Wednesday, May 09, 2012
In an effort to take better care of myself I’ve decided to move myself closer to the top of my care list. Multiple ongoing, longstanding stresses plus these new stresses are wearing me down and I need some focus. One of the things I’m going to do, starting today, is to take a Spark break. I’m still going to visit Spark regularly, read articles, blogs, visit forums, but I’m going to remain in the background and not participate. This will mean less time spent on the computer so I can focus more on me.
Wednesday, May 02, 2012
I apologize in advance for a downer blog.
April was not a good month.
In order from less important to major worrisome -
1 - My chronic pain has increased in intensity starting aout 2 months ago and nothing I've done has lessened it. I've come to the conclusion that the arthritis has worsened and I just have to deal with it.
2 - Hubby still having issues with his newly diagnosed diverticulosis. Now it looks like he also may have irritable bowel and an abdominal hernia that needs repair. He sees the surgeon on Tuesday.
3 - My best friend, who's been housebound for over 2 months after falling multiple times resulting in fractured pelvis, concussion, on top of an already fractured hip. She's facing surgery to repair a 40 year old spinal fusion that's deteriorating.
4 - Most worrisome - Mom was here the last 2 days. She gave us some unpleasant news – she has breast cancer. Probably stage 1, no spread. Since she was here about 6 weeks ago she had 3 mammos, 2 ultrasounds, bone density, labs. She didn’t want to tell us anything until she had some answers. The results showed the tumor but no apparent spread, which is good. Today she has a PET scan, tomorrow a consult with radiation for postop treatments. She’ll have radiation 5 times a week for 6 weeks. Monday she sees the surgeon. The surgery will be a lumpectomy with lymph node removal, outpatient. Her best friend will drop her off, we’ll go down (it's an hour away), pick her up and bring her here after surgery.
I feel so bad for her. Such a loving, giving, special lady and now this, on top of her ulcerative colitis and peripheral neuropathy. She doesn’t deserve it, she’s been thru enough in her life. She endured so much crap with my father the dragon. It’s her turn to have a good life.
Her spirits seem good. We talked about it. She said she’s OK most of the time but sometimes feels overwhelmed. Then she makes herself busy to get her mind off it. I told her to call anytime she wants to just talk. She promised she would.
Friday, March 30, 2012
Did better this week on my redo of Sweet Tooth Challenge week 3. For snacks I had carrots, yogurt, pretzels, peanut butter. I watched portions, especially with the peanut butter. Desserts were Greek yogurt. I still want to try some other snacks and will continue working on that. I'm going to do some hard boiled eggs today and have them for a nice protein snack.
Yesterday was the only day I did terrible. I indulged in a pity party yesterday. I've been in a flare with my spine arthritis the past week or so and doing my best to just deal with it. I'm not a complainer. But yesterday, on a scale of 10, I was 8 to 9 most of the day. It put me in a foul mood all day. I managed to get a little walking in but that was it for exercise. And I ate for comfort all day, something I haven't done in a long time. I don't feel guilty for the comfort eating because it felt good. I feel more guilty about not exercising. Today is starting better, more like my usual pain level, which I'm used to, so I'm going to do some exercise today and definitely get back to the healthy eating.
Monday, March 26, 2012
Did well ! No sweets.
For snacks I had peanut butter and pretzels each day in the afternoon. I paid close attention to portions and did not go overboard. I love peanut butter but avoid it because I go "nuts" with it. I had yogurt for dessert on Friday and Saturday, no dessert yesterday.
Today I'm planning on yogurt for dessert after dinner, carrot chips this afternoon.
To my list of snacks I'm adding granola bars, reading labels first. I do like chewy snacks and in the warmer months buy granola bars.
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