Wednesday, August 05, 2009
On Monday, 8/3/09, my 13-year old niece saved the life of her dad, my baby brother. He is highly allergic to bee & wasp stings, and has a couple of incidents in the past where he had to be rushed to the hospital by helicopter because he was stung and the epi-pens weren't sufficient. Once at the county fair, and once when he was the ref at a high-school football game. At the football game, he used 3 epi-pens and it still wasn't enough. This time, however, he was at home with his daughters when it happened. Thankfully, he told them to call 911 if he passed out. He did, and my petite little niece performed CPR on him while her 6-year old sister held the phone up for her to talk to the 911 dispatcher. He's a big guy, and she did what she had to do to save her dad's life. He went into full cardiac arrest. I am amazed, and in awe of her right now. The police took over the CPR when they arrived, but if she hadn't stayed calm, I might have lost a father AND a brother this summer. Losing one was bad enough, I don't think I would have handled it very well if it had turned into two. I am so relieved that he is ok. They kept him in ICU overnight, and he got to go home yesterday. It's kind of strange that I was the one with the bee allergy when we were younger - everyone was afraid this would happen to me. But my allergy has lessened with age, and his has gotten worse.
I'm adding a link to the article about them, if anyone is interested in more details. Isn't this a great picture? It's from the article...
Thursday, July 16, 2009
When I was 2 years old, my mom remarried a man she had gone to school with. He was head-over-heels for her, and was a wonderful daddy to me. My first memories are of he and I playing together, riding a tricycle in the kitchen of our home in 1970, I was 2 1/2 years old.
Don't we look so happy? He was the man I called my daddy, my biological was distant from me, although I did see him on weekends. Mom and Dad had 3 more children together, and I was just enough older than them to play "little mommy". We moved to the Tri-Cities, Washington, area, to his dad's fruit orchard, where us children had the time of our lives. I still consider it home.
Then when I was 10, they divorced. Daddy had Vietnam nightmares every night, and smoked and drank heavily. But he was still my Daddy. When I was 13, he remarried - to a woman who hates me and my mother to this day. But he was still my Daddy. Years went by, and I grew up, got married, moved away, moved back. I discovered as an adult that he ignored my youger sister (his biological), but still kept in contact with me. He came to my wedding, but not hers. This drove a wedge between us, because I love my little sister desperately. But still he was my Daddy.
June 20, 2009, Spokane, Washington. My boyfriend Jim and I were at his mother's house for dinner, and were just sitting down to eat, when my cell rang, around 7pm. It was my mom, so of course I answered it. She said that my dad "just shot himself in the head, they don't think he's going to make it". I don't remember, but my mom and Jim said I started screaming and I remember collapsing to my knees. After awhile I calmed down and stopped crying. I managed to sit at the table and eat a few bites, make small-talk with his mother for a while. 7:47pm my sister called, and I couldn't answer it. I handed the phone to Jim and had him talk to her, because I knew that I would get hysterical again. They talked for a few minutes, and she said that she was glad it was him and not me on the phone, for the same reason. We texted back and forth instead, knowing that hearing each other's voice would push us over the edge. The oldest of our two brothers also texted us and told us not to come, that he wasn't going to make it. We decided to go anyway, and called him to tell him at 10:20pm. Daddy had just died. My sister and I drove the 2 1/2 hours to our brother's home in Pasco and spent 2 days with him. We took a trip to the orchard to see Grandma. We cried with lots of family (even though I was not related by blood, they all still consider me family). We made the funeral arrangements with the wife, who made everything into drama as much as she possibly could. And we all put up with it, because he was our Daddy.
June 29, 2009. We held the funeral service and buried him near Grandpa and near his younger brother who was killed in Vietnam. His wife instigated a lot of drama, like she always does. They fought daily throughout their marriage of 30 years, and she did not honor his wishes to be cremated.
July 16, 2009. Today is my Daddy's birthday, and I am sad. When he shot himself, he tossed a note at his wife, went out the door and pulled the trigger. She is the only one besides the police who have seen the note, and none of us will ask her what it said, because no matter what she says, we won't believe her anyway. The officers who responded are distant family, and said they would try to get us a copy of the note, but now it won't happen until after the investigation is complete. So we still don't know WHY he killed himself. But he is still my Daddy, no matter what.
Happy Birthday, Daddy. I hope you are at peace now. I love you.
My mom remarried in 1987 to a wonderful man. He passed away on July 13, 2007, so I am also sad about the anniversary of his death. He was never "Daddy", but he was a good friend. I love and miss you too, Bill!
Wednesday, April 08, 2009
OK. So I said I was going to get off to a great start in 2009. And I did. For about 2 days. I broke my 12 week exercise streak, and couldn't seem to go more than 3 days on a new streak. I started snacking on M&M's (gasp) and cheese nips (shakes head sadly...). I got busy at work and stopped logging my food throughout the day, like I had been doing. I let myself be talked out of getting on the computer in the evening, and into fast-food and super-sized desserts.
But I did do one major positive thing during the first 3 months of this year: I MAINTAINED! (bounces in chair and claps hands...)
I went up and down the same 2 lbs for 3 months. I didn't put forth the effort to LOSE weight, but I did work just enough to maintain. I made sure I was still eating healthy meals, it was just the snacking that got me. I may not have gotten in 30 minutes or more of cardio a day, but I made sure that I had some sort of physical activity at least 3 times a week. And I learned that once I reach my goal weight, I'm never going back! I will be able to maintain, because I have learned to eat, act, and choose mostly healthy options.
WOW - that is an incredible feeling, to know that even when I make bad choices, I know I will make even more good ones to offset it. I now know that I WILL be able to have that slice of Kahlua Cream Pie, and I won't backslide into my old habits eating a bite or two EVERY time I go into the kitchen. I WILL get off the couch and move my body a few times a week, not just to stay healthy, but because it FEELS SOOOO DARN GOOD!!!
April 1st I rededicated myself to my healthy journey. I am logging all my food and making a point to exercise (except for the few days when my back was out...). I am walking my dogs, and adding strength exercises, and running up and down the stairs at work more than I used to. Once we get through the rainy part of Spring, I am going to walk to work at least twice a week - that's 1.8 miles one way, a great way to stay in shape. And it helps the environment and saves gas too! Go me!
I convinced my BF that being able to log onto Spark in the evenings is of the utmost importance - without it I slack off and get lazy. He tends to get jealous and wants "us" time, but only when I'm actually on the computer. Or he wants to get online himself. So when he asked me why I hadn't been losing weight like I was before, I told him that I NEED my Done Girls and my BLC challenge and my Spokane Sparks - they keep me focused and motivated! So now he understands, and gives me my "Spark" time. What a sweety, huh?
So I'm off to finish up my strength exercises for the day - gotta get those core moves in to strengthen my lower back, so that this recurring pain will go away for good!
...Isn't this just the cutest picture of my boys and their "baby"?
Tuesday, January 06, 2009
So I didn't start off the year with a bang...
Things got kinda crazy when the snow hit (we've had between 74"-78" since December 15th). I could no longer drive my car to work because it doesn't have a high enough ground clearance to drive over the berms, so I've had to rely on others to deliver me to and from work. This has totally messed up my schedule and I'm finally coming to terms with it.
I was on an 87 day exercise streak, and fell off it. My exercise since then has been sporadic at best, however I do count snow shoveling as one of my exercises. Or at least I did, until we got our little electric snow-blower, which the BF uses every day to clear out the driveway.
I started snacking on all the holiday goodies & chocolates, EVERY DAY! Even today I had a few too many. I've managed to continue to eat healthy meals, but the snacking has been killing me!
I stopped logging my food & exercise. Why? Because I do my sparking at work, and it's been too busy for me to get everything logged. And I usually can't do it at home because I can't seem to get the computer away from the BF and his fantasy sports leagues. He will sit on the computer for an hour, then complain if I'm on it for more than 10 minutes. Actually, he starts to complain the second I walk into the office, saying things like "Oh great, there goes 2 hours...". And I have never, NOT ONCE, been on the home computer for 2 hours straight, so I don't know where that is coming from.
All in all, I didn't do too bad over the last 2 1/2 weeks though. I stayed in the same weight range, going up and down the same 2 lbs for the last 2 weeks. I was fairly active, even if I didn't do a lot of structured exercise (walking, heavy cleaning, shopping, shoveling, walking, taking down the Christmas tree, walking...). So it could have been worse. But I feel worn out, my body can definitely tell that I have changed my routine.
But today is my day to get back on track with the things that are important to me. Today I logged all my food (even if it did put me over on my calories for the day). I did my exercise - 30 Day Shred with Jillian - and logged it. I tried to keep up with my teams too. And I decided to post this blog. So those are my positives for today.
Tomorrow I'm going to set my alarm to get up a little bit earlier and try to Shred before work. I'm bad about hitting the snooze button, so we'll see if I'm successfull at getting out of bed. Right now I'm determined, but I know that in the morning I might tell myself "I'll do it tonight instead"... We'll see what happens.
Sunday, December 07, 2008
(This is the stock photo from the product website - it is not my dog)
One of my dogs (Thor) has problems with his neck - sometimes he gets a pinched nerve and can't move his head. We have taken him to the vet, at first they thought he might have Wobbler's disease, but after extensive xrays, they decided that he just has a couple of vertebrae that sometimes pinch, the vet doesn't think that they are degenerating. Unfortunately, Thor pulls when I walk him, and this has started affecting his neck.
So I went online to look for harnesses and found the one pictured here - it loops under his front legs, and when he pulls, it pulls up on his legs. Now, since he is terrible about pulling whenever there is a strange dog around, I had been trying to walk him in an area where there are no dogs. But he still pulls because he is excited and wants to go faster. The last 2 times I walked him he ended up with the pinched nerve. So no walks for about 2 weeks while I waited for the new harness to arrive, and the weather to cooperate (I won't walk the boys in the dark, and it's been stormy a lot so dark in the am...).
I took them on their walk today for the first time in 2 weeks, and they were very excited. Not only did I get the harness, but I got a coupler so that I could hook both dogs together and just use one leash. They did wonderful - Thor didn't pull AT ALL! So we all got some great exercise, and I'm going to order another harness for Zeus because he pulls too (he just doesn't have the neck problems like Thor). All 3 of us are excited to be walking again!
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