Monday, July 13, 2009
My inspiration for trying again to lose weight is gone. A big celebration was planned for her 100th birthday next month. Saturday, my cousin called to tell me she had passed away that morning. I had just talked to her the week before and was looking forward to seeing her one more time. She was the one relative on that side of the family who always saw me as a normal human being and not a failure, the black sheep, or some retarded, slow brained outcast. Now I don't have my parents or my aunt to talk to anymore. They have decided that her party will go on, but as a memorial and celebration of her life. I might or might not go. She is the only one who would have wanted to see me there, but I know that she would have.
Thursday, July 09, 2009
I didn't try weighing in, so I doubt that there was any improvement there, but I had a fun time at the pool today. I met the therapist there to get reminded of the exercises for my shoulder problem, which turned out to be considered strength exercises. You use the floats and the water to react like weights, only you do them the opposite direction as weights.
After Matt left, a lady came in and asked if she could have a ball. They brought in a big beach ball and we batted that around for the next hour. I wasn't quite sure how to put it in the fitness page, but I know that I ended up working more doing that than all the swimming across the pool I have been doing. The lifeguard joined us in the ball playing. That was such a fun way to get in an hour of exercise.
Tuesday, July 07, 2009
I am depressed and about ready to give up on the idea of losing weight. I did make a mistake on my starting weight, so it shows I lost more than I did. I went down to 210 after being sick one week and have been working to get it down lower with swimming and some weight training. Last week I got down 4 more pounds, but Friday, after 4 days of swimming and water aerobics, I had gained all but one back. Today that last one is back. I have not been going over the calorie limit and only a couple times over the fat limit. I just eat as much as I can, but usually am just below the calorie allowance. I cannot eat many vegetables without it setting off IBS problems. I am so frustrated and upset that I had ice cream (less than a half cup and the low fat kind) for lunch.
Measurements are not going down, either. I am so tired of being like this, and so tired of being sick and tired all the time.
Monday, June 29, 2009
Yesterday I had lost 2 1/2 more pounds and was ecstatic. Today, not so great. I have gained back what I lost last week. ALL of it. I did eat a piece of cake at a celebration yesterday, but I entered all I had eaten and still didn't go high on my calories or carbs. Walking is hard because my hips hurt, but I am trying to swim at least 3 times a week and trying to get to the weight room (though that was only successful once last week). The next two weeks I will have very little protein because I don't have the money to get anything but what I have here at home. I will eat what I have protein-wise.
Saturday I did have a nice day with friends. I did a cook-out on the grill and had a pretty good meal there. I even kept it healthy.
Saturday, June 13, 2009
This morning was busy with helpers here to get my lawn cleaned up. It had gotten out of hand because I can't bend over long enough to bind branches or cut wild trees. It sure looks a lot better.
This afternoon I suffered from another IBS attack. I can't seem to eat anything except maybe bread without getting sick. What I'd like to know is why I can't lose weight when I can't keep anything in me long enough to get any calories out of it.
Well, I guess I will try not eating the vegetables again. Maybe that will help there.
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