Tuesday, January 12, 2010
I am so tired today, I wish I could just crawl in a hole somewhere!
Partly, I'm short on sleep. I stayed up 2 hours past my usual bedtime (to fit in exercise and some other things after an evening commitment).
Partly, I'm not used to working out so much! I always used to leave at least a day between strength training days, but this bootcamp has daily workouts. I've also been doing more cardio than I was, so now it's day after day after day as well.
And partly, I REALLY need some vacation! I'm taking off next week to visit some friends, and I'm leaving everything behind. My mind needs some time away for a deep cycle re-charge.
And with all that tiredness floating around, my willpower has gone out the door. I haven't done any serious damage with eating, but I'm just being very loosy goosy - and that's gonna get me into trouble if I don't get a grip!
Sunday, January 10, 2010
That jumping workout for January Bootcamp has kicked my butt again! First of all, I don't jump well. And on my left leg I can barely hop straight up and down (very slowly - and with a deathgrip on the support column in the middle of my basement), and side to side pretty much is not even an option. Right is a little better, but not much. It's very frustrating, because in my head my body should still perform like it's 25, even though it's now 45.
But worse than the severely impaired ability to hop is how winded those 10 short minutes of cardio make me! I suck air so hard, my teeth tingle! I suck air so hard, I cough for an hour afterwards! I am basically healthy, don't have asthma or cardio vascular problems, and have been accustomed to doing 30-60 minutes on my elliptical, or an aerobics video. So why does this jumping kick so hard? I guess it's just a lot more intense than the others. But really!
Just goes to prove that although I've come a long way already (57 pounds!), I still have a long way to go (at least 45 more). This is no time for complacency! The battle of the bulge is still on!
Saturday, January 09, 2010
I just got some "new" workout dvds this week, and am still moist from a Kathy Smith workout. The workout is actually something old - 80s vintage, I'd guess - and Kathy looks so very, very young!
It took me back to the (late) 80s, when I was a young twenty-something, newly married, no kids yet, and taking Jazzercise classes with my hubby. That's also the last time my weight was in the vicinity of what I weigh today. This weight loss has been a long time coming! And since now - as then - I'm overweight (and much closer to the obese end of that range than the healthy end!) and need to lose at least another 30 pounds, I'm pressing on.
But that's not what I wanted to comment about. What really struck me was how darn bouncy aerobics can be! Especially when led by a fit 20-something! ESPECIALLY when being followed by a saggy baggy middle-aged woman! I've realized my joints simply will NOT do some of the things being demonstrated, at least not today.
Time will take its toll whether one is fit and healthy... or not. My hope is that as I get more healthy, more fit, and LIGHTER, I might be able to do some of these things again. Coach Nicole's Jump Start video for Sunday was an eye opener, too. My left knee just will not hop. Or at least, it will not hop 193 pounds of me.
I'll never be 24 again, and frankly don't really want to. But I hope my physical performance can improve to where getting-slim-and-healthy, 45-year-old me could have whipped fat-and-flabby, 24-year-old me's butt any day of the week!
Friday, January 08, 2010
I have a bad habit of operating from a "scarcity" mentality... Especially when it comes to food... Especially if I happen to be hungry!
"That tiny serving cannot POSSIBLY be enough to keep me going! What if I get hungry before my next meal/snack and there isn't any food around? I'm sure I need more than that..."
That thinking led me to taking huge heaping plates of food. And even when I realized part way through eating that I took too much, I still cleaned my plate. "Think of the starving children in Africa!" (or more realistically, think of the wasted $$ I spent on this food!)
I've gotten over alot of that mindset. I have rejoiced and celebrated over food left uneaten on dinnerplates, both at home and at restaurants. I have come to the realization that a luncheon-size paper plate covered with a modest half-inch depth of food is more than enough to sustain me until the next meal.
All that said, there is one area where my scarcity mindset still held sway - my breakfast oatmeal. I eat plain (from the cannister) oatmeal 2-3 times a week. I started eating that kind instead of instant packets to cut back on sodium and sugar. I was used to eating 2 packets of instant, but plain cannister oatmeal gave me the advantage of being able to eat a huge bowl of food that was just 1.5 servings; I can out ahead all the way around! And - it really satisfied the eye of my scarcity mindset to see that big, full bowl!
But today, I realized that I don't need 1.5 servings anymore. I don't need that extra ration (mentally or physically!) to get by. There are always other things I can find to snack on if I were to come up starving. And it's a REALLY big bowl of food! Of course, I wasn't so strong this morning that I could manage to discard that extra half serving instead of eating it, but I'm satisfied with baby steps!
For now, I'm pleased to know that the next time I make oatmeal, one serving will be more than enough!
Wednesday, January 06, 2010
I'm loving the accountability of doing the January bootcamp. It has really re-sparked my interest in the exercise side of my weight-loss plan. 5-30 minute cardio sessions per week seems too much to maintain, however. I'm going to try to keep it up for the Bootcamp. But I don't think that's something i can do for life.
So far, my weight loss has happened pretty easily with a modest amount of exercise. That's good, because i don't think I could spend the hours a day I see some folks reporting for their cardio workouts. That's just not me. If I have to do that much exercise to reach a "healthy" weight, I may have to reconsider how much weight I want to lose. But I'll cross that bridge when (if!) I come to it. In the meantime, I'll tryit for 30 days...
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