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I HATE Weekends!!

Monday, June 07, 2010

OK....I have to admit it....I HATE WEEKENDS!!! I know I have blogged about this before, but it just stymies me every week!! UGH!! Movies, parties, get togethers, socializing. It's ALL around food!! And I go into it with the best of intentions--I plan everything out it my head. I envision myself making the right choices. Then I get to whatever it is, and my willpower goes to blazes! I have come to terms that willpower is just a fleeting sense of bravado, but geez!! And then I just get so angry at myself...just when I think I have turned the corner thinking of what I'm doing as a healthy lifestyle, not a diet, I don't know--it's almost like rebellion kicks in and I think, why can't I have this, I want it! Then the binge starts. I am really trying to get out of this vicious cycle. I know I can do it...I've already lost around 50 lbs. Been trying to lose the last 15-20 for about 6 months. I say I don't know why the pounds aren't coming off, but I know that I know. Not keeping track of food, eating stuff in excess that really should be "in moderation" foods.

I just need to get my head screwed on straight again. Maybe I've just been too obssessed with this for so long, and that is causing what I call "rebellion." I guess I'm just going to take it one day at a time and try to keep the long-term goal and benefits in mind. Definitely need to manage stress better to avoid emotional eating. Just got to open my bag of tricks and dig deep to get through this!

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GWENWARING 6/27/2010 12:07AM

    Yea. There's something about the weekend that makes me think I deserve to relax more with everything - let myself go. But that's two out of seven days and that's a lot of not eating my healthy,
disciplined way. I know this is for life, so need to figure something out. We're in this together.

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STRINGI719 6/26/2010 11:08PM

    I like how you describe it as "rebellion" - I've been feeling that way a LOT lately. Not being good about sticking to my calories after 5+ months of success - what's that all about? I need to regain that discipline I had in January-May and get my behind back on track!
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DEEGEE2 6/7/2010 4:01PM

    I understand - I am thinking about becoming really strict for a few weeks with everythig to see if that gets me going -

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IMTRYN2LOSE 6/7/2010 3:17PM

    Oh, I am right there with you!!! My husband works weekends so I do a lot of boredom eating!!!

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Live and Learn

Tuesday, May 25, 2010

They say you live and learn...and I guess it's true. This past weekend was crazy with recitals, sleepovers, soccer games. No rest for me...and no time to work out. Then yesterday I get a call from the school nurse...my youngest has a high fever---come get her! Take her to the doctor and sure enough, strep throat! So needless to say, after an exhausting weekend and now this...I think I DESERVE a treat. And I treated myself the way I used to...with food!

Waking up this morning...I'm thinking WOW! Coping strategies definitely need to be employed in times of stress. This is my biggest trigger. I know what I need to do...I just have to DO IT. Baked Cheetos at 11pm not good---although I guess I can say at least I chose Baked. I should have brushed my teeth and gone to bed! Sleep...what a concept! Oh well....time to re-group and get on with today, which is going well so far, I might add. Back on track and planning to work out this afternoon.

What I learned: When life throws you lemons, make lemonade--just don't drink it! Water is a better choice! emoticon


Today's a better day!

Wednesday, May 12, 2010

Feeling SO much better today. Amazing what eating healthy and exercising will do for you. After writing my blog yesterday and receiving great words of encouragement from my fellow Sparkies, I went searching on the site for motivation. And what do I find, but a whole host of articles on motivation, not giving up, inspiration quotes. Wow--that was just what the doctor ordered. I felt renewed and revitalized about my weight loss journey.

Also watched Biggest Loser last night, and I tell you, that show and those contestants are the epitome of motivation. I also gave myself two Spark Goodies--skinny jeans and a bathing suit to remind myself the benefits of a healthy lifestyle. Eating right and exercising may be a pain and hard sometimes, but I certainly like the outcome! Just need to stay focused on that!


Strength from within

Tuesday, May 11, 2010

Wow--this is so hard to admit but the past 5 days or so have been a total blow out for me. Not sure what happened. I just ate what I wanted when I wanted and really didn't care. Correction...I cared but didn't do anything about it. It was 100% pure self sabotage. I can't help but wonder why am I doing this to myself? I feel crappy now, which is probably good since it motivated me this morning to get back on track.

BUT I really need to figure out why I "went there" over the past few days. I've been so happy with how I've been looking and feeling that I just don't get it. Maybe I'm just scared to be at the finish line, because once you don't have to diet anymore, then what? Maybe it's a lack of confidence in myself.....if I re-gain the weight then it just confirms my old story that I'm not strong enough to do this. I was watching last week's Biggest Loser on DVR last night and when Darius gave up on that Jacob's Ladder, I realized that was me. When things get tough, I tend to get discouraged and give up. I've been trying to lost the last 15 pounds for 6 months and have just not been able to get there and it's been frustrating. But when Bob beat the crap out of Darius and proved he was strong and could do it, I felt like I could too. I realize now after letting all this kind of pour out that just counting calories and running on a treadmill is not enough. I need to do the inside work and find the inner strength to keep on going and not give up this time. I need to go all the way to accomplish this and prove to myself that I am capable of doing anything I set my mind to even if it's hard!! Quitting is not an option! Feeling good and healthy and strong is the ONLY option. There is no real finish line with this--living healthy is a continual process.

Time to wipe the slate clean and move forward. I deserve to feel good, I deserve to feel empowered and I deserve to reach my goal because I have worked SO hard thus far! I am capable of doing this and I will!!

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SASGIRL2 5/11/2010 10:38AM

  Today, is my first day after a real crappy day and this totally inspired me. Thanks for the encouragement and for getting up and trying again! Love it!

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CINDY1TWO3 5/11/2010 10:21AM

    If you look at your life, five days is not a long time. Great job getting back with the right attitude, but don't beat yourself up about a small slip. You are worth it, you are strong, and you can reach your goal!

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Looking at the positives

Saturday, May 01, 2010

OK...so how come it is that I can do really good all week, but the minute Saturday and Sunday rolls around it all goes to you-know-where?? I start out OK at breakfast and even lunch, but then it's usually the afternoon and on that is the challenge. It's always the same, I have a plan, but then I end up deviating from it. UGH!

BUT it does NO GOOD to waste energy on the negative and I think I need to remember all the positive changes I've made. I now RUN on a treadmill, which I never could do before. I actually ran a 5K two weeks ago! I went from a size 16 to a 6. I definitely eat more healthfully and am more label conscious. I make better decisions for myself and my family. My weight loss even inspired some people at work to lose weight and work out.

I think it's so easy to focus on all the negative things and forget the positives. Making this list actually made me remember what I've accomplished. One day or even one meal cannot erase all that. I'm just going to try harder tomorrow and be as conscious as possible about what I'm doing. AND keep thinking positive thoughts!

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POSNIVY24 5/1/2010 11:14PM

  This is so true. We are trained in life that we get punished when we mess up. I think it is important not to beat yourself up when you slide a little but to remind yourself of all the good things that has happened. Then you have a reason to continue to do well!!

Great Post!

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