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First Friday Friend Day!

Friday, July 23, 2010

So I've decided that on Fridays I'm going to focus on introducing friends to friends here at SparkPeople! I've really appreciated all the support I've received here from all of you, and since you're all terrific I figure you should get to know each other!

Today's feature? Meet Radanols_Girl!

I met RG 3 years ago when we volunteered together at the Games Library at Origins Game Fair, and she's become one of my favorite people on the planet, for a ton of reasons. First of all - she's FUN! That first Origins, she helped dress up the Red Swingline, making him a cape and fangs so he could go LARP with the vampires. :D (there are pictures on his facebook page - just search for Red Swingline). This time she showed me all about how to play Agricola (
), and was SO excited about the new game pieces she'd picked up in the vendor's hall (she was SO cute). :) (Note - I'm hoping she brings it along when she comes to visit next month...just sayin') But that's just the tip of the ice berg with this special lady - there are depths she generally tries to keep hidden, but you can't be around her for any length of time and not see what a sweet, genuine, loving person she is.

RG has had a lot of challenges lately - from school (she's in the final countdown to graduating with her teacher's degree, and will be doing student teaching starting in August) to family stuff, to fibromyalgia that occasionally knocks her on her butt. But she got inspired hearing me yack about sparkpeople on my livejournal and facebook, joined, and is working on taking baby steps to help her get where she wants to go. I am SO proud of her! And I'm so blessed to have her in my life. *grins*

So go show her some love! She needs more friends 'round here than just me to cheer her on, 'kay? You won't regret it - promise!

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    What a sweetie you are, and what a briliant idea!

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REVJVH 7/23/2010 12:36PM

    What a great idea!

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EPIPHANYANGEL 7/23/2010 8:17AM

    going to say hi now.

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RADANOLS_GIRL 7/23/2010 7:40AM

    *blushes* You just made my day.

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SGKAYLOR 7/23/2010 5:03AM

    Sounds like a great person, on my way over to her page to say hi!

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SAFETYSUE 7/23/2010 4:41AM

    I love that you are giving credit to a friend that deserves the attention. She will go far with you as a friend!

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Friday, July 23, 2010

Okay, so it's nothing major really, but I got up early today (even though we didn't get to bed until after 3pm) and did the 30 Day Shred with my buddy Jillian. I figured since I'd gone over on calories, starting the day out with a killer workout would do me good - AND jump start the metabolism. Not to mention jump start me back into working out. It was tough, I won't lie - I could tell I'd slacked off. I need to get my stamina back up. But I DID it! emoticon

Second shift asked about the "interview clothes" - good that they noticed. *nods* Although having filled out the company's online intake information...this really feels like a waste of time. I've said it before - everything I know I've learned on "home grown" applications that I don't believe will translate anywhere else, and there aren't that many "IBM shops" around. And I really do hate IT - why am I applying for jobs in this field? Is this really the direction I want to be taking? I'm debating cancelling...sigh. We'll see how I feel at 8am.

But hey - either way it got me moving, right? Can't beat that.

Meanwhile, those of us going to the LLC got a bit of a boost today (which we all needed after the schedule announcement yesterday) - they sent out an e-mail that we're all invited to the LLC "Family Fun Day" at Kings Island! $10 passes - TOTALLY can't beat that! Yeah, I was going to wait until I'd lost enough weight to ride *all* the rides, but really - I can't pass up $10 passes, and there are plenty of fun things for us to do. And hey, I've lost 15 lbs - I deserve a treat, right? Right!

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DRAGONSPITTLE 7/23/2010 12:11PM

    What would you love to be doing, jobwise? What would make you happy to go to work?
That being said, I think going to the interview is a great idea. It'll be a catalyst, one way or the other.

Huzzah on fun day passes! You have to go and have a little fun for me, k? emoticon

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ZCTMMOM1 7/23/2010 8:17AM

    Did you decide to do the interview??

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ZCTMMOM1 7/23/2010 8:16AM

    You TOTALLY deserve the treat!! And I think it's great that you kept your date with Jillian!! You are AWESOME!!!!!

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LADY_JOSIELOT 7/23/2010 3:18AM

    You definitely deserve a treat, and good for you for working out with Jillian.

- Josie

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SGKAYLOR 7/23/2010 3:09AM

    You totally deserve a treat, have fun!!

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Thursday, July 22, 2010

Did I mention I spent some time overnight uploading my resume to CareerBuilder and

Apparently somebody noticed. *blinkblink* I got a call, and have an appointment to come in for an interview tomorrow at 9am. Now, I suspect this is a "headhunter" agency, and I don't really expect anything to come of it. But it was JUST what the ego needed. Really. And seeing me come in to work in "interview clothes" tonight can't hurt as far as the "grapevine" is concerned. I've told them before I'm not bluffing. They should pay attention. *nods*

My mate was jonesing for Taco Bell, so I've had tasty food that's a bit more caloric than I probably should have indulged in, BUT it was tasty and considering how I wanted to eat my way through a Chinese restaurant, I think that's a win. And now, bed. And then figuring out what clothing I have that's appropriate for a job interview. THAT could be a challenge. Wish me luck - if nothing else, that it boosts my confidence that there IS something else out there for me. I need the positive reinforcment right now.

Nighty-night interwebz!

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NEREID71 7/23/2010 9:51PM

    Hope the interview went well!

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LADY_JOSIELOT 7/23/2010 2:49AM

    Congrats on the job interview. I'm sure you'll do fantastic. :)

- Josie

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SGKAYLOR 7/22/2010 11:46PM

    Anything to get the ego up is awesome, good luck with the interview!!

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ALLERGICONE 7/22/2010 10:06PM

    Good luck! Some times, the head hunters a wonder.

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ZCTMMOM1 7/22/2010 8:23PM

    Awesome!! Send those vibes to me!! I am soooo praying to get a job at a certain place.......set hours, bennies, the whole kit and caboodle!!

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EVERLEARNING 7/22/2010 4:48PM

Great way to get the ball rolling! emoticon

Sending good employment energy your way..........

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CHARITY_DAWN 7/22/2010 4:45PM

    awesome job chica!!! Good luck with the interview and I'm sure you'll do superb!!! emoticon

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JOYFUL_STORM 7/22/2010 4:34PM

    My husband was laid off this spring and got *way* more interviews from recruiters than directly from companies. They can be a huge asset in this economy.

(Oh, and WAY TO GO!) emoticon

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BAYSIDE07 7/22/2010 3:49PM

  Good luck to you.

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    WOOOO! Congrats on the job interview! Headhunter or not, it is a gift from the Universe - and a step in the right direction for you! Will keep you in my meditations... ohhh, yes, nothing like the grapevine for getting the word out *chuckles*


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In other news...

Thursday, July 22, 2010

We got word today that those of us going to the LLC (the new "processing company" that is splitting off from Fifth Third) are going to be working 12 hour shifts. They sent an e-mail with the shift options available, to get our feedback on our preferences (like we believe they'll listen - just like they listened to our preferences about whether we wanted to go to the LLC or stay with 5/3, right?).

Our options:
*12 hour shifts - 3 on 4 off 4 on 3 off Sun Mon Tue Sun Mon Tue Wed Days (potentially 8am-8pm)
*12 hour shifts - 3 on 4 off 4 on 3 off Thur Fri Sat Wed Thur Fri Sat Days (potentially 8am-8pm)
*12 hour shifts - 3 on 4 off 4 on 3 off Sun Mon Tue Sun Mon Tue Wed Nights (potentially 8pm-8am)
*12 hour shifts - 3 on 4 off 4 on 3 off Thur Fri Sat Wed Thur Fri Sat Nights (potentially 8pm-8am)
*8 hour shifts 5 days a week M-F Day (potentially 9:30 6pm)
*8 hour shifts 5 days a week M-F Night (potentially 12am-8:30 am Prod Control only)

Since the system maintenance is on Sunday night/Monday morning (which is my primary "thing") - my only option will be the 3rd one (12 hours Sun, Mon, Tues/Sun, Mon, Tues, Wed) - the 8 hour option is out.

On the one hand, I'd be off the same days my mate is (well, except every other Wednesday night). But on the *other* hand - all I'll be able to do on the days I work is work and sleep - I won't see my mate at all, because I'll have to go RIGHT to bed if I'm going to be back at work by 8pm, and that's not his routine.

And if - as has been rumored - they shift the maintenance to Saturday night/Sunday morning? I am NOT working the entire weekend - no way, no how.

I think this may be the final nail, kids. Updating my resume, applying for jobs, looking at options, because this will have too great an impact on my home life, and it's not worth it to me. I've been trying to "hold my nose and think of England" for as long as possible - I mean, my paycheck and vacation time are pretty good after being here 15 years. But this? They may have just signed my resignation letter for me. I've informed my mate already, and we talked about looking at options. But I may be making this decision sooner than later.

All good thoughts, prayers, energy, or whatever you can muster towards me being able to figure out the wisest course of action are appreciated.

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NEREID71 7/23/2010 9:45PM

    I work odd hours, including a couple of 12 hour shifts over the weekends and my husband works overseas so we never see each other. Even when he's working here, he works days during the week, so there are never date nights, meals together, serious communication etc. Very little face time. Since 2006, when we moved back to Canada, we've been two passing ships. Ultimately it's what you can work with and live with, but the reality of it isn't fun.

Good luck with your decision making! I'm sure you'll choose what is best for you!

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    Keeping you in my meditations, and have just read your follow-up. Yes, I do things backwards and in high heels! LOL!

Maybe this is just the opening you need? The Universe has a weird way of giving the best presents in the worst wrapping paper. But once you get done unraveling the wrapping, it can be pretty good. I wouldn't have left my "secure" job to pursue a dream... until it wasn't so "secure" (read: lay-off).

Hugs to you! emoticon

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DRAGONSPITTLE 7/22/2010 3:14PM

    This may be a great opportunity for you! May it happen the way it needs to.

*warm fuzzies*

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RADANOLS_GIRL 7/22/2010 11:41AM

    *hugs* I know this sucks, but maybe it really is a nudge from the universe. If it is, then there is something better waiting for you. No harm in looking for that better thing, right?

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ZCTMMOM1 7/22/2010 10:36AM

    Awww that royally sucks! I have learned that people are so much more important than jobs...and yet....I am the one working absolutely crazy hours on no sleep...sigh....guess I need to preach to me, too, huh?!?!?! emoticon

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TWOTIMESS 7/22/2010 8:55AM

    Ooh boy, sounds like they're forcing you guys out, not good at all!

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_COSMOPAULATAN_ 7/22/2010 7:49AM

    You will be in my thoughts while you work through this life transition. Stay strong!

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MRSVANDERMEID 7/22/2010 7:12AM

    Good luck! Sounds like you have big decisions to make. A friend of mine is a nurse and loves her 3 on/4 off schedule...but she doesn't have any kids so I'm sure that makes a huge difference.

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Comparison is the thief of joy.

Thursday, July 22, 2010

The title above is one of my mantras - something I remind myself when the "insecurity brain hamsters" start gnawing on my brainstem. It's a highly useful truth to keep in mind as a polyamorous person (because my mate loves me for me, and when we've had others in our life he loved them for them - and he didn't have to pick one over the other, he got *both*) - but this week I ran headlong into a situation that reminded me that it's true in ALL arenas. Including fitness.

I'd been SO proud of myself for coming up with a morning routine that kept me doing my walks while we were at camp. And on Friday, when one of my mate's good friends from Vermont arrived, he was extremely supportive - he works in a ski/bike/fitness shop in Burlington, and offered any help I need in terms of getting a bike or good running shoes, and his enthusiasm at hearing my progress and goals really did my heart good. And trust me - dude is a fitness superstar (we were laughing at his tiny tent, saying "Well yeah, but he does enough yoga he CAN fold-spindle-mutilate his body to fit").

Saturday night though, I hit a serious emotional speedbump. During dinner, in the course of "getting to know you" talk between him and a few other folks, one of the girls in our encampment started talking about the fact she does yoga, and they all got to talking about upcoming races and things they have going on...and my spirit just plummeted. The little I had been doing just seemed so LAME compared to what they could do. One of the guys said he was thinking about doing a "Pagan Boot Camp" workshop every morning next year - running in the mornings. Which sounds amazing, except my immediate reaction was that I'd never be able to keep up with these people. They're doing a Warrior Dash in October and it sounds amazing, gruelling, and...way out of my league.

And of course, this was a FEAST for my resident Brain Hamsters - who took that feeling of inadequacy and ran with it. I found myself mired in the swamp of "I'm so boring, I can't do anything interesting, why do I even try to talk to these people they don't really want me around, I'm just lame and ugly and fat and worthless and..."

Happily I learned a long time ago to ask for my mate's help when the evil beasties get started. So I tugged on his sleeve, and told him I was feeling inadequate...and he reassured me at least a dozen times over the course of that night that no, I'm not boring and that yes, I *should* be proud of myself, and that he loves me and thinks I'm totally awesome in every way and "Here, let me name a few...." (And reminded me that we wouldn't be "wakin' the neighbors" every night otherwise...*ahem*)

Still, it took me a while to shake it off. And I still find myself feeling a little raw when I think about it. But you know what? I'm starting the Couch to 5K thing next week, and in October I'm going to "Run Like Hell"
And who *knows* what I'll be capable of a year from now - I may leave all of *them* in the dust.

I don't need to prove anything to anybody but ME, and I'm not in competition with anybody else. This isn't about them. This is about being the healthiest most active person *I* can be. So maybe I'm not an fitness superstar in anybody else's world - I'm still a superstar to my mate, and I'm still doing more than I was doing before. That makes me a superstar in MY world, and that's all that matters.

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ALLERGICONE 7/22/2010 10:11PM

    I think our evil brain hamsters are related. Mine need evicting regularly. Good on you for handling them well!

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DRAGONSPITTLE 7/22/2010 3:09PM

    Damn the brain hamsters! Fight them with SCIENCE! Or brain ninjas..depending on preference, of course. LOL

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JONEIL513 7/22/2010 2:58PM

    I love this blog, i have been doing this comparison thing alot lately. i'm going to have to borrow your mantra. its great that you have a mate who is so supportive and encouraging of you. keep up your amazing work because you're working toward being the best YOU that YOU can be!

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JOYFUL_STORM 7/22/2010 12:15PM

    I'm glad you were able to regain your equilibrium (particularly with your mate's help)!

I don't know that the following is productive advice, but it might be, and I haven't seen anyone else share it. . .

In that situation, I'd tell my hamsters to not expect to get away with doing a half-assed job and trying to make me feel bad for reasons that may not even be valid. How long have these people been doing this? Where were they at when they started? How much effort did it take them to get where they are? No correlative data = no comparison.

I expect if you told the group "Wow, you guys sound awesome. I'd love to get to where you are, but I'm just really getting into this fitness thing now, and it seems like a HUGE distance between where you are and where I am. Any tips to share on how you crossed that kind of abyss yourselves?" that they'd be as encouraging and supportive as the folks here.

(Of course, it's easy to *say* this. I need to remember this the next time my own hamsters get out of hand. My mate is WAY more fit than I am, and it can really be discouraging sometimes!)

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RADANOLS_GIRL 7/22/2010 11:44AM

    I think you are incredible. If I could find half the motivation you have I'd be thrilled!!!

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REVJVH 7/22/2010 11:39AM

    I love the title of this blog (the whole blog is great). I may have to steal it.

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ZCTMMOM1 7/22/2010 10:41AM

    But....LISA....It is EXACTLY the changes and goals that you are acoomplishing that brought me HERE and are keeping me going eveyday!! YOur accomplishments mean sooooooooo much to me!! I have overactive brain hamsters and I have been hitting them over the head with what YOU are doing!!! So, tell your brain hamsters to hike north, collect their buddies at my house and KEEP WALKING!!!

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TWOTIMESS 7/22/2010 8:50AM

    I'm sure if someone else heard of YOUR achievements, they would probably feel inadequate. Feel happy in your own skin and the rest will look after itself. Good luck!

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_COSMOPAULATAN_ 7/22/2010 7:58AM

    You are amazing, you know that right? You are lucky to have somoene who loves you for you, and where you are at in the moment. I hope to have the same someday.

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MRSVANDERMEID 7/22/2010 7:15AM

    Wow...thanks. I needed to read that today.

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DOTTIEJANE1 7/22/2010 2:49AM

    emoticon sound like you have a great support person right there with you . You are a supper star in y our ouwn right.

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