Monday, May 02, 2011
I have developed multiple personalities.
In the days leading up to the race Old Me made a feeble attempt to reassert dominance. Right up to the last quarter mile I could hear that whiny little voice in my head. Yes, I talk to myself; I carry on complete conversations sometimes. Here is the one I had Saturday morning:
Old Me: You know we really don't have to run this race, we're not going to win.
New Me: It's not about winning, it's about doing & finishing.
OM: But there's no reason to run the race, it isn't part of our goals.
NM: I said I would run the race, I'm running the race, so shut up about it already.
OM: We don't have anything to prove, we don't gain anything by doing this.
NM: Shut up, I'm running.
OM: We don't have to run the entire way you know, we can walk. SP friends said it was OK to walk.
NM: I'm running, shut up before I smack you.
OM: We already know we can run the distance, we don't need to do it now, it's early, it's cool outside, we have to use the bathroom.
NM: Don't go there, last warning.
OM: I mean, we could get hurt jumping over roadkill, then where would we be? Having to start all over again.
NM: (giving The Look) 1...2...3...
OM: Oh crap, look ahead, there's a hill. That's going to be a pain, let's walk.
NM: (virtual sidekick backfist to Old Me for the knock out) New Me wins by TKO!
Crossing the finish line:
Crazy Me: Way to go New Me! We did it! I knew we would!
New Me: Thanks! I feel really good about it! Who are you?
Crazy Me: I'm Newer Me. Wow, we're so pumped, this is great! You know there's another 5k in a few weeks, we could do that one too!
New Me: We could...
Crazy Me: (interrupting and without pausing for breath) And then there's the Perch Run in July, and I bet there's other races around here in June and then there's the triathlon in New Baltimore and The Crim is in August and then there's the half marathon in October...
NM: (realizing that Newer Me isn't playing with a full deck) Wait just a minute there! The Perch Run is 4 miles! The Crim is 10! Who said anything about a triathlon, that involves swimming.
CM: (not pausing for breath) By July 4 miles will be nothing. We should add swimming to our routines, if we start now we can do a half mile easy, we were almost there a few years ago...
NM: Hold it! I am not doing a triathlon! Running is a means to an end, not the end itself. Remember my goal? Earn my Black Belt. That's it, not distance racing.
CM: (still not stopping for breath) But cross-training is very important, if we start swimming we'll build our endurance and strengthen our bones which is very important to us, and keep adding distance to the running, we can talk to IT Finance lady at work who's training for a half, and join a running club, and start training, and..
NM: (giving The Look) No. No triathlon. No 10 mile run. No half marathon. Don't even say marathon or I will b*tch slap you into next month.
CM: (dancing around like a cheerleader on speed) But we can do this! We can! It'll be fun! We'll get in better shape, we'll get t-shirts, we can buy cool running clothes...
NM: Two words for you...Chuck. Norris. Don't make me go there and go all kung fu on your a$$.
CM: Aw come on! Don't be a spoilsport, we can do it!
NM: (pointing at the prone unconscious body of Old Me)
CM: Um...I think I'll go over there and look at the fancy bikes now...
And, of course, I registered for the 5k at the local metropark on 5/21. My daughter wants to run too although she has stated she intends to walk a good part of it - she wants the t-shirt since I won't let her have mine.
The 4 mile is still up in the air. I know I can do it but it smells suspiciously like goal creep. I'm going to have to keep a close eye on Crazy Me and keep all caffeine away from her before I do something rash like register for the 10 mile or half marathon.
Sunday, May 01, 2011
A most awesome month! My goals for April were:
*25 pushups - am doing 26 -
*50 situps - am doing 50 -
*2 miles in 20:30 - best time to date is 19:48 -
*160 lbs - today is 159.8 -
*green w/ stripe karate belt requirements completed - 3 not complete but did jump ahead and complete most of the blue belt requirements instead so counting as
*finish all mending - everything that I am capable of repairing & wearing again is done -
Apparently I need harder goals!
So total year to date stats:
45 lbs gone, 25 to go
Waist - 38 to 32 inches
Hips - 48 to 42 inches
Thigh - 25 to 22 inches
Waist-to-Hip Ratio - 0.79 to 0.76 inches
Push-ups - 15 to 26
Sit-Ups - 25 to 50
2 mile run - 60 to 19:48 minutes & my 1st 5k running all the way!
Today I need to think about what May goals will be. Writing them down in April seemed to help me progress a lot more than otherwise (example from Jan to Mar I only improved pushups by 4 yet increased by 7 in April alone).
Yesterday was finally a beautiful day. Somewhere in the 60s, the sun was out, no rain. My lawnmower still had a charge from the fall so I was able to mow the front lawn for the first time this year. Unfortunately the back yard is still swampland and more rain is happening today & tomorrow so the backyard has to wait. It's going to be a major pain to mow when it finally dries out. Haven't been out to the garden yet but do need to find my boots & brave the swampland to start prepping the beds.
Most of my house is now painted, the texture crap is gone from the walls. Scout Dad is going to finish the bathroom today and start sanding the kitchen / nook area ceilings to get rid of that texture. I need to remeasure all of the rooms to double check and sometime soon go order the flooring. I wanted hardwood but the more I think about the maintenance & care required, and having a large dog & 2 teenagers...I think I will delay hardwood for a few more years and go with a Pergo for now.
Fingers crossed, but my Grandma may be moving into assisted living by the end of the month. My Mom came up last week for a few days & she & my aunt found somewhere. We are just waiting to find out if she qualifies for HUD in order to get in, and is the 1st person trying to get the room to qualify. My uncle seems to be slowly accepting that Grandma can't take care of herself, or at least decided to stop arguing in the face of united opposition & several professional opinions. So double bonus there, Grandma gets the daily help she needs and I & my daughter don't have the added stress of the things she does.
I think I'm past the anger of not getting the job I wanted - well, I am still PO'd about it but it is no longer all-consuming and making me want to burn some bridges or commit grievous bodily harm on someone. After thinking about it a lot I've decided it is probably best right now. Housing markets are still depressed so it would be next to impossible to sell my house for what I owe in order to relocate. I don't have the cash to complete all the things that would need to be done to get the max value from a sale (eliminating the swamp, landscaping, new driveway, new siding, flooring in the entire house, not just a few rooms) - these are all things that DO need to be done but, being major expenses, I need to do over the next few years as I save for them. Plus, since the company was acquired last year, it's only been a matter of time before our parent started changing how we work to fall in line with their practices (which, IMHO, are not as good as ours)...and it has started. The next 6-8 months are going to get dicey with personnel changes (i.e. people being removed) and policy changes and maybe the worm will get caught in the cross fire (petty of me I know, but honest). Time for me to hunker down and prove my invaluableness (is that a word?) so I can ride out the coming storm and find a place in however things shake out.
Hope everyone has a great Sunday with plenty of rain or sun depending on your needs. If I could find a way to export our rain I'd do so in a second, I am SO sick of rain.
Saturday, April 30, 2011
WooHoo! Yay me!
I ran my 1st ever race today, a 5k, just a few miles from my home. My goals were to finish, to run the whole race, not to be in last place and not to get hurt.
Given that I am accident prone, the race was on the road (remember I live in MI, where we drive on patches & potholes, not roads and the patched patches have patches), I am accident prone, all running to date has been indoors on the treadmill, I am accident prone, part of the course was under road destruction, I am accident prone, cars would be driving in the next lane, and I am accident prone....finishing was not necessarily a given.
However I am pleased to report that I ran, if not exactly like the wind at least like an occasional breeze, ducking and weaving my way around all potholes in my path, taking flying leaps over flattened road kill squirrels, dodging walkers who didn't understand the concept of a straight line and would swerve in front of me for no visible reason (these are probably the same people who don't quite grasp the idea of a passing lane when driving and believe speed limits are too high).
I saw an old high school friend that I haven't seen in more than 20 years (except on FB) and one of the moms from Boy Scouts; both also ran the 5k.
I made it to the 1st mile mark and checked my watch to see my time...and saw that I hit the reset button by mistake when I started so timing had never started. Very bummed about that, I wanted to see what my 2 mile outdoor time is, since I know it is slower than on the treadmill. So I started timing at the 1 mile mark.
The last bit leading up to mile 3 was up a slight hill, dodged the fence through a narrow opening over rough patched asphalt, around the corner and into the home stretch. Hot 'n Cold by Katy Perry on the mp3 to pick up the pace and cross the finish line...smack into a "traffic" jam as everyone before me decided that was a good place to stop & stand around. Grabbed my water & a banana (after dropping my orange quarter on the ground) and headed back to the corner to wait & cheer for Scout Mom and go with her to the finish.
According to my watch I did 2.1 miles in 22:08, which I guessed made my total time around 32 minutes. Of course I didn't look at the clock when I crossed the finish line, that would have been too easy LOL. They had the race times posted on line by the time I got home...and my official time was 33:25 and I came in 38 out of 96 so WooHoo! I rock!
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