Tuesday, June 28, 2011
The trip to Omaha was an adventure. Water standing in fields, sloughs where there haven't been sloughs before, roads under water in ND, more water in the fields and lots of road construction or work on bridge decks along most of I29 in SD, and even more water held back by Hesco barriers in IA, thanks to rain and the Missouri. We were less than 30 minutes from our destination when... a detour around the rising Missouri just north of Council Bluffs. The detour took us about 60 miles out of our way. We managed to get there anyway. Five inches of rain the first night we were there. It's like the rain follows me!
Two days later, I discover that rain was pouring back at home. I quickly loaded up for the return trip. Nine hours later, I got home just in time to discover the first evidence of water in the basement. It got worse after that.
I am thinking of going on strike.
And, maybe I'll stop drinking water, too.
Thursday, June 23, 2011
I'm on day five of that dang plateau. But, when I pulled on my jeans this morning (the ones I haven't been able to wear since February), they were not as form fitting as they were last week. No lost pounds, but obviously I've lost inches. I'm okay with that!
So, when I (finally) took my measurements last week (ouch), I noticed something that I'd never noticed before. My right leg is bigger in every measurement, hip to calf, than my left leg. I wonder if I am a freak of nature as well as disturbed. Probably. LOL.
I have high hopes for myself this weekend when I take a quick trip to Omaha with my father, who wants to visit his older brother before the Lewy-Body disease completely takes over my uncle's mind. Sad. Anyway, this trip is not coming at the best time, diet-wise. I'm trying to nurture myself through this rough patch, but I know what it means to go to visit relatives. They seem to think they need to fix really high calorie meals and desserts. I'll probably end up eating little and doing a lot of estimating as far as calorie consumption goes. But I'm be hoping for sensible and healthy things that I can fill up on and that will help me to continue on my way. Also, I'll be spending 16 hours in a vehicle over the weekend when what I'd really like to do is get in my workouts. I'm going to disappear for a while each day and walk. At least I can do that for myself. Even though this is inconvenient, I'd do anything for my dad, so I'll make the best of it and get back on the straight and narrow once I return.
Wednesday, June 22, 2011
It's here already. Dang. I expected it about week 7 or 8, not in the 5th week. It's not just a plateau, either. So far this week, every day the number has gone up by half a pound. I doubt that I am retaining water in half-pound daily increments. I also doubt that I am gaining half a pound of muscle a day.
I am not consuming more than I am burning. There are days when I eat toward the top of my calorie range, some when I just meet the minimum for calories, some when I'm in the middle of the range, and there were a few days a couple of weeks ago, when it was hot, when I wasn't all that hungry, so I was below my minimums for a few days. Also, I don't eat the same things every day. So, it's not that my body has adapted to my food choices.
I change up what I do for fitness activity every day, but one thing that tends to be part of my routine Monday-Friday is the elliptical. I love it. Love it. Love it. Love it. I would rather do that for and hour or more every day, but I don't. While I do spend anywhere from 20 to 40 minutes on the elliptical, I also do Pilates, or use the treadmill, or get outside and walk, or ride bike, or use the rowing machine, or mow the lawn. I don't do the same things day after day. I do different strength training every day, as well. Some days I concentrate on upper body, other days just on arms or just legs or just core. I use machines, and free weights, and balance ball. I also have physical therapy exercises that I work on every day. What more can I possibly do to keep my body guessing and cooperating?
So, I'll just keep plugging along. I'll keep burning those calories. I'll keep nourishing my body, mind, and spirit. I'll keep drinking my 8 or 10 glasses of water a day. Eventually it's gotta change. Right?
Sunday, June 19, 2011
You can't lose weight without exercise. But I've got a philosophy about exercise. I don't think you should punish your legs for something your mouth did. Drag your lips around the block once or twice.
~ Gwen Owen
At the end of this day I feel like I should take that advice.
I didn't go over on calories today. And, I am not currently hungry, so no problem there. But, I went to see my dad, in a little town about 80 miles away. This little town has no healthy place to go out to eat. So, I should have just fixed dinner at his home, but, no. We went to Pizza Ranch. I had the lettuce and fruit from the salad bar, and a side of green beans. But, that wasn't enough. Oh no. I had to eat a piece of taco pizza. Ugh. It wasn't even that good. I ate it anyway. Then, we went to my aunt's apartment. Another aunt and an uncle joined us. Auntie E had made rhubarb upside down cake. And, of course, I just HAD to have some. With real whipped cream. By this time I felt like absolute crap and I had a fair case of indigestion. At least I stopped eating at that point.
I learned something. I really should drag my lips and tongue around the block a couple of times when I eat things like that, especially when I know that I have sensitivities to white flour and sugar. I'm still paying for my lapse in judgment over 6 hours later. I learn this lesson repeatedly. You think I'd learn...
When #2 daughter and I returned home, all of the doors were locked. Because we'd taken my daughter's new-to-her car to visit my dad, I didn't have the garage door opener with me. So, now what? Brand new doors. Locked tight. Patio door? No go. So, I had to slit the screen of the (screened-in) patio to unhook the lock to get in the only door that wasn't locked. Then I went to work with the duct tape. Ugh.
So, there I am trying to tape the screen to the wood so that I could keep some of the state's mosquitoes out of the patio. Pissed as can be. Taping. Mad at myself. Mad at the doors. Mad about some other things. Mad. Mad. Mad.
Then I brooded around the house for a while. Ate a little, but felt VERY sorry for myself. Guh. I could see a binge coming on. So, I went for a walk. Complain, complain, complain. Grumble, grumble, grumble. About 15 minutes in, I didn't complain or grumble anymore. I finished my walk and sat down to do some SP blog reading and corresponding so I could get away from the (pity) party. That was the smartest thing I did all day.
it's a good thing that tomorrow is a different day. I suspect it will be better. That is usually the case.
Friday, June 17, 2011
I've been so busy recently that I tire myself out by the time when I usually sit down and write and then I don't want to blog. Tonight is no different, but I decided to write anyway.
Yesterday I took a day off from food tracking. It felt so darn good to be less vigilant. I needed a day to ... re-energize? Maybe. Relax? Definitely. Direct my attention elsewhere. Yes. More importantly, I wanted to see what would happen, to see if I'd binge, eat mindlessly, overeat, make unhealthy decisions. Today, I did track yesterday's food. Turns out I know how to maintain my weight! With the physical activity factored in with the BMR, I consumed about as many calories as I burned. All in all, no harm, no foul. I'm happy about those results. But, I was pretty low on fruits and veggies. Not so happy about that. Still, I gave myself the latitude so I could learn some lessons (like I don't eat enough fruits and veggies if I'm not doing the accounting).
There are times when I am absolutely obsessed with how many calories are going in and how many I am burning off and whether there's enough protein, fat, and carbs. I think there's a little fear there, too, like somehow if I don't do the daily tracking, stay within my calorie limits, eat the proper amount of everything, and get in every last minute of physical activity then I have let myself down. I am learning to rein myself in when I get worked up like that. The world is certainly not going to end if I am not perfect along the way. It disturbs me that my thinking has become so rigid.
I have no intention of stopping this journey. I was back at it again today, and all has gone well. I realize that the consequence of yesterday is that I probably won't lose two pounds this week. I am willing to deal with that. I am not racing to lose weight. Instead, this time I am checking things out along the way. I really want to make this lifestyle change more exploratory, more intentional, and more personal. So far, I think I'm doing okay. A few experiments along the way can help me to reach my goal in a healthier way and with a better long term plan.
Get An Email Alert Each Time EVOLVEFISH Posts