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Thanks!

Thursday, July 30, 2009

I haven't been on spark for over a month. Been busy and haven't been doing much with diet or exercise. But I wanted to take a moment to thank everyone for the great birthday wishes. It will take me a while, but I will do my best to get to all of your pages to thank you personally. I appreciate your taking the time to send best wishes my way even though I haven't been active. I really appreciate it!!!

  
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WIFEALF 7/26/2010 8:07AM

    I am glad you are back....Happy belated birthday!

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DANIELWIFEY 8/4/2009 8:41AM

    Happy Belated birthday. And congrats on the new trophy!

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MAURIZIA 8/3/2009 10:38AM

    Just so you know...you aren't alone...I'm just getting back- figured it's the beginning of a new month...hoping I can go longer in August than I did in July! Want to join me?

Hugs,
Mauri

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VIVIANSMOM 7/30/2009 9:39PM

    Belated birthday Wishes! I'm so glad you're a part of the Fluidity Spark Team!

Best wishes, Julie

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MBSHAZZER 7/30/2009 10:29AM

    I had no idea... happy belated birthday!!

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BUGLET- 7/30/2009 9:45AM

    Come back to Spark if you can, you're missed! emoticon emoticon emoticon

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What Not to Wear

Thursday, April 23, 2009

When I say I have nothing to wear that fits, I actually mean just that. Nothing. I'm not exaggerating. I'm not stretching the truth. I mean am busting out of everything I own. Even my exercise pants are to small. They roll down off my stomach like pantyhose that are to tight...as do my jeans and my khakis.

I look like I'm 14 months pregnant. That also is NOT an exaggeration. Even though I have weighed more, I think my stomach is bigger than it's ever been. My stomach now enters a room before I do. I get this wonderful genetic trait from my Dad's side of the family. I'm built just like my Dad and his Mom (my Grandmother)...which my dh has told me he does not find attractive. Who could blame him, I don't find it attractive either and neither does anyone else on the planet. I feel like I've pulled a bait and switch on him because I've put on a hundred pounds plus since we were married. I've lost and gained more than I can count. If I'm not losing, I'm gaining. I'm never one weight for more than 20 seconds. I think watching The Food Network even causes me to gain weight. It's ridiculous.

I have been asked if I'm pregnant from every weight from 120 to 200+ because of my build. I dO look like I'm pregnant. And there is NO hiding it at this point. I'm embarrassed to go out in public because a year and a half ago I was 30-40lbs lighter and I'm really afraid that anyone that sees me will think I am pregnant and ask that dreaded question that I HATE! No one wants to be asked if they are pregnant when they aren't. I don't have kids and I don't want kids and I think it's natures cruel joke that I've looked like I'm in some stage of pregnancy my entire adult life.

I don't think I've ever had a flat stomach. I hate my body for that reason & have always been self conscious of it. That and also because every bite I take has the potential to make me gain weight. If I'm not a little hungry all the time, I am gaining weight. In other words, if I eat till I'm full, the scale goes up, a lot, and quickly. It doesn't matter if I eat veggies or cheesecake but if I eat till I'm full, I'm fat and getting fatter.

Every time I lose weight and think this is it, I've figured it out, this is the final time, I'll never go back "there" again...here I go, marching right back up the scale AGAIN! It's like my body just wants to be obese. My stomach is actually getting in the way of my exercising and restricting my movement. It's sO gross!...and I'm so sick of it.

I have to find something to wear to go out of town next weekend to a meeting to represent an organization in which I am acting Treasurer for the next term. Right now I'm asking myself why I took the position. I sO dread trying to find something to wear. And I dread going because I know I am going to be sO uncomfortable around hundreds of women who I imagine will all be plucked, pruned, manicured and stuffed into their finest for the weekend.

Today our cable ad executive called and wants me to be on their talk show to do a feature about our business. The last thing I want to do right now is go on camera and look ANOTHER 15lbs heavier.

My weight is getting in the way of my life. Because I'm embarrassed and ashamed of the way I look I don't want to go out and do anything. Fun, work or otherwise. DH keeps asking me where I want to go on vacation this year and I don't want to go anywhere looking and feeling like this.

I am exercising...again. And I am watching my portions...again. But I don't know if it will work or even stick this time. Why would it? It hasn't any other time. I'm sO sick of riding this roller coaster. It's like I've got a life pass. I want off the ride but I can't find the exit.

  
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CINDIDIT 4/27/2009 8:59AM

    Plan out today, and plan out this week. Take it in small goals or you overwhelm yourself.
Major goal= you will have nothing to wear because everything is too big. Keep that upper most in your mind. This isn't about being perfect, we all make decisions everyday, and not every decision will fall under what you think you should have done, But.... Every right decision every day adds up. You have to find your balance, eating enough to satisfy yourself while cutting enough calories to lose weight. This is where moving comes in, the more extra calories you burn, the higher your calories to eat can be.
Forget the past, Your life starts anew today.
cindy
Ps; It also sounds like you bloat easy? maybe those over the counter anti gas things.

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DIAMNDSPRKLMOM 4/25/2009 11:11AM

    Hey Gorgeous you CAN do this! Don't let life get you down. Pray first, then Plan. Getting back on track IS possible! emoticon emoticon

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SWEETZMIX 4/23/2009 1:36PM

    That frame of mind can really screw u up, but it's like that is how you feel. Have you considered that you have to focus more on your mental as well as the scale going down. You will never be happy with yourself and I think you should work on it. Don't feel bad girl, I know I used to hate shopping cuz nothing will close over my gut. Even now with me losing weight from the belly button to my rib cage there is a pouch of tummy that will not go away. I just try not letting that get me down. I have spent enough time not doing things and enjoying myself due to my feeling on how I look. Focus on the things you like about yourself. You are beautiful :)

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HARRINGTON5 4/23/2009 1:01PM

    I can really feel your pain, but I agree, you made me chuckle all the way through your blog. You have that quality. At a couple of points, I also wanted to cry. I actually did not go on a trip with my BF because we would be going with friends that had not seen me in years and I had gained so much weight, I felt gross. It was at Christmas and I spent Christmas home alone because I didn't want to be seen. I can tell you today, I would never do that again! It just made me feel more miserable and I did nothing but eat while he was gone. I do have a new attitude today. I still slip back and I am still unhappy with my stomach because it is not flat and probably never will be, but I have made progress and I do things now for me. If I want to enjoy a trip, I'm going to enjoy it! Look at Susan Boyle! When she came out on stage people were laughing and snickering until she started to sing. It sounds like you are down, even with your joking, I still get that sense. Just take one step at a time. Yes, it is slow, but, if you can be consistent, it will pay off. Letting your feels out is very therapeutic! You can do it. You have lots of friends right here that are willing to help you through it. Cynthia

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MBSHAZZER 4/23/2009 11:07AM

    I know you're at the end of your rope, but your post made me chuckle. At least you have not lost your sense of humor!

Just a few things - I think you're beautiful. I don't know you, but in your posts you radiate warmth, energy and kindness. I think if we lived closer, we would be friends. I bet you have a lot of friends because of those qualities.

Also, everyone has their "thing". My tummy is flat, but my thighs... WOW! If I lost 10 pounds right now, my thighs would still be the same size. In fact, when I was 20, I got very, very ill. I weighed 82 pounds. The big joke was that I still had my parents' thighs (double whammy - they both have short fat legs). If you just looked at my legs, you would have no idea that they were attached to an emaciated person. So, my point is - we all have something that drives us crazy - I know for you it's probably extra galling to have people think you are pregnant.

Hang in there - you are a beautiful person and I know that you will find success.

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CHEPRBYTHEDOZN 4/23/2009 10:06AM

    FATCATTN... I can hear your pain and I have no real advice for you. I will say a prayer for you. And the first lady that posted a comment here said the best, I think. Tell yourself the truth: You are special and beautiful and you will get healthier if you keep telling yourself these things. Mind over matter: I have read alot of that and it works! You can get healthy and find something to wear..it will happen!

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CANNOTFATHOM 4/23/2009 10:00AM

    Throughout the blog is the essential theme that you want to change and that you are working to get there. We come in all kinds of packages. Best wishes on getting the self image you want!

Penny

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WANDAH3 4/23/2009 8:04AM

    I'm sorry that you are hurting...been there and know the feeling.

This is what helped me and maybe it will help you also. Positive affirmations, yep...when I first started looking at myself in the mirror each morning (I could only look at my eyes, cause the rest of me grossed me out) and started telling myself, "I am loved, I am worthy, I deserve perfect health, I am "eliminating" weight, I am slender, I have the life I desire" and many other positives self declarations, I had that little voice snickering in my ear "Yeah right! snort, snort snort. But I decided I needed to learn to love myself, because no one else was going to give me the life I desired, no one else was responsible for my decisions, no one else mattered more than me. I kept on faithfully stating my positives affirmations, several times a day. Slowly I started to believe them and slowly my body began to become the body of a healthy person. As my thinking changed and became healthy, my attitude changed and it became easier to exercise and eat healthy...I deserve to be health.
You deserve to be healthy...what have you got to lose by trying.

Hugs,
Wanda

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CAMPINLADY 4/23/2009 7:49AM

    My sister was joking that she always looks like she's pregnant...and the thing that sucks is that she can't even pretend that she is because she's too old and no one would believe it.

Here's the thing...you're not alone. If you don't believe me, head to the nearest Walmart and just watch the women coming and going.

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IMOFF2DLOONYBIN 4/23/2009 2:25AM

    I understand this looking pregnant thing. I'm not quite old enough to get the questions, but I'm starting to fear their approach. I gain weight in my stomach. I have to be careful what I wear or my stomach looks very pronounced and like I'm flaunting a baby that isn't in there. It sucks. Just keep going and keep trying. That's how spark is different we're supposed to change for the long run not just until we lose the weight. It's hard. You might try just being very dedicated. I find that I do better with exercise and food if I log them everyday and if I get on spark everyday. It really helps.

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Cardioke = Fun

Tuesday, April 21, 2009

So I just finished the 68 minute Cardioke workout by Billy Blanks, Jr. (Tae Bo, Sr's son) and his wife. It is reminiscent of the videos with Richard Simmons in that he uses regular folks that aren't perfect and don't all dance so well which adds another level of entertainment and comfort. But that is where the similarities end. This dvd is more like, Sweatin to the Oldies on Red Bull and uses more current dance tracks like, "Don't you wish your g/f was hot like me." It's also karaoke in that you sing along with the music. Singing along is not only fun but helps build stamina. (No mic needed).

When I put this dvd in, I expected it to be a fun little *read easy* dance party. Well it's a fun dance party that kicked my butt. BB, Jr. got his Dad's Tae Bo intensity. It's a lot of fun but I was huffing and puffing, which is a good thing. Because it's dancing you can put your own flavor in it and keeps it relaxed.

BB, Jr. and his wife also have a very encouraging and motivating style just like BB, Sr. does in his Tae Bo dvds. I really like this aspect of the workout.

You can program the dvd to do just the sections you want so you don't have to do all 68 minutes every time. A nice feature.

I will definitely do this workout again. It's a little corny but it's also fun. It's a nice change of pace from more serious dvds like, The Firm. But like, 'Sweatin' - anyone can do it!

"Let's get it started in here, lets get it started, ha!"

  
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WOLFKITTY 4/19/2011 12:28PM

    I've never heard of this!! I'm so glad you blogged about it way back in 2009! HEehee. :D

Jocelyn

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DAIMERE 1/25/2011 4:22AM

    I just saw a preview of it and it looks like a hoot! I might have to wait till later to use as a reward.

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SAMAJAY1013 5/19/2009 9:11PM

  I did a short segment (26 minutes) on On Demand, it's really fun, I actually did it a few times

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SEEBEES3 4/22/2009 8:18PM

    What fun!. It sounds like you had a great workout!

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DIAMNDSPRKLMOM 4/22/2009 4:45PM

    AWEsome!!! I did see that when I was shopping for a new Tae Bo video! I just couldn't decide which one I wanted to buy! emoticon

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SWEETZMIX 4/22/2009 3:15PM

    OMGosh, I was just looking into his DVD because I recently heard about it. I just checked it out on YouTube and it looks like tons of fun and he was on Ellen (even though I missed it) before.

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MAURIZIA 4/22/2009 10:56AM

    Okay. Guess I'm in a negative space today...so need to get out of it. When I read your title, I first became concerned...and THEN saw "= fun." Geesh! Gotta work on this stress!
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Hugs, Mauri

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GRALLEN 4/22/2009 8:28AM

    I'll have to look into that. I'm kinda thinkin I'm ready for a new workout DVD.

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CINDIDIT 4/22/2009 7:14AM

    Thanks for the review.
cindy

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CANNOTFATHOM 4/21/2009 7:31PM

    Sounds fun! Never heard of it before :)

Penny

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KNH771 4/21/2009 6:13PM

    I'd never heard of Cardioke - it sounds like fun! Thanks for sharing. I'll have to look it up.

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MBSHAZZER 4/21/2009 5:01PM

    Fantastic! So glad to see you are back on track and enjoying exercise! Sounds like a fun DVD!

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200.0

Sunday, April 12, 2009

What tha?! That is a number I SWORE I'd never see between my toes again, yet tonight on my scale, there it was staring up at me. I knew working on our taxes would take it's toll. All those hours. Working through the night for weeks on end. But, 200 lbs, ridiculous!

Helen said this week on the biggest loser that she felt like she let herself down and she is tired of doing that. Tears sprung into my eyes because that is the exact same thing I have done time and time again. I HATE being fat. HATE IT! Yet here I sit. FAT!

Because I've been locked in this house working on taxes for what feels like forever, dh wanted to take me out to dinner tonight. I literally could not find anything in my closet that didn't make me look 10 months pregnant. I am NOT exaggerating even a little. I wish I was. I finally gave up on trying to look nice and grabbed my fat jeans and a long sleeve t-shirt. Needless to say I did not feel cute. I felt HORRIBLE.

When dh got home he would not let me out of the door until I told him what was wrong. I said, "I hate myself, alright?! You've been after me to tell you what is wrong with me and that is it. I hate absolutely everything about myself." He hugged me and during the course of our conversation told me that he's fat too and that no one is perfect. He also told me I looked nice as we were walking in the restaurant. A bit of a stretch, but I appreciated the sentiment.

I was working out and doing so much better on my eating before I had to hunker down on taxes. It turned out to be much more time intensive and involved than I had anticipated. I told myself I would do whatever it took to get through it and that after taxes were done, I would turn my focus onto myself. I can be very intense and driven when I want to be, and need to be....which is how I got our taxes done.

Monday is d-day. I actually enjoy healthy foods and love to exercise - I just don't EVER put myself first, and when I do, I never stay there long. It's my turn. I told dh that if anyone says to me, "I wish I had time to workout" or even suggests that I should be doing something 'better' with my time or that I'm not doing as much as him because I'm selfishly spending time on myself, that I might just punch them between the eyes. His family is notorious for this. I mean geez!, what is wrong with being healthy and taking care of myself?!?! My Dad has diabetes and high blood pressure as did his Mom. I'm built just like them. That is my fate if I don't get this gut under control. I keep watching shows like, The Biggest Loser, The Last Ten Pounds, & Bulging Brides. I want to feel success again like those people.

Tomorrow night we are going grocery shopping. I can't wait. I'm so ready to eat better and feel better and move more. I've actually been craving things like strawberries and protein shakes. I have several new workout systems that I haven't had time to use yet like, Kettlenetics & transFIRMation Cardio Weights. I also got a gift card for Easter and used it to order some other fitness DVDs that I wanted (& a couple that Bree suggested!).

Thanks to everyone who stuck by me & sent messages and goodies during tax prep. I appreciated your encouragement. I will be more active again, but not too active. I need to get to bed earlier and spend more time working out than sitting on my backside!

I feel like such a failure for gaining this weight back - but I'm only REALLY a failure if I quit and give up. Here's to never giving up.

  
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SEEBEES3 4/16/2009 4:13PM

    *HUGS* Tax time is so stressfull. And I'm willing to bet that if you look back you will see that you did some things better than you did before. The ups and downs of life always happen. You can do this!

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HARRINGTON5 4/15/2009 2:07PM

    Oh, I feel your pain! I have been going through the same thing. My IRA was almost wiped out completely and to add insult to injury, I had to pay $7000 on money that I withdrew to keep from losing it. I was so depressed, I ate everything in sight! I just retired last year and now I don't know if I will have to go back to work or not. I was fortunate in the fact that I had some time to get healthy again, but I feel like I was robbed. I am going on to finish up my "get healthy" program and I have gotten interested in running races, but it has been a struggle. I am told that time heals all, so I will get through this and so will you. You are on the right track again and you are done with taxes, so let's carry on. OK?

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MAURIZIA 4/13/2009 12:20PM

    Okay. Repeat after me: I am NOT a failure...I only took a misstep. Did you say it? Out loud? Now BELIEVE it.

I read your blog with such commiseration...I'm there because of stress at work...and thank you for helping me see that I, too, am important and that all will be okay as long as I do the best I can...and to do that, I have to care for myself.

Not only are you being successful with continuing back on your journey's path, but for leading me there with you.

Hugs,
Maurizia

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BABSDOTTER 4/12/2009 4:44PM

    OK, now quit beating yourself up about what is past and look forward to what is to come. Get back on track. If this weight loss thing were easy, no one would be fat. Here's to never giving up. You go girl. Janet

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SWEETZMIX 4/12/2009 4:06PM

    emoticon Hell Yeah girl we do not give up!! Here's to us!! Taxes are over and done with, now it is time to spend time on you. Get yourself back on track, next week you shall never see 200 on that scale again!
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BUGLET- 4/12/2009 12:59PM

    I used to hate taxes too. Then I got smart and set up a file system so all I have to do is grab the stuff out of the file, total it, add it to an index sheet and ship it off to my accountant. If you file it during the year, it's not so overwhelming. I probably don't have some of your deductions but I know what I can claim and I make a file for it, then when W2's etc come in I pile them in a pile until they are all in. Happy Easter and please know that you are a special person and while it's nice to be healthy, you are more than what you weigh. Once a checker asked me when my baby was due...I had on a smock type thingy but it was a dose of reality...

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SHIRLEYDILLARD 4/12/2009 9:59AM

    Glad to hear you are ready to get back on track. It is hard to put yourself first - but when you don't, you are not at your best for anyone. emoticon

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SHERYLDI1 4/12/2009 9:57AM

    Failure??? You'd be a failure if you gave up. You had a setback and now you're going to move on. Stress probably had a LOT to do with it. We've all been there and we'll be there to help you move on. It looks like you're taking the right steps to getting past it.

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MUFAMUFAMUFA 4/12/2009 9:46AM

    You can do it and you are definitely not alone! Check out my "Honestly, I'm not ten months pregnant!" picture. Best of luck getting back into the routine.

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MARALEE3 4/12/2009 9:25AM

    Sorry to hear that you were having such a rough time.....but guess what today is a new day and you have some new fitness stuff to use and with your commitment to yourself you will succeed. I remember feeling guilty about taking so much time to myself for my exercises but now I just say to myself if I don't do this now and for myself I won't be there for them.

Stay strong you are going to win this just remember one day at a time.

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MBSHAZZER 4/12/2009 8:58AM

    Ugh, tax time. Don't even get me started. I hate that I have to spend all that time and effort just to figure out how much MORE I owe the government.

Anyway, I can hear the frustration and determination in your post... I KNOW you can do this! Don't focus on the number, just enjoy the journey towards better health... physical AND mental!

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CANNOTFATHOM 4/12/2009 8:47AM

    Sorry that you've been having such a time! Best wishes on a fresh start!

Penny

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LSTRAIT2000 4/12/2009 3:41AM

  emoticon Here's to never giving up. Start fresh on Monday. It will get better. I know it probably isn't much of a reward, BUT you set out to finish a tough job on the taxes and now that those are out of the way, you can go onto your next task - YOU!!

Enjoy shopping and have a great Easter.

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If I knew then...

Saturday, March 07, 2009

I was looking at my photo gallery today at the pics of me in my twenties. I would love to have THAT body back. The one where I only had what I considered one trouble spot - my belly. At that time Jane Fonda & Jamie Lee Curtis's super, board flat stomach were the rage - not like now when Brittney, Kim & J-Lo have made it OK to have a little flesh there. Now my trouble spots are my belly PLUS my arms, thighs, butt, back and everywhere else you can have a trouble spot. But then when I weighed, 118 - 128, I thought I had to weigh, 100-110, so I was always fighting it and never happy.

Over the years since I have been all over the scale. Up and down untold times. Almost never stationary. I'm either gaining or losing. I have wasted so much time and energy fighting and hating my body and the way I look at any given weight. Never satisfied.

If I knew then what I know now, I would have never gained the weight and I would have enjoyed the body that I had. What I can do now is take what I do know now and stop the cycle. I can use what I now know and stop wasting time battling the scale. Instead of wasting more time fat and hating my body and waking up ANOTHER year later not happy with the way I look, I can do something about it NOW.

I know what it takes for me to lose weight. I have to eat less than anyone I know. It's not fun, and I don't like it, but unfortunately it's the way my body functions. I have to stop pouting about it and wishing it was different - accept it and deal with it. In order to lose weight and keep it off, I have to walk, A LOT. Other exercises help of course, but for some reason walking works best for my body to release the weight.

I have started to track my food. I love the new nutrition tracker that charts what I'm doing right and where I need to improve. I save most of my calories for supper because I know dh and I are going to eat a big meal together. I've stopped snacking late at night. I think I tend to want to eat then because it is when I am finally relaxing and food helps me to relax. I KNOW that is THE MAIN THING that halts my progress and sends me marching right back up the scale, so I have cut it out. I have started moving more. Come Monday morning I am planning to start pounding the pavement. I've started getting up from my desk and moving during the day. I have several of the, "10 Minute Solution" exercise dvd series. Those bursts help to keep my sluggish metabolism moving and they are fun!

This is my program. It works whenever I follow it. This week I'm done with four pounds by making these simple changes. I'm looking forward to burning up my ticker in the months to come.

I have been dealing with some very serious, life changing & often overwhelming issues over the past several years that have caused me to turn to food for comfort, but those things have been resolved. I have no more excuses. Reading your blogs and seeing your progress and receiving your support and encouragement have motivated me to get my Spark on too. It's been snuffed out for way too long.

Whatever you can do, or dream you can, begin it. Boldness has genius, power and magic in it. - Goethe

  
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HARRINGTON5 3/12/2009 3:54PM

    I know what you mean about looking at old pictures and wondering why you weren't happy then. I said the same thing, when I was thin, I thought I was fat and when I really was fat, I kept telling myself that I didn't look too bad. Well, I was wrong both times and like you, this time, I want to get it right. As you probably guessed by now, I am a BIG fan of walking and I walk a lot. It is the one thing I have been consistent about. I always said if I even smelled food, I could gain weight. So, I have to track every single thing I put in my mouth. (even gum) But, you have the right attitude and you are doing the right things. The weight will come off, you just have to keep trying and be patient. Believe me, I am writing that for my own benefit, I have been at the same weight for a month, but I know, if I don't give in, I will start to lose again. You are a winner!

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CASPER61 3/10/2009 11:30AM

    Great job.

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CINDIDIT 3/9/2009 9:48AM

    You sound like me, with the not being able to eat much to get weight loss and the late night snacking.
I Have found that if I go to bed by ten, it cuts out a lot of calories, I am a night owl and do not like to go to bed early. But increasing my exercise made an earlier bed time better, and then more sleep made it easier to increase my exercise, so its a win win when I can do it.
cindy

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MAURIZIA 3/9/2009 7:17AM

    Isn't it true? We are never happy with our outsides! I could have written this blog...and this weekend hindsight has been where I've lived. I'm moving forward today...can't undo the past...just change the present!

Hugs,
Mauri

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CANNOTFATHOM 3/8/2009 9:14PM

    Great quote at the end! Best wishes on becoming the best you!


Penny

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2BHOTNTONED 3/8/2009 6:11PM

    emoticon Great blog, sounds like you are well on your way to weight loss.
Keep up the positive attitude.
Hope you have a very successful week and achieve your goals.

Jas

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WORKTHEGOAL 3/8/2009 11:16AM

    Great blog, it hit ALL the buttons! For some reason when we are young other women are always 'better' than we are, always comparing ourselves to them 'they' were the enemy showing how we SHOULD look. But the spark pages are great for showing us that the other women are actually our 'friends' what a beautiful turnaround.

We come in all shapes and sizes and its fab that we can still appreciate who we are in the 'shell' we have been given just improving it as we go along for that 'feel good factor' and good health.

I love your enthusiasm and new found freedom - Go for it emoticon

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HEALTHYKIM101 3/7/2009 9:04PM

    You Go Girl! You have the motivation and a good attitude going. Keep it up. If you need any help or encouragement stop by my page or email me. We are all in this together and need to keep each other motivated. Keep on SPARKLING!!!
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LINDA! 3/7/2009 6:21PM

    Oh boy, I could relate to what you said. I was thin as a young woman and thought I was FAT!!! GRRR It is harder to get the body back in shape but with your attitude YOU WILL DO IT. Keep up the positive thoughts,.you are a winner. emoticon

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NJMATTICE 3/7/2009 6:07PM

    Keeping motivated is really the most important part of lifestyle change. Hanging around these pages can help a lot. There is a lot of emotional stuff to deal with as we age and it's hard to let go of past regrets. It's the tough work we do. My Mom says old age is "insidious". She would gladly trade places with me at 54. (she's 79) It's all a matter of making the most with what we have at this very minute. Enjoy your day and enjoy your wonderful healthy body and give thanks. It will lift you right up so that you can make you best healthy choices right now. (I'm not saying it's easy! I'm just saying that it is the good work that we are about!)
Thanks for sharing.
Fondly,
Nancy

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YOYONOMORE1 3/7/2009 6:05PM

    It sounds like you have taken the bull by the horns and know what you need to do and you are going to do it, for you. Good for you. Keep that attitude and you will be so successful.

Hugs,
Shirl

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NHGRL68 3/7/2009 5:24PM

    It sounds like you are well on your way to weight loss:-) Keep up the positive attitude and good work emoticon

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