Friday, August 20, 2010
Itís not really a puh-TEY-toh/puh-TAH-toh situation. Itís not different ways of saying the same thing. I was chatting with some friends today, and someone mentioned Scarlett Johansson, calling her a curvy girl, which she is. And noting that itís great to see curvy girls represented, which it is. I said that I canít wait to exit Ďfatí and enter Ďcurvyí. And then I got the nasty look. And then I got the head shake and tongue click. And then I was told that real women Ďhave meatí. Seriously? If youíre a Scarlett-size 5í4Ē tall and youíre busty and wear a size 4-6 like her, sure, youíre curvy. But if youíre 5í4Ē and a size 16, youíre not curvy, youíre fat.
And I realize I might get criticized for saying it here. Doesnít make it not true. Iím not going to lie (to myself) and say Iím curvy. I mean, Iíve got curves, but in more places than just the right ones. E.g. the curves on my stomach which, if I keep adding to them, make me a prime target for heart disease. Iím not going to hide behind this Curvy Girl moniker so I donít hurt my own feelings, or so I donít have to deal with something that is a true and important issue.
I donít understand this. Celebrating obesity under the guise of being a Ďreal womaní is just plain silly, not to mention potentially deadly. Does that make anyone that maintains a naturally lower weight a fake woman? And if I was truly eating healthily, hovering around the calories my body actually needs, I might be overweight, but I wouldnít be obese. Whatís wrong with admitting Iím fat?
Iím not putting myself down when I say Iím fat. Iím being honest. And not in a self-defeating way. I am fat, not curvy. Sometime soon I hope to be a curvy girl. But for now Iím fat. And I said it. So there.
Maybe Iím not alone in feeling this way. Iím all for curves, but not as an excuse to stay unhealthy.
Monday, August 09, 2010
okay, itís not that i truly believe in any kind of personal magic with which one has been innately endowed. i think we make our own whatever-you-call-it: motivation, purpose, impetus Ö mojo. and iíve misplaced mine. hopefully temporarily.
first it was family issues, and then personal-life issues, and then my laptop eating yet another adapter, then grumpiness about SPís blackberry application. and i could go on but the point is made. iíve arranged different justifications roaming everywhere from the minute to the massive. all are relevant to my world and may be legitimate frustrations; but, of course, the extent to which i let them control my world and my mood is entirely up to me. this is no revelation.
iím really finding it difficult to stay enthusiastic. i have moments of enthusiasm, still itís not lasting. i feel like a sprinter trying to tackle a marathon. bursts of energy with an acute lack of planning. and iím getting overwhelmed. itís not like iím doing horribly. okay, itís totally like iím doing horribly. i stay under or at my calorie limit, but on crap, not on healthy choices. i exercise, but i havenít created any routine.
and looming in the midst of all this lassitude is Back to Schoolóa mere three weeks awayówhich means i very much need to get myself on track so that i can keep my son on his, too.
where is inspiration to be found? hopefully just around the corner. still i have a feeling i just need to give myself the proverbial swift kick and get moving!
any thoughts, ideas from SPers?
Sunday, June 28, 2009
It's been bothering me for a while now. Personally, I do much better when I weigh my food. And I'm trying to ensure I get in the all important Five Fruits and Vegetables a Day.
So I got irritated when every web site said 'one apple, one apricot ... seven stalks of asparagus, two cups leafy greens'. All of these vary greatly is visually measurable size as well as weight, not to mention ... two cups of lettuce? Packed, loose, what?
I looked at dozens of sites. The information was largely the same. Then, oddly enough, I stumbled on to a UN site. Guess what. There is a standard of about 80 grams per serving. I guess you really can find anything on the web.
And with this nugget of information now taking up a little nook in my stuffed-full-of-trivia brain, I feel like I've acquired a better measure of my 5 a day. But I have to say, 80 grams of spinach looks like an awful effen lot!
Wednesday, June 17, 2009
So Iím taking a moment, once again, to note the little things Iím enjoying/appreciating this week.
.My new playlist! (Del Tha Funky Homosapien, Mos Def, Handsome Boy Modeling School, Gorillaz, Latyrx, Bobby Digital Ö and others of the experimental/underground hip-hop and rap genre)
.Double dog lead (two dogs + one lead = happier walkies when I take them solo)
.The lovely gentleman at the newsstand who gives me a cheerful Ďgood morningí at 5.30 am
.New sheets for the bed
.Cute Overload ( cuteoverload.com , check out Ďcute or sad?í)
.My angsty brat who keeps cleaning the house
Whatís got you smiling today?
Wednesday, June 10, 2009
Through my frustrations and grumpiness, I thought Iíd take a minute to jot down what Iím enjoying today.
Mos Defís new album (I confess to having a huge crush)
Cute girl with tats and labret piercing on the bus today
Poetry (reading and writing)
My partnerís dedication to school
I realize itís not all so very interesting or meaningful, still it offers me a little perspective. There are many little things to appreciate.
Anyone else enjoying 'minutiae' today?
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