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Courage

Tuesday, August 02, 2011

This is what I will reflect on today:





  
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TMCLEOD4 8/3/2011 1:23PM

    Nice quote! Thanks!

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LODESTONE 8/2/2011 2:52PM

    Maybe it's time we all learned to get out of our own way! The mind can be a terrible thing if not used properly! So, let's go team. Push through it and we'll git 'er done!

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LVMAMAW 8/2/2011 9:51AM

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Great reminder, and very true!! emoticon emoticon

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Doors and paths

Monday, August 01, 2011



Today is my day. It's my responsibility and right to determine what I am going to do with this day. I choose this new door and this new path. The door needs to be "trued ;" it's so hard to open. And the path is still a little rough to maneuver, not paved and smooth and easy to travel like my old path. I'll keep working at trueing the door and I'll take the new path and smooth it out a little more today. The way I figure, eventually it will be as smooth as the old way, but there will be a leprechaun and a pot of gold at the end. And, then the leprechaun and I will laugh and create mischief. Or else I'll be thin and have healthy, tested, tried, and true lifestyle habits. I'll take it either way.

  
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JESSICA2140 8/2/2011 10:32AM

    I want to hang out with a leprechaun, too... :)

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LODESTONE 8/1/2011 11:51AM

    Love the attitude! emoticon

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SOLUCKY12 8/1/2011 11:50AM

    I tried a little of my old path this week, but returned to my new path. I know what works, but sometimes I need to relearn what works and what doesn't. I have found that losing my weight doesn't bring happiness in itself. But being able to accomplish more physical movement and feeling stronger does bring satisfaction. Good choices are ahead for you! emoticon

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JOEYKTTN 8/1/2011 11:20AM

    emoticon blog!

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LVMAMAW 8/1/2011 10:58AM

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Making up my mind

Sunday, July 31, 2011

By my accounting, I've had a successful week. Here's what I accomplished:

1) lost 2.5 pounds of water weight by mid week (2 pounds was probably what I would have lost last week, but I'm claiming it for this week!)
2) lost a half pound after that
3) Completely cleared my office of things that I don't need or want.
4) Cleaned, straightened, tidied, and organized the rest of my office.
5) Then got a knot in my stomach when I saw all the clutter lying around the office suite. I left the clutter there. Not my problem and so not worth getting tied in a bunch about.
6) Finished a grueling 12-week, two 4-credit course sequence (that's 8 total credits) of Statistics and Experimental Design with two daring students (who performed admirably, by the way!) and another 3-credit course with one student.
7) Stayed inside my calorie range every day this week. And I got to eat a lot of food! (Bonus, 'cuz I like to eat!)
8) All kinds of strength training and cardio activity, ranging from elliptical and treadmill workouts, to gardening, to volunteering at campus clean up, to mowing lawn, to walking with my Artsy pal, to hauling boxes.
9) All of the other things I do just to stay occupied and not bored.

That is an example of a great week for me. Which brings me to this:



Since joining SP in late May, I have looked at this sign time and again. I can't say the sign made me change, but the words have definitely become part of my soul. Pre-May 28, I was terribly unhappy and experienced so many negative emotions from living inside my head instead of living it out loud, in living color. Once I started moving, living, experiencing, and, here's the key: stopped feeling so sorry for myself (who, me?), I was happier. Funny that it had nothing to do with having lost 50 -- or even 2 -- pounds. The way I felt had everything to do with what I was doing (nothing) and where I was doing it (in my head or while surfing the internet).

Anyway, I made up my mind to do something about the aches, pains, and general discomfort I was feeling. Once that decision was made, the rest fell into place for me. It seemed easier to commit this time because I've been on this lifestyle change journey before. Not all that long ago, really. The difference is that this time I am working much more intentionally on the emotional aspects of this journey. For example, a few weeks ago, I was lamenting a trip to Omaha and bad-for-me food and blah, blah, blah. My SP friends reminded me that I can make the decisions about what I put in my mouth when I am visiting relatives. That was an astounding revelation! LOL! It had never occurred to me that I could decide to do something different than I had done before. (Insert head thump here) At about the same time, I recognized my biggest binge-eating triggers and sought out ways to comfort myself differently. I also willed myself to work through those situations rather than avoiding them or numbing the discomfort by mindless grazing.

Without a doubt, the most important part of this experience has been the support and good will of people from all over the country; people I've never met, but who know what this change is like and who are doing it all with me. I can honestly say that I had much more fun during the past couple of months than I could have imagined and am truly touched every day when I log in to find a note, a post, a reason to chuckle, a comment. This experience with all of you had made me want to do better, be better, try harder.

THANKS EVERYONE! You are all genuine, inspiring, giving, supportive, awesome people. There's no one I'd rather be doing this with!

  
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GEMINIAN1 8/1/2011 11:01AM

    I really like what you have to say here.
emoticonon that list of accomplishments for the week.
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KAKIPOPUP 7/31/2011 7:35PM

    I wish you could teach ME stats! I think I'm beginning to get it, though -

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LVMAMAW 7/31/2011 2:55PM

    What a great week!! Love you so much too!! emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon

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LINDAINOHIO 7/31/2011 2:01PM

    I'm sure you have said what a lot of us feel. When we are single some times it is so easy to comfort our selves with food and it is something that I have to work on myself since I love all kinds of food it is just which ones I choose to eat. emoticon emoticonLinda

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LODESTONE 7/31/2011 12:29PM

    Aw, gee. You like us, you really like us!!!! hahahaha It is great having the support of our Spark Buddies. As you say, a chuckle, a long distance butt kick, what ever it takes is available. And we get to choose our friends. doesn't get better than this!

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Something I want to remember

Saturday, July 30, 2011

I found this Einstein quote again this morning. I keep forgetting about it. By posting it here, I hope it will be more accessible and I will be more mindful about the sentiment.


  
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LINDAINOHIO 7/31/2011 9:32AM

    emoticon emoticonLinda

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PATTIE441 7/30/2011 10:59PM

    Oh yea! emoticon emoticon

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PAMLUVCHILE 7/30/2011 9:53PM

    I love this quote, and it's so true!

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LODESTONE 7/30/2011 2:49PM

    Great quote! Some of those dang women just walk too slow!

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AFITONE 7/30/2011 1:09PM

    Thanks for sharing! It makes me think of "I am woman...hear me roar!"..remember that??? emoticon Have a great weekend!

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NMMAMA2011 7/30/2011 11:25AM

    Awesome quote.

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REGILIEH 7/30/2011 10:53AM

    Very Good!

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Thirty hours of running

Wednesday, July 27, 2011

So, I didn't lose any weight last week. Yeah, right. I know I did, but there was no evidence of it on the scale. Big deal. My pants and bras and shirts are getting bigger. Obviously something's going on.

So, what have I done for the past 30 hours? I have ran to the bathroom, again and again and again, because I REALLY have to pee. A lot, in large amounts. In that time, I've lost 2.5 pounds of water. Holy moly! No complaints there! (But I sure felt badly on Sunday and Monday when my SP friends were posting about their successes and I had nothing new to report.) This has all made me think. It would be lovely if real weight loss was as easy as running to the bathroom to empty my bladder! LOL.

Anyway...

I have cleaned my house and now I am cleaning out my office... really cleaning out my office. Today I was successful in reducing 3 completely filled file cabinets to less than one! Apparently, I am a paper hoarder... I am so pleased with the progress! I feel so much less encumbered and freer and less anxious. I am letting go of a great deal of the past and a part of me that I didn't like all that much: tense, high strung, cranky, irritable. Of course, I can't blame the paper for my mood problems. For that, I blame my ovaries! Now that they're gone-baby-gone, I feel like a whole new person, like the worst part of me got removed from my body and my mind, and that I can function more efficiently and productively and more... sanely.

To be rid of so much that I don't use, look at, need, or even want helps me to think differently about life. I like thinking about what is really important to me rather than holding onto things just in case. Even in the case of the weight returning, I think that part of that was because I needed extra weight just in case... Just in case what? In case there's a famine? In case someone hurts me? Sheesh.

I am forging ahead with this new mindset and a neater environment 'cuz it feels great!

  
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PAMLUVCHILE 7/30/2011 10:02PM

    I love this thought pattern you have of decluttering - getting rid of what you don't need. It always makes me feel good too...like you said, it makes you feel more free, lightweight. emoticon

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JESSICA2140 7/29/2011 10:54AM

    Clothes fit better? Body feels better? Mind feels better? Who needs that stinking scale!! I've been noticing that it does take the scale a little while to catch up to what your body does...give it a week. I bet you've got one of those "wow" losses coming up!

It's funny that you mention the paper hording...I think it is just an inbred characteristic in teachers...my mom (teacher) has been doing a file purge all summer...she had receipts/tests/meaningless memos in her files from before I was born! Way to purge!!



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GEMINIAN1 7/28/2011 2:03PM

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I *love* to de-clutter.

My wedding ring is my "tester" to whether I'm retaining water or not.
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LODESTONE 7/27/2011 8:41PM

    Feels great to leave the clutter behind, doesn't it? That's a great way to spend the day.... losing tons of unneeded weight! Way to go!!

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