Sunday, December 08, 2013
Beloved Missy - May 27, 1998 to December 7, 2013 - 15 1/2 years
I wanted to take a moment right now - as word has been spreading - to thank everyone for their thoughts, prayers and condolences on the loss of my precious furbaby Missy.
I know many of you know how much she meant to me. She was more than just a pet… she was family, she was my baby and I had her the longest of any other animal who shared my life… she was 15 ½ years old. I feel like I don’t have words enough to convey the ache in my heart. I have been catching up on notes and goodies, and I thank you all for them. Please bear with me as I am not yet up to responding individually to everyone, although I will eventually. Right now I’m finding it an effort to move through my day.
To explain a little more, Missy took a sudden downturn this week, especially the last couple days toward the end of the week. At first I thought I could manage her pain with the medicine and ice packs and massage. But none of it was working. She was the worst I’d ever seen throughout Friday night into Saturday morning. I tried to soothe and help her, and initially hoped I could help her get better. But into early Saturday, she cried most of the night like never before… it was pitiful and terrible. None of the pain medicine she was already on for arthritis was helping her. We were up the entire night... she could barely stand up... just heart wrenching. It was such a painful decision to make but having taken such good care of her all her life, it was only right that I should take care of her now at this time too. I had to make the decision to end her suffering.
So on Saturday morning, I called the vet and made arrangements. I gave her a can of her favorite food for breakfast, and gave her extra of her favorite biscuits. I brought her in to him on Saturday before noon. I stayed with her the entire time, kissing her face, talking to her, telling her how much I loved her and what a good dog she’d been – the best I ever could have hoped for -, I thanked her for being the best baby ever, and I held her until she passed around 12:15pm. I continued to stay with her a while afterward, embracing her for the last time, and kissing her head and face. I told her to go find Grandma (my mother) in heaven until I could meet her there myself one day.
I cannot even express how much my heart is broken. I know – I believe – I will see her again one day in heaven but I miss her here now. The house feels so empty and lifeless without her. I know she is an animal and some folks might not understand my heart for her - but to me, she was like my child, my precious furbaby. My heart hurts; my memories hurt. I have moments when I seem to do better for a time, then without warning, I’ll think of her, remember her little face, or I’ll see something or some place that reminds me of her, and I will break into crying sobs again. Right now I just want to curl into a ball and cry until I cannot cry anymore.
I am having her cremated and will receive the ashes back around the 17th. In the meantime, I had them make a plaster imprint of her paw, which I already have. I am keeping her collar/tags and some other items. Right now I'm having trouble letting go of her collar and am carrying it with me in my purse.
Missy was such a wonderful, loving and happy dog. If it were possible to have a pet “soul mate,” she was it for me. From the moment I adopted her, we did almost everything together. I had a special connection with her and we understood each other perfectly. We had our own special communication. Often times she could simply read my face or gestures and know what I needed, or what I was thinking. And I understood her too.
Although I couldn’t bring her to work with me, otherwise we spent nearly every moment together… going for walks, hiking in the woods, relaxing on the deck, going for car rides, visiting local farms and cows (Missy loved cows), celebrating birthdays and holidays together, cuddling up at home in front of the fireplace or TV, and even going on vacations together. I wouldn’t go on vacation to anyplace I couldn’t easily bring her (no airplanes for Missy). I celebrated her birthdays with gifts, special food, cake and treats and with family in attendance, all with presents for her. She got presents at Christmas too.
Missy was my first dog, and God could not have blessed me with any better than her. She was beautiful and loving, happy and comforting. She was my best friend, my little love, my baby doll. She also protected me on several occasions… from a mugger on the street in the city and another who tried to break into my home years later. She was such a blessing in every way.
Even in the past year, when she wasn't feeling as well and couldn't do everything she used to, she was never grumpy or nasty – she was always loving. Despite her arthritis pain at times, she never once tried to hurt or bite me. She loved me with an unconditional and precious love, and she will always be in my heart.
I plan on posting a memorial blog in memory of her once my heart heals a little more. In a way, it will be therapeutic for me.
To my Missy girl, my precious baby, I will always love you, and you will always be in my heart until I see you again someday. Always remember Mommy loves you and I will never forget you.
Friends, I will respond to your notes… just please give me time to get myself together. I would appreciate it so much if you would keep me in prayer.
Thursday, November 28, 2013
In recent months, I revamped my "God's Word of Power" Bible inspiration and teaching website, and have added lots of goodies to it. I decided to turn it on and launch it tonight. Please check it out.
I reorganized existing pages and added new pages.
I added downloadable PDF teaching to the Salvation page (bottom).
I added many pages with new favorite links, online tools and media that I use and more under Resources.
I also added PDF files of the Sword Studies under Resources.
I added favorite music links to the Prayer Chapel page.
I added a Prayer & Meditation page for inspiration... also with PDF teaching articles on prayer.
The site is here:
I hope those of you inclined will enjoy it and find inspiration as I do. Thanks!
Wednesday, November 20, 2013
The news is both good and challenging.
The good news is that Missy does not have a life-ending problem right now - praise God! She does have a spinal nerve problem and possible herniated disc, and she needs more specialized physical therapy than I can do at home for her.
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The drive to the new vet was only a few minutes but almost as soon as we set Missy in the car, with me in the backseat holding onto her, she started to experience pain from the jostling and began to yelp and cry. I tried to hold and comfort her and talk to her, and I prayed out loud. About 20 minutes to 5pm, she was really getting upset and I was calling out to the Lord to please help and relieve her. Then all of a sudden, she nestled down on the seat with me and laid quiet the rest of the trip to the vet. I later found out that the Lord had impressed on Avanell to pray for us AT THAT EXACT MOMENT.... so I had another prayer partner and friend praying with me at a time when we so needed it!
I liked the new vet very much. He was very thorough and knowledgeable. He performed a thorough but unfortunately painful exam on Missy and did some simple physical tests on her. She definitely has bad arthritis in her back along with the hip dysplasia and he believes she is suffering from a herniated disc which is affecting her spinal cord and the way her brain now communicates to her limbs, specifically her rear legs. For a dog her age, there is nothing medical that he can really do except treat with medicine for pain and inflammation along with physical therapy, He believes the physical therapy would be the best for her, and cited many "miracle" recoveries he has seen from it. I totally agree with him on this as I have seen the benefits of physical therapy.
My problem right now is in being able to afford the therapy. But I'm going to try and see what I can do. I have to do something for Missy if I'm going to keep her going for a while longer. The doctor gave me the name of a therapy person who he felt could work something out for my situation.
The doctor did say he was quite amazed at Missy's age (15 1/2 yrs) and felt that all things considered she was in pretty good shape. Despite her current challenges, he was pleased to see that she was still interested in things, and wanted to walk and interact. He said that the dog's attitude is so important in any kind of healing or recovery, and that I was obviously doing a good job. That gave me some comfort! As a pet parent, you're always hoping and wondering if you're doing the right things or doing enough, or what else can you do. So he made me feel better about my own efforts.
Oh - on a cute note - I was surprised to see that Missy liked this vet right away.. she can be very picky about people but she actually licked his hands a few times, and she's NEVER done that with anyone else outside the family!
For the ride home, he gave Missy one Tramadol (which is what she is already on for her arthritis pain) and also a small injection of morphine. Blissfully, she fell asleep on the ride home, and continued to sleep for the first couple of hours at home. Then she woke up, and began exhibiting a side effect of the medicine, which is whining. All night.
AND because the doctor had to twist and press her in so many ways to check her - and they had to trim her nails too which she struggled against violently - Missy was EXTREMELY sore as the morphine wore off yet I had to wait the full twelve hours before I could give her anything else. Hence she was up through the entire night and I was up with her. Also, because of the aches and pains, her back hurt too much for her to urinate, but she finally did this morning. (Sorry if TMI.)
So I am very tired today but I am very happy to have my baby with me. Now today I actually have to go to the doctor for my own back treatment while a friend babysits Missy for me.
Please continue to keep us in prayer for Missy's healing and whatever therapies (and a way to pay for them) that I can get to help her feel better. God has brought us this far and, although we have some challenges in front of us, I'm going to trust Him to provide what is needed.
Thank you so much to all who've been so concerned and praying for us. We appreciate it more than I can properly express here. As soon as I am able, I will respond individually to all. Thank you and God bless you for sharing this journey with me.
Wednesday, November 06, 2013
Revelation #10 – TRUST EVEN WHEN IT LOOKS BAD. (Don't give up.)
We all go through difficult times in life that can really test our faith and trust. Part of having faith means trusting even when you can’t see the way and you can’t figure out what God is doing.
God has been taking care of me for a long time. Particularly in recent years, as I learned to line up my prayers and my faith with His Word, I usually do receive the answers I am praying for. Of course, there have been times when things were not answered EXACTLY when and the WAY I wanted and believed but this has still always resulted in the Lord blessing me with something better. But you’ve got to hang in there. At those times, when it seems like it’s not going well, you need to know God well enough to just trust Him in the situation, knowing that He will work things out for good. Like Joseph who was betrayed by his jealous brothers and sold into slavery (Genesis 37:18-36). Like Abraham who took his beloved Isaac up on Mount Moriah to sacrifice him (Genesis 22).
The Scriptures say Abraham believed that even if Isaac had died, he was confident that God could raise him from the dead (Hebrews 11:19). THAT’S TRUST.
There are some things that you may never understand this side of heaven; but that is when you have to hold onto the Word that says that God is for you and not against you (Romans 8:31).
I have found that even when I haven't properly prepared myself with prayer and God's Word, that God is merciful and He will help you to ride out the storms of life. You may not always enjoy the ride because we can make our way more difficult when we give into stress and fear or when we neglect the Word (because it opens us up for the world and the devil to torment us); but in my experience God always brought me through. I have had times in my life where I felt overwhelmed by circumstances - as in too much pain and heartache – and where I gave in to depression. Even in those times, when I felt all faith had been drained from me and I was numb from the battle, God still took care of me. He still provided for me. He still made a way for me to make it through. He loved me back to wholeness. 2 Corinthians 2:14 says; “Now thanks be unto God, who always causes us to triumph in Christ…” That is not because I am special but because HE - GOD - is oh so special and wonderful.
As a born again child of God, I don't believe God for just anything BUT I do believe for anything that God's Word tells me I may have. That is the faith I have developed through His Word, and God has honored me for it as His child. Part of that faith is hanging on and believing for a good outcome – a victory – even when everything seems to be going downhill.
You have to remember that your enemy – the devil – is going to put up resistance to get you to quit. He tries to wear us down and make us weary (Daniel 7:25). So don’t quit! Don’t give up – your victory may be even closer than you think! God did not birth you forth in this world to be wasted or destroyed. He has a plan and a purpose for your life but you must pursue it. You must fight for it! We learn from His Word how to do that and how to hold on.
No matter how bad things look, how dark it seems to get, or even if you feel like you’re hanging on by your fingernails… hold on. It may feel like your feet are dangling over a pit of nothingness, but there is a safety net under you. It is the arms of God.
When times are dark, God is still there. Reach out for His hand. Remember these Scriptures that the Lord brought to me in some of my most difficult moments:
26 “There is no one like the God of Israel,
who rides through the skies to help you,
who rides on the clouds in His majesty.
27 The everlasting God is your place of safety,
and His arms will hold you up forever.
He will force your enemy out ahead of you,
saying, ‘Destroy the enemy!’
28 The people of Israel will lie down in safety.
Jacob’s spring is theirs alone.
Theirs is a land full of grain and new wine,
where the skies drop their dew.”
I look up to the hills,
but where does my help come from?
2 My help comes from the Lord,
who made heaven and earth.
3 He will not let you be defeated.
He who guards you never sleeps.
4 He who guards Israel
never rests or sleeps.
5 The Lord guards you.
The Lord is the shade that protects you from the sun.
6 The sun cannot hurt you during the day,
and the moon cannot hurt you at night.
7 The Lord will protect you from all dangers;
he will guard your life.
8 The Lord will guard you as you come and go,
both now and forever.
God bless you. For everyone who's "going through" right now, hang in there. Send me a note if you need prayer.
Until the next posting in this series, be blessed!
For Part 1 of this blog Overcoming Fear & Depression, look here:
This blog is part of an overall Walking by Faith series that began on April 12, 2013. The introductory blog link is below, and blogs in the series follow from there in numbered order:
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