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Day 22 Trying2Recover 4rm Night 21& Day 23 of 70

Friday, November 12, 2010

**Continued Day 21: I have to do this because I need to be completly honest about my short commings in order to keep myself 100% accountable. Day 21 was good as far as eating untill I got hom... My mother in law asked us to stop by for a little while so that she could visit with my son. Well my mother in law also is famous for her FULL bar, I mean any type of drink you want she has! So of course I slipped up and had one (okay three!) cocktails which would have been fine considering that it fit within my calorie range but than of course the alcohol made me hungry and you know the only logical thing to do when your buzzing and hungry...
emoticonMcDonalds! Aghh.. thats right people I ate 15 Chicken McNuggets and a Medium French Fry along with 3 sweet and sour sauces... Lets just say The next day I spent some quality time with my toilet! And sorry if this is to much TMI but it was coming outta both ends! emoticon

Day 22 of 70: Thursday- First let me start by saying Happy Veterans Day! emoticon and a huge emoticon to all our men and women who fight for our freedom and for this wonderful life that we live! So today was a holiday for me, as I work at a bank but I was suffering big time in the AM after my little binge! I need some credit though because I wanted to be honest I plugged it into my nutrition tracker (even the cocktails) egghh... I was just about to get down on myself but than I decided that I would shake it off and call that my one cheat day for the week emoticon. I spent the whole day with my little man, we played chase, he helped me clean the house and put away the dishes than we took a nap ahh it felt so good to take a nap! emoticon. The whole day I was dragging my feet and finding excuses not to go to the gym even though I knew I had to because of my previous indiscretion.. So finally my hubby came home and I told him that we had to go for a walk! and we did!! We walked 2.6 miles all around our neighborhood for a total of 60 mins. I happily plugged it into my mobile fitness tracker but than I realized that I hadnt even burned the calories from my previous nights binge and something took over me! I was like a fitness monster, I couldnt control it!! I kissed my guys goodnight and jumped in the car (PS it was 8pm!) and I headed to the gym.. I proceeded to workout for another 60 mins buring just about 600 calories and when I walked outta there I felt so amazing and so proud of myself. I DID IT!!!, emoticon

So that brings us to Day 23-Friday: Today is going to be a bit of a challange for me but Im not scared and I know that I can conquer it with my new found tools and knowledge from spark emoticon. We have a luncheon at work and the food is going to be asian cusine. I packed grapes (my am snack) and mini carrots ( my pm snack) and my weight watchers string cheese as well as my usal dinner, some progresso Light soup. I also ate a healthy breakfast (and filling) of a tomatoe, onion, turkey omlette so that I would be able to last untill lunch and so that I am not starving when I get in line to dish up my food. I plan to track what I eat at lunch as best I can (The foods from an unknown restraunt so I will have to do some guestematting).
Tonight when i get off work Im going to the gym to do a practice jog on the treadmill. emoticon Doing 3.5 miles because... Saturday Im doing my first 5k!! I want to do a practice run and see what kind of time I come in at. I didnt do Jillian this AM as planned becase I didnt want to be sore as hell on Saturday, that would be no bueno. Im pretty excited to weigh on Sat. despite my tiny little slip up with food I have chosen to not hate myself (after all im only human right!) and to just brush myself off and hit the pavement (or treadmill).

Thanks for reading emoticon and as always keep your heads up and remember if you binge and eat almost 1500 calories in one sitting please proceede to the nearest sidewalk (or treadmill) and get moving! Dont just fall and stay down cause theres only 7 weeks till New Years and I need ya looking sexy!! LOL

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TAMUTPOT 11/12/2010 9:56PM

    Everyone falters. But, you did the right thing and got right back to your routine. Keep it up!

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EVANSPROUDMAMA 11/12/2010 1:13PM

    emoticon Ladies!! I really appreciate the support and kind thoughts!! emoticon

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GODDESSELLIE07 11/12/2010 12:59PM

    Way to go on acknowledging your slip up and not letting it get you down! You are doing amazing. Good luck on your 5k this weekend :)

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RACEMOM576900 11/12/2010 12:55PM

    Great job kicking your sel f in the butt with motivation! That is the way to do it and keep on doing it. Good luck with the 5K. Will be cheering you on in thought.

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Day 21 of 70.. Make each day count!!

Wednesday, November 10, 2010

Todays blog is a happy and uplifting one! I have truly begin to understnad the person that I am underneath and in my heart. This week spark challanged me to make a visiual motivator and last night I did.. My two year old helped me by coloring all over the page lol! and instead of just chosing one reason for the weight loss I decided to border the page with ALL the reason that I wanted to lose weight. I actually started crying while I was doing this, I couldnt believe that for so long I had held all this hurt and disappoint with myself inside. The weight has not only affected me physically but emotionally as well. I know right than and there that falling was not an option. Spark also challanged me to find a quote that I could use as my motto and I did!

“There's a difference between interest and commitment. When you're interested in doing something, you do it only when it's convenient. When you're committed to something, you accept no excuses; only results.”

This is me in a nutshell. This is why I've failed every other time because I wasnt commited! I wasnt serious about being healthy I was just interedsted in it! The words I CANT LOSE WEIGHT is a lie! The truth is you dont want to lose weight, you dont want to put in the effort and commitement that it will take and its easier to say you cant than actually try. HUh not I sir not anymore!

Im jogging/walking my first 5k this Saturday in honor of the Untied Way and fighting homelessness in my backyard. Its made me realize how much I truly have and selfish ive been to take everything for granted, my health and all the things in this world I have that others are not so lucky to have. Im not a big runner (im a swimmer emoticon) but Im excited to push myself to do something outside of my comfort zone and ecspecially becaue It will benefit others!

Today I just want to leave you with this.. Remember that this is your Journey and Yours only! Dont compare yourself to others, dont put yourself down and dont beat yourself up if you have a bad day. Each time you fall (or binge) take that time to learn and grow from it and wake up the next day and move forward. You deserve to do this! You deserve to Succede and only you can stop yourself from doing so! Just DO IT!!

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RACEMOM576900 11/11/2010 12:16PM

    Very inspiring blog!! Thank you for sharing your experience in putting together your visual. You can do this. I am proud of you for stepping outside of your comfort zone to do the 5k!! You can do it. I will be cheering you on with my positive thoughts!

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-POLEDANCEGIRL- 11/10/2010 4:22PM

    It is a journey and we have control over it. Great blog!

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Day 20 of 70 with only 50 Days Left Im Feeling GREAT!!

Tuesday, November 09, 2010

Today is def. a good day! I am sore as hell from my workout yesterday morning so I am taking a recoupe day to let my body kind of heal up. Im power packing in the protein, going to spend about 30 mins stretching out tonight and drinking double the water I normally do and than tomorrow Im jumping right back on the Yoga Meltdown wagon! I love it! I love it so much I havnt wanted to go to the gym I feel so tight and firm and tall.. DOnt get me wrong I am not ditching the gym Im going to hit the gym Thurs, Fri and Sat but tomorrow is Yoga Meltdown!!

Anyway as far as ffelings go, im doing pretty good. Im still positive despite peeking at the scale this AM and seeing a huge jump (3LBS in one day??) Ive been eating perfect and did Yoga Meltdown yesterday but generally when I way myself the day after a workout I always weight more than the next day Im back down so Im not getting down since Saturdays are my official weigh in days and the only days I take seriously and that I count so we will just wait and see.. Im hoping for 175 LBS but will be thrilled with anything that is under 179(that would mean I offically have lost 20lbs and am at my lowest weight since I was first preggo and only ten lbs away from my pre preggo wegiht and where i was when I met DH)

The next two weeks are going to be huge for me in my journey, If I can just stay on track and away from the Alcohol untill Thanksgiving I know that I will be hitting the 160's by Dec 1st and that means I will be on track for my goal weight on New Years.

I dont really know how to feel about it! I just want to shout from the roof tops IM DOING IT HATERS!!!! WOOP WOOP lol sorry about that Im just super excited and cant wait to see those drops in the scale!!! Oh by the way did I mention???.... I can now stretch so far that I can place my nose on my knee while sitting down and stretching my hands past my feet!!! AHH I havnt been able to do that since highschool people!

Hope your weeks going good and this blog find you in a place that is good! If your having a little glitch in your journey just remember that you can do it! Your strong and beatiful and you can do whatever you set your mind to including wegiht loss!!!

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RACEMOM576900 11/9/2010 11:00PM

    WOW!! Thanks for sharing some of that energy!! I already feel better and it sounds like you had a terrific day!

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SLICKEM05 11/9/2010 4:57PM

    Beautiful Blog! Thank you for sharing...I am so inspired! emoticon

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LARRYPHIPPS 11/9/2010 3:04PM

    KEEP UP THE GOOD WORK, YOU CAN DO IT.

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-POLEDANCEGIRL- 11/9/2010 3:04PM

    I can feel your excitement coming through my computer!! Keep it up!! You are doing great!!

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Days 17,18 and 19 Renewed Sense of Self and I CAN DO IT!!!

Monday, November 08, 2010

Sorry Ive been M.I.A. on the blog front over the weekend, my computer at home has takin a crap so I only have access when Im at work. Anyway so lets dive right in here folks...

Day 17- Saturday: Was weigh in day for me and Sadly I only lost one pound last week! I was about to continue my negativty from the last blog but than I realized that I had been eating like crap, barely moving (unless you can count hand to mouth or remote to tv as moving emoticon) So all in all I guess its lucky that I was up ward on the scale and that I did infact lose one whole pound!! I did not track what I ate today and I did eat fast food for every meal today.. naughty I know but I did stop eating past six and I told myself that starting Tomorrow (Sunday) that I would push my lazy buns and get back on track so....

Day 18-Sunday: Was better than Saturday. I woke up early with my little man and ate a HUGE breakfast. I tracked everything I ate throughout the day, even the Taco Bell! and I stayed below my calorie range for the day emoticon. I did not work out however I spent the latter of the day cleaning house, cleaning out my closet, running back and forth to the laundry room(in our apartment complex not like in my house emoticon) and generally sweating my booty off plus grocery shopping. All together it was a pretty positive day and a general good start to my week emoticon

That brings us to the present day (Day 19-Monday) I am in alot better spirits than I was on my last blog entry. I am positive and uplifted. I did not make it to the gym this morning however I did get up and do Jililian's Yoga Meltdown for thirty mins. WOW mama Im gonna be feeling it tomorrow and I was sweating more than I think I have ever sweated before. Im excited to say that I completed the workout (previously I could not) and I am going to be including mastering Level One in my goals for this month!!

So I think its time to set some new goals for this month, there is two and a half weeks untill December and I am ready to rumble! emoticonBy December 4th 2010 I will...

emoticonMaster Level One on Yoga Meltdown and Comfortably complete Level 2.
emoticonWeigh 170 Pounds on weigh in day (Saturday December 4th)
emoticonHave Completed Five Consecutive Days of working out a week for the past two weeks(Gym and/or Yoga Meltdown alternating when sore)
emoticon Not drank any alcohol (with the one exception day being Thanksgiving day)

Im excited and have a renewed sense of emoticon attitude instead of that nasty get down on myself Fatitude! The old me is gone forever and I will not fall off track so hard that I have to lose those 19lbs all over again plus the remaining 51 lbs! No way no how.. Ive said it before Ill say it again.. THIS SEXY TRAINS A ROLLIN!!

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SMILE-AWAY 11/10/2010 8:50AM

  Slow and Steady wins the race!

You know where you aer heading off too, that is always good!

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RACEMOM576900 11/8/2010 5:00PM

    You go girl! You can do this and you have the right attitude!!

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Day 16 of 70.. Hanging on (Barely!)

Friday, November 05, 2010

I didnt make it to the gym this AM emoticon I could barely drag myself out of bed. Lots of stress is surrounding me.. Problems with my marriage, money problems(im the only one that works) and of course the stress at work! Im so tired of being tired! I feel like im getting ahead (in my weight loss journey and just in life in general) and than something happens and I slide right back down! Grr.. can someone just throw me a bone here?

Im going to the gym when I get off work in about an hour! I have to! I feel like ive gained all the weight back (Iknow Im just being dramatic) but my jeans are not loser and the only thing that looks smaller is my boobs eghh emoticon Im so feed up with everything right now! I know I sound like a negative nelly, thats because at this point I am!! I do not even want to know what the scale is going to tell me Tomorrow! I might skip it all together because I feel like such a fallure.

Its frustrating! Yes I did skimp on my workouts but I have been eating so good and so little that theres no reason I should feel this large!! Grr...

  
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MAGGIEMAY147 11/7/2010 9:36PM

  I feel your pain!!!! All last week I struggled with my eating and I was exhausted and just plain done with everything. I didn't track any of my food because I knew I wasn't doing well. And money problems seems to be my middle name lately!

Try to just keep pushing through and keep taking one day at a time...hell sometimes it will be one hour at a time. I know you can do it!

Create a new playlist to listen too while working out and make it all angry songs that way when you are stressed you can rock out and workout. It seems to help me sometimes :)


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RACEMOM576900 11/5/2010 9:57PM

    Life is so full of stress! I know just how you feel and have been there several times! Just remember one day at a time, complete small goals each day, find 3 things to be greatful for each day, and blog. Getting those feelings out of your head will help you focus. Keeping you in my thoughts and prayers.

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UTSKI7 11/5/2010 6:05PM

    Hi, Sorry to hear all of the stresses you are going through especially the marriage that is a tough one.
Keep up the good job verbalising your feeling (writing blogs etc) it really does help. No you are not a negative nelly life gets to all of us...
A good exercise is coming up with 3 positive things about your life and try to smile just a little it will make you feel better.
Tomorrow is another day I am sure it will be better.
we are born into this life kicking and screaming but I refuse to live it that way :o)
Keep up the good fight you will see changes soon...
hope you will have a nice weekend.


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