Friday, June 25, 2010
as i blogged earlier this week i'm going to make some goals to focus on this summer and really get my mind, body and spirit into shape. here are my goals (so far):
*go to bed by 10 everynight. now, i know this won't be possible everynight, but i can certainly work towards it when nothing major is going on.
*alcohol only on friday or saturday. as many of you may know, i have some alcohol issues i'm working through right now. i'm hoping that giving myself one day a week will keep me in line so i won't cave to a six pack on tuesday night. i can do this!
*exercise is some way at least 20 minutes a day
*8 glass of water minimum.
*track food. I'm horrible at this!
every week i'm going to choose a goal to focus on. whether it's one i'm struggling with above or something entirely different. I need to focus on myself and i do believe summer will be a great time span to do this. i didn't choose a 'lose 10 lbs' type of goal because i just want to see where a healthy, in control lifestyle can lead me. i need to focus on myself as a whole instead of just the scale, or just the calories. it all needs to come together so i can get a handle on my out of control unhealthy lifestyle.
i psuedo started this yesterday and this weekend i'll kick it into high gear with the food tracking and working out.
in the spark it talks about setting short, mid and long term goals. fitting those three goals into this summer goes as follows:
short: i need to feel comfortable in a pair of shorts right now!
mid: hubbie's 30th birthday party is august 21 and i want to look freaking adorable in a cute sundress
long: sis in law's wedding is sept 17 (24?) and i have this adorable dress picked out. i want to wear it and i want to make a 'grand entrance' to family i haven't seen in a long time. not that i want to upstage the bride or anything! ;)
i'll be blogging about my success, failures, etc to keep me on track. i would love to hear some awesome sp feedback! you all are great and i love reading your words or wisdom and encouragement. thanks!
Wednesday, June 23, 2010
well, it's almost july and i have come to the conclusion that my dreams, goals and ambitions for 2010 have fallen way, way short. i need to do something about this. i was inspired yesterday by a buffalo tom song and i have decided that i'm going to make this summer a fit and healthy one. my main focus will be me and my health. granted, this is going to be difficult and i'm going to have to remind myself everyday that i'm #1. not that hot dog at yet another bbq.
i realize it's the 3rd day of summer and time is already slipping by. i realize that my rib/back is still giving me fits every other day, but i'm going to figure some way around the pain and accomplish something! i'm going to come up with a game plan tonight and hopefully have some details to post for all of you in the next couple days.
here's to summer 2010!
Thursday, June 17, 2010
I've been mia and i'm really letting my teams down so i feel i should at least explain why i've disappeared the last week.
i've disapeared from the internet completely, so it's not just here (facebook, twitter, etc, also). i can't deal with hearing about everyone else's problems, successes, awesome life's, etc. so i've been avoiding everyone and everything and just trying to figure out my life.
i missed a day and a half of work last week. not by choice, my boss sent us home cause there wasn't enough money to cover payroll. so adding to my stress is a smaller paycheck and not knowing how often that is going to happen or when i'm going to be out of a job completely. i have about $70 to last me the next 2 weeks for groceries and everything else. i see a lot of mac and cheese and hot dogs in my future. and no "toy story 3"!
memorial day weekend i injured my ribs in a drunken dancing hoopla. they were getting so much better. barely any pain at all. then saturday i was driving and hurt them again. i don't have powersteering and i was trying to make a sharp turn into a parking stall. i tugged the wheel to the right (that's the injured side) and just felt this weird pop and had a dull pain in my ribs for a couple hours. then i had to help my husband lay sod in the backyard. lots of hard work there. i took some ibuprofen and felt better sunday. went out on the boat sunday and didn't feel too much pain. but omg, monday! i stretched or something at work and just pain! then tuesday i stretched across the car trying to get my dog and more pain. yesterday was ok. the more i move and have to lift stuff the worse they are. so no working out. i can't even take a walk around the neighborhood as i learned monday.
monday i stepped on the scale actually thinking i'd have a loss since the weigh in the week before had tom weight gain. no, i gained 1.5 lbs! putting me back at 230 where i swore i'd never be again! and putting me 2.5 lbs away from my starting weight from a year ago!
needless to say i'm very frustrated. i can't eat healthy and i can't work out. i feel like the biggest failure and i'm going to be fat forever. so, though i love to come to sparkpeople and read about everyone's awesome success stories and moments of acheivement and i love to give hope and advice when others struggle, i just haven't been able to deal with it when i'm standing in front of this HUGE brick wall.
hopefully i get past this feeling very quickly and in a couple weeks i will have a good pay check and be able to afford fruit and veggies again.
Monday, June 07, 2010
an update: thursday night, walk night with the girls that ends in wine drinking, got cancelled. saved by the bell!
weekend camping trip that was going to be a challenge got rained out. saved by the rain!
bad news: i have this cold allergy thing going on. good news: drinking kills my allergies in a way that it's almost impossible to drink any alcohol at all. and i am well aware of the fact that alcohol makes sickness linger and can make you even more sick. saved by the sniffles!
so i'm doing alright in my quest to avoid alcohol.
i was weeding and digging in the yard all weekend. we are preparing to lay sod. that's a lot of work. didn't help my allergy problem, but it was nice to be sweating and using some muscles for once.
not much to share today, just wanted to give you all an update.
one day at a time...
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