Wednesday, June 09, 2010
After taking a Spark break I'm getting myself back on track. Had a couple of rough months that really got me down, starting with another denial of health insurance, this time because I have arthritis! Ridiculous! I have Blue Cross/Blue Shield but they keep raising the premium and being on a fixed income it's getting harder and harder to afford. I've tried several companies, applying for high deductible insurance in order to get a lower premium. They all turned me down, for one reason or another. This last denial made me face the truth that I will eventually be among the uninsured. That fact depressed and angered me and I just wanted to "hide".
I shelved those feelings when my Mom had a medical crisis. I really needed to fully be there for her, and helping her helped me. She was hospitalized in April for severe abdominal pain, which turned out to be unrelated to her recent diagnosis of ulcerative colitis. An MRI showed narrowing of the bowel, probably the result of radiation treatments she had 5 years ago for uterine cancer. They also found a cyst in the pancreas. We had to take her to the Hospital of the University of Pennsylvania in Philadelphia for additional testing for an accurate diagnosis. She was terrified what they would find, as were we. Fortunately it turned out to be benign and no treatment is needed. Her GI doc is going to keep tabs on it, possibly repeating the tests done at HUP in the future. She's doing better now, on a new med for her UC and feeling hopeful it will control her flares.
I'm doing better now too, glad my Mom's feeling better and she's past this crisis. I'm also feeling better about the insurance thing. It's not worth worrying over, there are other things more important. I've come up with a plan and will hold on to the insurance as long as I can and go from there.