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Saturday, July 10, 2010

...i just have to keep reminding myself of this.

the daily spark blog was about comparing yourself to others. i'm very guilty of this. it's a very, very bad habit. just this evening i was at the grocery store and there was this girl there wearing really cute shorts. my first thought was, wow, those are so cute! my next thought was, why can't i be skinny enough to wear shorts like that? why isn't my tummy not flat enough to wear a tank top that bares some midrif? these thoughts are always followed by something like, cause i'm too fat. i must stop this!
when i look at other people's spark pages i see and read about how much they've lost in whatever amount of time. i think, i've been doing this that long, or longer, why can't i have those results?
when i see people on shows like the biggest loser, i see their weight and if it's close to mine i think, do i look like that? worse? better?
when i look at old pics of myself i think, what happened? how did i get here?

i'm contstantly comparing myself to others the same height, weight, age, etc. as me and i need to stop. i'm me, they are them. we aren't the same! our bodies, genetic makeup, metabolism are all different. the only thing i can change is the way i live and how i treat myself. when i compare myself and my acheivements to others i need to realize i can and will have those results and i can and will wear cute clothes. i just need to stay focused and keep up the fight. i used to be thin, i can be that way again. i know how i got where i am, i know what i need to do to change it. and i will!

i've been working out, tracking food and doing great all around for 3 days now. i can already feel a change in myself. i feel better, lighter, more confident and able to really make a change in myself. after 3 days! i don't want to lose this feeling and i'll do anything to keep it.

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SHIRLEYX 7/24/2010 8:00AM

    You are doing great with a three day streak. All we can control is our diet and exercise, not the rate at which the pounds come off. Just keep on track and the rest will follow. emoticon

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SOUTHERNGIRL_31 7/12/2010 11:42AM

  Exactly! I am guilty of this as well. I'm always comparing myself to others and saying how horrible I look in comparison. We need to stop this negative thinking. :)

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ERIN1128 7/11/2010 1:29PM

    OMG, I totally understand...I've been on spark for almost exactly a year now, and I really haven't lost any weight, which is frustration. However, I have become tons more fit, and I've incorporated way more fruits and veggies in my diet, so I try to focus on the positive. Baby steps, right? We can do this!

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CXNLITTLE 7/11/2010 12:47AM

    Keep up all your hard work! I find myself doing the same, your not alone.

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DONNA_VT 7/10/2010 11:28PM

    A very interesting, well written blog. You have touched on a point that a lot of us feel.

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BALLOUZOO 7/10/2010 11:24PM

    I do that too, especially at the swimming hole and more formal events.

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LOSE4GOODMN 7/10/2010 10:24PM

    I love your honesty about your thought process. I think that is a very brave thing to put out there and to acknowledge. I have some of those same thoughts and I really have to work on them myself. Thanks for your candidness!

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James frey, you changed my life

Thursday, July 08, 2010

as you know i gave up alcohol for june. tough struggle, totally worth it! learned a lot about myself. now i'm working on a 2 drink minimum and so far it's going ok. one of the things i learned is i can't give up alcohol completely. maybe some day, just not yet, but i'm slowly working on it. i'm also working on the 'whys'.

anyway, coincidentally, during june i started reading "a million little pieces" by james frey. not sure how many of you have read or heard of this book. it's the book oprah slaughtered with her book club after it came out that not all events were true. not surprising to me while reading it. this guy was under the influence of drugs and alcohol for many, many years. i read the book more like it was a memoir rather than a true story.

what really got me was how he was so messed up, more messed up than i could ever imagine myself being. he refused to believe the 12 step or 10 step programs. he doesn't believe in God, so he didn't look to a higher power for help. he read the "tao te ching" and that helped enlighten him. he just worked through his demons and challenges and said he wasn't going to drink or do drugs again. that is a very quick summary of his struggles. the book got me to thinking though, if he can overcome everything he did, why can't i?

I've been using his technique to get me through and so far so good. now i'm hoping to evolve the method into working out and eating more healthy. basically you tell yourself you're going to do, or not do, something and you do, or don't do, it.

i strongly recommend this book and it's sequel "my friend leonard". they were both honest, painful and true depiction of what the human spirit can endure. while i'm at it, i read his novel "bright shiny morning" a couple years ago and it quickly became one of my favorite books.

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MAMADWARF 8/31/2010 11:32AM

    Yep, read both of the books by James Frey! Loved, loved, loved it! It was so painful but the truth of the things, the hardships, the things he endured were sooo powerful. I will always remember those books. Always. How many books can we say that about?

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DONNA_VT 7/8/2010 7:55PM

    Glad you found something to help and encourage you. Everyone has to find what is right for them. For some it is easy and others struggle. Keep up the good work.

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    emoticonwith the alcohol

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SHIRLEYX 7/8/2010 1:46PM

    Congrats on cutting down the alcohol! emoticon

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SMITHANI 7/8/2010 1:44PM

    Good Luck. Stay on course and you will succeed.

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goodbye fast food, i don't even miss you!

Thursday, July 01, 2010

my big new year's resolution was to cut out fast food. so far i have been successful! i didn't think this was going to be as difficult as last year's goal of no soda (which i was also successful at), but did think it would give me some tough moments.

with soda the trouble was it was always accessible. i would just have to focus, use some creativity and look outside the box. fast food restraunts were the toughest. meals come with a drink, not all restraunts offer non-soda varieties in their fountain options. but i got through it, just as i knew i could get through the fast food temptations.

i didn't eat out a lot growning up. i worked at taco bell in high school and that's when i started eating fast food. i can count on my hands how many times my parents took us to mcdonald's growing up. for awhile my consumption was practically daily. when i quit the bell i lost a lot of weigh real quick. scary. from this i limited my intake to a few times a month. plus after looking at that nastiness daily the last thing you want is to actually eat it.

my trips through the drive thru were steady, but mostly an act of laziness or late night munchies. i decided this year i would give it up completely. i worked fast food, i've read fast food nation, seen super size me, all that fun stuff! so i know, first hand, how awful the fast food industry is. there is stuff in the food that makes you addicted and crave it. i notice in myself that when i do eat fast food, i want more and more. this is not unusual, they hire scientists to put crap in there that causes this. my friend likes to say mcdonald's fries are breaded in crack. i'm sure that isn't far from the truth.

i'm not going to say i've become immune to the smell of a fast food restraunt when i drive by, or when i'm with people who are eating it. but i have become very strong to the desire to not eat it. when i gave up soda i noticed changes in my body, i haven't done this with fast food. i just didn't eat it often enough. i can imagine when i do finally eat something (after 2010 ends, of course) my insides will want to explode. i can still remember the feeling brought on by eating a greasy meal from jack in the box. i'm sure it will be worse since my body has rid itself of all the ickiness. that gives me some strength to not want it.

i know there will be some struggles in the next 6 months. i have given myself a subway option. traveling is a very difficult time to not eat fast food. so i will get myself to subway if there is no other option. i really don't see how subway is different than getting one of those premade sandwiches at a grocery store deli. at least at subway i can control what goes on it. also, where i live (eastern washington state) doesn't offer many non-fast food restraunts aside from places you sit and order. there aren't many deli's or quick places to grab a healthy option. so sad.

tune in 6 months from now to find out if i survived the summer and the holidays!

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DONNA_VT 7/1/2010 8:13PM

    Fast food was more of a problem for me when I was working. Now days when we travel we pack a lunch and skip the fast food altogether. Good luck with your challenge.

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NEELIXNKES 7/1/2010 7:46PM

    That's awesome. I am doing a similar challenge by avoiding drive thrus. I had a good streak going but have been faltering lately. Thanks for sharing your progress! emoticon

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ANGELLYBELLY 7/1/2010 7:18PM

    Since I eat Kosher all my life I have never been to a McDonalds, Jack in the Box, Taco Bell or anything like that. In college when we were reading Fast Food Nation people couldn't believe I had NEVER been to a "fast food joint".
Kosher has it's equivalent though with restaurants that serve burgers, but it's not as processed (it's made from scratch).
However.. this year I have completely cut even Kosher "fast food" from my diet (it's too expensive to eat out at Kosher restaurants.. a burger is $6!!).
I don't miss it one bit!

So go you! This is a huge step in the healthy-lifestyle-journey!

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TALK2010 7/1/2010 12:10PM

  That is such an admirable goal! I'm sure it will feel great when you've accomplished your resolution in December!

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SKYWATCHERRS 7/1/2010 11:59AM

    What great progress you've made! I can relate with the title of your blogpost - I very rarely crave fast food anymore. Every once in a long while I will indulge in Taco Bell or Whataburger/WEndy's, but I really don't even miss it. And you know what? When I DO have fast food, I am often disappointed because it no longer tastes as good as I remember! LOL....

KEep up the great work, you are doing SO WELL!!

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super sizzling summer!

Friday, June 25, 2010

as i blogged earlier this week i'm going to make some goals to focus on this summer and really get my mind, body and spirit into shape. here are my goals (so far):

*go to bed by 10 everynight. now, i know this won't be possible everynight, but i can certainly work towards it when nothing major is going on.

*no soda

*alcohol only on friday or saturday. as many of you may know, i have some alcohol issues i'm working through right now. i'm hoping that giving myself one day a week will keep me in line so i won't cave to a six pack on tuesday night. i can do this!

*exercise is some way at least 20 minutes a day

*8 glass of water minimum.

*track food. I'm horrible at this!

every week i'm going to choose a goal to focus on. whether it's one i'm struggling with above or something entirely different. I need to focus on myself and i do believe summer will be a great time span to do this. i didn't choose a 'lose 10 lbs' type of goal because i just want to see where a healthy, in control lifestyle can lead me. i need to focus on myself as a whole instead of just the scale, or just the calories. it all needs to come together so i can get a handle on my out of control unhealthy lifestyle.

i psuedo started this yesterday and this weekend i'll kick it into high gear with the food tracking and working out.

in the spark it talks about setting short, mid and long term goals. fitting those three goals into this summer goes as follows:

short: i need to feel comfortable in a pair of shorts right now!

mid: hubbie's 30th birthday party is august 21 and i want to look freaking adorable in a cute sundress

long: sis in law's wedding is sept 17 (24?) and i have this adorable dress picked out. i want to wear it and i want to make a 'grand entrance' to family i haven't seen in a long time. not that i want to upstage the bride or anything! ;)

i'll be blogging about my success, failures, etc to keep me on track. i would love to hear some awesome sp feedback! you all are great and i love reading your words or wisdom and encouragement. thanks!

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SUGIRL06 6/25/2010 2:48PM

    I love your goals here! Can you make up some sort of visual to help remind you? That always works for me. You can do this!

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DONNA_VT 6/25/2010 1:57PM

    Your goals sound reasonable. I have a wedding to attend for my nephew in October that I already bought the dress for . . . too small. It is giving me something to work towards. Good luck this weekend!

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already 6 months?!

Wednesday, June 23, 2010

well, it's almost july and i have come to the conclusion that my dreams, goals and ambitions for 2010 have fallen way, way short. i need to do something about this. i was inspired yesterday by a buffalo tom song and i have decided that i'm going to make this summer a fit and healthy one. my main focus will be me and my health. granted, this is going to be difficult and i'm going to have to remind myself everyday that i'm #1. not that hot dog at yet another bbq.
i realize it's the 3rd day of summer and time is already slipping by. i realize that my rib/back is still giving me fits every other day, but i'm going to figure some way around the pain and accomplish something! i'm going to come up with a game plan tonight and hopefully have some details to post for all of you in the next couple days.

here's to summer 2010!

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RAINBOWFALLS 6/25/2010 10:16AM

    This is the perfect time to get those goals under way! Best of luck to you. emoticon

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DONNA_VT 6/23/2010 8:39PM

    I will be waiting to hear your plans. Maybe I can use some of your ideas to help me stay on track better. Good Luck to us all

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DIANEKAREN 6/23/2010 4:07PM

    I started tracking my food again today...and realized where I left off was about a year ago!!! So here we go again, trying again is better than not, right? emoticon

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TRIGFROST 6/23/2010 2:16PM

    It's been 7- months for me and I am 17 pounds short today...
Today was my due date...and I blew it off...now am starting to feel bad about it myself...

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ALLICATT 6/23/2010 1:05PM

    I hear you! I recently realized it's been 6 months for me on Sparkpeople and I'm 10 lbs. short of my goal. As long as we keep tracking foods we should continue going in the right direction instead of letting the weight come back. As far as the hot dogs - I quickly realized that they may taste good but they are not even very filling as so many calories!!

Good luck!

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SUGIRL06 6/23/2010 12:52PM

    There will always be another hot dog. LoL! You can do this!

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YOMAMA128 6/23/2010 12:01PM

    Yeah -- it's a great time for us to take stock and renew our commitment to #1 - ourselves!

We are worth it -- worth far more than the habits we need to leave behind.



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GOAL_WORTHY 6/23/2010 11:48AM

    I'm with you!

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