Friday, December 17, 2010
Today is Day 57 of my 70 day countdown to New Years and the new me. Today is the start of something new for me and something that I felt like the world was just "forcing" me to do, today is the start of me officially being a Vegetarian! Last January First I made a choice to stop eating Red meat and only eat lean meats (Chicken, Turkey and Fish) as a way to get myself started on the road to a healthier me and I'm proud to say that as of New Years this year it will be one year since I have eaten read meat! However I have maintained eating other lean meats as a way to get my protein in but given recent events I have decided that the world is literally forcing me to become a Vegetarian and that is exactly what I'm about to do!!!
Now before I go ahead and divulge my reasoning's for making this choice let me first WARN all of you that if you are a visual person(as I am) or if you get grossed out easily or if you are a avid meat eater, you may not want to read further because Id hate to disgust anyone as I have been. What I'm about to tell you was so gross it has literally convinced me to stop eating any type of animal!
So without further adieu... Last night like my activity feed stated I had Popeye's for the first time ever. Our friends came over we had a nice dinner there of Popeye's with lots of sides and I was there my eyes big as can be serving up my dish and all was well. I sat down to eat (just a side note I was starving since I normally eat dinner at 5pm and this time it was 7pm) as I bit into my delicious fried breaded chicken I felt something weird in my mouth and as I pulled it out I literally gagged in my mouth.. anyone wanna take a guess at what it was?? Well I will tell you, it was a fried, wrapped up in the batter and skin of my chicken a freaking FEATHER!!! so freaking disgusting!!! Okay so I did my whole ewww that's gross thing and the whole I'm not eating this anymore and my husband and our friends where like come on Bri just eat a different piece... Okay so it smelled so yummy and good I just couldnt leave my other piece alone, so I picked it up and bit into it and this time I got a mouth full of yummy tendons and cartilage... that's it I cant handle this! So I was fully disgusted and content having mac and cheese and pototes and corn for dinner!
Okay so flash forward to today, I had fully forgot about the incident and just decided that I wont eat Popeye's again. We are having a lunch to celebrate the holidays here at work, the bosses ordered chicken Okay I thought, maybe I'm just being a baby so I will give it another try. I serve up my dish full of salad with a little pita bread and humus I'm all ready to chow down, I even decided to give chicken another chance cause I was starving and it smelled AMAZING! Anyway so I go to bite into it and what do I pull out but a big ass long hair!!!
Chicken! Meat! I am so over this! I am down to eat anything from the ground or grown from nature but I am so over the disgusting unsanitary meat industry and there lies to us! I am so grossed out and disgusted, I dont know if I will ever be able to eat meat again.. So now my new journey as a vegetarian begins! Anyone who is a vegetarian I would love tips on how to get my protein in because that is the only thing I worry about with my new life style choice!
Thanks for reading, hope I didnt scare anyone off the meat wagon or gross them out to badly. As far as everything else its going.. slowly, I allowed myself to eat Del Taco this AM for breakfast and indulge in some humus and pita bread for lunch but I plan on hitting the gym tomorrow AM before my little guy and hubs wakes up and before the craziness of my weekend ensues! I'm a little scared about tom. I dont know how my body will handle the workout since I havnt worked out in two weeks but hey you gotta get back on the wagon some where and its better sooner than later!
Happy Holidays Everyone!! May you all have a safe and blessed weekend!
Tuesday, December 14, 2010
Today is a good day! Today is uplifting and makes me feel like I am getting some where finally after a month of the scale not moving and it moving up eghh today has rejuvinated my motivation and re inforced my choice to not eat the yummy chocolate carrot cake thats in our conference room and instead reach for my bag of green apple slices
So I guess I better explain... It started yesterday, as soon as I walked in and was talking to one of my co workers she said Oh my gosh Bri your face is so skinny! Naturally she assumed it was because Ive been sick for the past five days and unable to eat much but I prefer to chalk it up to my hard work and than today I hit the mother load of all "motivation pushers" LOL! I went into the lunch room to fill up my water cup (BY the way as of 11 AM I have Had 9 Glasses of clear liqud joy !!!!) and I saw one of the guys from IT in there and this is how the convo went...
ME: " Hi how have you been"
IT GUY: "Good Bri, How are you"
ME: "Oh good Ive been sick last week but feeling much better
IT Guy: " Well those lunches of yours are really paying of you look great"
Me: pause.. do a happy dance in my head.. " Oh! Thanks so much" ..huge smile on my face.. "Ive been working hard, still have a ways to go but I feel great"
IT GUY: " Is it just the lunches or are you doing something else
Me: " I just have been trying to be healthy, I dont really want to be skinny just strong, I go to the gym every morn. and eat healthy chocice meals for lunch they really help my portion control."
IT GUY: " Well its wokring you look great! How much are you planning to lose"
Me: Im thinnking I want to lose about 50 lbs all together, Ive already lost 25"
IT Guy: "Oh so your half way there, great job and again you look great. Maybe I should start eating those meals lol"
Okay so you get the point LOL!! I feel so happy and amazing! Someone I never would expect to say something did! I just need to take a moment and say....
This conversation not only uplifted me and completly re enforced my positive energy today but it also opened my eyes and made me realize that Im pretty much HALF WAY to my goal weight!!! That means if I just stick to it by the begining of summer I will be bikini ready!!
Im so excited and I just cant hide it!! I saw an old friend that I havnt seen since May on Sat. night and she was blown away by how I looked also. Everyone keeps saying you look great! ahhh thank you very much, no picutres please
I know attitude is everything in this journey so I am officially going to have a positive attitude all the time! and of course it helps when people re enforce your feelings. I feel great and I dont tjust think its the weight people notice, my face and skin is much clearer and even my hair seems to be shinner. Being Healthy Rocks!!!!!
Friends, Im gonna go finish my apple slices
Tuesday, December 07, 2010
So as of today I have 23 more days until the New Year and am sad to say that I WONT be making my goal weight on 150 by than HOWEVER instead of getting down on myself and completely giving up (which quiet frankly that's what I've been doing these past few weeks) I have decided that for the next 23 days of my life (well lets count today so 24) I am going straight back to the basics.
See I have a pattern, like many of us do, my biggest weight loss pattern is that I am inpatient (well actually I'm inpatient when it comes to ANYTHING!!! something I'm truly trying to work on) I always do this to myself, its a weird sort of self sabotaging thing I guess where as soon as I start to feel better and look better and people start to notice I fall back into my lazy pattern and dont feel the need to workout or track what I'm eating. I get confidence in myself, which of course is not a bad thing until it starts affecting my schedule. I start going out more which of course leads to drinking more which in turn affects my sleep and my workouts.... eghh anyone see where I'm going with this??
SO.. this has been my life and my pattern these past few weeks and I was even thinking today how sad it was that I would still be FAT and down on myself for New Years. Than my faithful spark lifted me up! I was reading some blogs and came across a few where the person had written a letter from themselves to themselves so I though what a great Idea! So the following is what I came up, a letter to myself from my future self...
I know that lately you have been having all kinds of fun in your new sexy body. I know that you feel a lot more confident and beautiful and that's great BUT you've been drinking ALOT and staying out way to late which leads to you being to tired to wake up in the morning and workout which in turn is causing you to gain back the weight we worked so hard to get off and of course by now you are feeling upset at yourself and sitting here starring at the calendar realizing that there is only three and a half weeks until New Years. Now dont get upset, dont feel down the good new is you still have three and a half weeks! If you got back to the basics and started tracking all your food and working out for a min. of 30 mains a day five days a week and stop drinking alcohol and eating food past 6pm like you where so diligently doing before you could lose 4 lbs a week again which in turn adds up to about 15 lbs! Which means that although you would not be at your ideal goal weight of 150 you would in fact be at 162 which means that you would be at your pre baby weight and only two pounds shy of what you weighed when you met DH four years ago!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
So you get it now right Bri?? I mean its really simple just pump your brakes for a second and Stop to think about the basics, you know how to lose weight, you've lost 25 pounds already and can wear a size 13 and sometimes even a ten which is pretty good since two months ago your big butt couldnt even wear a size 14 without major muffin top.
You can chase your son at the park and get up and down off of a plushy couch without having to get a crane! Do you want to look back in three weeks and realize that you have just completely wasted this time!
I'm done being stuck in this fat body watching you be lazy. You need to just stop making excuses, stop saying you cant and Just DO IT!
Its actually pretty simple Bri see all you need to do is move more, eat less and drink water water water! You got this!
Remember how jealous you where this morning when you where looking at all your spark friends after photos and thinking "Man sure wish I had some awesome progress to share" but oh no you would rather eat McDonalds and lay on the couch indulging in 7 eleven cookies and General Hospital episodes... Hello you have DVR!! Dont you think you should go workout and than treat yourself to some soaps cause if not that's fine but your fass ass is going to be really sad on New Years when that sexy black dress you have hanging in the close looks like crap on you! Remember that tipping point that pushed you to start spark to being with? Oh yes I'm talking about that night you went to the bar with DH and you where wearing that little black dress (yes your ideal one for New Years) and that girl sitting next to you was laughing at you and saying that you should not be wearing that! Remember how that felt! Remember you made DH stop playing pool and leave the bar because you where so humiliated and felt like such a slob! Do you want to feel that way again? I mean from where I am you are fifteen pounds lighter and looking damn good in that dress! You and DH are dancing for the first time since you got married and laughing and you finally feel 21 but hey if you would rather spend the night comparing yourself to everyone else in the room and feeling like you dont measure up and feeling to self conscious and to insecure to get up and dance than go for it.. but that doesnt sound like much fun to me!
Come on girl you can do it, you can succeed! Remember what your learning?? Create your own happiness right? So the way I see it you have two choices... 1. Fall back into old patterns thus not moving forward at all or 2. Get up and GO GO till you cant GO GO anymore than drink some water and GO GO some more!
I love you Bri and want you to be happy and succeed! Please do this for all of us, yourself and your family!
Phew.. That was intense and alot but some one had to rip me a new one and get me back on track!
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