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Willpower cant overcome everything

Monday, September 27, 2010

I really cant cope with a few 'banned' foods being in the house. Hubby is only just starting to believe me after I literally lost the plot last week when chips (crisps) and dips made their way into the house.
BUT I have had a major wobble off diet the last two days due to an unsupervised birthday cake..Its my eldest's 15th birthday yesterday, but we celebrated his birthday at the weekend as he was on exeat from boarding school. there was a lot of cake left and since its my totm I'm hungry and of course when there is no fruit in the house the cake shouts loudest and my willpower capitulates.
This evening I came in late from work and there was literally nothing to snack on and the food was due to be delivered in the hour. damned cake shouted, and my will power capitulated, and i had a slice. Grrrr.
The cake needs to vanish and hubby needs to remember that my diet is healthy eating and that by sticking to the products I bring into the house we will all be healthier.

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SCREWIE 9/28/2010 12:40PM

    Cake isn't excellent, but if it's TOTM it's allowed, if for most of the other time you eat healthily :)

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Spark friends tempt me back

Saturday, February 06, 2010

It's been a year since I was here last. I have not put on any more but not lost ant
still over 100 lbs to go.
Today my iPhone has buzzed all day as spark friend after spark friend
has wished me happy birthday! I have thus visited back here for first time in
a year today! First step ... And I am already thinking about the next step
and the step after that... Possibly my best birthday present!

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SASKATIA 2/6/2010 4:41PM

  What a wonderful present to yourself!

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Fingers crossed.

Sunday, April 26, 2009

As my last blog made clear March was an emotional rollercoaster for me, and this has spread into April. I hid my emotions in food and its noticeably easier to buy and eat snack food when you are too stressed to cook than cook from scratch. Some of the weight has gone back on, I am sure - will weigh myself tomorrow as a starting weight as I am determined to try again.
What has helped my back is the end to my emotional rollercoaster, and a week at centreparcs - cycling everywhere!!!
I am not yet back on the diet - that starts tomorrow. I have my food planned and I am also trying Alli as it has been recommended by so many people. So long as I stay on a diet it should help!
So tomorrow is a new start. Fingers crossed.

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BABYBROWN1 5/18/2009 9:08AM

  Hi Working mum! How are you? How is the weight loss going? How do manage to juggle kids, a husband and work? Well done! I am single and can barely manage my self.....lol.... I am a 27 years old student from Ethiopia. emoticon

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MIMOR6 4/26/2009 3:20PM

    Great job setting a plan for your self. It takes time to get the weight gone. We all have days that nothing matters and we go over on our calories. Remember that is not a diet but a live it. It a life style change. So you really want to set up a plan for yourself you can do everyday or almost everyday. You are doing great on your plan. First step is wanting to change!!

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10 Days of emotional ups and downs

Thursday, March 12, 2009

My crawl back to the wagon has begun, but is taking longer than it should as there is so much going on in my life.

Last week we heard the horrible news that my daughter did not get a secondary school place worth accepting, despite being a straight A student, highly academic. She now has no place and we feel like we have let her down. I have been kicking up a fuss in the local paper, but that is focussed on changing the system rather than my own personal situation. My poor daughter is devastated and closing up. We are focussing so hard on finding her a place its draining both mentally and physically.

Contrast that with the amzing news we heard yesterday which is that my eldest son has won a scholarship to Harrow School! He is also highly academic - scarily so and he has (like his sister) worked really hard.

Its an emotional rollercoaster in our house and its hard to eat sensibly but at least I have found my way back to SP and thinking about what I eat

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LIZBETHRYAN 3/14/2009 9:45AM

    SAM sorry to hear about the crap that has been runing your life at the moment but we here at sp are here wen you get abck one to that wagon !!!!!
Our team is waiting for you good Luck !!!!

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MRS.DOYLE 3/13/2009 1:07PM

    Don't despair. The same thing happened to my daughter. I kept her on the waiting list for her first choice and by the end of March she had been offered a place. You never know what's around the corner. Good luck.

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LESS_IS_MO 3/12/2009 9:32PM

    Wow that is too bad about your daughter, but wonderful news about your son! What a roller coaster, indeed! Hang tough and just keep brushing your teeth. You'll make it if you don't ever give up.

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I need to get rid of my self destruct button.

Monday, February 23, 2009

It was all going so well. Over a stone lost, several inches lost, lots more exercise in a week than I have done in 20 years and I was feeling good. So good that my automatic self destruct sequence kicked in.

It started with a biscuit here, a snack there and soon I was back onto the takeout menus and home delivery of pizza, indian and chinese. Then bags of crisps, chocolate bars, .... I was soon back to all my old ways.

Then I had the excuses - it was a hard day, I was worried about my job given an external review of it, then hubby had a stressful time - it was so easy to find an excuse. I stopped visiting spark people as it was easier to avoid as my mind was set against a diet.

And here I am two weeks later, feeling less fit, having put on weight (I don;t even need the scales to tell me this) and I am struggling to get back on the wagon. But I still have over 100lbs to lose, still am embarrased about my facebook photo, and still embarrassed about what I look like in a swimsuit. I am determined to get back on this plan, and will do.

But I need to find and jetison that self destruct mechanism which always kicks in when I am doing well. I have to succeed. I will succeed. I will be slim. I will be fit. I will be healthy. I am DONE being the fat girl.

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KIPPER_KID 2/25/2009 1:47PM

    I would doubt you have managed to put back on in a fortnight all the weight you lost, so have a read of the quote below (from an SP article), realise you ARE succeeding and get on with stepping forwards again.

""With healthy eating and exercising, as long as you are consistently out-stepping your steps back, you are ahead of the game. If you expect perfection (and many of us do), you are setting yourself up for disappointment and guilt. "

Yes, working out why you did it and planning how to avoid it next time is a good move, beating yourself up and going off on a guilt trip isn't!!!

Welcome back and good luck with getting back to where you were and moving forward a bit more.......... emoticon

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LIZBETHRYAN 2/25/2009 10:26AM

    And there was me thinking you were not on sp coz of me ?
We all do it ( fall of the wagon ) all is forgiven stop giving yourself a hard time and FLIIPING WELL COME BACK ON AND HELP ME WITH OUR TEAM!!!!!!!!!!!!

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SCIENCE_WRITER 2/24/2009 9:46PM

  It's not easy to pick yourself up, dust yourself off, and keep going. Especially when you just want to sit down and nurse your bruises.

I agree with the previous comment. That's when you need the support the most. Someone to reach down and offer to help you up. And that's what SP is all about. When you stumble, reach out. When you don't stumble, reach out. Build yourself a support network so that it's easier to stick to.

I also agree that when you have someone else to do it with, it makes it easier, until it becomes a habit. Can you find a work buddy? Or a local friend? Or your hubby? Or all of the above? Anyone who can help you stick with your plan is a good person to have around!

I wish you all the luck in the world. I know exactly where you are (in life, of course - I just realized how weird that sounded). I've been there. And I want to make it past that point this time, too!

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LESS_IS_MO 2/23/2009 9:44PM

    You get going girl! Do you have a friend to diet with, or weigh each other in? When I started, I slipped off the wagon a lot, but I'd joined WW with a friend of mine and she would drag me back, especially in the first 13 weeks or so. Then she quit of course, but I was making progress by then and was ok on my own. Anyway, glad you're back, and just keep brushing your teeth. (Another sparker, early in my days here, told me that someone had told her, that living a healthy lifestyle is like brushing your teeth...if you forget to do it one day, it's not like you're gonna givie it up. You know it's good for you, so you just do it again the next day. Well we have to think like that with living healthily too...If we make bad choices one day, or one minute, just try to make a better choice the next minute, or the next day. Anyway, I love that teeth brushing analogy and never forgot it. So go brush your teeth!!!)

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