Friday, February 28, 2014
There's no easy way to say this so I should just say it....I'm failing. I can't find any motivation or encouragement. I tried to do a 2 day cleanse and I failed at that (I only lasted 8 hours). I have only exercised once in almost a month. My eating habits go up and down. I try to eat small portions, but we've been going out to eat and I'm still snacking. I'm a horrible food addict! I'm so scared that I will never be able to lose this 60 pounds. To some people 60 pounds seems so easy....it's NOT! I'm struggling just to take off 5 pounds! I'm truly lost and don't know what else to do (it's worse that I'm laid off). I feel tired, lazy, sluggish, and miserable. I feel bad for my boyfriend because I'm "not in the mood" like I used to be. I hate the way I look and feel. I just don't feel like doing much of anything anymore. I told my cousins that I would like to do the Color Run in May 2014 with them. I also said I was going to do a 5k last year and, sadly, I gave up. I'm tired of being this miserable, lazy person! I want to be more fit so I can play basketball or ride bikes with my son! I'd love to have the energy to walk on our property without getting winded. God, I really need a miracle right now!