Friday, October 29, 2010
Good Morning aghh it is Friday today! and that means we are one day closer to Halloween! *gulp gulp* I don't know about you but I am already starting to feel the temptations of this sugar filled holiday. This morning I came into work as usual with my "spark" lunch packed. I set down at my desk, powered on my computer only to find an email proclaiming that today we would have a halloween party! Egghh and of course the conference room is filled with cupcakes, donuts and candy. So I did the responsible thing and Opted out of the party at least the food portion of it. I dont need to surround myself with the temptation! Luckily for me I'm not that big of a sweets person, for me the temptation lies in french fries, chips and anything snacky LOL I'm thinking the safest place for me today will be in the protection of my cubicle surrounded by my grapes, green beans and sensible solutions veggie chips I can be social and not stuff my face, right? I mean after all when I went out the other night my friend ordered a giant plate of french fries and fried chicken strips (shinning examples of my weakness!) and I only ate 2 single fries! I can do this! I am strong and I have will power.
So although I pretty much have the whole food thing down pat (still working on maintaining the alcohol portion of my caloric intake but food is easy now!) I am still struggling with getting my booty back to the gym! My alarm went off at 5am this morning and this cold weather just has me glued to my bed and my blankets ... Never fear I still have the chance to go tonight! and I will for sure. I'm also going to make it there at some point on Saturday and I am planning on Sunday also.
Tomorrow is my normal weigh in day however in my previous blogs you will find that I have decided to ditch my friend the due to my complete lack of motivation and exercise this past week I feel shameful LOL so from Sat. I have a week until I have to face the scale once more. My husband says hes positive I have lost more weight since my waist and hips are smaller but hes a man so who knows! I sure hope so though, I'm slowly trying to close out this week with a bang and kick off next week with a !!
Because I havnt really given myself goals, I will now *gulp* go ahead and put it in writing here my goal weight for next week so that I can keep myself accountable, keep in mind that I have not weighed since last Sat. so I am going off that weight and may be underestimating my power a little here but the goal week for Sat October 6th is 175 LBS that would mean I would have to have 6 lbs however keep in mind I dont know what my current weight is I can only assume its less than 181 so Its not so unrealistic.
Oh and I'm updating my rewards because I want to get stuff that will help me further my journey not just beatify me LOL and on Sat. I'm hitting up the local thrift stores to try and get my pilates dvds at a discounted price otherwise its to walmart for a generic version of the program I wanted for now (I don want to order online and have to wait to ship I need to get on this!)
Wednesday, October 27, 2010
Day 7 of 70 that means only 63 more days until New Years, I cant believe that its only been 7 days lol I feel like I have been on this journey for a thousand years, I'm probably not the only one that feels like this at one point or another! Phew this morning was a HARD morning. I went to bed at nine o clock as soon as my little monkey feel asleep and I had intended on waking up at 4:30 am so that I could rock it at the gym but my snooze button was my ultimate BF this morning . Never fear I did manage to make it to the gym by 5:30am and I worked out for 50mins! I burned almost 500 calories and let me tell you, the experience that I had on the cross trainer this morning makes me never ever stop working out for more than a day again!! For the first time since my first day at the gym I felt like I was going to die! I even considered getting off and doing a less intense treadmill walk because I felt so dizzy and out of breather. I told myself that I would give it ten more mins. and if I sill felt that way that I would get off and you know what? I didnt feel that way after the ten mins.!! I powered through and did a 35min High intensity workout followed by ten grueling mins on the stair stepper! Phew it was a TOUGH one but I tell you what it really made me realize that my ass needs to follow my cardio schedule and not sway off unless 1.The world is ending or 2.I'm dead or 3.The power goes out in the gym (at which case proceed to nearest pavement and start running!)
I also have another tough one to tackle today, yesterday I heard the oh so dreaded words "Pizza party for your appreciation!" egghh I'm like can you get me a salad LOL! However, I ate light for breakfast, skipped the iced coffee and packed only healthy snacks to offset the calories I will intake at lunch. I have tracked everything in my spark people tracker although I had to guesstimate because the pizza place they are ordering from does not offer nutritional facts so I used Pizza Hut since they have the greasiest pizza and I added up everything that will be in the chicken salad and guesstimated eating one in a half cups. I even brought my own light dressing from the fridge at home along with my hand dandy measuring spoons to measure out two servings for my salad and dipping sauce for my pizza
This will be me in about thirty mins. but I plan to do so responsible, sorry but I am not throwing that AM workout down the drain by eating a bunch of crap! People here at work are such sabotagers! No one can really tell I've lost weight yet since they see me every day so everyone like "why dont you just eat the pizza, why are you asking for salad, why dont you eat read meat(pepperoni and sausage) I'm like because I dont get off it! Even someone was making fun of me because I asked what place we where ordering from so that I could try and track it! Whatever LOL I will be the one laughing when I'm skinny so there people!
Thanks for reading, another day of my journey has begun and I plan to be successful and productive today! I have also implemented a new strength training routine to my workout instead of using the weight machines at the gym, its just to hard to go upstairs, the muscle men starring at themselves in the mirror while they "pump" and the woman giving dirty looks at me if I try to do my abb series in front of the mirrors so I decided to start my pilates up again. I figure if I'm gonna do this, I might as well do it all the way and get my dream body! So here I come sexy bikini in May, hell maybe I'll hit up Vegas for my bday in May!
*PS READERS TODAY I AM WEARING MY JEANS I BOUGHT AS A GOAL TO FIT INTO RIGHT AFTER I HAD MY SON! THEY ARE SIZE 13 AND ARE LOSE ON MY BUTT AND LEGS! ONTOP OF THAT I HAVE NO MUFFIN TOP AND IM WEARING A SHIRT THAT HITS JUST AT MY BELT LINE(Prior to spark all my shirts would have to be long, long because of my muffin top but not today friends!) Im goint to eat now!
Tuesday, October 26, 2010
I just need to get this out and maybe get some advice from all my who are amazing and always take the time to ready my blogs. So I have been with spark for approx. 5 weeks now and have had amazing results, not only with weight and inches lost but with transforming the way I look at myself. I have a very bad habit of Yo-Yo dieting, and to be quite honest this probably the longest most successful stint of "dieting" that I have been on and that is because I have made a personal choice to not make this a diet but to make this me!
I blogged the other day that I was at a crossroads in my journey, I was at the point that I was either going to stick with it and be successful (For once!) or just give up like I always do and accept being a Fat Girl. I decided that I dont want to give up, I want to be successful and happy! Today I realized that this week is dyer to my success and its making me feel very vonorable because I know that in my own mind this week will make or brake me in the way that I have to succeed or else I will be screwed! LOL! I have never gone this far before, I have not been at 181 pounds since I was pregnant with my son and I know that if on Sat. that scale says 179 or lower that's it! I've succeeded and in the words of some smart people "There aint no stopping me now, I'm on a roll!" I just need to be in the 170's, I need to accomplish this first milestone to help push me to get to the next big one. I need this for me, to know that I can do it! I have never accomplished this much weight loss before and I have not been in the 170's for Three years!! Ahh.. I told DH this today and he didnt understand my feelings but I just want it so bad I can taste it! Im working out after work today and Tom, Thurs and Friday before work. I am staying within my calorie range and not eating past 6. I'm doing this!
I AM DONE WEIGHING IN THE 200'S,190'S AND 180'S I'm DONE WITH EXCUSES, I'm DONE HATING MYSELF, I'm DOING GIVING UP, I'm DONE WITH BEING INSECURE! I'm DONE WITH LOOKING BACK AND SAYING "I WISH I WOULD HAVE JUST STUCK WITH IT" OR "WHAT WOULD I WEIGH RIGHT NOW IF I JUST STUCK TO IT!"
HERE I COME 170'S *GULP* Any advice you have for me on how to keep my head in the right place or how to pump up my routine this week please share, all my fitness and food trackers are public. All I ask is no negative comments, no telling me that I'm aiming to high (Its only 2 lbs) Please only positive CONSTRUCTIVE critscim here.
Tuesday, October 26, 2010
Good Morning today is another new day! Another day down till New Years and that means another day down till I am the new me . Yesterday went pretty well, I are within my lower end of the calorie range, didnt eat past six pm and got a fairly decent nights sleep last night! I have even managed to talk the DH into joining my journey with me and he actually got up at 6am this morning and went to the gym! I am so proud of him! We have actually decided that are ultimate goal will be to hit the beach in May with him being able to wear no shirt and me in my new bikini It will be extra special for us because we have only taken are little man to the beach once and we where both to fat to enjoy it, so this is exciting! I have been trying to share my "sparked Knowledge" with him but he doesnt seem to want to listen, generally I know it is because I always do this and yo yo up and down and than eventually fall off the wagon all the way to 200 lbs however I do know as I progress more in my journey he will take me more seriously.
Anyway on to today, I feel good, I have chosen for the sake of my weight loss to not attend my husbands pool league tonight. I have self control when it comes to food but alcohol is my weakness and my down fall. I know that if I where to attend tonight I would easily put down three to four cocktails and that would just train wreck my whole day so I have chosen for now to bypass the alcohol. Which brings me to my new goal for today, no alcohol again until Thanksgiving. Alcohol keeps getting in my way and keeps adding those pesky little up one pounds down one pound yo yo that get me down and I have decided to end that! So lets all raise a glass and toast sobriety(at least for the next 30days LOL )
Today I am going to strive to stay positive, make healthy food choices and get to bed at a decent hour so that I can make it to the gym for my first hard core work out of the week. In case I forgot to mention the reason why I have not worked out yet this week(at least at the gym, I've been doing my 15 crunches a night that my team challenged me to at home is because first DH and I have created a morning rotation for the gym since neither of us prefer to workout at night, I go on Mon, Wed, Fri and optional Sat and Sun and he goes Tues, Thurs, Sat with an optional Sunday however Mon I bypassed my workout because I worked at 7am so Tom. I will hit it full force since I need to get all pumped up for my Sat. AM weigh in!
Okay guys that's about all for today, I am six days in with 64 to go... Feeling strong and positive still and ready to be sexy!
First goal to meet is to hit 165(5lbs shy of what I was when I met DH) by Thanksgiving! The reason for this is because I am going to be seeing all of DH's family including his B**ch (excuse the french but she really is!) aunt so I want her to choke on her turkey legs when she sees me
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