Saturday, April 28, 2012
Well here we are again. I'm back to where I was before I started this 90 day challenge with my DH. This week I decided that in order to lose weight faster I needed to add in some strength training. I wasn't going to do anything drastic and just start small with 20 reps of various exercises for about 10 mins before I get on the elliptical. I did good for two days, nice and easy with no major pains. And then Thursday I did something that I shouldn't have. I was on the floor doing some chest presses when I thought "oh what the heck let's try some crunches". I only did 2 sets of 10 reps. I got on my elliptical and went for 50 mins. And then Friday morning hit.
Let me give you a little background so this makes more sense. I have fibromyalgia. I have tender points throughout my body that if pressed feel like the worse bruise of your life. My nerves don't understand pleasure feelings and so everything feels like pain. I have really bad tender points in my low back/hip area. During March I had a flare, way more pain then usual, for most of the month. This meant that I had bad pain standing, bending, walking, basically moving my low back at all. It finally subsided at the beginning of April and I have been going strong with exercise and changing my eating habits all month. I'm down over 6 lbs so far!
Needless to say I am having another flare. Those darn crunches, those pesky little 20 reps, have put me back on the couch with ice on my back and pain whenever I move. I don't know how long this will last, but I'm praying with some rest this weekend I can move again by Monday. I feel like I don't have time for pain. I need to lose 10% of my body weight so I can get back to trying for a baby. I'm losing my motivation as I type because I want to get up and do something but know I will end up in tears if I do. I feel like my body is failing me.
I would really appreciate any suggestions, advice, support on what I should do now. What do you do when it hurts to much to move?
Wednesday, April 18, 2012
I went for a check-in type appointment with my fertility doctor today. Though I realized as I was leaving that we could have discussed everything over the phone and I didn't really need to drive 1 hr 45 min round trip for a twenty minute conversation. I just completed six months of pills in an attempt to get preggers, obviously none of them worked or this would be a really different blog. So today we talked about where to go from here. Basically he told me that I should take the summer off from tracking, temping, charting, etc. Which is somewhat frustrating since we have been trying for two years come August. To take off three months of actively trying is a little discouraging. Though I do have something to work on in the coming months. The second part of our discussion centered around my weight, and how losing 10% of my body weight may resolve some of the issues I have with my cycle, specifically my screwed up pituitary gland that isn't sending the right hormones. My DH likes to remind me that people were right and it is all in my head, isn't he just too funny? So, it's a good thing that my DH and me have already started a 90 day challenge which has resulted in an almost 5 lb loss for me in the first two weeks. I am anxious to get back on the scale and see what this week is going to be like so maybe I can achieve the 10% sooner than three months. Here's hoping and praying and working my butt off to achieve my goals!
I hope he visits me soon :)
Friday, April 13, 2012
I am heading out early in the morning with five other girls to celebrate a friends bachelorette party in Chicago. I am somewhat concerned that I will not be able to have my breakfast and lunch shakes and may go a little crazy with food. I am still trying to teach myself portion sizes, which means I weigh everything. And I still under estimate how much I am eating when I don't weigh stuff. I am also concerned about giving in to peer pressure and drinking too much while out on the town. I have a tendency to drink fast and pay for it all the next few days. I am trying to have self control with both food and drink. I just hope that doesn't fly out the window when I get away from home. I suppose I'll let you all know how I did on Sunday night.
I hope this isn't me come Sunday.
Here's my goal :)
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