visit the ladies before the interview. What do I discover?
The knee-highs are floating around my ankles!
I pull them up thinking the elastic has gone bad and go on to do the interview and skill testing, pausing every so often to pull up the sagging hose.
2 hours later I finish with the last interview and start out the door, feeling the sagging again and hoping none of the people I met during the process noticed.
As I walked out of the building back to my car it suddenly hit me: the stupid hose are falling down because ...
I AM NO LONGER QUEEN-SIZED!!!!!!
I laughed all the way through the parking lot to my car and half-way home.
It made my day to know--with hard (sagging) evidence--that I am making visible progress on my healthy journey.
I believe this "downside" of losing weight will prove to be another reminder for me when I am having a bad day.
I am thankful.
Friday, November 28, 2008
Well, it's the day after Eating Too Much Day, and it took me almost an hour to enter my food from the Great Day!
The Not-At-All-Surprising-Thing is I ate too much.
The Very-Surprising-Thing is I didn't do it at the Thanksgiving table.
I served myself appropriate serving sizes for all that I ate at dinner and I only went back for ONE additional serving of cornbread dressing. (This is a traditional Thanksgiving/ Christmas side [side??? I DON"T THINK SO! It's the MAIN thing I look forward to every doggone year!] dish for our family.)
2 hours later is when the spit hit the fan ... well, OK, not that moist ... What actually happened is I snick-snacked my way through some of the other things in the frig I haven't had much of in the past 6 months: Cheddar cheese (only 1 oz!), Italian bread(2 slices), peanut butter (2T w/celery sticks), 2 slices of Swiss cheese (yum!), 3 cups of hot sweet tea with 6T evaporated moo (2% evap moo & I usually only have 1 cup a day), 2 servings (1C) of Cherry Chocolate Delight (only 75 calories), and 2 oz of turkey!
I ate 1957 calories for Thanksgiving--and I am giving thanks that I only went over my 1200-1500 calorie range, by 457! THAT'S NOT TOO DAMNED BAD, IS IT???
And today? Today, I got up and went right back to my usual eating habits--no fuss, no muss!
And NOT ONE GUILT TRIP MOMENT!!!!!!!!!!
You know, this SparkLife must be working!!!
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