Tuesday, November 24, 2009
squee! i'm so flipping excited! those of you who read my blog yesterday read all about how horrible last week was. i didn't do anything right. i was pmsing, lazy, even unmotivated in my water drinking. that never happens! i was eating crackers, chips, stashed halloween candy. i even microwaved a s'more! all this in the time i should have been exercising. sad. pathetic. never want that to happen again!
monday's are my usual weigh in days, but i forgot yesterday. i was hoping that one day would make up for last week and the excessive amounts of alcohol i had friday night. and the arby's i totally forgot i had sunday. jeez! so i weighed in this morning fearful of what i'd see when i looked down. omg! i lost 1.5 lbs!!! how?!
i'm really not going to wonder how or how much of a fluke it is. are the batteries in the scale dying? i'm going to take it and run! i won't make my goal for november, but maybe i can hit 220? which was, sadly, my sept and oct goal.
i started spark people in may. i actually wasn't looking for the site when i joined. i was reading a book review and someone mentioned it in their review. so i stopped by and thought it was pretty cool so i joined. i've been wanting/trying to lose weight for years. but when i joined i was so busy and broke trying to buy a house. so i lurked, read articles, visted teams, joined some teams, earned points, read and participated a bit in the stages. then came sept. summer was over, the house buying flurry was done. and i had lost 3 lbs. which could have been more from all the sweat and pain i endured with moving. but i drank a lot of beer! i knew the beer was my biggest reason for not losing (and for gaining over the past few years) so last month i pledged to give up alcohol til new year's eve. i've done alright, but i've had a few moments where life got in the way and $&!% happens. i am not emotionally ready to lose weight. i am losing for the wrong reasons. i still need to accept that i need to lose weight for myself. but i forget and just want to look awesome in a pair of jeans. which is when the frustration steps in. so i'm working on doing this for me.
i'm rather disapointed in my progress. basically, i've lost 10 lbs in three months. i know this is because i haven't been trying and working as hard as i could be. i know i have a fear of success. i accepted that about a year ago. but i need to get over it. something happened to me to cause me to gain all this weight. i need to figure out what it is. 2005 i was 5 lbs away from my goal weight. i had been about 40 lbs overweight. cause of school, work, lack of time to take care of myself. from that point i gained over 80 lbs. i want to know why. i gave up on myself. why? my friends all moved away. i hated my job. i was just unhappy. i need to fix all that. and myself.
sorry for being rambly. thank you to all who have read this far.
i'm off to change my profile pic!
Tuesday, November 17, 2009
like many people i don't make new year's resolutions. i do make goals though. i find i'm more successful at those than resolutions. in 2003 my goal was to drink a minimum of 8 glasses of water a day. i was successful and have been continuing the habit daily since then.
my goals have varied and some have been more successful than others (like the year i gave up alcohol, that lasted through february). for 2009 i gave up soda. I haven't had a drop since i was chugging my captain morgan and diet dr. pepper at 11:59 pm. i always drank diet soda so i didn't have that massive drop in weight that non-diet drinkers tend to experience. my eating habits have changed though. i'm not as hungry between breakfast and lunch. i used to pick up a liter of soda on my way to work from time to time and i'd usually grab other snack foods so i wasn't buying just one thing. i have lost a lot of water weight, bloating. as mentioned, i drink a lot of water, but the sodium and caffiene in the soda were still causing me to retain water. the biggest change i have noticed, and will probably keep me off soda after 2009 ends, is my lack of headaches. not sure if they were migraines, but they were bad! i would get them suddenly and they would last for hours. sometimes i would just have to go to bed and hope they would be gone by morning. i couldn't find a comfortable position to sit or lay, i couldn't read, watch tv, etc. i would just lay in a dark room trying to get comfy. since i gave up soda i haven't had one. so now i know ehere those came from! i am quite relieved as i was on the verge of visting the doctor. my cousin gets migraines and has to take meds when she feels them coming on. she avoids coffee stands like the plague. i thought it may be something genetic. i am happy that i have found a solution without drugs or doctor visits. i have tested caffiene and haven't had any reactions, so i'm leaning towards aspertame.
for 2010 i'm really going to push myself. my one big goal is to stop biting my nails. my overall focus for the year is going to be my health. i am going to avoid fast food restraunts and eating out as much as possible. i'm going to train myself to eat whole, healthy foods. eventually i would like to have a mostly organic diet. i'm going to eliminate sugars and salt from my diet as much as possible. i'm going to buy meat from local farmers to avoid pesticides and who knows what else is in my burger. i would like to know my burger contains the meat of one cow, not many. processed foods will no longer have a place in my home or my life.
i'm also going to continue my quest to eliminate and/or make scarce alcohol. i haven't had anything to drink since 11/7. yea, me!
i'm also going to concentrate on my fitness. i've been doing way better the past few weeks. i just need to keep it going. it's almost habit! i want to incorporate more st, yoga and pilates. also be prepared to starting running again once the nicer spring weather hits.
i know this is a lot of stuff to tackle. but i have a whole year to work at it. it's one of the reasons i make goals rather than resolutions. most people give up on their resolutions by Jan 2. since i've made goals instead i've had a better success rate. if i mess up on jan 10, at least i know i can dust myself off and try again. i haven't failed, i've learned. if on jan 22 ( i think that's the date) when the average person has given up and/or forgetten their resolutions and i can say i've made progress i'll be very proud of myself. And by this time next year if i can look back on the year and think of all the wonderful things i've done for myself i am sure i will be beyond proud and hopefully won't recognize the person i am today.
Thursday, November 12, 2009
nothing in my life is going great right now, but i still feel great!
worked has sucked lately. very stressful. so stressful that yesterday i went home and took it out on myself with an hour long cardio workout. i was soaked in sweat by the time i was done and i felt great! and i do think i'm still feeling the effects of the workout! by 7 i was ready for bed! i was already sore! so i went to bed and read for an hour and a half and just relaxed.
i've been having trouble getting up in the mornings. i hit snooze a lot and sleep through my workout time. so i have stopped using my alarm. i just naturally wake up and so far i've been waking up when i want to (5 am) and have been getting small workouts in before i have to get ready for work. this morning i did a denise austin daily dozen workout. she has a dvd with 5 12 minute workouts. sounds easy, right? ha! she kicked my butt this morning with upper abs and arms. until i get my morning sleeping habits (this is irksome cause i'm a huge morning person!) figured out i'm going to do a daily dozen in the morning and some wii fit, if i have time, and then do my real workouts after work.
my boss is super stressed cause the economy is effecting her business. even though she says all the problems with the economy is all caused by the media. she's taking it out on us! she's rather hypocritical and likes to dog on everyone. during lunch she always makes snide comments about our lunches. for instance, the other day one girl was eating triscuit thins. she said those are very fattening as she munched on her cheese and saltine crackers! it's to the point where i don't want to eat anything around her. she picks apart my lunches and then goes on to say how she had ice cream for dinner the night before and eats her cheese and crackers for lunch everyday. i have my snacks that i eat in between breakfast and lunch, then something in the afternoon. i was munching on my carrot sticks on afternoon and she walked by and said something like, do you just eat all day long? i'm hoping once business picks up she'll back off on us and let us eat in peace!
i think part of my great mood is that she has an eye exam this morning and won't be in til later! yea!
the stress of this place is now starting to affect my health. i have weird dreams at night, i wake up around 3 and my first thoughts are of work and all the crap. then it's difficult to forget and go back to sleep. i've been trying to keep my eating habits in check and not let the stress have a negative impact. as i mentioned above, it's helping me workouts!
i really hope this good mood lasts all day and isn't ruined by work! 7 more hrs to go! i can do it!!
Tuesday, November 03, 2009
* reach 210 lbs. this is a huge goal, and there's a very slight chance i can succeed, that's 16 lbs in a month. but nothing else is working. shoot for the moon if you miss at least you'll land among the stars, or something like that. seems fitting!
* no alcohol. the saga continues.
* eat more fruit & veggies.
* strength train 3 times a week.
* min 90 min cardio
* stop pushing snooze
* focus on not letting the holidays ruin me!
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