Thursday, November 04, 2010
So its been a little over two weeks now since I decided that enough was enough and I was going to get on this losing weight thing full force with no regrets and with every sweat and tear that comes along with it BUT this past week has been extremely hard on my fitness. Now I know that there's always going to be a reason to not work out, the baby's sick, I'm sick, I didnt sleep well and on and on the list goes and I am trying to not do this and get back on my schedule but its been a week from hell and I've only worked out twice! I dont really want to get into details but things on the home front have been.. tense!! Hubs and I have reached the three year mark of being married and we are going through some "growing pains" so between stress at home, stress at work (my bank is going through massive conversions) and stress with just being stressed I can not seem to drag my butt out of bed in the morning and workout! I even have Jillian at home to make it idiot proof(aka climb out of bed, walk to living room, turn on tv and proceed to workout!) but my body is so tired I just cant!
Egghh I hate that statement.. "I just cant" really bri?? that sounds like the old fat you not the new fit you! The whole eating right thing I get. I can do it! Its easy and as long as I track my food and dont eat alcohol I'm golden! Most days I'm so swamped at work I have to force myself to eat my snacks, I've even been hitting about 20-50 calories BELOW my calorie range lately but I know that without proper exercise just because I'm skinny that I wont truly be healthy and that's what I really want out of this journey! I'm so frustrated with myself right now, all I want is to be able to once in my life to be able to stick to something and actually succeed with it! I want to feel good about myself but its hard when I'm so stressed and feeling so down in my marriage and inside my heart. My head says work out, my body says stay in bed I'm freaking exhausted! At night I dont work out because I do not get to see my two year old all day (I'm a full time working mom) and I want to spend the time with him and by the time he goes to sleep its ten pm and I'm wiped!
Now please do not think I'm throwing in the towel and giving up, that's not what this is! This is me venting about my frustration, this is me making it known that I am struggling with this part of my new life, this is me showing my weakness and trying to prepare myself mentally for the fact that when I get on the scale on Sat. It may be up from what my ticker is currently at and I have to except that , learn from my past mistakes, pick myself up and go to the gym!
I do plan on hitting the gym tomorrow morning and working myself until I cant work anymore so hopefully I will stick with that and just do it! I'm taking a half day tomorrow to so maybe I will make it to the gym in the afternoon after work for a little extra push before weigh in. whatever happens I know that I am strong, and that I will succeed. I may have taken a few steps back but I will know move a huge leap forward! I have to do this for me and for my son I have to be healthy and strong for life!
Hanging on bRi
Tuesday, November 02, 2010
So today is day 13 of 70, almost to the second week marker of the day I decided to do this! Phew time flys, before I know it its going to be New Years and I'm going to be sexy !! So this morning I tried something new, I bought Jillian Michaels Yoga Meltdown as a way to kind of "strength train" at home. I posted on the message boards about it and asked what people thought, one person told me how wrong I was to call it strength training that it was actually cardio HOWEVER it is in fact called body weight training and it falls under strength training Jullian is just AMAZING and gets your heart pumping to incorporate cardio with powerful muscle toning moves!!! I'm in love here people! Can I be honest and tell you that I couldnt even complete the whole 30 min retinue! This is mostly because I didnt eat before starting, here I was thinking this was yoga and that I wouldnt need to eat... Boy was I wrong! This is not your mamas yoga, this is power packed, constantly moving, pushing your body to the extreme yoga! I love it because I have so much room to grow with this dvd. There are two levels (got through 25 mins of level 1) both levels have a beginner and intermediate person doing the modifications for you. I love love love Jillian style, the way she actually directs her instructors and corrects their form so that you can be sure you are doing it properly. I was sweating my booty off and I feel so tight! I'm gonna rock it again tonight to try and finish threw it and I'm letting DH go to the gym in the AM cause I want to do this again!! I love it lol
Everything else seems to be going good, Foods been good as it usually is during the week. Hubby and I are weighing in on Sat. so I'm really trying to be extra strict this week since I'm so scared the scale may go up *gulp*. Alrgihty that's all for me! I'm off to eat my healthy choice lunch yummy
Sunday, October 31, 2010
The past few days have wrecked havoc on my nutrition and my sleep!
Day 10, Saturday: Sorry all, I didnt post yesterday however the "Rents" took my little guy for the day so the hubby and I spent some much needed time together. I wouldnt say I completely feel of the spark wagon after all I did dance a lot and spent less than an hour on the couch (actually even inside my house) however I did overload on beer and carbs ! Yikes and I did not make it to the gym yesterday as previously stated. We stayed out really late and I only got about five hours of sleep before I woke up this morning, rolled out of bed and....
Day 11, Sunday(Today): made my way to P and G super burgers (AKA all things are cooked with a side of grease ) and got myself a nice hefty Side of hash browns with a Veggie Omlete.. Yummy, to be quite honest I just now finished eating however I only ate half of the hashbrowns and half of the Omlette (which was filled with lots of yummy veggies so I get a point for that, right?) and I am now sitting here stuffed like a pig blogging about how fat I am LOL!!
Its not exactly like that, the hubby is helping his mom fix her tire on her bike so they can go for a little ride and since I dont have a bike I have every intention of strapping on my running shoes and doing a little power walk/ jog beside them once my superburgers meal settles in my tummy!
Oh I almost forgot to mention Happy Halloween !! We are taking the little guy to a carnival tonight in downtown, should be fun and filled with lots of temptation of course lucky for me I'm not all that big on candy and I should get in a lot of walking tonight so I think it should be a positive evening!
After my walk I'm headed to the store to pick up my pilates dvd and maybe a costume? I wasn't gonna get one because I wanted to wait until I was hot body before I go and get all dressed up but I'm feeling oddly more confident than last year and saw that the costumes where 50% off today so I decided to take a looksy and if I find something than pics. will be available tomorrow.
Alrighty that's all for me today, I will check in again tomorrow. Thanks for reading and thanks all for the support. Have a great day and remember to be safe! Watch for cars and dont forget to stay away from your kids halloween baskets! lol!
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