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Friday, July 15, 2011

Well now! So far so good this week. Got a little screwed up on my dates when posting food and exercise (find I still get a bit confused navigating this site, except when it comes to getting Spark Points! I love doing that!). Still nursing this bum knee, but I find if I wrap it real tight with an ace bandage I can walk better and do some light aerobics. Got out my old Denise Austin and Jane Fonda step-aerobic tapes (yes, not DVD's, but tapes!). If they were good enough for the '80's, they're good enough for the 21st Century! Cardio is cardio...right?! I live in the desert of Southern California (possibly one day the State of Southern California, in case you hadn't heard!). It gets hot here, like, really hot! How hot? Often 110 or more. Tonight the power company will be doing upgrading on the electrical supply system for my area. From 10PM until 6AM we will have no power. No air conditioning, no fans, no nothin'! Bear in mind...it can be over 100 Degrees at 11PM. I am not happy about this at all, not one bit. I don't know how we will get any sleep. At least I don't have to get up and go to work...I'm retired, however, not by choice.

I had an interesting thing happen this week. As you may know, Betty Ford passed away this week. She lived here in the desert for about 30 years. They call her "The First Lady of the Desert." She was very well known here, and well loved, as well she might be. She accomplished much here and did a lot for the people here in the desert. You might say she truly found her oasis here amidst the sand and the cactus and the golf courses.

The "processional", if you will, carrying her casket passed right by our residence on the way to the airport for her final flight to Michigan and burial. Many people lined the road to watch it pass, myself included. I almost didn't; I'm glad I did. Something unexpected happened...I got teary eyed watching the motorcade pass by, with lights flashing and US flags waving and even people saluting. It was very moving. Even her son, Steven, waved at us from inside the car. But here is what really moved me...a life well lived. Betty Ford, for all her short-comings and failures, lived life as a total winner, with honesty, integrity, compassion, forthrightness and openness. She allowed herself to be vulnerable. A life of beauty. She may have been an "accidental First Lady", but the way she approached life was no accident. She met each challange head on. That's what I'm striving for. To look back one day and be able to say about myself..."a life well lived", although never perfect. To do that, one must really live each day, one day at a time! RIP, Betty!

I had an insight about weight and largeness as a barrier to hurt, but that discussion must wait for another day.

  
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SUBSMITH 10/15/2011 4:18PM

    I like what you said... to live life well. Hey, we only get one try at this time around. I didn't know that much about Betty Ford, so thank you for sharing.

I do hope you can face / temper the things that hurt you. It's no good to be hiding the beautiful you, so that you won't feel hurt. I think we all experience that at one time or another. By the way, the real word is emotional abuse. It's no good to pile it on ourselves, to beat others to the punch line. God sees you as a finished, perfect diadem. He promises to complete everything He has begun in you. I've only met you a few times; but you are a lovely person and your sister talks about you alot (good things). I read a book that says if someone (yourself included) says things that make your stomach churn... you're being abused. Once you realize it, you can stand up and say 'no more' and 'that hurts'. NEVER let someone tell you HOW YOU FEEL! If someone tries to invalidate your feelings, that too is abuse. Stand firm, in love, and don't give your ground. You know your feelings. They are legitimate. Honestly, you may never hear an 'I'm sorry", but at least you can live with yourself and not continue bullying your own body with food or negative talk. I've been there, and once I realized it, the relationship improved like night and day (took a few years) Sure, we all have relapses and no relationship is perfect; but I am so glad for how much better things are today. I can love, and yet not be the mop for other's problems and their need to dis someone 'under' them. I can walk away and think, you're wrong!... I love ya, but I'm not standing here for this! You are the problem in this circumstance, not me. (of course, sometimes I am the problem and then I need to own it too.)

Oooooh I ramble....

Philippians 3 & 4
~+~ A right confidence, pressing to the goal, standing firm! ~+~
"Rejoice in The Lord always! I will say it AGAIN!
Rejoice in The Lord always!
Let your gentleness be made known to all.
THE LORD IS NEAR!
(so) Don't be anxious about anything; but pray and petition
(Your Heavenly Father who loves you. Be thankful, trusting, and let Him hear your requests.)
.... AND the Peace Of God, which transcends all understanding, will guard your hearts and minds IN CHRIST JESUS! ~ + ~

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BARBARASDIET 7/25/2011 12:52PM

    I am not a republican, but I admired Betty Ford's willingness to be herself.

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XENA1956 7/19/2011 12:45AM

    Wow what a great blog. I love your insites. xo Teri

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day 2 blogger

Sunday, July 10, 2011

Okay, so I said I was going to make a great effort to be open, which is not the same as saying I've been dishonest. No, honesty and integrity are huge for me, but being able to open myself up to others and be vulnerable has always been difficult. So, today at church (this is only the 2nd time I have attended this church, and it has been many years since I've attended any church), I allowed myself to open up and worship and let joy come in. My husband is so sweet. He doesn't care for this type of service. He is very traditional, and I am more into charismatic worship, but this is what I need right now, and he is willing to go along. More than that, he was all mister smiley and friendly, and he is usually more reticent than me about talking to strangers. What a doll! We met a nice couple from Ohio (we actually met them last week), and we exchanged phone numbers to meet for lunch one day next week. Wow! Big step for us, believe it or not. We have been like hermits for the last couple years, living in the mountains. Senior citizen butterflies, just spreading our new wings. But that is why we came to the desert...to find an oasis, however temporary. So, I didn't exercise much today, but still on track with the eating plan. Whoo hooo!

  
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XENA1956 7/12/2011 11:14PM

    Doreen, Great job! So glad you and Fred have made some new friends I know it can get lonely in a new place. Glad to see you are trying to do the Sparks thing again. xo Teri emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon

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A Fresh Start

Saturday, July 09, 2011

This is my first blog entry. I don't like to talk much, and I especially don't like talking much about myself, but I think I need to talk...and talk...and talk...I have too much boarded up inside of me, and it needs to come out. My body has blown up expoentially as my emotions have been stuffed inside of me. The level of pain is finally such that I can't take it any more...it's gotta come out, or... So, here am I, willing to spill my guts! Well, maybe, a little... Hey, it's a start! But I'm not willing to be fat any longer; and I'm not willing to allow other people's issues to negatively impact my life any longer; and I'm off on the road to, well, not Moracco, even though I am in the desert right now. This desert place is only temporary, however, a starting-off point, but I have a feeling there is an oasis here some where, just waiting for me to stumble into it.

  
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XENA1956 7/12/2011 11:19PM

    Great that you are coming out of your shell. Oh by the way in order for someone to see that you thanked them, you need to go to their Sparks page. They can't see your reply unless they were to re-read you blog, which doesn't happen often. love ya, Sis. Teri

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FIRERY1 7/9/2011 8:55PM

    Thank you! emoticon

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JENVAMPVEGAS 7/9/2011 6:55PM

    Congrats! Get it out, Girl! It definitely helps.
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