Wednesday, August 18, 2010
When I first heard about blogging, I was astonished. Why would anyone put their personal feelings in a public area for anyone, absolutely anyone, to read. Here I am, doing the same thing and wondering why.
I am very private and I like it that way. I had a job for years where security was prime and you just didn't let people know your feelings on anything. I was raised in a family that had two very controlling parents. "Put a smile on that face, even if you don't feel happy and don't give me excuses!"
I can look back now and know that they were control freaks and at the time I was too young and sheltered to know the difference. I know they loved me, but they were controlling.
Unfortunately, when I got older and realized that, I discovered I was a bit there myself. I actually hate being a controlling person, so being the extremist, I go the other way and come across like a shrinking violet or easily controlled. I don't think I am either one but I haven't found the middle ground yet.
When you work in a job that has security as the prime directive, you don't let people know your feelings, your plans, your personal life because it can be a way to get to you to their benefit. But it makes for a very dark and singular lifestyle.
So now I'm breaking away from it, slowly, like a cat going outside, checking all the angles, listening to all the sounds, checking all the scents, to ensure safety for myself.
I'm finding other people that feel the same way I do, but because their experience, education, and environment has been different, they have a different angle on the subject. By adding my angles, the picture becomes more complete, the lens widens and we all learn more.
I will keep learning and finding out all kinds of things here. Happiness, anger, fears, all kinds of things. Maybe I can help someone else a little. I am sure someone else can help me a great deal all over the spectrum.
Have a grand one, everyone!
Thursday, August 12, 2010
I am so energized. I woke up late because I had one wake period of an hour early this morning and was almost late for water aerobics. Being on vacation hasn't slowed me down and I'm finding myself having a blast doing the busy, but fun things on vacation.
At water aerobics, we used this little styrofoam hand dumb bell and putting it behind one knee, clenching it with my leg so it wouldn't get free, raised my knee up and down (Hip Flexor) and by the time I was finished, I could really feel the burn in my muscles and I know I'm strengthening my hip and thigh muscles, and keeping inflammation out of my trochanteric bursa (hip bursa). It also feels easier to do the hip flexor in the water and with the dumb bell, it is more intense.
I'm off to the beach to walk and enjoy the last of the sun as storms are headed this way starting tomorrow. Hopefully, they will hold off long enough to get another walk in tomorrow, too.
Everyone, please read my new book coming out around December of this year. If you're interested, it's a novel, with some romance, very discrete, mystery and life on a ranch in the Wyoming Mountains. I created a fictious town in my book, which was fun. I'm writing a sequel to it now.
Have a great day!
Wednesday, August 04, 2010
Interesting Journal, interesting night. It took me an hour to fall asleep and this was when I was tired and holding off going to bed for what seemed like hours. I wasn't watching TV, but I did play a little Majong to while away the time. That might have been just enough to get my mind going and keep me awake. Anyway, I finally fell asleep and only woke up once for about 10 minutes (had to do the usual thing), then I slept through to the alarm clock.
I could have slept an extra hour, as schedule would permit, but I've been hearing and reading about schedules and the need to establish and maintain it so I'm establishing the sleep schedule now.
Have a great and successful day!
Tuesday, August 03, 2010
I signed up for this challenge yesterday. Today, I got my marching - ah...make that sleeping orders! I have made a sleep journal (master) so all I have to do is print the master for everyday I need to use it, then fill in the blanks by pen or pencil. I'm very tired tonight, so this might not be a fair night to count, but I'm on my way so it counts!
I'll add more as things emerge and maybe somebody out there will see something I don't see and help me out when I need it.
Good night, SparkPeople Friends.
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