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Visit with my family

Monday, January 07, 2013

So wow...
Some of my family came to visit this weekend that I haven't seen in almost 16 years...I had not seen my sister since she was 9 years old and she's 33 now. She had driven out to California to retrieve my mother and her husband (my stepfather, her dad) because he had been diagnosed with Stage 4 brain and lung cancer. My mom has extreme anxiety issues and cant drive so sister thought it would be best for them to move closer to her in Tennessee. On the way there they decided to stop to see me and clear up some family issues we have since he may not have a chance to do it again. End result...I feel like a new person. My biggest hang up in life was a feeling of abandonment and that I was never good enough for anyone or anything. After talking to my mom I found out she didn't abandon me, the state gave her no choice but to turn me over to my dad. Unlike today where the system is over burdened and they try everything to keep a family together, in the 80's they just gave you to the next best option. I also got a chance to forgive her and my stepdad for my crappy childhood.
I know things inside won't change overnight but I already feel so much better than I did before. AND during all of this I managed to keep all my Fast Break goals. Now food choices haven't been the best but I'm getting there and it's a BL season so I have tons of inspiration.

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NOLOOKINGBAK 1/7/2013 11:25PM

    It's always so cathartic when we are able to clear the air with family or friends that we have been at "odds" with for many years. It does indeed feel like a weight has been lifted. I hope you can continue to build/repair your relationships within your family. While that can take years it is so worth the effort on everyone's part. Bless you....and congrats for sticking to those Fast Break Goals!

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Two days in a row?

Friday, January 04, 2013

Wow so for two days in a row I have met my fast break goals!
The family thing has been interesting, they were supposed to be here yesterday but called and said they stopped 8 hours from where we are. Today they called and said they would be here this afternoon but were still at Cadillac Ranch, at this rate I'll have to go to work and won't see them. I'm starting to doubt they'll come by, they have to be back in Tennessee by Monday and traveling has been slow for them so far.
Working the next two nights...hitting the salad bar and yogurt shop we have there...making better choices at work will be a big step tonight! No more high fat kiddie food for me!

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MICHIGANLORI 1/4/2013 4:50PM

    emoticon to day 2!

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MKRETIRED 1/4/2013 2:38PM

  Good job!

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1st Day....

Thursday, January 03, 2013

Today is my 1st day back on the Sparkpeople program and so far I have met my Fast Break goals which is a big deal for me.
I had decided that 2013 was going to be the year I worked on a lot of my issues and tried to find more happiness in my life. All of a sudden my husband drops on me that my mother and stepfather are coming through town with my stepsister and her family and "oh I told them we would do dinner and visit!" Small problem I haven't talked to any of these family members in quite a few years and don't have the best memories with them. My kids have Skyped with them so no drama there but personally I haven't. I should be full of anxiety right now but I'm not, this is another step in working on fixing me. I am hoping this adds some closure to the hangups I have in life right now.

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WALLSTRONG 1/3/2013 6:40PM

    Welcome back to SP! We can do this, 2013 is our year. :)

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MICHTOTMAN 1/3/2013 6:31PM

    Great attitude! Welcome back! emoticon

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MICHIGANLORI 1/3/2013 5:37PM

    emoticon back to SP!

A big welcome from the SP Class of December 30 January 5, 2013. I wish you success in your journey to a healthy lifestyle.


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