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second weigh in

Tuesday, September 04, 2012

I DID IT!! I DID IT!! I lost weight in my first week on the program! I was ecstatic when i stepped on the scale.. ok picture this, I step on the scale and CLOSE my eyes.. exhale and look down.. My initial reaction.. WHAT??? HMMM?? emoticonlets try this again.. i was shocked! 6LBS down! I am so happy! I am well on my way to my first goal of 10lbs. I cant turn back now. If you actually get to know me, the first thing that you will get to know about me is once I'm started, there is no stopping this girl!!
the metaphor i like to use is me being a boulder (very fitting really :)) rolling down a hill! soon I will have to say I'm more of an energizer bunny but for now, the boulder fits well.

Happy Sparking Everyone!!

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SKEETOR 9/6/2012 7:42AM

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CORVINESQUE 9/4/2012 10:10PM

    Woo hoo!!!

That is awesome, and so exciting! Great job!

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DANYGIRL40 9/4/2012 4:20PM

    Congratulations on your weight loss!!!! emoticon

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Day 6.

Sunday, September 02, 2012

I have to say, I went back and read ym blog entry twice this week..I have to say "WOW DID THAT FEEL GREAT TO GET OFF MY CHEST!!" I am on day 6 of my journey though i have had some struggles with making the right choices, I feel alright about my progress. I definitely was a lot more conscinious about what i was eating- though not all the best choices, overall, it was alright- for my first week emoticon
I was going to make a habit of blogging at the beginning of the new week- however- today i feel qualifies for a "special day to blog" my husband and I are in the process of moving- needless to say, there is a lot of work needed to be done before we have the moving truck knocking at our door.
I was going through some of my closet and the clothes that no longer fit me. I get it, i gradually go to the size i am now, and i will gradually take all this off. But my clothes- my favorite dresses, shirts, pants ect. Im SOOO EXCITED to be able to fit into them again!!

We have had a very hectic summer and were unable to take much time off with both of us changing jobs and relocating- I am excited, i have planned a surprise trip for my husband and i around our anniversary to VEGAS!!!! we both have never been so this will be great to get away. All he knows is he has to take holidays for a few days.. he suspects something big though..

I see the trip as a great step for me. I want to lose some weight before (which im optimistic that i will) to gain some of my self confidence back! and hopefully be able to bring a few items i have been longing to wear on the trip wth me!

anyways, I think thats all i have to say for now :)

thanks for stopping by!

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SKEETOR 9/2/2012 5:47PM

    I agree! Getting back into clothes that were too small is a GREAT feeling. I haven't reached that point yet, BUT my clothes are fitting a little looser! emoticon

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Breaking Point

Tuesday, August 28, 2012

Hi everyone! thanks for stopping by.
I want to attempt to blog my weight loss journey. I have tried and failed at numerous attempts to lose my "few excess" pounds (over 100 btw)- I really dont know how to even start nor have I ever blogged about anything before, or kept a journal (ok that's a lie, every girl has kept a journal about their secret crushes when they were 8). But honestly, nothing to this magnitude.
I think its only right to introduce myself.. I mean that's what i do in my first blog entry correct? meh, who cares!!! here goes nothing.
I have titled my Blog BREAKING POINT!! and it is exactly that. I have been overweight, no scratch that, obese- for my entire life. I was always the big boned girl, chubby cheeked girl.. never the petite ones like my friends.
I never let my weight hold me back however, I graduated high school with honors, when on to get a bachelor of science in Nursing and managed to land my ultimate DREAM JOB as a clinical educator. OHHH and not to mention, meet and marry the man of my dreams, my rock. :)
As I mentioned before, i have been overweight my entire life. I dont know why its soo hard to talk about it. And as i mentioned before, as blogging is a new concept for me, expressing myself about my weight is as well- but here goes nothing.
I have approx. 100lbs to lose for me to be within my healthy BMI.. but no, i havent been this heavy all my life. over the last 6 years i have known my now husband, i have steadily gained 60 of them.. Its heart wrenching to actually be typing this. but this nurse, needs to have some form of a reality check.
My husband is the most supportive person i have known. Any time i bring up any negativity about my appearance or weight, he tells me to stop being so hard on myself. He tells me that I'm the most beautiful woman he has met. ... Its sad that i cant see what he can. I get emotional when i think about myself- its disheartening to know that while typing this, i have tears running down my chubby cheeks.
Now why today? why is today my breaking point? why not yesterday? or last month? why not last year? or 10 years ago? but today.. I went to pick up my photos from our last trip we took together. (We went to Disney World) The photos came out great. but one thing was missing..... there wasn't a single photo of my husband and i or of me taken. I remember being reluctant a couple times when he was trying to take a photo- I didnt think it was that bad..

Ashamed, Embarrassment, Guilt, Hate, Frustration, Anger.. all emotions i hide away, until I'm like the pot on your stove boiling over. Countless times I have said, this time.. this will be the time. I will do it this time. and countless times, i am back where i started.
I sound like a sad soul dont i? I am rarely a negative person, i try hard to hide all these emotions away (and i think i do a pretty darn good job of it) but this time, is the time.. THIS TIME IS THE TIME!!!!!
I am 25yrs old, i want a family one day, i want to be that HOT MOM!!! walking with a baby stroller. I want to be the wife my husband shows off and most of all, I want my happiness that i portray on the outside, to match the happy person on the inside all of the time. I want to be able to walk on a beach in a bikini and come back with a tan.. .instead of shorts and a tanktop that i generally wear to cover up what others shouldnt see.

But most of all, i want to be healthy. .. and thus, this is my breaking point.... My excuses are done, i have thrown in the towel, and this is where its all. ITS NOW OR NEVER.

Thanks for stopping by!
SPARK CHEERS!!!! emoticon

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STONECOT 8/29/2012 3:24PM

    Sometimes you have to hit rock bottom to be able to start climbing up. We're all here for the same reason, although our journeys are unique. You have the great start, that you are a happy person, so start doing the baby steps with a smile on your face. Best of luck.

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LOSINIT87 8/28/2012 10:26PM

    This could have been written by me, in many ways. It is hard, to finally get to that point where you have had enough. But it looks like you have reached it.

I look forward to seeing your journey (and success)!

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