Thursday, August 15, 2013
Am I in the worst shape I've ever been. I had the most awful acid reflux, heartburn ...whatever you call it... last night. It was painful and I had to vomit because I over ate or something. Every single time I tried to burp or burped on my own...food was coming back up. I feel so heavy ... and when I run I jiggle.. its gross. I hate this feeling. I lost track of myself yet again. I went back to school and I totally neglected my healthy eating and exercising.Anyways, I don't mean to sound like a whiny angry biatch. So I'm just going to have to prioritize my time, my life, and my family. I have to focus and keep on task. I had this odd thought that I could participate in the Race for Rescues here in LA or Orange County. I think I find it odd that I'm just out of shape and need to find motivation, yet I want to do it so bad for the dogs and cats to make another year. I want to help them. If I exercise I'll be on track...through my mind.. clarity.
I also fell into a deep depression, it actually comes and goes whenever I reevaluate my situation. My situation is that I want to move out of my parent's home for once. In order to do that I need more money and in order to make more money I need a raise OR I need a new job. In order to get a new job or a raise I need to update my background and complete my degree. Its a cycle that I enjoy yet there are stumbling blocks. Now I'm craving pizza. fun.