Wednesday, July 11, 2012
For another Getting to Know You!
[Marital Status] Married
[Shoe size] 9
[Parents still together] they were when my daddy passed
[Siblings] One older brother
[Pets] 4 dogs
[Color] Any shade of purple
[Soda] Coke or Sprite Zero
[Book] The Bible as Literature
[Color your hair?] No
[Twirl your hair?] Sometimes
[Have tattoos?] Yes from breast cancer markers for radiation
[Have Piercings?] Yes, 2 in each ear
[Cheat on tests/homework?] No
[Like roller coasters?] No
[Wish you could live somewhere else?] To be closer to family, otherwise I'm happy where I am
[Want more piercings?]
[Like cleaning?] No
[Write in cursive or print?] Cursive
[Own a web cam?] No
[Know how to drive?] Yes
[Own a cell phone?] Yes
[Ever get off the damn computer?] Yes
HAVE U EVER
[Been in a fist fight?] No
[Considered a life of crime?] No
[Considered being a hooker?] NO!!
[Lied to someone?] Yes, a long time ago
[Been in love?] Yes, I am right now!
[Made out with JUST a friend?] Yes
[Been in lust?] Yes
[Used someone] No
[Been used?] Yes
[Been cheated on?] Yes
[Stolen anything?] No
[Held a gun] Yes
[Current clothing] Leggings and an oversized tee
[Current mood] Really good
[Current taste] Soup
[What you currently smell like] Me
[Current hair] Sloppy
[Current thing I ought to be doing] Reading
[Current cd in stereo] The Healing Heart (Harp music)
[Last book you read] Divine Secrets of the YaYa Sisterhood (re-read)
[Last movie you saw] Shining Through
[Last thing you ate] Soup and veggies
[Last person you talked to on the phone] My brother
[Do drugs?] Only prescribed
[Believe there is life on other planets?] Yes
Remember your first love?] Yes - Tom
[Still love him/her?] Yes, as a friend
[Read the newspaper?] Yes
[Have any gay or lesbian friends?] Yes
[Believe in miracles?] Yes
[Do well in school?] Average
[Wear hats] Yes
[Hate yourself?] No
[Have an obsession?] No
[Collect anything?] Yes
[Have a best friend?] Yes
[Close friends?] Yes
[Like your handwriting?] Sometimes
[Care about looks] Yes, for myself not anyone else
[First crush] Tom
[First kiss] Tom
[Do you believe in love at first sight?] Yes
[Do you believe in "the one?"] Yes
[Are you a tease?] No
[Too shy to make the first move?] Yes
ARE U A
[sarcastic] For fun
[Devil] heh! Once in a while!
[Shy] Very until I get to know someone
If you would like the blank copy to answer, let me know.
Have a great day!!!
Peace, Love, and Grace,
Saturday, July 07, 2012
One of my good SP friends has been having issues with gaining even though she watches her calories and has increased her excercise. She says she is tired all the time. She has been working trying to find out why she is having these issues and finally narrowed it down to carbs. She can't have any unless from fruit or veggies.
This got me to thinking about how different things are for me since my last radiation and chemo. It is difficult to think that I was in the middle of all that a year ago! It ended the last part of August. Some days it feels like it was just yesterday. The eating hasn't changed that much. I have one doc telling me I should have improvement with a year of treatments and the other says most likely it will be this way the rest of my life.
I have been complimented on my great work in getting to goal with a loss of 135 pounds. But I can't take all of the credit. Cancer helped me along!! What has it done? I lost quicker than I did on the feeding tube because of my issues since then.
Since I don't produce saliva much anymore and I had to have so many teeth removed before they would give me radiation, it is difficult to chew and swallow certain things - mostly carbs. I can have toast if I have it with soup. With pasta, I must leave some water with the sauce. As far as rice and potatos are concerned, if they are in soup I can have them, but in small amounts.
Then there is sweet stuff. Most of it burns my mouth, especially the sides and tip of my tongue. I can't even do frozen yogurt. Even when something says sugar-free, I can't handle it. Sometimes it feels as though someone added an entire cup of salt to whatever it is.
The salty taste was bad with water and tea at first, but that has gotten a lot better so that I can enjoy them both. The other things with carbs and sugar aren't so bad for me. Both have helped me to lose all that weight. When I finished my treatments in August, I was at 215. Today it is 120, so I think that tells the story.
What do I miss the most? Well, I would have to say there are several things that I miss. I wouldn't say that it is a lot, but I do miss not having it. #1 is pizza! #2 is chocolate! #3 is popcorn! #4 is corn on the cob, though I can do ok if it is off the cob. #5 is citrus, either the fruit itself or juice. And I used to start nearly everyday with fresh orange juice. And believe it or not, I miss my former toothpaste and mouthwash. These days I must use special stuff because the other burns so bad. Wines also aren't tolorated at all and I used to love a glass at the holidays or whenever my brother was here for a toast of some sort.
Another thing that is difficult for me is trying to figure what I have eaten for my trackers. Some examples: when I have shrimp I usually have 3-4. For any kind of burger I have 1/8th to 1/4 of one. Lots of other things I'll have just a bite - less than a TBLS, but that choice is not always an option on the tracker. So, I just do my best at guess-amating.
But I think even more than food or drink is singing. My voice hasn't come back at all. I still get hoarse when I talk too long and dry mouth for sure. But trying to sing - there is no way. Since I was a child I was always in some sort of choir either in school, scouts, or church. Music is such a joy for me and I miss being able to sing along. It isn't that it doesn't sound good, it is that I can't do it with so much dry mouth and no saliva to help. Can you imagine: sing a note, take a sip, sing a note, take a sip?!?!?! Not fun at all, trust me!!
But you know, I am still here to adjust to all of these things.As I mentioned some aren't all that bad for me and should help to maintain. I feel very blessed that I have made it through both cancers and the infection/poisoning I had as well as I have. I thank my Lord every day that I have been spared for whatever is to be on my journey through life. I have had so much and these things I mentioned in tonight's blog are so easy to overcome, that they don't even seem that big a bother anymore. Sure, I miss some things, but with each day, not so much.
These thoughts are the biggest on my mind today. There have been other things, too, but they are moving around so fast in my mind, that it'll take me a few days to sort them all one from the other!
For tonight, this is it.
Peace, love, and blessings. I love you all.
Bob and me at our wedding - 12 August 2000
Thursday, July 05, 2012
Ever since Bob posted here that I had been thinking of a project, I have been trying to figure it out. Besides finding out who would be interested - and I don't think there will be many for various reasons - there is the logistic end of things along with supplies. I know some of you are anxious, so here goes:
It is a traveling journal where it is sent along in a sort of circle. There will be no set topic. Whatever you want to write or craft or include postcards or art work, etc., will be totally up to you. The purpose is to learn more about our friends and there may be things we would like to pass on, but don't want seen in a public setting.
For now, I would like the participants be from the States. If Canadians, British, or Aussies would like to do this, that is fine with me. I'll be happy to plan a schedule, etc.
There will be a set schedule for who sends to who and having it for two weeks would be a good time period. I don't think there should be more than five to a group, but that depends on how many are interested.
If you would like to join in with such a project, please send me a Spark mail and I'll share my private email with you.
As I mentioned, I don't think there will be lines to be included. I am hoping for at least four, though. I would make the fifth for the group.
So there it is. Not such a big deal, is it?
Peace love and blessings to all of you.
Tuesday, July 03, 2012
Lately I have been thinking what the 4th signifies for me and what it means to me, personally, to be an American.
Whenever I think of the 4th, it means to mean of a lot of my forefathers who fought and/or lost life or property to start a new nation where the government would not rule what religion was to be practiced (or none at all for that matter, what taxes were to be leveled in order that all would equally pay for services received and more personal liberties. Serving the country was considered a privelge, an honor, and treated with respect by those who did serve. Sadly things are not the same nor even close to those ideals today.
What it means to me to be an American is, I feel very fortunate to have been born here to a father who was first generation American and a mother whose family were in this country in the 1600's. That is almost unheard of in other countries that have established royalty or classes. I was able to achieve as much education as I could study to achieve. We can all travel from one state to another without encountering check points, passports, show identification, etc. There are some other countries who have a lot of the same freedoms that we do here. There are even some who a lot better laws than we. EX - in my opinion is Australia's voting requirement. That said, faults and all, I feel our country does the very best under the laws that were written back in the 1770's and expressed on July 4, 1776 for all to see. We have always strived to fight for our freedoms when needed, but always trying to find peaceful solutions first. I take a lot of pride in that. Although my father and brother never served - my father had an important civilian job, and my brother was never drafted before or after having his children - I have many ancestors who did. My mother had three brothers who served in the Navy during WWII, her father was in the Spanish American War, There were many who served in the OH, PA, and RI brigades in the Civil War. There were some in the War of 1812, and of course the Revolutionary War. I am so proud of that and those who served. Since working on genealogy from 1971 on today, I have learned so much about a lot of these brave and unpretentious ancestors. Some of the stories that could be told!
In no way am I suggesting anything other than my personal feelings. I'm sure most citizens think their own country is the best, too. I know my country has made some mistakes, but for being so young, it has done very well in trying to uphold the principles that were written for us and that we celebrate tomorrow. As my fellow Americans celebrate the day in their own way, I hope they will take a few minutes to reflect just what the day represents. I also hope they will take some time to let their children and grands know and help them to understand what it all means. We are so fortunate to be able to disagree and have the right to express our feelings that a lot of citizens of our world have never enjoyed. It's fun to have the BBQ's and picnics and fireworks as it is a day of celebration. However too few people know, understand, or even care just what we are celebrating!
Peace, love, and blessing to all.
Saturday, June 30, 2012
Hi everyone!! It is so good to be back to see you again. I don't know how long this will be as I still get tired easily. I want to thank all of you for your kindness and support while I have been going thru all of this. The infection was found to be in my gum. It's funny because it didn't hurt that much.
Yesterday I treat myself to an afternoon of good things. My hair is growing so fast now because it is summer, so I got it cut again. I really love it. I told my stylist that I'll wait until fall to grow it out, if Idecide that is what I want.
Next I had my finger nails done. I love, love, love the polish she used. I told her there were two polishes I love for summer, so we chose it together. I tell you, my nail tech is great. Anyway, my nails look so pretty.
Then I finished getting a pedicure. She has some new chairs that she was able to get a good deal on. They usually sell for thousands of dollars. While my feet were soaking, I was able to turn on the massage extra. It felt sooooooooo good!! I nearly fell asleep! I did shut my eyes and was able to rest. It was so quiet with just some music in the background. MMMMMMMM so nice!! We put the same color on my toenails as we did on my fingers.
My entire afternoon pleased me so much and relaxed me so much that when I got home, I got in my recliner and watched movies for the evening. I did come to SP for a bit, but couldn't stay on very long. I must apologize for not getting to everyone's blog or page.
When Bob would read your messages from my blog, page, spark mail, and goodies, I felt so good. It always makes me smile when I read the comments, but this time, the mile was closer to a grin. I felt so good that I was receiving payers and good thoughts. I am one who believes one can never get too many prayers and good thoughts sent their way. God and the universe sure have a way of providing what is needed and requested in prayer and those good thoughts. Bob was super in doing all the posts I asked him to do for me. I just couldn't ask to do more.
One of the things Bob told y'all was that I am thinking about a project for my friends. I hope that at least some of yu will be interested in participating. I'll explain more when I feel stronger.
Every day I click to help the Breat Cancer site to fund mamograms for women who can't afford them. Today also left my story of the journey. Can you believe I fit it in to just over two hundred words. I couldn't! We have a 300 word limit and I was afraid I would go over and was proud of myself when I didn't!! here it is:
"Little did I know when I grew out my hair for Locks of Love and had it cut 2 years later, that I would soon be buying my own wigs. When I was diagnosed with breast cancer I was crushed. But the lessons I learned from the entire journey have changed my life forever. The biggest change was truly finding out there are things we can't control, that we must accept, and if we want to survive we must go forward. The next was how very fortunate I am. I had a journal at home that I used to write five things for which I was grateful for each day. My attitude has changed since then to positive everyday with a determination to make someone smile feel better, and raise their self esteem. I smile more and try to give everyone a complment when I first see them. Through it all I had such a wonderful team and a supportive family and friends. I know others don't have that and so my husband and I try to help as much as we can. I am fortunate, too, because this was found early and I am still here with none showing since March of this year."
I hope y'all enjoy.
In a day or two I'll blog about my project for my friends here at Spark. And in case you didn't know, I am grateful for each of you very day. I say prayers for all, not just those in need, every single day. If it is news to you, I love each and every one of you.
This is the picture I used with my story. I really had long hair didn't I. It is two years worth!!
Peace, love, and blessings to each of you.
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