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It's been a bit of a while

Tuesday, September 03, 2013

while having a bit of a journey.

The intensive training to get my 500 hour certification was, well, intense.
I didn't have many spoons to spare during the 8 weeks and the weeks following have been a very different kind of difficult.
Yesterday made me want to stop a moment and take stock of where I am and set some new goals. Goals with no time limit, no boundaries, no limitations at all really.

Goal #1 create a consistent workout plan with yoga, running, weight training, and pole fitness

Goal #2 pick my poi back up, and hooping, and diablo. Rediscover the motion/fire artist in me

Goal #3 maintain the Creator Mindset (if you haven't read the book The Power of TED* look it up. It will change the way you view life)

Goal #4 organize my house in such a way that I can keep it clean and free of clutter. I feel so much better with a clean house!

Goal #5 plan my wedding in such a way that it is as stress free on the actual day as possible (ok, so this one has a time limit, but I'm doing pretty good so far!)

I guess this is it for now. I may or may not be around on SP often, it just depends on how everything is going and how much time I have.
I've missed the community here and the support of all of you and I hope you're doing well yourselves.

Love and Light

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FIREFLUTTERFLY 9/29/2013 10:03PM

    Diablo as in the spinning spool

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SBN141 9/12/2013 3:16PM

    Diablo as in the game Diablo?!? I love that game!!! What character do you prefer and have you played Diablo 3 yet?

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DEBJAE 9/3/2013 3:12PM

    Good to see you back! And those are great goals, very achieveable!

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CREEKLADY1 9/3/2013 12:57PM

  Good luck on all your goals, and congratulations on you approaching marriage!

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Almost ThereÖ Sort Of

Monday, May 20, 2013

Iím kind of stuck in a ďonce this is doneÖĒ loop right now and Iím not too fond of it, but I canít really do much about it.

Once faire is over I do A-Kon.
Once A-Kon is done I have my last day of work.
Once I have my last day of work I start Yoga Teacher Training.
Once YTT is done I can focus on my handfasting.
Once my handfasting is done I can focus on my wedding

Not that my life is really on hold or anything, Iím doing a lot, itís just that I feel like Iím waiting for something.

It might just be a case of stupid brain, I donít know.
I really am ready to be done with faire and work thoughÖ really really

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AMANDANCES 5/21/2013 11:50AM

    That's exactly how I get through life too!! LOL. That and "In a week this will all be over" or "In a month, I won't have to do this again." Hey, whatever works!!!

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DRAGONSPITTLE 5/20/2013 7:51PM

    I so know exactly how that goes. Hold back none, live as hard as you can. Much good juju for you

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More Than A Month Since My last BlogÖ Ouch

Monday, May 13, 2013

Iíve been trying to remember the timeline on all the events since the end of February.
So much has happened though, itís hard and part of me doesnít want to remember.

Feb 28th: My grandmother was in a very bad wreck, a head on collision, she is doing better, but an elderly lady recovering from a compound fracture in her ankle is slow and arduous.

March 4th: My Great Grandmother goes back to the hospital with a touch of pneumonia.

March 19th: I find out a very good friend of mine has been diagnosed with stage 4 Lymphoma (there are only 4 stagesÖ.)

April 1st: A coworker dies of a heart attack at work (see previous blog)

April 15th: The Boston Marathon is bombed, my cousin was a block away from the finish line doing post-race massages. He is thankfully ok, but there was a 5 hour window when I didnít know if he was ok, stressful to say the least. In that 5 hour window I got a phone call from my lady doc telling me I needed to come in for more testing to see if I had cervical cancer (got the results May 6th, I DONíT HAVE CANCER!)

April 20th: After a full day of faire I find out my Great Grandmother has passed away. Inconsolable would be a good word to use.

There were a few other minor things that I simply choose not to acknowledge because of their stupid and petty nature, but as you can see it has been a very difficult few months for me. I still have bad moments, random crying fits and flashbacks of the day Danny died, but Iím doing ok overall.

During the worst of it I admit I ate for comfort (if there was a blueberry donut and it would make me smile I ate the damn donut) I ate too much, I drank too much and I didnít really workout. I continued going to yoga as much as I was able but once a week was not enough to combat the eating.


Iím back up to 160 and itís not that I donít care, but my priorities are massively shifted right now. A lot of my energy is going to making it through the faire season and getting ready for Yoga Teacher Training. Weight loss is kind of secondary right now.

Something great that happened recently though, is that a few weekends into faire I was asked to lend a hand at a new attraction, I asked for a badge and permission to take tips in return and was given both.
The next day I was ďsummonedĒ to talk to Scarboroughís Entertainment Director and she told me the Manager (of Scarby) and a few of the owners had observed me that morning and had told her to put me on payroll!
This is a huge step for my faerie character, I would love to take her to several other faires and make playing her a regular part of my year, and I think this is the first step.
If you have a Facebook page and are inclined to do so, please go like my page

My plan of action for getting back on track is pretty simple. Iím getting back to eating healthy and tracking my intake, Iím working up to yoga 4+ days a week and tracking it and Iím challenging myself with daily fitness tasks. Iíll be starting YTT soon enough and Iíll HAVE to eat well and Iíll be doing yoga 5 days a week.

I missed my Spark family and I hope you are all well!

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SIRENSONGS 5/14/2013 10:19AM

    I'm so sorry to hear about all your rough times. I hope things pick up for you again soon. At times like these, it's better not to worry about the numbers on the scale, I find. The rest of life is just too demanding.


I love the pictures on your Thimbleberry page, just beautiful! You have such a radiant glow about you! I want to be a woodsprite too!

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SARA_ANN12 5/14/2013 8:53AM

    emoticon I'm happy you are back. You're definitely one of the staple faces I see here!

On a faerie note, I'm so very happy for you--and proud!! Get em girl!!! I hope you have a hoot! Yay!

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SBN141 5/14/2013 3:11AM

    I'm just glad you are back. Checked out Thimbleberry's facebook also :-) Beautiful!! emoticon

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DRAGONSPITTLE 5/14/2013 1:35AM

    Much love and all the warm fuzzies and hugs you can stand.

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-POLEDANCEGIRL- 5/13/2013 3:50PM

    Wow. Lots and lots of emoticon

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The hardest thing I've had to do

Tuesday, April 02, 2013

To explain the vague status post from yesterdayÖ

Yesterday morning a coworker of mine ďDĒ had a heart attack (we think, we donít know for sure) and when he was found the 2 guys that found him freaked out. I got another guy to help me get D on the floor and I began CPR while ďRĒ got the defib machine we have in the office. He and I and my dad all took a turn at CPR while waiting for the ambulance. The paramedics worked for an hour but were unable to bring D back. This is one of my many ďother dadsĒ in the office, Iíve grown up around most of these guys since I was 6 years old. My heart hurts for his family and for everyone in my office.
Raise a glass, say a prayer, or light a candle for the great man that is now gone.

please donít ask if Iím ďokĒ.
Iím not, not right now, but I will be.
These things affect me deeply and I just need time to process.

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HDHAWK 4/2/2013 8:35PM

    What a terrible situation to go through. I'm sorry for your loss. Sending hugs and prayers your way. emoticon

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    So sorry for your loss.


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JANEMAR2 4/2/2013 3:39PM

    I am so sorry for your loss. How scary to go through that at work.

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    I'm so sorry you had to go through this. My heart goes out to you, your family, and his. emoticon

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In my family we sing a song to honor those who have passed...

I'm sorry for your loss. May you find peace in the days ahead.


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PRINCESSAMY 4/2/2013 2:51PM

    I lost my roommate to a heart attack on Wednesday... I can completely understand.

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-POLEDANCEGIRL- 4/2/2013 2:31PM

    Hugs. I am sorry for your loss. If there is anything I can do, let me know

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BRITTTURTLE 4/2/2013 2:21PM

  I'm so sorry for your loss.

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Cancer's a B!TCH! please help if you can.

Thursday, March 28, 2013

a very dear friend of mine has just found out she has stage 4 lymphoma, she has started chemo already, but it's going to be a long hard and expensive road.
Every little bit helps. You can donate by following the link below.

Prayers, good energy, and good juju are all welcome as well

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SBN141 3/29/2013 12:29PM

    I didn't know they had an option for donations! What a great idea!! Hope all goes well with your friend

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DRAGONSPITTLE 3/28/2013 4:04PM

    hugs and good juju!

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