Saturday, October 09, 2010
I was surprised when a friend asked how I was the other day. She asked as though she hadn't seen me in a few weeks. I replied with the basic, "Fine," and started to move on to other subjects.
She stopped me and asked, "How are you?" Again with the underlying voice saying, "I haven't seen or heard from you in weeks."
"Wait!" I said. "You sound as though we haven't spoken in weeks. We see each other everyday, if only to wave, but we speak at least every other day. Why the sudden probing question."
"You must think I'm losing my mind. But I'm not. Actually, I sat down and figured out that we do see each other and wave every day, but we haven't spoken to each other in three weeks. I live across the street from you and I will not disturb your work. I know you take breaks, I just don't know when, so you come knocking at my house because I have all day, you only have minutes at special times."
"Three weeks, we haven't talked in three weeks? Time flies. Okay, I understand your wanting me to come to you instead of you coming to my house. I thought it was because my house is never as clean as yours."
"No, no. You're house is always clean. I don't know how you do all that you do. But what got me started on figuring out when we last talked was the fact that my cousin and I had always talked once a week for years. She missed calling me. One week she would call, the next I would call. I had to mark it on my calendar so I wouldn't forget who was calling. Anyway, she missed calling me so the next week, I called her, as scheduled. I didn't get an answer and figured she was off doing something and forgot.
"She missed calling me the next week, now I'm getting angry. I started calling everyone I knew that knew her and no one had any ideas. I finally got in the car and drove the 3 hours to her house. She was on the floor. She had been there for a long time. I couldn't even enter the house because the smell was so awful. But I could see her half way down the hallway.
"I feel so terrible because I didn't really care enough to go there the first time she missed calling me, nor the second time and the only reason I went was because I was mad at her for not remembering, not because I thought she might be ill.
"So I wondered how many other people were in the same boat. I wanted to actually care about my family and friends. So I made the point of asking how you are and really wanting to know. I guess "Fine" isn't enough. I don't think you've had any special love lately, so I'm giving it. Now, How are you?"
"I'm awesome!" I replied with a hug.
How many times have I been guilty of the "How are you?" with an underlying idea of "Just Fine, is good enough, please don't burden me with your woes. I don't want the surgical procedure laid out on my table, or the anger at some relative." But how often do I need to talk about that kind of stuff?
I think we are reminded of certain concepts and issues when we need it most. So today I am starting to remember all my friends and family. How often do I call them, Do I really care about them. Am I really taking an interest in them or are they feeling the usual "fine" from me? Do I give Special Love?
So, Friend, How are you?
Tuesday, September 28, 2010
Somewhere back about 3 years ago, I started walking. Actually, my husband started walking and I felt bad because he went alone at 6:00am in the dark while I sat around doing nothing so the second day I went with him. It was fun! and I didn't say that! Well, that was my feeling back then. Walk was a four letter word, so was jogg, runn, and anything else that looked, smelled, or sounded like hard work.
Today, I consider myself an exercise monster that I created, with the help of a very nice physical therapist. So loaded with exercises for three weeks every day, three times a week at the PT office, I had become an exercise nut! I couldn't get enough of it. I went from sitting in a wheel chair and using a crutch to doing it on my own with no problems.
However, awhile back, I fell and injured my left side and right elbow. It was a lot worse than I thought and I pushed my way past it for six months. During that six months, I could barely walk, so walking was out and eventually, SP was out of my life. My life, as far as diet and exercise was a train wreck. And my life was depending on keeping the train going.
Then a few months ago, I came back to SP basically to use the calorie counter and I got "sucked" in to this wonderful place all over again.
I am stuck, have been stuck at my current weight for 2, maybe 2.5 years. I lost 30 pounds at the beginning then fell and even though I am going at it again, stronger than before, I'm still at this one spot!
I will not give up! I know I can get past this spot that seems to be hanging onto me somehow and I will get past it. I'm just frustrated over it!
So now I have gone back to a little thing I made back when I was losing weight. My schedule! I actually had to sit down one day and figure out the best time for me to eat and while I was at it, I figured out what to eat at each meal and snack. Going a little further, I made sure I had the stuff in the refrigerator or on the shelf and it was ready to grab-and-go.
It was working! But I got a little cocky and decided I knew what to do and I stopped using it and disaster struck! A combo of injury physically and mentally and I was on the sidelines. I gain 11 of those 30 pounds back and I am quite disgusted with myself.
But I'm shaking it off! Not only the attitude, but the weight! It starts today!
No more excuses for not going for a walk. I've gone for a walk in the rain, in the heat, in the cold, in the wind, I can do it again! Even if I only walk in circles or in place, it's better than not doing it at all.
Yesterday was a bad day for me, it finished very well. I just have to get back on track and with a lot of work, I've managed to get myself back on one of two rails. So with another long-hard shove, I think I can get my life back on the track and moving forward again.
Now I've got my eyes on what's in front and I've got my plan on how to get there. I've got fuel, my wheels are shinny and round and everything looks good to go so here I go! WooWoo! into the night!
Saturday, September 25, 2010
Everytime I write a blog I feel like it has to be a novel. I guess I like writing. But here's a short one!
I wish every SP member grand success in reaching all their goals, needs, and wants, health and happiness. Keep doing what your doing, and keep reaching out to your SP friends because we are all going down the same path together.
Wednesday, September 22, 2010
Recently, I was looking for the date I started SP. I hunted for a clue everywhere, I thought, and finally, I figured it out by going backwards on some report. I wasn't positive I had the actual date, but I couldn't find anything prior to the date I was aiming at. Well, today, I found the start date on my SparkPage! Fortunately, it matched the date I found on that report I waded through.
I felt a little stupid, but only for a second. You only know what you know! If I would have looked at my SparkPage first, I probably wouldn't have had to do the hunt and search routine, but in the process, I discovered a few places I had rarely been in SparkPeople and I also 'discovered' a place I don't remember ever going...The Summary Calendar, found on the Start Page.
Bottom line...if you put it in SP, you'll find it all calculated, stored, organized, and retrievable later on. So dig in and look around. You'll be happy you did because you'll find things you didn't know where there and all those things are helpful in your journey to better health.
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