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Note To Self:

Saturday, September 14, 2013

Struggling where others succeed isn't due to an internal failing or weakness. You aren't less than they are. You are you; unique in your struggles and triumphs, and powerful beyond measure. Don't compare your journey with anyone else's, because someone out there is looking at something you're doing and feeling inferior because you make it look effortless.

  
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CLPURNELL 9/16/2013 10:27PM

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MALIAN1 9/15/2013 11:14AM

    Amen!

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MAZACK 9/14/2013 9:56PM

    Thanks for the reminder.


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1CRAZYDOG 9/14/2013 8:09PM

  What an awesome blog! We ARE powerful.

HUGS

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GRAMMYTOBIN 9/14/2013 6:26PM

   
You are unique and powerful, are wonderful in every way. God has his hand on your shoulder waiting for you say-- I need your help Lord.
All struggles make us stronger, life has more, and with endurance You will jump over all obstacles.
Read your Blog was refreshing. Your outlook is look you are a champion. emoticon

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Plan it out.

Friday, September 13, 2013

I plan my meals a week in advance, I plan where my money is going, I plan my clothes, my kids' clothes, my laundry routines, my household cleaning: I pretty much plan everything. Everything except exercise, that is. I hate making an exercise plan, and for the longest time I didn't know why.

Well, why is two-fold.

One, I'm a perfectionist. I know if I made that appointment with myself and life got out of hand, I'd torture myself emotionally over it all day. Bad mojo man.

Two, if I make an appointment with myself I'll feel obligated to keep it. For a long time, part of me has felt so worthless that I feel unworthy of the measly 30 minutes I'd spend generating endorphins and becoming a more cheerful mom.

Ironically, both of those reasons are really good ones to work out. To plan time to make it happen, and to put in down on the calendar like I would my daughter's tennis meets and the PTO meetings. (Not the emotional self-torture that's not a good reason for anything, but I'm working on curbing my perfectionism. I guess it would make a good deterrent, though.)

Perfection only exists in God and Fairy Tales. I'm real. I have to plan because only Wonder Woman would be able to track everything on my plate in her mind. I'm not perfect, so I will forget something, take too long at the store, or have to run a kid to the doctor and I'll miss my workout appointment. I'll be too tired some days, or sick, or dealing with a fussy kid. That's OK. Life takes balance and if I can't sacrifice a workout here and there to tend my family, well then I don't deserve them.

BUT, I deserve tending, too. I deserve to do something that improves my mood, focus, and ability all day long. I deserve to take some time for me on a regular basis and leave the little ones in my husband's capable care. So from now on, I have a daily appointment to keep with myself. It may take some time to figure out how it works in my day, but I'll make it fit. I deserve it.

  
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MPETERSON2311 9/16/2013 9:25AM

    I loved this blog. Good luck with your exercise planning! Maybe break it up into tiny chunks?

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MCJULIEO 9/13/2013 8:45PM

    You are worth it!

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VONBLACKBIRD 9/13/2013 6:25PM

    It gets better with age...I too used to be a perfectionist and still have to watch myself in it. But take each day as it comes and do try to plan some movement even if it is nothing but a walk.

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CLPURNELL 9/13/2013 4:43PM

    We will never be perfect. All we have to be is a bit better than yesterday. emoticon

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FAVALL 9/13/2013 2:34PM

    I've found group classes that are scheduled help me keep my appointment with myself for exercise. Good for you on putting your health and fitness as a priority.

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1CRAZYDOG 9/13/2013 2:25PM

  We absolutely deserve tending! Great blog.

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Baby Steps!

Friday, September 13, 2013

I'm doing it again. I'm trying to pick up exactly where I left off before the pregnancy and giving myself no room whatsoever to ease into my groove. I'm getting frustrated when I'm more tired at the end of a video or have a harder time knocking out all my reps than I think I should. I try to remember that I just less than 2 months ago crafted and delivered a whole other PERSON. But that only helps so much.

Baby Steps, Tae! Baby Steps! I can say it and believe it now, but the next time I skip a workout because I'm exhausted or I skimp on my water because I'm distracted, it won't matter. Well, only one thing for this. Back to my Streaks. They cured this harsh perfectionism last time, they can do it again.

  
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CLPURNELL 9/13/2013 4:56PM

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MPETERSON2311 9/13/2013 12:57PM

    at least you recognized it! thats a great step right there

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1CRAZYDOG 9/13/2013 10:56AM

  Good job!

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MALIAN1 9/13/2013 9:58AM

    You CAN do it!!! Hang in there...

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TADZIO 9/13/2013 9:38AM

    just like in the beginning -- ease in --- it's lifestyle and a lifetime --- ease in --- baby steps and you'll get there again!

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MAZACK 9/13/2013 7:47AM

    Hang in there and pace your self. I was in car wreck earlier this week and broke my right hand and many painful area. We both need to realize that right now for our bodies sake and our mineset we can't immediately do what we were doing but we both get back there in time.

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WRITINGRUNNER 9/13/2013 3:36AM

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SEAJESS 9/13/2013 2:21AM

    You are SO RIGHT about the harshness of perfectionism! Baby steps! Small changes, made consistently are what will produce big results. Congratulate yourself on keeping it small. Maybe set a goal not to go over 10 minutes, or whatever.

We perfectionists need to look out for each other! emoticon out, my friend!

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I'm getting really, REALLY tired of this.

Tuesday, September 10, 2013

So this morning I turn on the TV and I see...

"This is the only look that counts as beautiful. Unless you look THIS way, you're ugly and unworthy."



No, wait. "You skinny stick. That's gross, you look like a skeleton. Go eat a cheeseburger." Only women who look like this are beautiful and worthy.



No, wait. "You fat cow. Stop horking all the icecream and get off your ass." Only this look is beautiful and worthy.



No, wait. "Who are you to say anything at all about fitness or healthy lifestyles? Look at all that flab. How much can you bench? That's ALL?! Wimp. Go hide under your bed and never show your face in public again." Only women who are this fit, beautiful, and worthy are allowed to speak in public.



No, wait. "You look like a man with all your rippling manscles. Go eat a cheeseburger."

Really? Every woman in every picture is absolutely beautiful. It takes all sorts to make the world a vibrant, varied place. The outward appearance of a person doesn't define their worth, or beauty, or soul. Those are deeper factors than surface decoration.

Which is why I have decided that This:

Is beautiful and worthy.

  
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CLPURNELL 9/11/2013 6:58PM

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MCJULIEO 9/11/2013 5:30PM

    That last one says worlds about beauty, doesn't it!

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VONBLACKBIRD 9/11/2013 5:28PM

    Love love love this...thank you!!!

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MPETERSON2311 9/11/2013 3:32PM

    Aw. I LOVE THIS BLOG! thanks so much for sharing.

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PGHP31CK 9/11/2013 11:43AM

    Thank you for your post! So very true. That precious baby is blessed to have such a wise woman in her life!

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MALIAN1 9/11/2013 10:34AM

    Not only beautiful...but GORGEOUS!!! Love this blog. Thank you!

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AMANDANCES 9/11/2013 8:32AM

    BEAUTIFUL!!! And VERY well-put. I love it!

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USMAWIFE 9/10/2013 9:37PM

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CIRANDELLA 9/10/2013 8:34PM

    Wonderful, terrific, heartfelt, and honest blog!! emoticon

And that sweet lady on the last picture is the best woman of 'em all - she's the most loving and authentic!

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1CRAZYDOG 9/10/2013 5:25PM

  My choice? Definitely You holding your precious grandy! What a wonderful blog. Thought provoking. So much pressure to LOOK A CERTAIN WAY when the REAL purpose of altering lifestyle is to enhance your HEALTH!!!!!

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MAJONES1225 9/10/2013 5:18PM

    Very nice and well put. I love it

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Who Am I Doing This For, Anyway?

Wednesday, July 31, 2013

My biggest and first major battle in this whole endeavor has been silencing my inner critic. There's a huge part of my personality that's completely perfectionistic. Nothing is ever good enough, ever clean enough, ever cooked properly, etc. If I can't do it properly, why bother? Better to leave something undone than do a half-assed job at it. So went my reasoning. And there started my rapid plummet into depression. Breaking that cycle of negative self talk was tough. REALLY tough. I have come a very long way on the path of self-acceptance and it's making a huge impact in all aspects of my life.

I sometimes still struggle with my Inner Critic. That stupid little voice of negativity and doubt which tries to sabotage everything I'm working for. This morning that meanie kicked in full force. I woke up in a horrible mood and felt unwilling to do ANYTHING at ALL. Thoughts like, "What's the point? Nobody's going to notice," and, "It isn't going to change anything," kept rolling around in my head.

Everything was just negative, negative, negative. Finally, I'd had enough and I had to wonder. Why am I doing this anyway? And, who am I doing it for? Then it hit me, I'm doing this for me. I'm doing this to smile when I look in the mirror again. I'm not doing this so my husband can have better scenery at the beach. (He'd totally grin if I managed a hard body figure, but he'll still love me if I don't.) I'm doing this to feel strong and confident in myself. I'm not doing this for my kids. (They'll totally {Eventually} really appreciate a less lazy, more interactive mom.) But, I'm doing this because I want to see them grow into the beautiful and amazing women they'll someday be. Again, this is for me.

And, you know what? I'm worth it.

  
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MCJULIEO 8/2/2013 11:30AM

    You will know, and You ARE worth it!

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1CRAZYDOG 8/1/2013 8:38AM

  Ah yes, that negative inner voice that keeps on replaying ! When that happens I literally stop and shout (well, if I'm with others, it's a silent, in-my-head shout) NOOOO. That helps silence that negative voice.

I also keep a gratitude journal. So, when that voice starts to get the best of me, I look @ "pages from the past and see how many things I have to be grateful for.

Good luck on your mission. You can do it and believe me. . . . you're not alone!

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TADZIO 8/1/2013 8:24AM

    thanks for the wonderful blog!

I struggle with those same issues ---

in fact it basically was my sparkcoach question this week.



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DEEGIRL50 8/1/2013 12:50AM

    emoticon Now... that's a great reason for doing it. You are worth it. Smile on!

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MAZACK 7/31/2013 9:40PM

    Sometimes I delay doing something because I don't know what to start first. I agree that to succeed you have to do things for yourself. You are worth i
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