update numero 2

Wednesday, December 02, 2009

it's december... emphasis on the *brrr* lol sorry, i'm a dork. so yea, today was my day off. had another breast exam today. i tried to cancel it yesterday, because i felt like it was a waste of my time. why would i drive down to the doctor and pay a co-pay for her to do ANOTHER breast exam, when it's the same time of the month as it was last month, and her doing the exam isn't going to explain why i'm in pain, and certainly isn't going to take the pain away... but she called me and said that she didn't want to cancel my appointment, that she wanted to see me, to do the exam. so, as angry and frustrated as i was, i went down there today. when i got into the office, the FIRST thing the receptionist asked me for was my co-pay, which reallyyy ticked me off.. if you could have seen the way i sat in the waiting room, i was steaming. lol. my appt. was at 11:30 and i wasn't seen until 12:00. sat there waiting, getting more and more angry. so angry that i felt like crying. it just felt like a waste of my time and money, and i'm sick of being run around in circles. she did a thorough exam on both my breasts, and i told her i've been feeling more pain in my left breast lately, and the right one still hurts daily. she found that i'm actually in pain in the same exact spot on BOTH breasts, which she said is better than having pain in just one breast because it's less likely to be cancer. i was on Nuvaring for about 2 years, and she had me switch back to the pill this past sunday, so i'm 4 days into my pack. i'm going to wait 2 months and see if the breast pain gets any worse or if the pain and the lump goes away... if it gets worse, i'll have to go to a breast specialist. maybe it's just a hormonal thing, who knows, but i've been in pain for about 3 months now, so we'll see. so yeaaaa... that's me. dealing with that and the holiday season being upon us... trying to stay focused and lose 5-10 lbs before my birthday (jan 4th). it's been rough lately.. mind hasn't been in it. trying to set small and large goals... and nail em! :) anyway, hope all of you are working hard and staying strong!

much love,
wendi

  

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ILOVETOCRUISE 12/7/2009 11:05AM

Wendi, First best to you. I know how worry can make it worst. Have you had an MRI or Digital Exam? Report Inappropriate Comment

NIXFROMTHEBLOC 12/4/2009 4:23AM

hey you! i hope your follow up proves to be positive and nothing to worry about...not sure about you but I am sooo tired at this time of the year and trying to maintain a healthy lifestyle gets so damn hard! yay! any special plans for your birthday? Nix xxx Report Inappropriate Comment

FITGIRL15 12/3/2009 8:07AM

I hope that more follow-up is done by your doctor so that you can get to the bottom of this pain situation! You are right, this is a hard time of year to be dealing with such a thing! Hang in there girl, you are a trooper!!! PS.. I thought Nuvaring didn't affect your hormones? Sounds like for you it did! I hope that with the changing you back to BC pills makes a positive change for you! XOXO ~jessica Report Inappropriate Comment

JENNIFER124 12/2/2009 9:54PM

i know what you mean about feeling "taken" at the doctor's office.. it just feels more and more like a business and less about the welfare of the patient.. i have to say, that i think your doctor is pretty thorough.. maybe overly..but it would make me feel good that i would be followed so closely.. there are so many medical professionals that drop the ball.. keep going through these next several weeks.. and on to your birthday!! you are doing this Wendi!! Jen Report Inappropriate Comment

RUSSIANMERMAID 12/2/2009 9:38PM

Does nuvaring cause breast health problems? Report Inappropriate Comment

UpDate...

Tuesday, November 17, 2009

i called my doctor yesterday to find out the results of my breast ultrasound from last wednesday, and she said that they came back normal; no cysts, no abnormalities. but... she's not sure if she believes it, so she scheduled another appt for 12/2, and she said if it's still unclear as to what's going on, then i'll have to have a mammogram. so at this point, i'm glad that she's being really attentive and an advocate for me, and not just saying "well the test came back fine..." i do feel like something is going on because it's not normal for your breast to hurt all day... every day. you should be able to hug your boyfriend without wincing. so yea, at this point i'm not trying to think about anything at all. just doing my thing, staying focused on work and my health, and i'll go to that appt when it's time. i'm not in the best of moods today, hoping to turn that around before i get into work in a few hours. i did so much OT last week, but had a really fun weekend (which was much needed). my boyfriend and friends have been really amazing lately. i love them so much. anywayyy, i better start getting ready for work. hope you guys are all doing well!

much love,
wendi

  

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APMAC_D 12/1/2009 4:18PM

I really hope everything is ok and that you are able to figure things out. I am thinking of you :) Report Inappropriate Comment

NIXFROMTHEBLOC 11/20/2009 2:23AM

hey i am thinking of you and hope everything sorts itself out health wise!!!! have a great weekend Nix Report Inappropriate Comment

KIRSTY1306 11/19/2009 7:15PM

Oh sorry to hear you are not feeling good, but its really good that you have an obviously attentive doctor, I bet you feel in safe hands! I really hope you get to the bottom of your pain, good luck at your appointment next week! Kirb xx Report Inappropriate Comment

VINLOVE77 11/19/2009 11:00AM

Wow that's so strange, I am having the exact same problem right now! I had an ultrasound this week that found nothing, but it just doesn't seem normal to walk around with one breast hurting all day long. Hope you get the answers you need! Report Inappropriate Comment

SKYFYRE 11/17/2009 1:14PM

Hang in there Wendi! Report Inappropriate Comment

FITGIRL15 11/17/2009 12:36PM

That is reassuring that the first test came back normal... but it is nice that they are taking your well being into consideration and scheduling a follow-up examination! I hope you get to the bottom of what is producing all this pain soon! I'm glad to hear that you have such a positve, healthy support system! Report Inappropriate Comment

today is a new day...

Friday, November 06, 2009

and yesterday was an awful one. i had my yearly exam yesterday, scheduled for 9 because i have to be at work at 11:30, and i figured she'd have me out of the office by 10:15, 10:30 at the latest. i had my lunch packed at home, to pick up on my way to work from the doctor's office, and i hadn't ate any breakfast, because i thought i'd have to time to eat before having to go to work. nope. she didn't come into the office until 9:30, and hadn't even done my exam by 10:25. at that point i stated that i wasn't trying to rush her, but that i had to leave by 10:35... they had me out of the office at 10:45 which meant i now had no time to stop at home and clean myself up, grab my lunch or eat some breakfast. i had to FLY to work. no joke, i was driving like a jerk, and i hate driving like that. stress levels were soaring. to top it all off, i had told her that for the last several months i've had some pain in my right breast. i had noticed a lump there last year and she brushed me off. when she touched it this year, she's like, yea something's not right there.... the whole time she kept touching it and it hurt so bad. she said i need to go for an ultrasound next week, so that's what i'm doing next wednesday. i'm trying not to think about it too much. it'll prolly be fine. but my breast hurting all day is a constant reminder. so.. yea.. yesterday sucked. i cried my eyes out on my way home, walked into the house with mascara all over my face at 8:45pm, ate chicken noodle soup, watch The Office, and went to bed. so today is a new day. i'm going to put yesterday out of my mind. gonna buck down and do some overtime today, so i'm working 11:30 to 10, be home by 11pm, go to bed so i can wake up at 5:30 tomorrow, work 8-4:30, and work sunday which is usually my day off from 9:30-5, work 9-8 on monday, and 11:30-8 on tuesday, and then have next wednesday off. ahhh...LOL. grindin!!! hope all of you have a great weekend!

much love,
wendi

  

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NIXFROMTHEBLOC 11/9/2009 2:35AM

i hope you are feeling better. please let me know what the results of your tests are. will pray for you all the way from this side!!!! xxxxxxx Report Inappropriate Comment

JENB_121 11/9/2009 12:35AM

Sorry to hear your day was so crappy. Why do doctors even make you book when you just end up sitting there for so long waiting?! I'm sure they'd get annoyed if they got the same treatment. Good on you for being so positive. Hope you had a good sleep and woke up feeling heaps better. Report Inappropriate Comment

SKYFYRE 11/8/2009 6:58PM

Ugh! *HUGS*!!! Today is a new day and I hope it is better! Report Inappropriate Comment

CAROLTTG 11/7/2009 1:31PM

It isn't what you do for ONCE, it's what you do EVERYDAY that counts!! Sounds like you are way to overbooked and stressed. I think it comes with age, to slow down and take it easy. I don't know why but you don't learn that at a yound age. Don't worry about it, UNTIL you have something to worry about. I had a scare a few months ago, and I just decided to not worry about it, until I have a reason to worry. Fortunately, it worked out for the good for me. Beside they say stress ages you, so you don't want to get a wrinkle, do you? I know at my age, I don't!! Take care! Carol Report Inappropriate Comment

FITGIRL15 11/7/2009 12:35AM

Wendi, I agree.. put it out of your mind, for now! I wonder why it hurts though... because of the poking and proding of the appointment? I know tomorrow will be a better eating day! DOn't worry yourself about that Babe! One day off isn't going to cause too much damage! Just get back on track when you can!!! You'll be in my prayers, Girl! I'm sure you're fine! I hope it's nothing! Report Inappropriate Comment

BRITT831 11/6/2009 10:38AM

Wow - such a busy work schedule! I can understand how u feel tho. Back in 2004 or 2005 my nipple started leaking, out of nowhere! I wasn't pregnant and never had been pregnant so it freaked me out! Went to a specialist, got a mammogram at like age 22,23 and everything turned out ok. No one could explain it. Around that time I was having problems with my then husband (now ex-husband) - I was ready to have children, he wasn't, and didn't even seem like he wanted children at all now that we were married. Long story shot, I think my mind had told myself I was so ready to have kids that I started producing breast milk. Now, I have had 2 beautiful children with a wonderful man! Anyways, the moral of the story is - ur mind is a very powerful thing! Use it to ur advantage! Report Inappropriate Comment

food journal revelations and aspirations...

Wednesday, November 04, 2009

oh wow... so wednesday, november 4th. unbelievable how time just keeps flying by. 2 months from today i will turn 26. crazy. LOL. so i'm back at the gym, eating is on point, and my mindset is positive. i took a couple weeks and didn't do any overtime at work, but now, i'm realizing that i need to do some more. i wish that i didn't have to. i'm trying to be thankful that they're even offering overtime at my work, but i just wish i didn't NEED the money right now. hate that feeling. stresses me out. but i'm just trying to tell myself that i can do this... just to keep myself balanced and keep myself in check.. not push myself like crazy. i want to do some overtime, make some money, and keep up my routine with the gym and my nutrition. it's really, really important to me to lose 10 lbs. before my birthday (january 4th) and to be back at 140 or 143 by february. i know i can do it. i just have to be consistent and stay balanced/focused. it's crazy to think that NEXT sunday we'll be half way through this month already... so much going on. feels like there's not enough time in a day! anyway, i just wanted to get a quick blog in and say hello to all of you. hope the month has started off great for you! i've put myself on a sugar detox this week where the only "sweets" i'm allowing myself is 3 pieces of dark chocolate a day (it comes out to 90 calories and i don't feel guilty, lol) i've also stopped consuming milk and icecream. i've found that it's been having an effect on my skin. i've noticed from my food journal that i have acne flare-ups when i consume milk. crazy how you can figure things out when you keep a food journal! :) alright, i better get goin now!

much love,
wendi

  

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LIL_EZZY 11/5/2009 3:42PM

Great keep up the good work. Sorry you are stressed. You will lose the weight by your birthday. I know you can. Don't wear yourself out though. Have a wonderful day. Report Inappropriate Comment

NIXFROMTHEBLOC 11/5/2009 1:29AM

hey gorgeous girl! glad to see you are going to try stay balanced and if anyone can lose weight it should be you- you have done it before and you have great focus. I am struggling with the sugar thing big time and this time of year does not help.... Have a great day Luv Ya, Nix xxx Report Inappropriate Comment

FITGIRL15 11/4/2009 2:12PM

If you are cutting out dairy, amke sure to take your calcium suppliments!!! Keep those bones strong!!! I am sure you'll see your goal weight by your birthday, even with this overtime getting in the way... it'll just tak more food planning and preparation... but you can do it!! Report Inappropriate Comment

JASONGRIZ 11/4/2009 12:46PM

I've missed the blogs! Good job at staying on point even with the hectic schedule. Good luck with the 10 lbs before the B-Day. Report Inappropriate Comment

OT = $$$ + exhaustion

Sunday, September 27, 2009

so i realized that with all the OT i've been working that i haven't blogged in a while, so here we are!
it's been about a week and a half since i had a good workout. i've felt a cold and my period coming and so with all the hours i've been working, i opted to rest up so that i didn't break myself! so this should be the last week of me pulling crazy hours, and then i'll be back to my regular schedule... on my daily grind. the good thing is that i have been hopping on the scale and i have maintained my loss, so i'm glad about that. i've really been making sure i watch what i eat because i know that with me taking time away from the gym right now i have to pay extra attention to what i'm consuming. the weight comes back way too easy and i'm not trying to go backwards again. LOL. anyway, i'm wicked tired, and i have a really long day ahead of me tomorrow. i have an appt. at the tire shop tomorrow at 8 and it's about 25 min from where i live, and then i have to work 11:30 to 10, and by the time i get home from work it'll be 11pm, so yea... not much sleep or time for me this week. wednesday is supposed to be my day off but i'm putting in 6 hours of OT. my tire blew out while i was on my lunch break yesterday... that was scary and annoying. thank God i bought AAA this year!!!! i woulda been screwed if i didn't have it. okay okay, i really need to get to bed.. now i'm just rambling to you guys! lol hope all of you are doing well and staying healthy!

much love,
wendi

  

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SNAPPEAS 11/3/2009 1:46PM

AAA is one of the best things since sliced bread .I have one of the higher level memberships where they will tow 100 miles and you get a few more services.I like the fact that they come quickly and I like to request the type of tow truck where they piggy back your car on the truck as opposed to dragging my car behind the truck.I always explain that I had front end damage before and they don't hassle me.In '07,had to use their services 3 times I don't want to even think about what that would have cost me out-of-pocket had I not subscribed to their service. GOOD move , FIERCEFIREFLI Report Inappropriate Comment

ELFITZPA 10/27/2009 9:38AM

First off, that's scary about your tire! Isn't roadside assistance the best though? Secondly, it sounds like you're doing all the right things to keep yourself healthy despite your crazy schedule. I hope life slows down for you soon!! Report Inappropriate Comment

JENB_121 10/27/2009 2:32AM

You're doing so great maintaining while things are crazy. Hope you get some time for yourself next week, sounds like you totally deserve it! Have a good sleep Jen Report Inappropriate Comment

SKYFYRE 10/3/2009 1:14PM

Glad you had AAA, that stinks about your tire! I hope that you can get back to some more resonable hours! Report Inappropriate Comment

JENNIFER124 10/1/2009 10:56PM

VERY SMART... we all have to do what we have to do... stay healthy.. dont push it too much during those times when work is crazy -- just think how awesomely rested your muscles will be when you do get back into that gym!! go Wendi!! Report Inappropriate Comment

ALY_FITNESS 9/28/2009 9:47AM

You have been busy!!! I am happy for you that you have maintained your loss!! Way to go!! Aly Co-Leader of Bikini Bodies with Jas & Mandy Report Inappropriate Comment

FITGIRL15 9/27/2009 11:48PM

Wow, it sure sounds like you are busy, Girl! I'm glad you've decided to take a mini break from the gym while you are being pulled in other directions! A girl needs her sleep :) and contrary to whta some people might say, a good diet and sleep (minus exercise) are more important then a good diet and exercise (minus sleep)! (But if you can get all 3 figured out, you're golden! LOL) Keep maintaining girl! That in itself is a challenge! Woo hoo! Report Inappropriate Comment