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Recovering slowly

Thursday, November 17, 2011

I thought I would be back at work in January and I was wrong. The unrealistic expectations that I had about my back surgery recovery have been very hard for me to wrap my mind around and I have gotten kind of depressed whenever I do something that then becomes mind-blowingly painful. Simple things like going to the mall to do a tiny bit of shopping turns into a desperate need to find the exit to my car - can I make it or will I have to burst into tears in front of all these people? It is just amazing to me that I cannot do the things I used to do and it is starting to feel like I never will.

But, the glass half full side of me knows that eventually this pain will go away and I will be better than before. I can't wait to be able to bike with my family and my bike partner (who is going on all these fun bike trips without me). I really miss teaching and hope that I will be able to teach come spring or next fall. I doubt I will ever go back to lo impact aerobics because the floor is too hard but I am definitely going to go back to spin.

PT has been interesting and painful. I do my exercises daily and hopefully they will work soon!

It seems to be to be a two steps forward, one step backwards recovery. But I look forward to a pain free future -just can't quite see it right now.

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MELLISOND 11/30/2011 8:51AM

    Oh, I feel for you. I have had that mall experience although not as a consequence of back surgery. It is great that you are keeping up with your physical therapy. Here is to you future cycling with your family! emoticon

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GIANNA345 11/18/2011 2:28PM

    Hang in there! It will happen. Call me if you need help with errands or getting out of a mall when you're overtired.

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Next phase of my life - empty nesting

Sunday, October 09, 2011

So here it is October and my boys have been off to college for awhile (one left in August, one in early September). In the meantime I have had major back surgery so we haven't had alot of empty nesting honeymoon time! My DH has taken amazing care of me and I am grateful to him and my friends for being such a wonderful support system.

I actually have lost weight b/c I am not hungry (probably from not exercising) plus without the boys here, I am able to make much less food. My DH has, of course, lost alot of weight - that drives me crazy! But I know that I can do this and it doesn't matter about his ability to lose quicker! Not a contest, right?

I miss exercising alot. I can walk about a mile but then have to rest for hours afterwards. It is all normal but frustrating for me, being a fitness instructor and a half-marathoner. I was scheduled to walk a 1/2 next weekend but obviously cannot - instead of just letting the money go, I got a deferral and now my goal is to be able to do the 1/2 next year. I did it last year and I know I can do it again. Maybe not as fast (did it in 3:15 last yr) but I will finish!

I am hoping to be able to get on a stationary bike soon and see if I can exercise a little. We can set up the bike trainer and put my bike on it and I could just pedal a little. Definitely not ready to bike outside.

I thought I would be back to teaching in the winter but it looks like either the spring or even possibly next fall. I didn't realize how hard the recuperation and recovery from this surgery was going to be and I need to adjust my mind to this new way of life. I am no longer a day-to-day mom and I am not working at the job that keeps me fit and makes me happy. It's all a little weird!

The boys are happy at school and coming home next weekend since I am unable to attend their parents' weekends. It will be nice to all be home together. And then we will probably be ready for them to leave again!!

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GIANNA345 10/10/2011 6:32PM

    Weight loss is almost always a happy event. Congratulations! Do you get your crappy movies from the library, or do you download them Netflix or an equivalent service?

What kind of movies do you like?

When I feel crappy, I watch old episodes of the All Things Great and Small TV show that was produced in Britain a decade or two ago. Netflix has it available for streaming. It's always light-hearted and funny. I've always loved those stories.

Keep up the good cheer.

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EXERCISETCHR 10/10/2011 10:24AM

    Hey Janet! Thanks for the support and offers. I am doing OK - just thought that the recovery would be faster although that was just in my mind. I haven't been able to get on a bike yet but I will talk to the dr about stationary biking or spinning (with no resistance) when I see him on Wednesday. Walking is good though and of course I live in a good walking area!

I do go to the library ALOT and have been reading. Been watching some pretty crappy movies as well but it's about all I can do right now. Linc has been taking really good care of me. The biggest hurdle is that I haven't driven yet. I can't twist so backing up is pretty hard!!!

The best thing about this tho is that I am losing weight so that has made me a little happier! That has to do with the lack of hunger on my part plus the boys being gone so I am not cooking 4 lbs of meatballs and 2 lbs of spaghetti for dinner!

Hope all is well with you! emoticon

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GIANNA345 10/9/2011 5:13PM

    Sorry to hear about the surgery and the difficulty of the recovery. Keep walking and pedaling. It will start to get easier at some point, won't it? I'm glad to hear you have plenty of help. Please add me to your list if you need anything. Do you have all the books and movies you need to keep you occupied?

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Been a long time...

Friday, July 01, 2011

I haven't blogged in awhile (not really my thing) but thought I would update.

I have gained alot of weight partly due to my inability to exercise as much as I was, partly b/c of age and hormones, and partly b/c of eating.

My back has gotten very bad and it is very depressing for me since I can no longer do the things I used to do - bike ride long distances, walk long distances, swim, teach my classes. But I have a great doc now at Johns Hopkins and after trying various conservative things we have now scheduled disc surgery for September 6th. I will be out of commission for a few months but hopefully will be able to go back to teaching my fitness classes in the winter.

In the meantime, good things have happened within my family - my twin boys graduated high school a couple of weeks ago and they are getting ready to go off to college. One is going to Northeastern (Boston) for architecture and the other is going to Berkeley (San Fran) for biomedical engineering. We will be empty nesters in a very short while and will miss them but we are very happy for them and proud that they are such great kids.

I am trying very hard to be a "glass half full" person so let me state that besides my back issues, my life is very good and I am a very lucky person. Good family, great husband (almost 26 yrs married and 31 together), beautiful home, easy life, great friends.

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JDLANDER 7/3/2011 1:55AM

    Thanks for posting. When you have been in the exercise community for so long it is hard to be out of it. I feel a connection with you right now. I haven't gotten to exercise since early April (not because of back problems, but because I was pregnant and had a c-section) and I also love to eat which shows sometimes. My good wishes go with you and may the doctors be inspired to help you recover to do the things that you love.

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ADAMST3 7/2/2011 11:54PM

Thank you for co-leading! I've been patiently waiting for your next blog...and here it is, and I've been blessed! Thank you for being genuine in your comments. It helps us all reflect.
Congrats on your sons' accomplishments...they are in my prayers as they journey to their next season.
Surgery!!!! YOU are in my prayers...as well as the doctors. HUGS on that one, Sister!

Humble appreciation for sharing yourself with us in July!


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EXERCISETCHR 7/1/2011 3:24PM

    I love your first sentence!!! "I don't think it's really a negative to take notice of reality." That is so perfect for me to try and remember.

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GETUP-N-GOGIRL 7/1/2011 2:15PM


I don't think it's really a negative to take notice of reality. We need to address what's truly going on in our lives in order to make logical adjustments.

One thing that's been new to me to try to "wrap my brain around" is that I've noticed my dreams and hopes aren't as -magnificent- as they once were. I've adjusted them (down-sized) since my body DOES have limiting issues that I have to deal with!

I'm not exactly HAPPY with that, but... emoticon

Yeah, it can be depressing, but it's made me look at other alternative forms of exercise; i.e., less wear-and-tear on the ol' body! LOL

Actually, I have been WANTING to talk with others about this very issue since it's kind of new to me and I can't say that I hear it discussed all that often.

So thank you for blogging about it!

And congrats on your coming 'empty-nest' stage; as well as how blessed you are with your two twin sons and their promising future!!!

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Going to the beach

Friday, March 27, 2009

I am going to the beach this afternoon for a calm quiet weekend with a girlfriend. She has a wonderful house in Delaware and we try to go, alone, once or twice a year.

I have gained weight since my last blog but I am working incredibly hard now to make it come off or at least lose inches. I have lost three pounds which is great but it has taken forever.

Also taken up running again and am doing the C25K podcast program. Joined the C25k SP team as well. I plan on doing at least two mini triathlons this summer so I had to start running again and I am also taking swim lessons which has been loads of fun.

Looking forward to warmer weather so I can exercise more outside comfortably and also sit on the front porch and read, knit and talk to neighbors with a glass of wine (part of my weight problem I know!).

Take care everyone!



Thursday, June 19, 2008

I am having major back issues and was told by my regular dr that I would need surgery. When I went to the neurosurgeon he basically told me that if I was not approaching 50 (January) but instead was in my 20's or 30's that he would do the surgery but this was the natural progression of things. That was extremely frustrating to hear since I am extremely active and don't really feel that I am required to be in pain just b/c of my age. I am going to see someone else next week but not sure what the outcome will be.

Meantime, I decided that since he said not to do anything that hurts and everything hurts that I will do anything I want anyway. Probably not the best way to deal with it but if this is what getting older is going to be like, I better get used to it now. I just don't think that is the way it should be though!!!

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GIANNA345 9/2/2009 2:30PM

If you are still looking for a doctor, I know a great one. He lives in our area, but his practice is in Virginia. I have known him for over 10 years, and he has been able to solve a lot of problems for me, even after other doctors had given up. The practice web site is: www.treatingpain.com


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NIKEGIRL1967 6/23/2008 11:57AM

    Get another doctor - immediately.

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UP4MORE 6/19/2008 4:57PM

    That is a doc you do not want - find another who will care!

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SWIMMERYOGINI 6/19/2008 2:07PM

  CHANGE DOCTORS! What a load of ****. Find a doctor who is routinely treats athletes and you will get a much more reasoned response, which would be, let's fix it if it is a mechanical issue, and get you back out and about!

Run as fast as you can away from this guy!

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