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Monday, March 30, 2009

EXCITED? (who, me?) Maybe.
SURPRISED? (Who, Me??) Yes & No.
AMAZED (WHO, ME???) FRAK, YES!!!! (so long, Battlestar G!)

I am excited that I finally lost those last 2 lbs to hit 80, but I fear getting too cock-a-whoop over this & jeopardizing it ALL. (not logical, I know, but feelings often aren't....)

One part of me is surprised that I've managed to stick with my program this long and make it to this point ... another part of me isn't because 80 comes after 78, doesn't it...? (logical, I know, but pedantic....)

But--I have to admit that I am a little amazed at my perseverance in this quest for better health and weight loss.

I am amazed that this past week while attending a luncheon meeting, I looked at a plate of yummy-smelling brownies and ... wasn't interested. (the fruit salad and provolone was more appealling!) This odd (for chocaholic me) behavior didn't strike me as out of the ordinary until later. I didn't have to talk myself out of it: I JUST WASN'T INTERESTED!!!

I am amazed that my "goal" pants fit me well enough on Saturday that I wore them out o f the house!!! [new goal pants, here I come!]

I am amazed that the woman who looks back at me from the mirror has collar bones, and MUCH smaller saddlebags, and has to take her Berkies to the shoe place to add holes for the straps because they are too big.

I am amazed that I find myself standing to do things that I used to always do sitting--and NOT THINKING ABOUT IT. I move more just for the sheer joy of moving, because feet, knees, & hips no longer "talk" to me. I can climb steps like a normal human, and have re-learned how to step off a curb as anyone who has not had knee problems does every day.

I am amazed that men look at me. They look me in the eye (& a little lower....) and smile! And I have even been flirted with in the past month!!! (I've been a fat widow for more than 11 years--this is a VERY new experience!) [Yes, I like it .... duh...!]

I started trying to lose weight in May 2008, but didn't join SP until July. I find it completely WONDERFUL/MINDBOGGLING/STUPEFYING/(pick another superlative adjective of your choice) that in 20 more pounds, I will have lost 100 lbs!!

I know that the SparkPeople site is one of the reasons I am at this AMAZING point in my journey. Without the food diary, the activity tracker, the articles, the weight ticker, the message board, and the other site info this struggle would've been a whole lot harder.

MOST important of all, however, are the caring, supportive PEOPLE (also known as FRIENDS) who have encouraged me when I was down and yelled at me when I was going off the rails. YOU KNOW WHO YOU ARE! emoticon

Being able to whine or crow or cheer at and to people who GET IT has been a blessing. I always try and return the favor, because I know how much it has helped me.

Did I mention that I've lost 80 lbs??? emoticon

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WISEWIFE 4/10/2009 11:07AM

    Good for you!
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You are awesome!!!!! You are certainly an inspiration to all (me included). I'm so happy for you. You deserve to be proud of yourself. When I think of all the self-discipline and determination you mustered, it's mind-boggling.


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TIME4ME2BELIEVE 3/30/2009 10:57AM

    Fabulous! emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon Outstanding!

I was laughing at your reference to goal pants, I do that too. Only problem is the last two times I bought goal pants, I brought them home, and they already fit! LOL! OK, not really a problem!

On your reference to staying on track, and continuing your progress, it's a basic law of physics - an object in motion tends to stay in motion (unless acted upon by an outside force) so congratulations on your continued motion and resisting those pesky outside forces!

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DARWINISTA 3/30/2009 10:10AM

    Great job! And I second the note on the brownies and recognizing when you *don't* want one!

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DWEXCEL 3/30/2009 9:17AM

    You are AMAZING! That is so wonderful and so awesome; I can't even begin to say. I just realized from reading your blog here that we both joined SP in July 2008. I am going to be here until the middle of May, and I can't wait to see where you'll be at before I leave. Keep it up! emoticon Donna

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BOED75R 3/30/2009 8:08AM

  How wonderful for you! It's these moments in the journey that keep us going. Thank you for sharing. And keep up the good work! emoticon

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AEMILIA 3/30/2009 6:32AM

    Congradulations, SF fan formerly known as TAMPALARK!

And I'm glad to hear about the brownies - not because brownies are bad, but because we so often end up eating things because we like them in general, not because we want them that moment. Realizing you don't really want a particular food at a particular time is a big deal.


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IAMTHIN51 3/30/2009 2:27AM

    Congratuations! That is a great milestone! I would love to see a picture. You mentioned a ticker. How do I add one to my blogs??

I have lost 20 and about 5 inches. Only 70 more to go! emoticon

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Wednesday, March 04, 2009

Friends, Sparkers, Countrypeople, lend me your ears: YEEEEE-HAAAAA!

At the end of January, I gave away almost all of my 3X & 4X clothes to a needy cousin.

Since then I've been wearing 1 pair of thrift store pair of pants w/ 4 tops (2 short sleeves, 2 long-sleeves) and the "best" of my leftover 3X pants. I still have 3 "interview" dressy outfits that look OK even though they are too large.

Today I tried on a pair of thrift store pants which were too small when I got them, but I loved them, so I kept them as "goal" pants. Today ... THEY FIT!!!
They are size 18W!!

So, I dragged my mother out to an outlet store here & increased my wardrobe by 3 pairs of 18W pants & 3 XL tops!!


When I started this journey, I cut out a Size Chart from a clothing catalog and have been crossing out sizes as I changed measurements. This has been very helpful--even when I've been between sizes--to know what aisle to wander around in when looking for clothes.

When I was in 3X & 4X clothes shopping was depressing & I got most of my clothes on-line, so I wouldn't have to face the dressing room mirror.

Today was NOT depressing! I'm a LONG way from becoming a Fashionista, but it was exciting to say, "No, Mom, a 1X is too large...."

Can you believe it?? TOO LARGE!!!!! emoticon

This is a moment I hope to repeat, and repeat, and repeat until I am at my goal weight--then I'm going to see if underneath all this bravado, an old Fashionista lurks.

I hope you have this experience really soon! It's almost better than chocolate ... and I can experience it every time I put on my new outfits!

(& what A BLAST when THEY are too big...!)

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SRILUNA 3/10/2009 4:35PM

    I totally hear you sister! I've been changing sizes the past few months and am amazed. I keep saying -- I'm Shrinking! And I am! The only drag is spending the money for new clothes that don't fit in two to three months time. So value village is definitely my favourite place to shop right now :) And it feels like a reward to have clothes that fit this new-to-me body, so much so that I don't want the old baggy jeans or the big baggy top. I cleared out my closet and dresser to make room for less clothing, but clothing that fits (for now). Way to go Lark! emoticon emoticon

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MORGAN!! 3/6/2009 2:00AM

    Yay for shopping! And I love the size chart idea :) Clothes are such a great measurement tool, congrats!

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AEMILIA 3/5/2009 11:55AM

    Congratulations! I'm glad to hear your hard work is showing results!

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Tuesday, February 24, 2009

I've been lamenting my lack of progress--stuck at 73 lbs lost for almost 3 weeks.

This morning I MADE myself get on the scale and Lo & Behold! 3 pounds have melted away! (well ... since I weigh-in first thing in the a.m. after I get rid of the "night accumulated water", I don't supposed "melted" is the most accurate term, but since this is a family site I will forgo the use of "pissed away".... emoticon OOPS! )

This puts me only 5 lbs away from my 3rd Cycle goal of 219 lbs, AND I'm now only (only!) 25 lbs away from being under 200!!! (haven't been THERE since 1978!!)

BUT... I find blogging a hard habit to maintain--almost as hard as getting off my gluetous maximus and walking every day. It somehow seems a selfish indulgence.

This may be due to me only feeling the urge to tappity-yak when I've either dropped some poundage (yeah me) or have eaten too danged much (poor me).

Often I have found on this journey to excellent health (having achieved "better" health after dropping 50 lbs) that a stumbling block in my progress is often due to my not having the proper perspective on a problem.


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AEMILIA 2/25/2009 6:57AM

    Congratulations! I'm also shocked that SP lets you say that - I've gotten the warning to remove profanity from my posts when there wasn't any of any kind, so I just assumed the filter catches anything that might upset someone somewhere.

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TIME4ME2BELIEVE 2/24/2009 11:00PM

    Well, sometimes it is just a pity fest for one, though I can usually count on a friend or two to sympathize and then kick me out of my funk. I use it a little as a running reminder of my goals, where I've been, where I'm going. I too find it difficult to get in a regular habit. Still working on that myself. Think how good it will feel to look back on this blog in 6 months and realize what you were working so hard for has happened, you have lost and are below 200, and by a good amount even! Use it as a yardstick to measure goals and progress. Use it because it is "me time" and you deserve it.

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GAMBLINGQUEEN 2/24/2009 9:25PM

    emoticon You are doing so well. Keep up the good work!

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ERINALEXIS20 2/24/2009 9:22PM

    First of all, CONGRATULATIONS! WOW!!! You are a true inspiration! emoticon

Blogging does help me. Of course, words are my thing (numbers? not so much). But I guess it helps me reflect on my journey and everything good, bad and ugly about weight loss.

And I enjoy reading blogs like yours! Keep it up! emoticon

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One Downside of Losing Weight

Saturday, December 13, 2008

OK, this is a teensy-weensie downside ... and it made me laugh out loud rather than upset or depress me ... I hope you have one of these moments really, really soon!

I have been out of work since May, and working hard at finding another job. Yesterday I had an interview opportunity with a well-known temp agency. Of course, when one goes on one of these, one wants to look her best, right?

I cannot afford to buy clothes right now and, with a very few exceptions, my wardrobe is TOO BIG (such a nice phrase!). I have one top/skirt that for most of the time I've had it was too small--it now fits a treat!

So, I wore this outfit which needed hose--I HATE pantyhose!--so I dug out my knee-highs to wear with it. These are the queen-size black hose that used to cut into my calves and I was always grateful to take off at the end of the day.

I got to the building, parked and walked in. I decided to visit the ladies before the interview. What do I discover?

The knee-highs are floating around my ankles!

I pull them up thinking the elastic has gone bad and go on to do the interview and skill testing, pausing every so often to pull up the sagging hose.

2 hours later I finish with the last interview and start out the door, feeling the sagging again and hoping none of the people I met during the process noticed.

As I walked out of the building back to my car it suddenly hit me: the stupid hose are falling down because ...




I laughed all the way through the parking lot to my car and half-way home.

It made my day to know--with hard (sagging) evidence--that I am making visible progress on my healthy journey.

I believe this "downside" of losing weight will prove to be another reminder for me when I am having a bad day.

I am thankful.

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TIME4ME2BELIEVE 2/18/2009 1:12AM

    WooHoo! I had to buy hose to wear for Valentines, and never before had to look, I just grabbed queen! I must have looked a riot standing in the aisle trying to figure out what me size was! Feels great! I'm glad you got that moment to savor.

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JOJOPI 12/30/2008 10:44AM

    I LOVE, LOVE, LOVE this story. I laughed out loud too. I think we are all better able to stay on track when we stop and appreciate these little moments when our hard work shows. emoticon
I hope everything went well with the interview/tests and that you have steady work soon.

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MS.ELENI 12/22/2008 10:13AM

    This is a great story.I enjoyed hearing about the sagging hose.Good for you. emoticon

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RENAELUCE 12/14/2008 9:27AM

    Congratulations! I'm glad such a small thing can really make ya feel so happy!...well, it's really a big thing! Way to go!

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RSKLCH 12/13/2008 10:28PM

    Great blog....What a sweet feeling!!!!!! I too am having the everything is too big problem...can't wait till the after Christmas sales so I can get some stuff that fits.
Way to go girl!!!!!! emoticon

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457 ... NOT BAD ... in an over-indulged way....

Friday, November 28, 2008

Well, it's the day after Eating Too Much Day, and it took me almost an hour to enter my food from the Great Day!

The Not-At-All-Surprising-Thing is I ate too much. emoticon

The Very-Surprising-Thing is I didn't do it at the Thanksgiving table. emoticon

I served myself appropriate serving sizes for all that I ate at dinner and I only went back for ONE additional serving of cornbread dressing. (This is a traditional Thanksgiving/ Christmas side [side??? I DON"T THINK SO! It's the MAIN thing I look forward to every doggone year!] dish for our family.)

2 hours later is when the spit hit the fan ... well, OK, not that moist ... What actually happened is I snick-snacked my way through some of the other things in the frig I haven't had much of in the past 6 months: Cheddar cheese (only 1 oz!), Italian bread(2 slices), peanut butter (2T w/celery sticks), 2 slices of Swiss cheese (yum!), 3 cups of hot sweet tea with 6T evaporated moo (2% evap moo & I usually only have 1 cup a day), 2 servings (1C) of Cherry Chocolate Delight (only 75 calories), and 2 oz of turkey!

I ate 1957 calories for Thanksgiving--and I am giving thanks that I only went over my 1200-1500 calorie range, by 457! THAT'S NOT TOO DAMNED BAD, IS IT???

And today? Today, I got up and went right back to my usual eating habits--no fuss, no muss!

And NOT ONE GUILT TRIP MOMENT!!!!!!!!!! emoticon

You know, this SparkLife must be working!!!


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PEPCEA 11/29/2008 2:22PM

    Good for you! I am a firm believer in feasting for the holidays because I believe that is appropriate to do on those days. I don't even flinch at all on Thanksgiving, Christmas or my birthday. I eat whatever I want and never feel one moment's guilt. I don't weigh myself after either because I know whatever I gained is only temporary since, like you, the next day I'm right back on track. No guilt...no reason for it. Enjoy those feast days in your life and continue on toward your goal! Continued success to you!

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ELLE299 11/29/2008 1:30PM

    GREAT attitude and NOT a bad result for your first holiday hurdle!!! I am truly impressed, not only by how well you did, but the way in which you handled, and are handling the day. You have nothing to "Guilt Trip" over; so good for you for not going there!!! Keep up the great work and share that attitude with others! Congratulations on a job well done; you are truly a SPARKER now. Hugs, Elle

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