Friday, July 23, 2010
So I've decided that on Fridays I'm going to focus on introducing friends to friends here at SparkPeople! I've really appreciated all the support I've received here from all of you, and since you're all terrific I figure you should get to know each other!
Today's feature? Meet Radanols_Girl!
I met RG 3 years ago when we volunteered together at the Games Library at Origins Game Fair, and she's become one of my favorite people on the planet, for a ton of reasons. First of all - she's FUN! That first Origins, she helped dress up the Red Swingline, making him a cape and fangs so he could go LARP with the vampires. :D (there are pictures on his facebook page - just search for Red Swingline). This time she showed me all about how to play Agricola ( www.zmangames.com/boardgames/agricol
a.htm ), and was SO excited about the new game pieces she'd picked up in the vendor's hall (she was SO cute). :) (Note - I'm hoping she brings it along when she comes to visit next month...just sayin') But that's just the tip of the ice berg with this special lady - there are depths she generally tries to keep hidden, but you can't be around her for any length of time and not see what a sweet, genuine, loving person she is.
RG has had a lot of challenges lately - from school (she's in the final countdown to graduating with her teacher's degree, and will be doing student teaching starting in August) to family stuff, to fibromyalgia that occasionally knocks her on her butt. But she got inspired hearing me yack about sparkpeople on my livejournal and facebook, joined, and is working on taking baby steps to help her get where she wants to go. I am SO proud of her! And I'm so blessed to have her in my life. *grins*
So go show her some love! She needs more friends 'round here than just me to cheer her on, 'kay? You won't regret it - promise!
Friday, July 23, 2010
Okay, so it's nothing major really, but I got up early today (even though we didn't get to bed until after 3pm) and did the 30 Day Shred with my buddy Jillian. I figured since I'd gone over on calories, starting the day out with a killer workout would do me good - AND jump start the metabolism. Not to mention jump start me back into working out. It was tough, I won't lie - I could tell I'd slacked off. I need to get my stamina back up. But I DID it!
Second shift asked about the "interview clothes" - good that they noticed. *nods* Although having filled out the company's online intake information...this really feels like a waste of time. I've said it before - everything I know I've learned on "home grown" applications that I don't believe will translate anywhere else, and there aren't that many "IBM shops" around. And I really do hate IT - why am I applying for jobs in this field? Is this really the direction I want to be taking? I'm debating cancelling...sigh. We'll see how I feel at 8am.
But hey - either way it got me moving, right? Can't beat that.
Meanwhile, those of us going to the LLC got a bit of a boost today (which we all needed after the schedule announcement yesterday) - they sent out an e-mail that we're all invited to the LLC "Family Fun Day" at Kings Island! $10 passes - TOTALLY can't beat that! Yeah, I was going to wait until I'd lost enough weight to ride *all* the rides, but really - I can't pass up $10 passes, and there are plenty of fun things for us to do. And hey, I've lost 15 lbs - I deserve a treat, right? Right!
Thursday, July 22, 2010
Did I mention I spent some time overnight uploading my resume to CareerBuilder and Monster.com?
Apparently somebody noticed. *blinkblink* I got a call, and have an appointment to come in for an interview tomorrow at 9am. Now, I suspect this is a "headhunter" agency, and I don't really expect anything to come of it. But it was JUST what the ego needed. Really. And seeing me come in to work in "interview clothes" tonight can't hurt as far as the "grapevine" is concerned. I've told them before I'm not bluffing. They should pay attention. *nods*
My mate was jonesing for Taco Bell, so I've had tasty food that's a bit more caloric than I probably should have indulged in, BUT it was tasty and considering how I wanted to eat my way through a Chinese restaurant, I think that's a win. And now, bed. And then figuring out what clothing I have that's appropriate for a job interview. THAT could be a challenge. Wish me luck - if nothing else, that it boosts my confidence that there IS something else out there for me. I need the positive reinforcment right now.
Thursday, July 22, 2010
We got word today that those of us going to the LLC (the new "processing company" that is splitting off from Fifth Third) are going to be working 12 hour shifts. They sent an e-mail with the shift options available, to get our feedback on our preferences (like we believe they'll listen - just like they listened to our preferences about whether we wanted to go to the LLC or stay with 5/3, right?).
*12 hour shifts - 3 on 4 off 4 on 3 off Sun Mon Tue – Sun Mon Tue Wed – Days (potentially 8am-8pm)
*12 hour shifts - 3 on 4 off 4 on 3 off Thur Fri Sat – Wed Thur Fri Sat – Days (potentially 8am-8pm)
*12 hour shifts - 3 on 4 off 4 on 3 off Sun Mon Tue – Sun Mon Tue Wed – Nights (potentially 8pm-8am)
*12 hour shifts - 3 on 4 off 4 on 3 off Thur Fri Sat – Wed Thur Fri Sat – Nights (potentially 8pm-8am)
*8 hour shifts – 5 days a week M-F Day (potentially 9:30 – 6pm)
*8 hour shifts – 5 days a week M-F Night (potentially 12am-8:30 am Prod Control only)
Since the system maintenance is on Sunday night/Monday morning (which is my primary "thing") - my only option will be the 3rd one (12 hours Sun, Mon, Tues/Sun, Mon, Tues, Wed) - the 8 hour option is out.
On the one hand, I'd be off the same days my mate is (well, except every other Wednesday night). But on the *other* hand - all I'll be able to do on the days I work is work and sleep - I won't see my mate at all, because I'll have to go RIGHT to bed if I'm going to be back at work by 8pm, and that's not his routine.
And if - as has been rumored - they shift the maintenance to Saturday night/Sunday morning? I am NOT working the entire weekend - no way, no how.
I think this may be the final nail, kids. Updating my resume, applying for jobs, looking at options, because this will have too great an impact on my home life, and it's not worth it to me. I've been trying to "hold my nose and think of England" for as long as possible - I mean, my paycheck and vacation time are pretty good after being here 15 years. But this? They may have just signed my resignation letter for me. I've informed my mate already, and we talked about looking at options. But I may be making this decision sooner than later.
All good thoughts, prayers, energy, or whatever you can muster towards me being able to figure out the wisest course of action are appreciated.
Thursday, July 22, 2010
The title above is one of my mantras - something I remind myself when the "insecurity brain hamsters" start gnawing on my brainstem. It's a highly useful truth to keep in mind as a polyamorous person (because my mate loves me for me, and when we've had others in our life he loved them for them - and he didn't have to pick one over the other, he got *both*) - but this week I ran headlong into a situation that reminded me that it's true in ALL arenas. Including fitness.
I'd been SO proud of myself for coming up with a morning routine that kept me doing my walks while we were at camp. And on Friday, when one of my mate's good friends from Vermont arrived, he was extremely supportive - he works in a ski/bike/fitness shop in Burlington, and offered any help I need in terms of getting a bike or good running shoes, and his enthusiasm at hearing my progress and goals really did my heart good. And trust me - dude is a fitness superstar (we were laughing at his tiny tent, saying "Well yeah, but he does enough yoga he CAN fold-spindle-mutilate his body to fit").
Saturday night though, I hit a serious emotional speedbump. During dinner, in the course of "getting to know you" talk between him and a few other folks, one of the girls in our encampment started talking about the fact she does yoga, and they all got to talking about upcoming races and things they have going on...and my spirit just plummeted. The little I had been doing just seemed so LAME compared to what they could do. One of the guys said he was thinking about doing a "Pagan Boot Camp" workshop every morning next year - running in the mornings. Which sounds amazing, except my immediate reaction was that I'd never be able to keep up with these people. They're doing a Warrior Dash in October and it sounds amazing, gruelling, and...way out of my league. www.warriordash.com/
And of course, this was a FEAST for my resident Brain Hamsters - who took that feeling of inadequacy and ran with it. I found myself mired in the swamp of "I'm so boring, I can't do anything interesting, why do I even try to talk to these people they don't really want me around, I'm just lame and ugly and fat and worthless and..."
Happily I learned a long time ago to ask for my mate's help when the evil beasties get started. So I tugged on his sleeve, and told him I was feeling inadequate...and he reassured me at least a dozen times over the course of that night that no, I'm not boring and that yes, I *should* be proud of myself, and that he loves me and thinks I'm totally awesome in every way and "Here, let me name a few...." (And reminded me that we wouldn't be "wakin' the neighbors" every night otherwise...*ahem*)
Still, it took me a while to shake it off. And I still find myself feeling a little raw when I think about it. But you know what? I'm starting the Couch to 5K thing next week, and in October I'm going to "Run Like Hell" www.cincyrunlikehell.com/
And who *knows* what I'll be capable of a year from now - I may leave all of *them* in the dust.
I don't need to prove anything to anybody but ME, and I'm not in competition with anybody else. This isn't about them. This is about being the healthiest most active person *I* can be. So maybe I'm not an fitness superstar in anybody else's world - I'm still a superstar to my mate, and I'm still doing more than I was doing before. That makes me a superstar in MY world, and that's all that matters.
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