Friday, March 18, 2011
OK, I confess I have not been totally honest. I've said my goal is to lose weight, to get to a healthy BMI. And it is true.
But not the whole truth. I want to do these things because they will help me reach my real goal, which I have been afraid to admit out loud, because words have power and I've been scared I will not succeed. Which is different from failing, because the only failure is not trying at all. So I figured if I didn't say it, and no one knew it, the pressure is off, I won't be embarrassed...and discovered it is really easy to slack off when one is not accountable to anyone. I read The Spark last month & had an attack of guilt because I was not really admitting the WHY of wanting to get healthy.
I started taking karate with my son back in 2003. By the summer of 2006 I achieved my brown w/ 2 stripes belt - my next rank would be black belt. I had just gotten everything approved that I would need to know for black belt, I could do my 50 pushups and lunges and was working on the running. Then the dojo closed, I had some female issues resulting in surgery, then had my ACL replaced, started a nasty stressful divorce process and basically just stopped for 3 years. Then we got word that our old Master was re-opening his dojo since the group he sold it to originally had closed so he was no longer bound by the non-compete clause. 2 days before classes were ready to start again I broke my ankle. 9 months later, in September last year, I was finally able to start training again.
I've been going to classes sporadically since September, scared to death that I'm going to re-injure my knee or ankle, but trying to get back in shape and remember everything I used to know.
So. My goal is to get my black belt this year. There, I've said it, made it real, given it power over me.
Which means I really need to get my butt in gear, get my moves down again...and some of them are going to be doozies. I'm still scared of breaking my ankle again, more so than my knee (I had the ACL completely replaced and, to quote my ortho, "it's better than the original") but I've started taking "baby jumps" on it...and it's been OK.
I will need to get back to doing the 50 push-ups - real ones, not the girly style on my knees - which will be a challenge since I've always hated them, hate them now and will hate them forever more, amen.
And the worst one of all...I will have to run 2 miles in 18 minutes. I don't think I ran that fast when I was 18, 50 pounds lighter than today, and running 3 miles a day in ROTC. But today, while on the treadmill, for the first time I realized that I just might be able to do it after all.
So I'm coming clean and going public with my goal. I need you Spark Community to help keep me accountable and on track. I cannot fail because I am trying. And now, by sharing my goal, I have chosen to succeed.
The journey is the reward. -Chinese Proverb
Success is sweet and sweeter if long delayed and gotten through many struggles and defeats. -Amos Bronson Alcott
For true success ask yourself these four questions: Why? Why not? Why not me? Why not now? -James Allen
Eighty percent of success is showing up. -Woody Allen
Having once decided to achieve a certain task, achieve it at all costs of tedium and distaste. The gain in self confidence of having accomplished a tiresome labor is immense. -Thomas A. Bennett
Success doesn't mean the absence of failures; it means the attainment of ultimate objectives. It means winning the war, not every battle. -Edwin C. Bliss
Thursday, March 17, 2011
My company subscribes to a couple of 'wellness" magazines for us, like Prevention, Men's Health, Women's Health, etc. Today I was looking at Prevention and one of the cover stories was something like "lose 20 pounds and 2 sizes in 2 weeks!". And I remember back in 2008 when I did Weight Watchers one of the women on the View was featured in an article about how she lost 20 lbs. and went from a size 16 to a size 6. I mean, really? 5 sizes with just 20 pounds?
Does anyone out there truly drop 2 (or 5!) complete sizes when they lose 20 lbs??? I've lost 31 pounds so far and I am STILL a size 14 which is where I started! Granted 31 lbs. ago clothes were tight and I was just starting to wear a loose size 16, and today a 14 is loose - but not loose enough to go down to a size 12.
SO while I am happy with my progress I'm pretty frustrated that the lost pounds and inches has not yet translated into a smaller clothing size. I think it is a conspiracy to help mask the obesity epidemic. I think the larger the size the wider weight range it covers in order to hide just how large we are getting, so we can say the "average" size in the US is a size 12 or 14 - which doesn't sound too too bad - instead of what the true average size is (whatever it may be). Does that make sense?
Anyway....progress! I've re-discovered my waist, my double chin has disappeared & I think cheekbones are starting to emerge!
9 lbs down, 195 lbs
20 lbs down, 184 lbs
30 lbs down, 174 lbs
Wednesday, March 16, 2011
My Sensei says the best defense...is not to be there at all. We all know cardio is important so when the zombies start coming the people who can run the fastest & farthest have the best odds of initial survival.
Remember, zombies hate fast food!
Come join Team Zombie and learn how you, too, can beat the odds and live through the coming zombie infestation without developing a taste for braaaaiiiiinnnnnnssss.
Saturday, March 12, 2011
I am in Stage 3 of the Spark Plan and one of my week 1 assignments was to find a motivational quote. So like a good soldier I dutifully went to Goodsearch.com, typed in "motivational quotes" and started clicking on links.
One of the 1st quotes to come up was this: "I am wealthy. Wealth is not the physical cash. Money is just a by-product of wealth. Wealth is intangible. My purpose, my potentials, my mentality, and my knowledge are my wealth. It's just that they are not yet transformed into their monetary equivalent."
Written in 2011 by Sheye Hassan --- Nigeria
The same day I read the Editor's note in a magazine I subscribe to which started off with the saying "My health is my wealth". The gist of the editorial was that taking care of ourselves is more important, and ultimately more rewarding, than the pursuit of money.
As March was also approaching, leading up to St. Patrick's Day and the pursuit of the leprechaun's pot of gold, both of these items really resonated with me and I have spent the last 2 weeks thinking about them.
I have always equated wealth with money..."If only I was rich I would be happy"..."The people who say money can't buy happiness don't know where to shop". Believe me, as a partially recovered shopaholic I know where to shop.
But I started thinking what good is being wealthy if one is too unhealthy to enjoy life? Money can only buy health to a certain extent...it can't cure heart disease, or diabetes, or cancer or any of the myriad minor and major health issues that affect the quality of our lives. It can't give one the energy or stamina to engage in activities or change one's self-image.
So I have to redefine what wealthy is in my mind. Wealth is not about the money. Wealth is about being healthy, about enjoying what makes me happy, about the things I CAN do and the things I WILL do. It is about having family and friends and mutual support. Wealth is being able to share my knowledge, lend a helping hand, admit and learn from my weaknesses and mistakes.
Above all, wealth is a choice. I choose to be happy with who I am now and the person I am becoming.
I choose to have the kind of wealth that matters.
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