Wednesday, May 27, 2009
i realize i am very impatient where this whole losing weight and working out thing is concerned. i used to eat fairly well and work out on a regular basis. then i stopped. it didn't happen overnight. but for some reason i expect all the weight i've gained to fall off overnight. and i expect to be able to run a mile without stopping like i used to.
i went for a run this evening. i knew i wasn't going to make it far, but i had goal. i didn't make it. i pushed myself and got to the point where i thought i wasn't getting enough oxygen, so i walked. i know i have to do a little each day and gradually add more, but i want to be able to do it now! i used to be able to.
it saddens me that i let myself become this way. i don't even know who i am. i don't want to be this person anymore. i just get so frustrated because i want to change it now, and quickly. but i can't.