Friday, December 03, 2010
I just want to start by saying sorry to my teams and friends as I have not been very active on this site this past week. I have been having a horrible time these days, between money stress work stress and lots of emotional family problems that I do not want to even talk about have been keeping me down and up on the scale.
HOWEVER... Move on and use each days negative experiences as lessons and make changes to the day ahead! So with that...
Day 42 (Thurs.):This past week has been really great with food and fitness for me.. So far I've only cheated one day (Tues. night I had two cocktails but with diet coke and del taco egghh lol) and I have only not worked out one day (also Tues.)! I haven't really been up to blogging or really having much to blog about, just the same old but yesterday was different.
Yesterday (Thurs.) I was out of work due to some family things and since I was completely overwhelmed and just plain stressed out I decided that I would talk an hour out of my day and hit the gym, It felt so great just to run, run, run on that treadmill! I actually ran two 15min intervals with only a five minute walk break in between and after!!! I am not a runner and never thought that I would be able to run but I'm actually thinking of doing a 5k just to say that I did and maybe more further on?? So that was the first thing that I made me feel so good and than later on in the day when my husband was gone with the car my little man and I where sitting home and I thought sure why dont I walk to the park with him and let him get his "wiggles"' out. THe park is 0.58 miles from my house so there and back is just over a mile and you know what?? I didnt even brake a sweat walking over there at a brisk pace while pushing his stroller Once we got to the park I ran around with my son, we played chase, we crawled thought the tunnel and my big butt made it down the slide without getting stuck!! I was able to keep up with him without sweating and being out of breathe! This is it! this is the real reason I joined spark and why I wanted this new lifestyle! This day was without a doubt more important and made me feel better than seeing any number on the scale!
I'm not saying that I am where I need to be, I am still 27lbs from being in a healthy BMI range but I couldnt believe how much more in shape I am! I literally started crying when I saw the other mom that was there with her two little ones. She was struggling to keep up with them, struggling to fit down the slide with her little one on her lap and than I remembered that not to long ago that was me! Naturally now everyone I see struggling with weight I want to "recruit" to spark LOL but of course since this lady was a complete stranger I couldnt just approach her and say Hi wanna lose weight with me? LOL but It really got my prospective in the right place.
I was telling my husband the other night when we went out how amazing it feels to get asked for my ID when I order a drink! I'm only 21 and as I started getting heavier I stopped getting asked for my ID... I looked older, I felt Ancient!! Now I feel young, I feel 21!
I have a bit of ways to go until I am my ideal size 5 but I am officially wearing a size 10 jeans and they are starting to get loose on me . For a minute there I was starting to get tired.. tired of counting calories, tired of having to look up nutritional info every time I eat, tired of driving to the gym.. just plain tired! Than my eyes where opened and I started to see all the things I am gaining in my life by losing these lbs!
We went to my brother in laws the other day and he has one of those big ole sink down when you sit in them couches and I remember how hard it used to be for me to crane myself up off it to grab my son before he got into a cupboard or something but you should have seen me the other day, jumping up and back down a thousand times without a second thought. I even set indian style on the floor with my son and played cars! These are the small things that really make this journey worth it.. I guess the best way by far that I've heard it put is like this (pretty sure I stole this form one of my ) "Being Fat is HARD and loosing weight is HARD... now chose your HARD!!
Phew well I chose my HARD and its getting myself into shape. I think I've been way to focused on being skinny honestly I would think to myself okay as soon as your skinny you only have to work out twice a week instead of five.. and as soon as your skinny you can binge as long as its not all the time.. Ewe! I WANT to work out five days a week, I WANT to be the mom playing with her little guy not sitting on the bench watching! I WANT to eat healthy foods and keep track of my calories because it makes me HEALTHY and in time with being HEALTHY I will get SKINNY!
Thanks for reading, my journey continues! I'm still trying to lose as much weight as I can by NEw YEars but I'm deciding right now on what my fitness goal will be that I would like to shoot for.. I'm thinking a 5k sometime after the New Year but we will see :)