Friday, August 12, 2011
I have a confession. Well not exactly a confession, but it feels like a confession. Remember how my awesome Wellness Coach moved on to a new job and left me, stating I was good to go on my own and needed no further advice from her colleagues? And how I followed up after she left with her boss to see if I could be reassigned to someone new to keep me going? Well, I did get assigned to someone new, Darlene, and I've been 'meeting' with her via phone once a week for 30 minutes per time since probably mid-July and she's been giving me some advice. But, I have to say, I'm not feeling like I'm clicking with her like I did with Ann, the last coach.
Of course Ann and I felt like best buddies when she flew out from Chicago to meet me on her last day before quitting to congratulate me and give me a big hug (how above and beyond is that??) so I was really spoiled! Anyway, Darlene has assured me that at 5'5" and 129# I can not possibly be 'done' with my weight loss and should keep pressing away until I hit 125 (and then reassess). And...here's the issue...she's made changes to what I'm eating, mainly cutting way back on my carbs. But here's what I'm thinking - I've lost 40 pounds (pretty successful, I'd say) over the past months by 'front loading fiber' as Ann instructed. That included starting the day with either her favorite, Bob's Red Mill High Fiber Cereal (which I love) or oatmeal with flaxseed. Darlene thinks these things have too many carbs and suggested I cut them out. But the thing is...they filled me up and satisfied me. And I was losing better than I am now. And now I am JUST STARVING most of the day! During all the months when I was losing like clockwork (under Ann's guidance) I was honestly never hungry. But now I am. It isn't a good situation. I think I should trust my body and go back to the front-loading of fiber - even if it does mean more carbs. I honestly don't think carbs are a big deal for me...and according to my Spark tracker, I'm waaaay under now. And I know I'm way back on fiber. I'm not liking this.
So I confess that I think I may take Darlene's advice with a big old grain of salt and try to go back to my prior pattern and see if I can indeed shed a few more pounds. Because...when I am starving I am noticing that I am actually eating things that I never would have considered a few weeks ago (when I wasn't STARVING half the day). After 10 months of avoiding the office peanut M&M bowl, I found myself reaching in TWICE this week. Definite evidence of desperation.
I will begin the 'blowing off Darlene's advice' approach tomorrow and see what happens.
You need to listen to your own body, right??
Tuesday, August 09, 2011
My DD worked out with me tonight and it was a lot of fun...I'm glad I got her the membership for the month. Really hoped she'd use it much more than she has, but hopefully she will in the last few weeks before it expires. This is a bit of a boutique gym so the monthly fee is pretty outrageous and I considered it a special summer treat to have her join me as a member for a month. It is fun to be able to work out together. Tonight we took a body pump class followed by hot yoga sculpt - a nice combination!
Tomorrow is Zumba - really a fun class. She plans to take dance as one of her electives next year - in, catch this, high school - OMG can't believe my baby will be a freshman.
Speaking of babies, my SIL shared her big news of the day -- she and my brother are pregnant! She said I'd be surprised by the 'news' she texted me that she had to share -- and I sure am...we all are! Including them! Their daughter (who is amazing) is going to be a sophomore in college (7 year program leading to Dr of Physical Therapy) and their son is 12 - yes, these kids are all with my brother - looks like they take the cake for spreading their family out over the decades - one every 10 years or so. OMG! She's 44...will be 45 by due date...so here's hoping all goes well and that there are no complications. She's very healthy but admitted she hasn't had a full physical since 2007. Guess it's time to correct that little oversight, eh?
She's really handling this very well. So happy, contented and calm. She says she thinks maybe she's still in shock. Maybe. I think I'd be freaking out about how old I'd be when this child finishes high school and wonder if retirement would be deferred until I was 80? Thankfully they don't think like me.
I treasure my kids just the way they are and feel that our family is quite complete. No more surprises...and in the meantime I'll enjoy working out with DD.
Life is like a box of chocolates, you just never know what you're going to get!
Monday, August 08, 2011
Today the scale smiled up at me...a new low was registered. Woo Hoo! I'm marching slowly to goal. The day was going great nutrition-wise with all healthy intake and mega working out...until....did I mention how pleased I was that DS returned from his sailing trip? I am thrilled, really. But. And this could mean big butt....play on words, couldn't resist...first he asked me to make him pancakes (and I had a bite) and then at around 9PM he decided that it was absolutely necessary that he make oatmeal cookies.
Now, mind you, he makes some killer oatmeal cookies. He calls them disappearing...because they literally disappear in no time. They are DH's favorite cookie and I make a point not to make them as it is frightening to watch the gluttony. They literally don't usually make it overnight - they are just too tempting for my otherwise health-conscious family. You get the drift.
So I went off for a walk with the dog as DS set off to bake. When I came back home they were nearly gone, although a sheet remained in the oven. Those came out perfectly cooked and smelling wonderful.
DS had to point out that he used my Saigon cinnamon and stated that he was convinced that this was the best batch he's ever made.
Had I mentioned that I hit a new low on the scale today? And that I've been really good?? A good Sparker? He taunted me with a cookie on a plate set out just for me and told me that I really am getting too skinny.
Is DS a sabotager? I hope not! I think he was just being cute -- and it worked...and I succumbed. And it was a fabulously tasty cookie - very big one at that. He also reminded me that he used whole wheat flour (of course that's the only kind in the house) - but I could tell he used both white sugar and brown sugar -- I would never use as much as the recipe calls for. Remind me that I should just throw out the remaining white sugar...right?
I may not be too happy in the morning or later in the week if I see a reversal in the scale. Hopefully one cookie won't be the end of the world. It did take me a week to recover from the lasagna binge though -- really, I'm not kidding.
You know how that goes in these final pounds...it's tough to lose them. Either way, I am still thrilled to have DS back home. It's not his fault I lost my willpower. And, just maybe, it's better to indulge once in a while. I can look at it as a celebration of his return!
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