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Sunday, August 04, 2013

This is a blog I happened across that gave me some moments of fun and fantasy. I thought I'd repost here just for the halibut!

The original member's blog didn't have her responses, but mine does.

Put your imagination beanie on --
Fill in your answers!

"Re posting something I put up a week or so ago just for fun but soon afterwards deleted.
On second thought, however, I bring it back.


…you have just won a $700-million lottery (!), which means after taxes (damn IRS) you now have about $350 million to do with whatever you please.
Allowing yourself to be totally self-absorbed, please list 10 things you would definitely do now for yourself. Keep in mind, the list does not have to be PRIORITY things to do or even the very first ten things you would do – These are just 10 things that might ‘quickly’ come to your mind to do just for YOURSELF right after you have learned that you are now rich. "

1. Put a load of the winnings into a trust which would pay me a “salary” to cover our needs and wishes – maybe about $5K per month for life

2. Get a kitty to fill the empty spot left in my life after the last one died of old age

3. Have a personal assistant (?) to drive me around and help me in pursuing wishes and needs (I’m disabled… this is a big challenge for me!)

4. Go on a really long cruise

5. Build a custom home – not extravagant - preferably a small estate farm where we could raise our own food (with staff to manage it, naturally!)

6. Buy or build a couple seasonal vacation homes

7. Hire a great staff for those homes

8. Commission a custom RV to go between!

9. Have an awesome library

10. Get more education on a variety of subjects

Part 2

"OK, now list 10 things you would do for others – people you actually know. Keeping in mind that the list does not have to be about PRIORITY stuff to do, or even the very first ten things you would do. The list represents just 10 things that might quickly come to mind to do for others right after learning you are now RICH! "

These aren’t all for people I know… is this “cheating?” !?!

1. Pay mortgages off for family members who have them

2. Set up a trust for “Mom,” so she isn’t scrimping and worrying about ever having to leave her home, or maintaining it

3. Set up trusts for the nephews and nieces; but only to pay basic living expenses until they’ve learned to earn and manage their own!

4. Take the whole fam-damly on a long vacation!

5. Buy my friend a home they can live comfortably in, with a small trust set up for basic needs

6. Build a rental/leased home community (homes? apartments?) which would include family garden plots, and maybe small livestock

7. Start an assistance-pet or rescue service to work with “unhomeable” discarded animals, and to benefit those who can’t afford the expensive commercial providers

8. Open a truly healthy restaurant – with a REAL chef

9. Open a school based upon the railways (ie, on a custom train), getting kids out into our real history, and teaching REAL life skills

10. Open a clothing store that carries attractive garb styled for us – and a seamstress in-house to alter anything it sells! Custom-designed clothing, perhaps. And shoes!

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KERRYG155 8/4/2013 8:59PM

    Nice dreams! I remember when they showed the first winner of Who Wants to be a Millionaire on Regis and Kelly. Apparently when you get a million in NYC by the time you pay NYC taxes, NY taxes, and federal taxes you get less than half!! That really cuts down on the big dreaming. emoticon

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EXOTEC 8/4/2013 7:20AM


I'd love to get a set of old railway cars, with the loco if possible, and set it up as a traveling "school" - small classes, traveling across the US and maybe Canada, to show the students where their histories actually occurred, what the lands are like now and may have been then... arrange some Native American stops where they might learn about a culture and a world we've lost... see our beautiful parks, learn about geysers and explore some archaeological sites, find our how we built this land with the help of the railroads, and how those railroads (and their equipment) still work today, see small towns and big industrial ones, real farmland... things that you just don't learn well enough from books! Maybe make it a special summer reward for excellent students... maybe have it be just a small specialty school... I don't know. It's been a dream, though. If I had the money, I'd run at it like crazy!

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TLG71567 8/4/2013 1:39AM

    Cool dreams. Wouldn't it be nice if we could actually do those things?

Sorry about your cat. I lost mine this last year too. It's hard. They really do bring a lot to our lives don't they. emoticon

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IMLOCOLINDA 8/4/2013 12:36AM

    You have some great dreams. I'd love to hear more about the school built on the railways. My locolinda comes not from crazy...which I am, but from my years of working on locomotives so I emoticon trains!

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ZRIE014 8/4/2013 12:27AM

  have a great day

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Epic but predictable “Fail”

Sunday, July 21, 2013

I’ve been lurking a bit the last few days. That may be a permanent condition, I don’t know at the moment. You see, I committed the unforgiveable: I shared personal experience and nutritional information I’ve gleaned from various sources with the open membership here at Spark.

I should have known better, and stayed sequestered in our “alternate” group forums. But I didn’t. I am interested to hear what people are saying in general. For those of you who are acquainted with me through my posts, you know I am very concerned for people who are seeking and failing in their past (and maybe current) diet plans. When someone asks a question, or expresses a concern or confusion which I have either experienced myself, or have some information to impart, I offer it to them. I never *recommend* a thing to anyone, or present it in a way which might be considered a directive… not “advice,” per se. If I am quoting a resource I’ve been able to corroborate from several (reliable) sources, I will give it a bit more weight… but I ALWAYS qualify anything by stating everyone should do their own due diligence, research it themselves, check it with their healthcare team, and NEVER just adopt my individual regime without taking responsibility for their own health.

Be that as it may, I got a smart “slap-down” on an open forum for posting a reply to a person who was concerned and asked a specific question that I also had, and have done some information mining upon, and thought I might be able to join in the discussion she opened. My mistake. I’ve cut-n-pasted a bit of the interchange here…

“I just got the results of a health screening back and my cholesterol levels were off. My total cholesterol was actually a little below the healthy/normal range... Any tips on what I can eat or do to raise my HDL without raising my LDL? “

I responded with my experience, and cut-n-pasted the exchange I’d gotten from the alternate site, since another respondent on the thread here seemed dubious about what I’d said. After I’d done that, yet another poster offered up a long commentary about what to eat, what will reduce or prevent this or that… a long list of what certainly felt like directives – at least to me. I don’t mind such things in general; I’m capable of taking information like that and following up on it to see if it holds water or if it’s just a knee-jerk reiteration of CW (which I think is more common and less wise… but that’s a topic for another day). So whatever others have to say is fine by me. I welcome alternative viewpoints. It gives me a reason to explore and find more “proofs” to bolster my own.

But then, I get this:

“There is some misinformation on this thread that needs a little clarification.
…there are several statements that are not backed by scientific research.

This site is not about being an experiment of 1.
The goal of this site is to help our 12 million members achieve and maintain a healthier body through evidence based, peer-reviewed published research on nutrition and fitness.
I am not aware of any research evidence the shows long term usage of coconut oil to boost HDL level.
I am not aware of any research evidence that shows that long term usage of a high fat diet boosts HDL level.

While you may share what you are personally doing; we do have guidelines here at Sparkpeople asking all members to use evidence based research data when sharing nutrition and fitness content.”

NOW I take exception.
In the first part… I never offered a statement which was unfounded by current science. I am a medical professional. I’ve been in my field for over 30 years. I know “fluff” from substance, and I don’t rely on ANYthing unless I can cross-reference it. Does it always agree with CW? No. Is that a bad thing? Maybe. Maybe not. If we never questioned CW, we’d still be afraid of falling off the flat plane of the planet (Those forward-thinkers were ostracized as heretics, too).
Very many of my researched topics come from Google Scholar™. I mention this to people occasionally and they don’t even have an idea what that IS, much less use it. I have subscriptions to several medical e-journals and research-reporting sites. A couple of them I pay for, even though I’m retired and don’t have to have them. I also use the standard Google™. I also use blogsites from groups aligned with whatever concept I’m trying to get information about – unless I get a feel that it’s biased or has conflict of interest, or else isn’t doing any independent thinking other than to reiterate what’s been “sold” to them. I can read that original from the original. I don’t want to just hear a repetition because it’s something to say without engaging any brain cells. I didn’t think forum posts had to conform to MLA standards, so I haven’t been citing or footnoting every word I put in a comment. Again, my mistake.
OTOH… I have to say that I’ve not seen anyone else writing in MLA style, either. Most everyone who has a link to share will do so, as do I. But citations? I’m not sure I’ve EVER seen a post with a citation or footnote. Perhaps I’m just oblivious.

On the second point…
This site is EXACTLY about “being an experiment of 1.” We’re all sharing our personal experiences. It’s in every single post, on every forum, and is considered by many to be the very most valuable asset they gain from SP. We share our trials, our successes, our fears, our hopes, our “experiments” with our eating choices… every person posting is “an experiment of 1.” Even those who aren’t prolific posters are still working toward their own particular goals singularly. We’re not a hive of bees.

On the third point…
I’m unimpressed to have numbers thrown at me. The fact that more people believe a thing carries absolutely no weight whatsoever with me… unless to make me more suspicious of it.
For the administration personnel to bow to that pressure is expected. Advice given from an “authority” is always subject to dispute or objection, and in that light, SP *officials* simply have to stay within guidelines. Perhaps they would still do so in an unconstrained environment – eg, personal conversations… or perhaps they might not. In any case, it isn’t possible in a public forum where they’re perceived as experts and could possibly be taken more to heart than even the members’ personal healthcare teams. I get it. But the line is drawn when it’s expected for that same membership to adhere to the business practice and standards guidelines that the administration has to follow. We’re sharing, not dispensing, information and experiences.

On the fourth point…
I can hardly be held accountable for the fact that a trained expert is “not aware” of information that is readily available to unbiased enquiry. Can they recommend it? SHOULD they recommend it? well, probably not. See point 3, above. Is it recommendable? *I* believe it is. I’ve seen enough repetition of some of those topics online, in print, via research, and from personal experience, that I feel confident enough about it to share it with others and to incorporate it into my own health plan.
As a credentialed medical professional, I am required to maintain my qualifications by attending continuing education to the tune of a minimum number of contact hours per requalification period. If I fail to do this, I will lose that credentialing and have to start “from zero” by sitting again for the examination. This puts a minor fear in me, naturally. But I also feel that if I’m going to give myself a title, I need to have competency in it. Not only that, I love my field. I WANT to know what’s happening, and to be cognizant of new thoughts and corrections in old ones. Keep in mind, I AM RETIRED. I don’t need to do this! And yet, every recertification period, I typically have twice to three times the number of requisite hours to submit to the authorizing committee. So… why is a similar medical professional “not aware” of the massive amounts of new information being promoted in the field? *I* am aware of it (and it’s not even in my field!). I actively search for it. And yes, I throw out a fair amount of it as simply not credible… or else having questionable science behind it. I’m not just swallowing every likely-sounding tidbit I happen across. I am discriminating, although I’m also not refusing to consider possibilities. “Not aware?” No. I don’t think I’m not aware. And I’m not sure I’d admit to it if I was.

And on the last point, I simply have neither time nor inclination to compose technical dissertations, complete with citations. I suppose that means I am barred from any posts, since members are admonished “to use evidence based research data when sharing nutrition and fitness content.” As a result, I suppose I won’t be able to join in as many discussions as I’d like to. I can’t reach out to others struggling for understanding or support. I guess I should say, “I shouldn’t,” because there are, no doubt, going to be times I simply can’t help myself. I offer some concern to you on the same subject. I guess we can’t just talk with each other. Get the MLA Style book.

I’m mostly despondent about the whole ordeal. I feel excluded and singled out. I feel strongly discriminated against. I had respect for SP and the service they provide. But now it’s overshadowed by the squelching of independent thought. I am grateful for the benefit I am having with the Nutrition Tracker. I suppose, since this is a free site, that they can simply block your membership any time the whim takes them. I don’t want to lose access to the one resource remaining to me here, so I have to find some way to break myself of sharing in the community give-and-take. It will make my journey much more difficult. I see no alternative.

Those of you who can still help others groping along here have my envy and admiration. Please put my good wishes alongside yours where you can!

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HOPE-IN-MOTION 9/23/2013 12:10PM

    Glad to have found you today. Perfectly lovely--my doctor put me on this diet, and he has an MD and 34 years experience behind him. But what does he know??? !! emoticon

Stand firm, and move forward.

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SKATER787 8/3/2013 10:44PM

    This site is not about being an experiment of 1.

That's ludicrous. Stuff that are unique and have quantity of 1 are like fingerprints, DNA, iris. Other than that, it's not possible to get quantity of 1 on mundane activities that we do. You can't throw a stick without hitting someone who is doing the same thing as you. Thousands of people eat coconut oil. OK, so maybe it's an experiment but it's definitely not an experiment of 1. emoticon

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LE7_1234 8/3/2013 1:33PM

    "I am not aware of any research evidence the shows long term usage of coconut oil to boost HDL level. "

I wasn't aware of it, either. But the first item on the list if you google "coconut oil hdl" is an article from Harvard about the potential benefits... Gee, that was hard to find....

I didn't see it mentioned last time I was looking into it (DH has low HDL), so thank you. Coincidentally, I've been using more coconut oil recently. :-)

Hang in there!

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EXOTEC 8/3/2013 10:25AM

    SKATER.... it was from one of our administration team.

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SKATER787 8/3/2013 12:22AM

    "This site is not about being an experiment of 1.

The goal of this site is to help our 12 million members ......"

Was that from the site admin or another Sparker trying to sound like an admin?

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CERTHIA 7/31/2013 4:39PM

    Please keep posting! I have enjoyed reading several of your posts, and appreciate that you so willingly share *your* insights. I don't always see eye to eye with what each and everyone posts here, but if everyone were in consensus this place would be a less interesting place to be.

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KARENKANDO 7/25/2013 7:33AM

    I am so angry right now that I can't string words together and create a coherent sentence! I am relatively new to SP and I don't fully "get" the ins and outs of how things work around here. But! What IS clear to me is your level of expertise, knowledge and sound judgment. From nothing more than reading what you wrote "here", I can "know" all that. You clearly are not a lay person just throwing your 2 cents into the mix. . . which pretty clearly is what happens 'round here most of the time. SP is made up of lay people. Hell if we had the answers - the "expert, scientifically proven" answers (which - as you so eloquently pointed out - are ALWAYS subject to change!), we wouldn't NEED SP, now would we? Who is this FOOL that gave you the slap-down? Just because "he" or "she" is "not aware of this or that", doesn't mean a damn thing to someone like me. What exactly are his or her credentials to be in the know about anything? I have dieted my way up to 220 pounds over the past 52 years following the advice of "experts". And if I know anything it is this: science is NOT exact! Rather, it is ever changing! Sorry, I am rambling here. Like I said, I'm so angry that I can't get it together enough to make a bit of sense. Whatever you do, Ex, please don't leave or quit or continue to lurk. You very clearly have much to offer and I for one am happy that there are folks like you here. If all this site had to offer was a bunch of "fluff" and "junk science" (which by the way, it is FULL of), it wouldn't be of any use to anyone serious about their health. That "my way or the highway" mentality of the FOOL who gave you the slap-down is reminiscent of a dictatorship. And I hope that, that's not what SP is really all about. For if it is? Then this entire thing is a complete wast of time. Some time has passed since you wrote your blog entry. From the bottom of my heart, I hope you are feeling better - more confident - less threatened. Part of our journey is to learn what we can, when we can. And though I can make no sense of it, maybe just maybe this experience has been something you "needed" in some way to move forward on your path. I hope so. I hope the day will come when you can look back on this and clearly "see" why it happened or had to happen. More than all of that, I wish you peace within. This incident may have triggered strong emotion in you and that emotion may cause you to slip into old, unhealthy patterns. Please don't let it. Don't surrender your power to the words of another. They aren't worth it. All that matters is YOU! Be good to YOU! And know that you have supporters out here who would stand shoulder to shoulder with you and fight the good fight. Guess what I'm saying is. . . you are not alone. Keep right on sparking my friend!

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KERRYG155 7/21/2013 6:23PM

    Don't feel singled out! There is always someone out there who "knows" more than anyone else and of course, they are right. As for the site's comment, someone must have filed a complaint-probably the one who knows everything, but I have noticed on retaking a lot of the quizzes and reading the articles that the site does not change their info even when data has come out stating the new studies that show the past beliefs to be totally wrong. So, who are they to come up with that statement. I have heard that coconut oil is good for you but not the hydrogenated type we used to use at the movie theater that made the oh so good popcorn!

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NAYPOOIE 7/21/2013 2:20PM

    Don't give up Exotec. If you don't go out in public and say it, how will they hear it? And if they never hear it, how will they know what to try other than low fat / restricted calories.

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EXOTEC 7/21/2013 2:10PM

    Thanks, everybody, for your support. It helps. I've been fretting and fuming myself into quite a state since this occurred. I suppose I'll get over it. I usually can let a thing go after I've beat it to death within myself for a while. I will be back to my usual self - at least on our specific forums, if not the open ones... but for the moment I'm just laying low and licking my wounds. And, unfortunately, my eating habits are showing the effects, too! boo

I'm very glad to know I've been of use to you, and others in our groups. Now, if I could just find the right way to carefully touch those on the open forums who haven't heard the positive side and the possible benefit they might achieve. But I can see I'm going to have to be more than cautious *IF* I venture "off the reservation" again.

Maybe the best I can do would be to just post an invitation to read our posts in our own environment, instead of trying to post to the open ones.

Thanks anyhow, guys. It matters.

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ICEDEMETER 7/21/2013 1:27PM

    I read this earlier this morning and have been steaming and stewing and swearing ever since...

Honestly, if this site is not about being an experiment of n=1, then they need to shut down the message board completely, list the studies that they deem acceptable, and just have their "experts" answer every question by individual email. Since personal experience, especially when it's specifically noted to be just personal experience, and noted to have been discussed with a medical team to boot, is apparently not acceptable, then there is no reason for an open message board to exist.

I want to thank you for the information that you have put up on the general message boards, and to thank you for how you present it. I don't do low carb, and yet I have benefited from the info that you've put up by getting sent in new research directions and making several tweaks to my diet that have worked well for me. I would not have done the research that I have without you leading the way, so know that you are heard and you have helped!

I'm heading out right away, but just had to comment on this first.

Take care, stay strong, and keep pushing --- it's those who push and challenge the "norm" who are needed to keep the knowledge base growing!

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AGGIETERR 7/21/2013 12:03PM

    Posting with an MLA citation -- I would like to see a few people do that -- there are probably a few 'experts' that put together a citation.

One of the things I admire most about our LC groups is the wealth of knowledge. I greatly appreciate the links, discoveries and comments that are shared because it makes me think, question, try new things -- and ultimately figure out how my body works, how my mind works, and discover the tools that will make me successful.

Please keep posting. I need your knowledge.

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AKHEIDI 7/21/2013 11:34AM

    It is the 4th point I'm having the most problem with. As you say, they aren't aware of any research- why the hell not? Isn't that what experts are supposed to do? Stay informed so their ideas and beliefs don't become outdated? This type of thing just galls me to no end!

Anyway, I won't go into my own rant here. Stick with us in the LC group and we'll have your back. I for one appreciate your info and as an adult that can make my own decisions can choose to use that info or not.

Hang in there and don't let the slap get to you, there really is no excuse for ignorance in this day and age.


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NOWYOUDIDIT 7/21/2013 9:05AM

    I'm so sorry to hear you went through this. I too had a similar experience, I was not "slapped" down by anyone very official, just several mean spirited diabetics. emoticon Therefor I had to leave the diabetes group. So I can only imagine what you ran in to. I too just wanted to help those who were continually "failing" to succeed in their eating plan.
I agree, this is exactly about being an experiment of 1!!
You are brave and courageous!

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WOUBBIE 7/21/2013 7:42AM

    I'll come back to this blog after I return from church and read the middle points you make, but as soon as I read “There is some misinformation on this thread that needs a little clarification...." I just nodded and muttered "Becky Hand". She generally only singles out those CRAZY AND DANGEROUS low-carbers for her ectomorphic scorn.

I see that Russell jumped in right after you. Good man, Russell. I don't have enough psychic energy to spend on the main forums. It's taxing enough to me to help support the "locals", lol!

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Tuesday 2 July 2013

Tuesday, July 02, 2013

Heh. I'm feeling pretty snuff about myself today!
I dredged my way through all my CE assignments, with the exception of two which I couldn't get to. They're ones you have to post the first part for the instructor to approve, and then she unlocks the next portion. So there's two of those left - but they're followup of the primary I've already submitted. woo-hoo!

I got some email from a former CE instructor (in my specialty) who's decided I'm the authority, and she sent me some pics to evaluate. That felt pretty empowering.

I got over whatever digestive malady I brought upon myself and (so far) I'm able to eat again. I don't know; maybe that's NOT a good thing! lol

And THEN... (probably because of that indiscretion) the scale was kind to me today and taunted me with a number about 2 pounds less than I saw the last time I climbed aboard. I'm not going to get wild about it -- but it's a nice idea, and I'll take it for what it's worth!

It's a pretty day here, although the radar and forecast is for rain later. I don't know why I even mention or consider such things: it's FL! This is how it's SUPPOSED to be! I can remember some years it being so dependable you could nearly set your clock by the afternoon shower. I sort of like the thunder and the little whippy breezes. Storms energize me. Give me a storm over a sunny day with fluffy clouds anytime!

So most of my "oughtas" are behind me. It wasn't the ordeal I had envisioned. It never is. This is my traditional approach. I know it's just dread, and it's not real. I don't know why I'm so slow on the uptake with this! I feel like I'm at least moderately intelligent. I should be able to assimilate this! oh well There's another line-item to go along with my "slacker-iness" (is that even a word?!?)

Anyway, I have a day I can contemplate and dig into more fun stuff now. See, I even get to reward myself! and still... I don't learn! sheesh I might catch up with my (snail-mail) pen pal, who's been languishing sans correspondence for a couple weeks now. I might pick up a little craft project I'm going to make for my friend. I might finish reading one of my just-for-fun books. I might work through a couple more reviews, which I seem to have abandoned recently. Well... maybe not. That feels a bit like an "oughta"! But it's a "wanna" too. We'll see. Or I might just be completely useless and go out and sit in the sun and enjoy the day until the rain kicks in.

I have no idea. Possibilities are endless! What a nice feeling.
Hope you all have some nice feelings to shower upon yourselves too!

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PEAWINKLE 7/4/2013 10:16AM

    I've lived in Fl all my life and you are right. When I was younger it would rain every afternoon at the same time....for just a short period of time and then it was hotter and steamier than before.

It's nice when the possibilities are endless! Hope you chose something you enjoyed immensely!

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POPSY190 7/3/2013 4:03AM

    Whatever you do, have a great time doing it!

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KIM___ 7/2/2013 5:52PM

    Have fun whichever you decide.

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KERRYG155 7/2/2013 4:51PM

    Whatever you decide, enjoy! Glad you're feeling better and what a great feeling to have someone ask you to evaluate the pics. I remember when we first moved here it rained every afternoon at almost exactly 4:00.

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Monday 1 July 2013

Monday, July 01, 2013

Well. I'm not doing so well with this journaling thing! What a surprise.

I'm in the throes of yet another "lesson" from my body. We found ourselves out and about yesterday at around lunchtime...in a grocery, of all things. There was a Subway in there. There's a recipe for destruction if I ever heard one. Fresh baking bread. This one also makes little pizzas. And I've always LOVED their seafood subs. So my options were: 1) eat Subway; 2) don't eat Subway, and instead buy every tempting thing in the store to take home; or 3) don't eat anything or buy things off-the-list and just eat decent food when I get home. Naturally, you can easily construe where those choices went.

Well. At least I told them to pull out most of the bready insides of the roll. But then Joe tempted me with a cookie (and I was already broken down on the temptation thing), so I more than defeated my purpose in taking out the plain bread by replacing it with yet more carbs AND sugar. -sigh- Well. It tasted pretty good. I managed to scavenge out most of the insides and still left a bunch of the bread behind. Made for messy eating, but WTH.

Then, at dinnertime, I ate a salad. Usually this might be considered proper eating. For me, many veggies and especially anything you'd call "roughage" are touchy things. After my "fall" at lunchtime, it turned out to be too much for dinner. I tried a new dressing too, which didn't feel right even going down...it was Walmart's brand of Ranch, and it was a lot more peppery than the Ranch brands I usually eat. Not only that, I love the dill in Ranch, and (so far as I could tell) there wasn't any in this. Well, I had it, and I wasn't going to throw it out (whose blog did I read not long ago about not treating your body like a garbage disposer?). I'm thinking now it's going to go in a non-biological disposer (ie - not me!).

So now I'm in education mode. Again. I spent the night in mild GI malaise, and sometime before dawn that progressed into my typical - Sorry: TMI alert! - fermentation and gas production routine. This morning I don't even want to put liquid...even water, in there. My gut seems to have relented, but I can feel things lurking around there, just waiting for my next indiscretion. This would be a relatively minor, if irritating, situation...except that I need to get my megaload of meds and supplements down, and my body is warning me in no uncertain terms, "this is a fast day!" So we'll see what transpires later on.

I posted a response to someone's blog in the last day or so about the current state of dietary health in this country. I guess I got on my soapbox; I tend to do that, alas. I also visited some blogs and threads from other Sparkers about why their plan isn't performing as desired; some of them quoting (again) the failed weight-loss and "healthy" recommendations we still get. It was pretty depressing. Yes, I fall off my own wagon (as described above!). But at least I know I've done it, I know it WHEN I'm doing it, and I understand the correct way to be doing things. It's not ignorance - it's just my dropping the ball of responsibility. Maybe that's worse, I don't know.

I wish I had better speaking skills; I wish I had magnetic charisma; I wish I could find the way to reach people who are struggling this way. It really wrecks my outlook. It's bad enough to be faced with it from people I don't know, or only know distantly. It's SO much more stressful to see it in people I care for or love, friends and especially family. I try very hard not to get pushy or strident about it. I know that's counterproductive. People like that come off as fanatics. I don't know. Maybe I'm a fanatic! ?!? If so, I have no desire to reduce the tendency. I want them to take it seriously, but I don't want to drive anyone away from the facts just because I'm so eager to have them "see the light." But you can't enlighten those who fear it. Change is scary to so many.... stagnation is scarier, IMO. Especially when you have evidence of its detriments. Oh well.

On a positive note: I've whipped myself into some semblance of shape with my CE course. I finished one. I'm about 2/3 through the last one. Of course, the deadline is the 7th. Nothing like last-minute crushes! I'm thinking I'm actually going to make this deadline, though... and not have to throw myself upon the instructor's mercy at the 11th hour to accept my final posts. Hopefully. That's what I need to be doing now: finishing up some of my remaining 6 assignments. If I'm a "good girl," I'll plow through that one-per-day and make it. IF the instructor doesn't request followup! luck to me on that one.

Hope everyone has a beautiful day. It's looking like rain here (well, it's Florida!), which is wonderful: we need the water. The world breathes deep in the rain. And it keeps me inside, doing things I NEED to be doing, instead of being out gallivanting about squandering my resources. lol

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KIM___ 7/2/2013 1:15PM

    URgh! You keep reminding me about the CEU's I need to get. I did do a few, but found out they were worth .01 CEU for each online 'test'. At that rate . . . well, guess I'm going to have to go out and get real ones.

About your GI distress. I will not get on a soapbox so no worries. I will say that my daughter has Gastro-intestinal distress as well. She has found that Cottonseed oil will get her sick and nearly anything (esp junky foods) that has a combination of oils. The kind that says "contains and/or" with a list of oils.

The cheap type chocolate will also get her. Actually, there are a bunch of things she now watches out for. My dairy girl also found out she has developed a lactose intolerance. It's not full blown like some people's, but by taking lactaid (like) products she feels better.

My advice would be to start reading labels better. She was giving excuses (eating too much type excuses) but when she started really examining the labels and being much more conscious of the components of what she is eating she now has a better handle on her discomfort.

Don't beat yourself up over subway. This is a lifestyle, not a finish line. Sure, you stepped out of bounds for a bit. No biggie, you're still here and still plugging away. Just put in your calories (you may not have deviated as much as you thought) and move on.

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WOUBBIE 7/1/2013 9:17PM

    My niece is the one that really gets to me, because she's pretty definitely sensitive to wheat - IBS and everything - and just kinda doesn't want to hear about it. She's doing the Spark Solution now, though, and that's quasi low-carb and has a lot of non-wheat dishes, and she likes it, so maybe, over time, she'll recognize what makes her feel better and what makes her feel crappy.

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KERRYG155 7/1/2013 12:45PM

    Subway can actually be a very healthy place to eat-you just need to lighten up, change or delete some of the condiments. Most Subways around here use light mayo which helps and if you use more mustard to add flavor that helps, too. If you like their seafood then try it on a salad instead of the bread and don't use any dressing or just a tiny bit. I have found through the years that a tiny bit of dressing goes a long way if you stir the salad up well or shake it up. Tell your husband to quit trying to destroy your health with those darn cookies even when they are so tempting and so good!

It is always hard to talk to someone else about their weight-my daughter needs to lose about 150 lbs but is always shocked to see a picture of herself. Anytime she decides to try losing the first thing she does is buy chips and dip but if I say anything then I "don't know anything about it". I kind of think I do since I did manage to lose 130 lbs before gaining 50 back with the knee replacement surgeries and the arthritis then moving to the lower spine and hips. Oh well, maybe I don't know anything.

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Sunday 23 June 2013

Sunday, June 23, 2013

Seems as if I've fallen off my self-directed wagon already! why am I not surprised.

Let's see...Friday. I actually applied myself to some of my CE. I got through a long dissertation on a marginally interesting topic...and then failed to save it when I closed the program and lost it all. Figures. I was so disgusted I spent the rest of the day cruising around the 'net.

Saturday...it's hot here already, and Joe wanted to get some walking in, so rather than face the iffy weather at the flea market, we went to the mall. oooooo how I hate malls. I do like the wandering about, and IF there's any shops other than clothing, shoes, or jewelry to peruse, I like that. But I haven't seen many of that variety in a long, long time. Our local mall does have a Spencer's, which is a curiosity. I remember it fondly from many years past. It's not exactly like that now, naturally. But it beats the other stores throughout the mall.

Then, of course, there's the Food Court. =( I hate that. Mostly it's stuff I really don't even want, but the aromas tempt me. The little kiosks of soft pretzels drive me crazy. I think it's the salt. I get enough of the bread base after a bite or two, honestly. I haven't had one in probably a couple years, and yesterday was no different. I went past and drooled and longed for it and kept going. I can eat salt at home. I pride myself on passing the Cinnabon and Mrs Fields' on the opposite side of the corridor this time. Last trip, the mini cookies at Mrs Fields' snagged me. I won't do that again, after seeing the carb count AND the price paid for those bitsy nuggets.

So we went to a place I've never been before: Red Robin. From the storefront, it looks like just another burger joint. I suppose it is, on some level. The burgers did look awesome. If we go back, I'll try one out, sans bun and with a side salad (which also looked tasty) instead of the fries. They do have sweet potato fries. But I don't need fries. Yesterday I had their French onion soup (which was very tasty, although it came out pretty cool-ish), and fish-n-chips. The fish was battered in a light tempura, which I feel less badly about than the usual half-pound of breading you get on fried things. The soup was really good. When they came to see how we were doing and I mentioned the temp (even tho we'd already about finished the soups), she went back and got us another order...which was unexpected and unneccessary, but nice! Who'd expect that of a fast-food outlet? I didn't anyway. Of course, I couldn't finish a second serving. But they have take-away, and it's here awaiting dinnertime. The fish was very good. I kept eyeballing those monstrous burgers going by, though! They look like they might be made in-house, instead of coming in preformed. I don't know. They look intriquing, anyhow. Next time.

Today the plan is to hit the grocery before a sale goes off and use a coupon which is also due to expire shortly. My aforementioned friend is reluctant to go to this particular chain of grocery... I don't know why, really. She's funny about some things. If I want to go to this store, I usually just go by myself, which is okay because then I'm not constrained to the typical 2-hour circumlocution with her. I want to get out and back before the traditional afternoon showers begin though, so I ought to be working in that direction now...and you see where I am! LOL

I read something recently...some blog or newsbit or I-don't-remember-what... Paula Deen was the original topic. People posted following the story about her racism and various gripes and complaints. I suppose, if it's perceived as racist, I have a big problem with it, too. My friend isn't of my racial heritage (and it doesn't matter which is what, or what the other "whats" are). I don't have any issue with her in that regard, nor, from what I can tell, she with me. We are perfectly compatible (within limits, as I've discussed) on the sheer basis of personality. This seems to me as things should be.

I am a Southern girl. My family may well have been in the same, or similar, position as Paula Deen's family. I will probably unintentionally offend some readers by admitting to some fond memories of that genteel Southern style. My mother's side of the family traveled from Mississippi across to Texas by covered wagon. There were lots of stories from those times when I was growing up. Some of the remarks on the blogsite mentioned above were pretty hateful about the reason that Southern "charm" was possible - ie, that there were people in the background doing the labor and unpleasantries so the "elite" would enjoy a presumably artificial lifestyle. I suppose there's truth to that. I also suppose that we live in a very similar world today, with the exception that instead of room and board we have wages. I am fairly certain (KICK ME NOW) that there were owned people in the family prior to its emigration from Mississippi to Texas. I recall my grandmother in a great tearful state retelling to me how the staff they left behind (with a deed to the little farm and all its accoutrements passed along to those folks, on paper - legally) chasing them down the road and crying and begging to be taken along. They were family. They didn't want the farm, they wanted the family. But it wasn't to be.

I know very well that the vast majority of "relationships" of this nature were not benign. It was a Very Wrong Thing, and despite it *apparently* not being horrific in my family (again, a one-sided tale, who actually knows?), I feel some shame at having been associated in even this faint and distant way with those times. But, in light of the way it ended, I look back and think, well...the people were here. We didn't go collect them. They had a home, they had food, shelter, family. Yes, they had to work for what they got, I presume. They were, however, also given some education - at least enough to be able to enter into the legal contract of ownership of the farm. So far as I know - and I certainly can't "know" this, but I have to believe it - they were not misabused, other than the fact that they were obliged to work first for our family and secondarily for their own needs. It seems to me their needs coincided pretty closely with the family's needs...but that's debatable, I guess.

Is it different now? we're all still "indentured" by our social customs. Okay, so we have to bow and scrape to management, we're slaves to that paycheck. We get our room and board differently now. But while the details differ, it's still there. Of course I see that chosen employment isn't ownership! but it bears some similarity.

Like Paula Deen, I do have some fond reminisces of bygone time. I don't know how to describe it outside of the concept of "Southern charm." Gentle civility, an appreciation of beauty and nature...and yes, I suppose some "disconnect" from reality. I feel deeply guilty to have an appreciation of such things. Why is this wrong? I learn from all aspects of our current social environment that it is Wrong. I keep it to myself, except in rare instances like this...where I ashamedly admit to some nostalgic yearning.

Some of the comments on that page were that people who feel as I do are the worst racists, because they don't recognize that they are. Am I racist? I feel no negativity toward any group of individuals. I interact with people on a one-to-one basis. It's who they are, not what they are, that matters to me. Class or race or age or anything else has little bearing on my feelings for people. Consider that my friend was just a casual walk-by in Walmart, of all places! We spoke in a friendly manner for a moment and things just spiraled onward from that. I think, if I was racist, I'd not have spoken with her or ignored her or avoided her (?) from the first moment. On the other hand, I have these recollections and nostalgia from long-past times, and I'm told this is sorely racist.

I don't know how to reconcile these things, other than to keep it under wraps because I know I'd attract a LOT of negative response from folks inclined to be sensitive. I can't change who I am. I can prevent imposing it on other people, and I try to do that. But it's a concern, and it bothers me. And I can whine about it all I like, which doesn't much change the situation at all.

Meanwhile, the afternoon rains are coming. I'm going to be soaked if I don't get up from here and go to the store!

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ADAGIO_CON_BRIO 6/24/2013 3:52PM

    You are a profound thinker and writer. I have discovered in my own thinking some stereotypical negative dismissals of people based on certain traits. It's not race, but it is the same kind of bigotry and intolerance. I am not proud to admit it, but it's there. I am aware of it.

I love Jessica Williams! She had such a brilliant response/analysis!

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POPSY190 6/23/2013 5:25PM

    Great blog. I don't live in the US so don't know Paula Deans views but we have similar issues where I live where the past is used in some quarters to make others feel guilty on racial grounds. As an historian, this offends me because people act in their particular circumstances according to the beliefs and ethos of the day. The events of the past happened, and should not be denied, but nor should they be used to exert a kind of emotional blackmail. Anyone who has a DNA analysis done will realise that "race" is a word that just obscures our common human condition.

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WOUBBIE 6/23/2013 1:57PM

    "Fried and Prejudice"


Well, for a great perspective on the Paula Deen situation, no one can beat Jessica Williams of The Daily Show, who gives a very scientific discourse on whether Deen suffers from Type 1 racism, which is inherited, or Type 2, "adult-onset racism".

Although the presence of slave ownership in her family's past might indicate Type 1, Williams also points out that it was still possible that Deen was afflicted by Type 2 racism, developed "after years of clogging your brains with pure, saturated Dixie nostalgia.”

Jessica's bit is at the bottom of the article.

Paula apparently thinks that using this word is a perfectly normal:

"But that's just not a word that we use as time has gone on. Things have changed since the '60s in the south. And my children and my brother object to that word being used in any cruel or mean behavior."

She objects to its being used in a "cruel or mean behavior". But not in a loving way, maybe?


It is a cruel and mean WORD, and has no reason to be used at all, and she... does not seem to get it.

If you haven't read the deposition yet, it's here:


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KERRYG155 6/23/2013 1:38PM

    These days it is very difficult to never say the wrong thing or use the wrong word because someone out there can find offense with whatever comes out of your mouth. Usually for absolutely no reason. Words that used to just be words describing every day things or feelings are not bad words or good words with bad meanings. Some words that people think as horrible are basically words that come from lazy speakers long ago who couldn't bother to say the word right or maybe someone heard it wrong one time and kept it going. Who knows. My thought from childhood has always been that we are all human beings which makes us the same.

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