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April 8-11

Tuesday, April 12, 2011

I keep thinking about things yesterday. I was so blessed to have Breanna's grandpa give her to me to hold when he took the offering at church (her mother sings in the Worship Team). I've never had any children. I have no family in Colorado at all. Breanna's grandma "adopted" me into their family 5 years ago when I had cancer and her entire family accepts me. To hold that little baby during the service was one of the best things that happened to me this weekend.

Oh, the weekend wasn't only that. I was treated to a movie Friday night for my birthday. The church went and saw Soul Surfer. That was a tear jerker and a triumph with quite a bit of insight.

Saturday a friend came in from out of town and we went to the Cracker Barrel and then to a concert by Signature Sound. I hadn't ever heard them before and I loved the concert. I wasn't all slow gospel, but very upbeat and fun. Seeing Marie was really great, too. I haven't seen her for almost a year and a half.

Today the weather was great and I actually got out in the yard and did a little of the yard work. Three hours worth, total, and that got about 1/6 of the yard raked. I actually felt a sense of accomplishment with that little bit. Tomorrow I might not be able to get up, but even though I am so very sore today I am really glad that I got out there and did the little i did.

I hope everyone else had such a Blessed and wonderful weekend as I did.

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SZAMO84 4/13/2011 8:10PM

    Sounds like you had a fantastic weekend!

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Biggest Loser insights

Wednesday, March 23, 2011

Tonight when I was watching The Biggest Loser I realized that some of my problems are like some of theirs. Rulon said that he never felt he had a true love so he was unworthy. I never had any type of love other than my father and sometimes my mother. I finally got some love when I started going to the church I go to now, but the lack has taken a toll on me. I am surprised I get help from family members (cousins) because they never even talked to me until after I found out I had cancer a few years ago.

Kaylee said that she never had any self confidence until going through the Biggest Loser program. I still don't. I was told all my life that I would never be worth anything and I'm not. I was told I couldn't do anything. When I tried cleaning house my mother would redo everything I had done. I never could do a decent enough job. Now just trying to do anything with it overwhelms me. I have never been able to make a living and now cannot figure a way to make some extra money above disability so that I can pay my bills.

When I started on Spark People I lost down to 199. Now I am up to more than when I started and I can't get back in the program. I am always so tired that I can't seem to stay awake for more than a couple of hours to do anything. And I want to munch. I want sweets. I don't know what to do anymore. I keep trying to stay positive about things and my future, but keep hitting a brick wall that knocks me down again. I will turn 60 in a couple of weeks and, though I don't feel that old, I wonder how much I can do with a body that old.

I don't know how to get out of this rut. I have been thinking maybe I could talk to a therapist if they have a Christian one at the hospital. I don't know if I can get a referral without someone trying to put me on drugs. If anyone can figure a way out other than that, I hope that I can get some ideas.

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HOUNDLOVER1 4/8/2011 1:48AM

    Just found this blog, keep going forward. I don't know what your body can do either, but you'll never know if you don't try. You don't want to have regrets later.
I would highly recommend the new book by Jillian Michaels "Unlimited" to you. It addresses the issue of finding a vision for your life, believing it and putting it into practice. It leads you through practical steps to get there.
Even if on some days you don't give your best you can still go forward. :)
I've survived cancer, too, and I now look at it as God's reminder that I only have one life to live. Better live it and have some regrets than regretting to never have lived.
You are emoticon

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TRIGFROST 3/23/2011 2:16AM

    continue w/ your self talk...
take the baby steps day at a time...
I gain 1/2 my weight back is not fair...
but you have the say w/ what you want done in your life...if you want to Win...then do it..If not...It's up to you to fail again...Make the right choice..because no-one can make you worthy but Christ Jesus...not even your self...We all need that 3rd-cord to pull us through life on earth...the race is on, but your in this Journey for just YOU... emoticon

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Doing your best

Friday, January 21, 2011

Today Daily Kindness sent me a link to a short video on doing your best. I realize I haven't been doing my best all the time and this video was inspiring. I recognized it from Facing the Giants and I'm going to try to watch that movie when I don't feel like doing my best. The short video from it is at

I have been trying to control my diabetes by eating better, but haven't gotten there yet. Today I had an eye doctor's appointment to check my retinopathy. Fortunately, it is still at minute changes and I don't have to go back until 6 months for a recheck. My vision was also improved slightly. That is until they put the dilating drops in my eyes. I still can't see clearly today, but that will clear up.

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JEANUT 1/22/2011 2:38PM

    Keep working on it... you'll get there.
Prayers going out for your eyes to get better.

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Wii fun

Saturday, January 08, 2011

Last night we had a going away party for one of our church members who is moving to California. The lady who owns the house we had it at has Wii. So I got to try one out. We did golf, bowling with 100 pins, regular bowling and dance. The dance wore me out with just one dance, but was fun. So was the bowling. I didn't realize how sore one could get standing there throwing that bowling ball. Even that game seems to work your muscles.

I will have to get the DVD out and try dancing with it. I can't afford to get a Wii, but I think I could have fun trying to follow some of those dance DVDs.

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TIGERSMUM 1/9/2011 8:55AM

    Check out "Game Stop" or other gaming stores. They have used systems that you can buy for a discounted price. My son found an XBox there that he could afford. We also buy most of our games there. People get bored quickly. They do have warranties on the systems and the games. We have great luck with them.

The Wii is a lot of fun!

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KARATE_KID 1/9/2011 8:21AM

    You may be able to get a Wii cheap or even free on Craigslist. But DVDs are fun too; I suppose you get them from your library?

Keep up the good work!


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Christmas 2010

Monday, December 27, 2010

What a weekend this was. On Christmas Eve we all met at my friends for some dinner snacks. I took the presents I had over then because Alice's stepdaughter wouldn't be there Chirstmas day and I had a blanket for the baby she will have Tuesday. From there I rushed to my old church for Christmas Eve service. When I got home I was back to working on another present I was making and Christmas morning I made a pie for Christmas and some cocoa mix for Christmas presents. Then I went back to my friends for the Christmas Day festivities. This is when I got a really neat present from my friend Anne. She got me an Autoharp for Christmas. So one of my resolutions for next year will be to learn to play it. I have been looking for a book that will help with my learning and found out today that one of the other church members used to play one, so I may be able to get help with it. Anne had been looking for a Dulcimer since I had said I would like to try to learn how to play one, but there wasn't one available and the Autoharp will be better for me since I cannot hold down the strings with my fingers. Who ever heard of an old lady like me starting to learn a new instrument like that one?

I don't have any family around here, but Anne and Alice have adopted me into their families like a sister and it was really nice yesterday. I even had one of the girls sitting on my lap like she was my own niece and it really felt like I was a part of the family.

I hope that everyone had a VERY Merry Christmas.

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PMCFARM 12/27/2010 11:29AM

  What a blessed Christmas you had...adopted families can be just as important in our lives as biological families. emoticon

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1COUNTRY_GAL 12/27/2010 1:11AM

    Oh what a lovely Christmas present you received.Maybe when you get good at playing this you can do a Video blog and hear your playing. Enjoy,that is so wonderful the girls adopted you,that is emoticonThank you for sharing this heartwarming story. emoticonDiana

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