Friday, November 19, 2010
i know this is early, but i have time to prepare.
*give up junk food. this includes fast food, candy, fried food, soda, convience-type stuff, and i'm sure the list will grow on a daily basis. i will allow myself "days off" on holidays and birthdays. this will just allow me to handle the tempations that may arise.
*lose 80 lbs. now i know this is tough and not advisable. first i'd have to lose 9 lbs by the end of this year. in order to accomplish this i'd have to lose 1.5 lbs every week next year. doable. especially if i'm not eating junk food.
*pay off debt. this is going to be tough. i will be broke. but if i stick with my plan i'll have a huge chunk paid off in a year. the the rest will be cake. then in a year dh and i can start the life we've been wanting for so long. we'll be able to have children, buy the new car we so desperately need. plus if i accomplish a good chunk of the 80 lbs i'll be ready to live out a long, healthy life with the energy i need and the lack of stress i desire. plus i can stop being ashamed of myself and my life.
*get a new job. i work in a toxic work environment. it's not helping me out in any way at all. must get away from here!
* focus on me!
it's gonna be a tough year. i know with a lot of work and i lot of focus i can succees and be proud of myself.
Tuesday, October 26, 2010
ugh, WHY am i having so much trouble getting motivated?! i know a million reasons i need to lose this weight, get healthy, find myself, etc. but WHY can't i put my plan into motion? i'm so frustrated! i need to get over this hump, well it's more like a gianormous mountain now, but i can't seem to. and i don't know WHY. i've always liked working out. i love eating healthy. but WHY can't i?
WHY do i:
push the snooze button too many times
lose all motivation to workout after work
eat junk food
sit on my butt and watch tv
continue to be a lazy bum
i know i'm hard on myself, but i just keep disapointing myself day after day and it just gets easier to become more and more disgusted with who i am.
i know i need to listen to nike and "just do it", but for some reason i can't. i'm sure once i start i'll be fine, but i can't seem to start.
Thursday, October 14, 2010
i know i haven't blogged in like a month and i've been a very bad sparker all around. stuff just has not been going well for me. and i'm very busy at work. i'm working on getting things "fixed" so i can focus on spark and make me a better person.
putting aside the crud for now, i'll blog about it one of these days, i've tried a couple times already. anyway, i'm thinking about what i want to do for my new year's resolution for 2011. i always make a major one that i focus on and so far i've been successful. 2004 my goal was to drink at least 64 oz a water a day every day, i did this and it was an eye opening experience. 2009 i gave up soda and was extremely successful. for 2010 i gave up fast food. so far so good. this year i really want to push myself, but do something uber healthy. i've thought about giving up unhealthy processed food. i've been thinking about giving up soda again and i haven't missed fast food at all. so what i'm thinking is giving up junk food. that's a rather broad term though. i need to narrow it down and come up with what is junk and what is not. and any flex time i may be allowed, holidays, b-days, etc. if someone buys me a cake i'm going to have a small piece, that sort of thing.
so what do you consider junk food?
soda, candy, fast food, baked goods,,,i really don't know where to draw the line. if i make a batch of cookies do i consider them junk cause they're cookies or do i assume they are allowed cause they are homemade? is a beverage like sobe lifewater junk food? what kind of frozen food is junk & what isn't? this is all stuff i need to seriously consider in the next couple months.
what i'm asking of all of you is what you consider junk food and what you don't. and how you may decide if something is or isn't.
thanks for any ideas and advice you can offer.
Monday, September 13, 2010
what do i do when i'm stressed, annoyed with myself, frustrated with the scale? drink..
got home from work and decided whiskey and coke were a good idea. then i tried to find someone to go out with to dinner or just drinks. no luck. so i started drinking beer. ugh! this is not good!
now i'm lonely and bored watching the young and the restless on soap network. sigh.
i'll finish this beer and then i'm done so i can be in some sort of condition to work out tomorrow. that's my goal for the day, workout in the morning!
i won't let you (the you who are reading this) down, or myself. i'll blog tomorrow whether or not this goal was successful.
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