Wednesday, September 30, 2009
i'm very busy at work this week, but i needed to sneak in some sp time. my day is not going well.
first, i weighed in this morning. down to 229.0 from last week's 232.5(darn tom!) good loss right, not when the week before last i was at 227! ugh. my goal was to be at 220 by oct 1. guess that isn't going to happen. so i have admitted defeat. which hopefully won't last long. new month, new goal. guess it will probably be the same goal.
second, i forgot my lunch! so now my options are crappy fast food or cinamon rolls left over from yesterday. neither sound appealing, but it will most likely be the latter since i don't drive to work and would have to catch a ride somewhere with someone.
then, i actually remembered to replenish my stock of tea at work this morning. i was completely out and have been forgetting for weeks. i was very proud of myself for remembering. but i packed them in my lunch bag. so i don't have that either.
well, it's almost 8 am, maybe things will go better for me now.
Sunday, September 27, 2009
i know i'm not alone in this. everyone has trouble with weekends. you tend to be a bit more lazy, or sometimes real busy, so you just don't have time to workout. you're eating poorly or drinking too much. the list goes on and on for why the weekends are dangerous! you all know what i'm talking about.
summer is over and i'm going to start using my weekends to benefit me. i drink a lot on the weekends and in the summer. there's just something about sitting outside and enjoying a nice cold beverage. sometimes i tend to be too relaxed in the mornings. enjoying a nice quiet saturday morning in the sun. or i'm way too busy and have to be somewhere by 8 am. often i drank too much the night before and working up a sweat does not sound fun!
you see, i just need to turn my weekends around! starting now! this weekend i'm going to oktoberfest. which means lots of beer and german food. also staying in a hotel. i'm going to eat healthy when i can and get as much walking around in as possible. which shouldn't be difficult since we don't drive the car once we get to the hotel. i'm not going to drink a lot of beer. most people go there to get real drunk. i like to people watch, so not drinking a lot won't be difficult.
the weekend after that i'm going camping. more than likely. now camping is tricky. you tend to snack more than you would at home. so i'm going to have to bring healthy snacks. lots of veggies! plus the drinking. going camping this time of year is different than a time like august. it's colder so you don't stay up as late. plus drinking cold beer all night when it's cold out isn't a lot of fun. but i will be eating and drinking more than i should. if the weather is decent i'll be doing some hiking. that will be good.
after that weekend i do not have any foreseeable dangerous plans. that said, my goal is to go from oct 13 to december 31 with no alcohol of any form. i'm not going to fool myself and think i can make it through new year's eve sober. heh. then my birthday is in january, and that's just not going to happen. i'm going to focus on december 31 for now.
i'm not an alcoholic or anything. i just like to drink. and once i start, i don't totally like to stop at 1 or 2. not much fun in that! alcohol is a big reason why i've gained so much weight in the last 5 or so years. it is something i need to work on. we'll see what the result is! it may just motivate me to find a new hobby. lol!
the worst part of the weekend, which should actually be a motivator, is that my weigh in days are mondays.
Monday, September 21, 2009
ugh! i need some uplifting happy thoughts! today is being a monday! not only did i not want get out of my warm bed and freeze (it's too early for freezing temps!) this morning when i finally did get out i learned i had gained 2 lbs. i was pretty bummed about this, as you can imagine, but when i was in the shower this morning i realize it was TOM weight gain. I always gain two lbs before i start. that made me feel better. i just wished i had remembered that before stepping the scale. still. a gain sucks, even though i know it will be gone before i step on again next monday. so i was feeling better about all that and planning my workout for this afternoon. since, as was mentioned above, i didn't want to leave my warm bed this morning.
so i get on to sp and check my sparkmail, always makes me happy to see i have some! and they were both down in the dumps messages! man! i read them and totally felt my positive feelings plummet. so i need to happy thoughts!
please share your thoughts with me. anything. accomplishments or inspiring quotes. just something to help me get through the workday with a smile on my face.
btw, anyone else have a heck of a time getting up on mondays to workout? if i skip one day a week, it's almost always a monday! which is so bad! i'm not the best behaved person on the weekends. heh.
tia for the awesome inspiration! you guys are the best!
Thursday, September 17, 2009
it's time to remind myself of my goals.
1st, i want to lose 10 lbs by october 2. This is when i got to oktoberfest. super fun! i have about 6 more lbs to go. ugh. i say about cause i keep going back and forth with two lbs. one week i'm 229, the next i'm 227. i can't get past the 227. though i'd much rather stay at 227 then bumping back up to 229. i left the 230's, i never want to see them again! i need to evaluate my situation and figure out why i keep going back and forth every week. and then figure out how i can lose the rest of the weight in two weeks!
2nd, i want to lose as much weight as possible before my 30th birthday. this takes place in january. i'm thinking if i work real hard and focus, i can lose 40 lbs. that's a high number, it would be a about 10 lbs a month. doable, but very difficult with the holidays coming up. so i'm just gonna really try to be out of the 200's by then.
my 3rd goal is to work out at least 5 days a week. i'm focusing mostly on every other day at this point. that's better than nothing, right? i don't know why i'm having so much trouble getting into working out. i love working out! i love the feeling afterward, i love how my body feels when i'm really into it. but i can't get myself really going! if i could, that would totally help my other two goals!
i need to stay focused. i need to remind myself every day of my goals. i can't let sleeping an extra half hour in the morning get in the way of goals. i don't really know where that is coming from either. it's not like my bed is comfy and i just want to lay in it all day. i'm a huge morning person. i love getting up early. but for some reason i just can't get myself up early enough to work out anymore.
i also think my willpower may be dying. i used to tell myself, don't eat chocolate, and i wouldn't. i could be around a whole buffet of desserts and not eat one. now i can't even go one day of having beer in the fridge and not touching it. i gave up soda for my new year's resolution and haven't had any. easy. i gave up the internet for lent, easy. but not drink alcohol when it's near. nope. don't hit the snooze button one more time so i can workout. not gonna happen. what is wrong with me?
i need some major work!
Monday, September 07, 2009
I was reading a people magazine earlier today and it was the one that featured melissa joan hart on the cover and the article talked about her losing all the weight from her pregnancies and how it was such a struggle. she realized she was almost 33 and it would be harder to lose as she got older, so she needed to do it now.
this got me to thinking, i'll be 30 in a little over 4 months! omg! i do not want to turn 30 weighing this much and being this unhappy with myself. that's my new goal. i won't be at my goal weight in that time, but i figure if i stay on track i could probably lose about 40 lbs. that's better than where i'm at now.
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