Tuesday, April 08, 2014
I remember the moment I decided it was time to actually try to lose some weight. It was November of 2008 and I was teaching 3rd grade. One of my students asked to speak to me out in the hallway and she seemed concerned. She told me that during lunch, one of the other boys in my class was talking about me and making fun of my weight. She was very worried that it would hurt my feelings and "thought I should know what had happened".
I had been noticing my clothes getting tighter and me finally having to actually shop in the plus size section. I couldn't get away with just buying size 16 or 18 in the regular women's sizes anymore.
I was around 180 pounds and the heaviest I'd ever been. During Thanksgiving weekend I decided to look for online diet plans because I knew nothing about losing weight and until that point, didn't really think I had a problem. I came across a website called ediets.com. This was a sight with a monthly fee that would calculate your calories for you and give you meal plans.
I started following it, but didn't lose any weight because I didn't always like the food that was suggested and the site didn't really explain the concept of calorie counting or how many calories I was supposed to be consuming.
About a month or two later, I was sitting in the movie theater with a friend of mine and we were talking about lifestyle, weight loss and healthy living while waiting for the movie to start. I mentioned that I had joined ediets.com and thought it was "okay".
That was when she had mentioned a free website called Sparkpeople.
Out of curiosity I joined the site a few days later. Funny how that one conversation would change so much for me...
I first joined Sparkpeople on February 9, 2009.
I wasn't married and I didn't have any kids at that point, so I had lots of time on my hands. I had even more time on my hands when I was on summer break and could explore the website all day long.
I read and read everything on this website from the inspirational stories, to the articles to watching all of the videos. I started counting calories, going to Zumba and walking often. I also met a bunch of awesome people on this site that I am still in touch with today. That summer I lost 11 pounds and when the school year started again, people noticed.
Then life continued and I got married, had a kid and switched to a new job. I have had stressful moments as well as a new found awareness to a fast food addiction.
In 2012 I wanted to rekindle the Spark I felt when I joined in 2009, so I deleted that page and started a new one (my current one). That didn't do much and I continued with my unhealthy habits. Unfortunately, I found myself at 208 pounds in June of last summer. NOW, I was at my highest weight ever!
This prompted me to join a 5% challenge team and I was very successful. I ended up losing 16 pounds and getting down to 193.
Of course, as the story goes, my habits returned once school started and I haven't dropped any more weight.
Today I stand at 196, which is still good considering I was 208 last summer.
I would really like to rekindle the original "Spark" though. How do I do this? I'm not sure deleting this page and starting a new one would really do anything.
I suppose I need to just buckle down, stop making excuses and just do it huh?
And on to my "Win Today" checklist for accountability (although I sure don't feel like a winner today):
1. Shower before bed (going to do this soon)
2. Exercise after I put Laney to bed (didn't do this)
3. Avoid McDonald's (ate it after school)
4. Get bagel for breakfast on the way to school (did this)
5. Order lunch from school cafeteria (did this)
Other things I did right today
1. I am sparking
2. I curled my hair and put on make up this morning
3. I was agreeable with coworkers today even though I didn't get my own way.