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Monday, July 19, 2010

Everything was going fine for my normal Sunday,hanging around the home front, logging my food articles in my tracker, talking to friends online and spending time with my Jaybug, just another normal day at home. Then while I was hosting a bingo game in our league at Pogo, my daughter ran in screaming. It scared me to death. She brought me the BAD news that my cat, TIGER was outside in my front yard dead emoticon. We were angry but more upset because we lost a part of our family, and don't know why, he wasn't hit by a car , no marks or evidence he was attacked by another animal, nothing!, its a mystery. We rescued him 3 yrs ago , on my sons 19th birthday he didn't have a home he was abandoned I believe. He was welcomed to our home , "His new HOME". I will always love you tiger and MISS you terribly

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SONGIE 7/19/2010 7:45PM

    I am so sorry to hear about your loss. I will be praying for you....I know it is hard.

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TWOTIMESS 7/19/2010 5:43PM

So sorry! Remember the good times.

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KATHELEEN2 7/19/2010 4:36PM

    Aww Sheila, I'm so sorry you lost your cat. Although I was there last night, re-reading what you have posted makes me realize how really sad it is to lose a pet. I had to put my cat sleep (almost 2 years ago) seems like yesterday, and she was 15 years old. I thought I was going to die with her, so I can imagine what this feels like for you and your family!
Hang in there friend!!\ emoticon emoticon
Love ya,

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ONLYBABS 7/19/2010 4:14PM

    I'm sorry for your loss. We have an aging pet and have lost other beloved ones over the years. It is always a great sadness, you do have my sympathy. Barb emoticon emoticon emoticon

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BECCA_ANNE 7/19/2010 3:53PM

    I'm so sorry for your loss! Our furbabies are part of the family too and it's so hard to lose one! emoticon

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FATROCKSTAR 7/19/2010 3:44PM

    I know that that had to have been a shock losing your cat-there is a reason they always say that cats have nine lives-they really make their mark on your heart and then are gone! I know this doesn't make it any easier to deal with, and I feel for your family! Normandy

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DEE107 7/19/2010 3:28PM

    so sorry for the lost of your family,., hugs

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Sunday, July 18, 2010

begins a new week for us all. I hope everyone had a great weekend. I do have to say though, I didnt do so well friday night and saturday with my meal plans. I did however jot down and recorded everything I ate in my tracker, I think its a good idea because it shows me where I went wrong. After seeing the sodium intake on lunch Sat, I damn near had a stroke, not literally , thank GOD. That got me to thinking what I am to do about my weekend splurges. I am happy to say though I only had a tuna salad for dinner Saturday night, vut with all calories and other nutrients being so high, I could have went without dinner emoticon.

Today I have been back on track, Thank you Jesus, and following my plan like im suppose to. When I get bored I just go to blogging or doing something to keep my mind off the food and refrigerator. I am proud of my friend Kathy on here, she lost4 lbs this past week and is doing a awesome job with sparks. I know I have lost too but not sure how much because my scale only reaches 440, so I do know I havent got there yet lol. But I will, because I am taking it now one day at a time

Have a Blessed Sunday my spark friends emoticon

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SONGIE 7/18/2010 9:05PM

    Great job! It is easy to let an off track day throw you for a loop, but you put it behind you and are back in the swing of things--that is a big accomplishment!! emoticon

Congratulations to you, too, Kathy!! emoticon

I understand too well about the sodium! Even eating well within my calories and other nutrients I have the hardest time staying in the range for sodium. I am trying to find good options to have on hand.

We can do this, ladies. Leaning upon the Lord, He can do what we cannot, and we will get there!!

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KATHELEEN2 7/18/2010 5:55PM

    Hey Sheila, thanks for your kind words about me! But emoticon and I know it! If it weren't for you I wouldn't be here and I know that it is hard for you, but I also know that you are my inspiration and you will get it right with your food plan. The weekends are particularly hard. I know that there were a number of times today when I wanted to go the fridge to eat something, but knew that it was just because I was bored so instead, I did some of the things that I initially planned to do in the first place. My bad habit-PROCRASTINATION! I'm glad you decided to blog when you felt like eating. This site has been my life saver in that sense. I found myself coming here twice today when I wanted to eat reading other blogs or articles on nutrition and stuff! Keep up the good work and know that I am here for you, as well as your other friends here and the SparkFamily!! So, with us and the help of God, you are going to do this!!

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Here I am Again!

Friday, July 16, 2010

Hi family and friends of Sparks, I am BACK!. It has been way over a year since I have been around but this time I brought more with me, not just weight but friends who I call my 2nd family. We are all needing a different lifestyle change but have different things needed to do , to help us get there. emoticon. I call them my 2nd family because this is how I feel about them in my heart, The new Spark members are from a bingo league we have that we play on Pogo games, we all joined over 2 yrs ago. If u would like to meet or add my 2nd family friends, lol here are their names on here.
Katheleen2,(goes by Kath) Dustywusty, (goes by Faye) Kneels75 (goes by Kathy) and stine736(goes by Chrissy).Please be nice to them, these are the four most amazing women I have talked to.

Now to my life, I know my decision to keep leaving sparks is not a good reason and I know some make think I am only making excuses and who knows maybe I was but not anymore. I left last time because I couldn't stay on track and always failed at what I was trying to do and then that would just lead to me getting discouraged so woo hoo Mcdonald's , taco bell here I come. For those of you who know me, know that I have a very large amount of weight to lose and its not gonna happen overnight. Lord knows it didn't take long to put it here . I worry about my health just as much as the next one and yes I worry I am going to die if I don't change my eating habits and change fast. My biggest problems is not how I eat but what I eat and how much and what time I eat it. But since being back with Sparks I have not had sweet Tea in over 2 weeks, I haven't had a candy bar or ice cream either. My other problem is SODIUM, I always seem to need something sugary or salty to eat. My friend Kath, sent me some tips she found on here, that I will go by if any of you have any suggestions that would help me besides just throw salt away I'd be more than happy to hear from you. I pray for each and every one of us that are traveling down this road and best success to you. I wanna thank MY SAVIOR, the LORD JESUS, for watching over me and keeping me safe., until next time friends, may GOD be with you and take care!

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SONGIE 7/17/2010 10:42AM

    Hi! Your blog and page really touched my heart. My name is Cass. I recently joined SparkPeople at 508lbs, so I understand all too well where you are coming from. I look forward to getting to know the people here and making this journey together! Congratulations for being back...You can do this! We can do this...one step at a time!

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KATHELEEN2 7/16/2010 5:41PM

    Hi Sheila, this is really nice. I'm glad you are back and that you told me about this site. It has been great for me and you have been such a great inspiration to me. Believe it or not I have kept this up because I know you are there; like an angel on my shoulder!! I know that between you, me, Faye and Chrissy we are going to keep this going. Then there are, as you noted, all the great Spark family here. I know you have a lot on your plate but I am really very proud of you for coming back to Spark and for not allowing your hard times at home to stop you from doing this and not going to food to get you through it, which would be so easy emoticon! I know I could have done it myself a dozen times in this past week!
Keep up the good work-and I mean that for all the SparkFamily!
Kath emoticon

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Tuesday, July 28, 2009

1 am in the flipping morning, what am I doing? I am sitting here eating dang cheetos and my 1st glass of sweet tea in over 10 days. WHY? I really dont know, well I kinda have an idea but I may just be trying to find excuses other than to blame myself. I guess I can call myself an emotional eater reason I say this is, everytime I get mad or upset all I wanna do is eat.
My daughter and I had a few choice words last night and I got mad, we both were screaming at each other but I feel I am in the right. Its my house my income that is paying the bills while they live here , no job for either of them. So when I said they gotta get a job to help out around her or the boyfriend has to go she threatens me with " if he leaves then you are kicking me and the baby out too" sceniro. I am sorry but I cant support a grown man who doesnt wanna work, my income is limited and there is just no way, I M barely making it now. But she knows I love my grand baby so much I dont wont him to leave this household, so I get mad dont speak for the rest of the night , try to sleep, then wake up and start eating. She blames all this on me cause I am out of my depression pills which I will get tomorrow or should I say today lol. ugh I dont know , I am just rambling along mad at myself cause I was doing so good and I let the food take over, why do I allow this to happen? I know Im gonna need all the support I can get for this week to get me through this bump. Thank you for reading my blog and listening to me rant and rave on like I have , have a good night

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SUSI_SINGS 2/14/2010 6:37PM

    Hi Sheila,
I enjoyed reading your blog, and I hope you'll get around to blogging more soon!!! I normally am not much of a blogger either. I'd never share on facebook or anything like that. But I use SP as a kind of therapy.

I hope all's well with you and your daughter now, but if it isn't, I agree that your house is your home, and everyone else is a guest. I'll pray that she or her boyfriend gets a job. They're out there.

Now taht we've solved all those probs emoticon, I hope all's well with you and that you're having fun on SP. Lots of love, girl!

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WEIMYMAMA 8/2/2009 2:18PM

    Please stay strong and know that your feelings are justified. It has nothing to do with being out of depression pills (low blow). If things are tight and this is your money and home...you have every reason to feel this way. Don't allow your daughter to hold your grandbaby hostage from you. Once she realizes that every mother needs an occasional break, I sure Grandma will be there. Its crazy that two young healthy people who have a baby to care for refuse to work especially in this economy. As I told one of my daughters ex boyfriends..."You don't have a job, then your job is looking for a job everyday for 8 hrs." She soon dumped his sorry azz. Its time to take care of YOU!!!! emoticon JILL

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SISHARE 8/1/2009 9:50PM

    It is a tough situation and you told her the truth you are not financially able to care for everyone and she should have respected your honesty and wanted to help out and not resort to emotional blackmail.
Its your home and in your home everyone must pitch in.
Don't be so hard on grabbing the Cheetos, you are only human, just jump back into your groove ASAP!!!
take care of yourself, you are no good to anyone including your grandson when you are not well.
Deep Breathe, and remember you have people who are one your side and rooting for you!!!

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TRAVELNISTA 7/28/2009 10:56AM

    I agree you are in a very tough situation but your are doing the right thing. It is hard to dish out sometimes but Tough Love is the way to go. It will make your daughter and her boyfriend grow up and not at the moment because I know it is hard for a Mother to do, it will relieve a lot of your stress.

I think emotional eating is hanging out in a lot of our closets here on Spark People. But just know we are here for you and you can vent on Spark anytime you want. It is one outlet available to you to make you feel better. Then it gives us the opportunity to give you some support and or encouragement you need.

You need a hug. emoticon emoticon emoticon

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SJACQUITA 7/28/2009 10:43AM

    I agree with the other comments - this is a difficult situation to say the least, but you have to take care of you too. In my times of distress, I resort to eating - it's been my "drug" of choice, so to speak, for years. However, do not allow this slip to deter you from your ultimate goal. We all have setbacks and we all beat ourselves up about it - especially if we have been doing well for a while. Let’s face it – LIFE happens and the crazy things don't stop happening because we're trying to lose weight. For me, all hell broke lose when I decided I wanted to get myself together. I have had setbacks, but I'm not giving up and my hope is you won’t either. Just see this occurrence as a learning experience and do your best to make a different choice the next time something of this nature happens - trust me, there will be a next time... I pray peace abounds in your household once again. I do not have children and do not know your circumstances from experience, but I was engaged once to a man who didn’t keep a job very long. He was contemplating quitting his job at the time and I told him as lovingly as I could “Sweetheart, the only son I plan on taking care of is my own.” He looked at me puzzled (remember, I don’t have any children). He responded with “you don’t have a son” and I said “that’s right!!! I’m not taking care of nobody’s son, including your mama’s!!” It’s funny now, but it wasn’t at the time!!! Sadly, I would have married him; however, he called it off. I cried like crazy when it happened, but the old adage “hindsight is 20/20” is sho nuff the truth!!! I may have cried then, but I am SO glad that marriage didn’t take place. His current wife is catching it – he still ain’t working worth nothing, so I really dodged a bullet. I wholeheartedly agree with you regarding your daughter’s boyfriend. My Bible says if a man doesn't work, he doesn't eat – II Thessalonians 3:10. Your daughter should not place you in that position either. Ultimately, it is up to you how you handle it. I pray you find a resolution that will bring you peace and you’ll be able to sleep at 1 AM… Praying for you… Peace and blessings, Kita

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KARVY09 7/28/2009 8:57AM

    What a tough and stressful situation. I agree you shouldn't be responsible for an able-bodied grown man who refuses to work to support his family.

Try to stay strong and focused on the ultimate goal of getting yourself healthier, although I'm sure it's difficult with all the added stress in your life. I know that you can do it, though!

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DJS-DEBBIE 7/28/2009 3:31AM

    I had my niece living with me for 14 months and the only reason I put up with it for so long was my 2 great-nephews, especially the 3-year-old. He is so adorable and loving and so undeserving of the life his mother lives. She recently moved out on her own and I do miss that boy every day. I know it isn't the same as you, since she wasn't my daughter, but I do understand somewhat. You have to try to find a way to deal with your feelings about her and the boyfriend without hurting yourself in the process. Keep on blogging to vent but try not to eat while doing it. I know it's hard...I would love to eat something right now. My stress of the moment is someone at work and it is causing me nightmares, which is why I am here at 3:30 AM. But I am drinking water (I know, boring) while I write and read.

As much as you love your grandbaby, you need to love yourself and take care of yourself first.


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SDAVIS315 7/28/2009 2:21AM

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Im Up and Feeling

Friday, July 24, 2009

good about myself. Have done made my breakfast and on my 3rd glass of water. I really slept well last night for a change. I will do my chair exercises as soon as son in law gets off his butt to go cut the grass lol. I dont like exercising in front of people, especially at my size. If you are all wondering about the baby pics I put on all my blogs they are of my grandson Joshua. He turned 4 mos old yesterday. My pride and Joy and reason to live, he makes my world turn. I cant wait to see him in the morning when he wakes and I wanna be the last to hold him at night. I find it funny how your grandchildren can change you. I hope this energy sput continues for I neeed it so much. I am usually still in bed by now and dont see daylight til around 11, but here lately ive been waking around 6 am. Yes I do take a nap during the day but thats still good in my case cause all i ever did was sleep play on computer sleep eat sleep eat and then sleep for the night. I hope and pray we can all get through this journey successfully and become healthier. Hope everyone has a great weekend


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PEBBLES32165 7/24/2009 10:27PM

    Okay just how big is that remote control? It looks huge or he is tiny. But very cute. I would be a proud grandma too. Well keep moving forward and you'll get up that mountain. Tie a rope around you and throw it too me and I help get you up there.

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KING*GET*FIT 7/24/2009 10:51AM

    It sounds like you are doing great. Give that grandson of yours a hug from me! He is too cute. I bet you just want to eat him up!

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