Monday, October 03, 2011
I took a full week off of work last week and did NOTHING. No trips, no family visits, no spa appointments - just a week of resting. It was heaven.
As I stepped on the scale and realized I am 5 pounds from my halfway mark, I think I just about did a cheer in my bathroom, complete with splits. I didn't think I'd be here so soon. Somewhere in the recesses of my mind, that little Jerk who spews negative thoughts at me still lingers and says that I'll never get there. She's wrong. She's a jerk. She's not 100% gone yet, but her bags are packed and she's almost out the door.
The fact that I'm here and am almost at 40 pounds of weight lost hasn't quite sunk in yet. It feels like a dream. Like....I've read other people's posts and blogs who are at this point and I thought "I can't wait to be there!"....and here I am.
IP - you have some nasty tasting food, but you work for me. I've found the things that click for me and I'll keep doing them until those 80 pounds are GONE, baby!!!
Tuesday, August 30, 2011
Being on IP, you're not eating a lot. So, doing rigorous workouts (at least for me) aren't at the top of my list right now.
So, I've been searching for the perfect workout for me: low-impact, works your butt off, makes you burn calories, and is well produced.
In looking online on SP and Google, I've narrowed it down to either the Exhale Spa Core series or the Physique series. Physique looks really great, but it may be too intense for me right now. Make no mistake, however....I want it.
So, I'm trying to rent the DVDs to check them out beforehand. I have a couple of limitations, however: limited workout space and a lingering shoulder bike injury (which means no upper body work for now).
Geeze I'm high maintenance!!!!!
Anyways, in order to get the fat burning more and build muscle during IP, I need a good workout. Walking is getting boring and soon Seattle will be into Fall. Unless we're going to have a lingering summer, that means the end of fun outdoor workouts until...mmm...next July.
SO. Open to options....if anyone has any. :)
Thursday, August 18, 2011
So, I came from a blog community that was very active. There wasn't a day that at least 10 people had blogged and commented on other blogs (for lots of reading) to coach and inspire you.
....but I'm not finding that on the community boards that I'm on. I miss it.
Because I'm doing the Ideal Protein regiment, I'm not really part of that blog community anymore - it's about eating intuitively, which is where I will be once I've lost the bulk of this weight - so I feel like I won't be able to fully relate to that community anymore.
...which I where I was hoping the IP community would come in.
Where do I go from here? Write on my own blog for the world to read with no expectation of a community? Isn't "community" what SparkPeople is all about??
Thursday, August 11, 2011
Do things really happen in threes? I think today sort of lends support to that theory.
I woke up, got ready, and came out to my family room - only to find my mom holding my brother's Yellow Lab's paw and bloody cotton balls on her lap. Apparently my brother had clipped his nail too short....but he had to leave for work. So, there she was. Looking rather frustrated and concerned. So, the spare time I had to get my food, supplements, and water ready before jumping on a conference call was reallocated to now help her get his bleeding under control. (Strike 1)
When that drama was contained, I made it out to my car and the remote to unlock the door didn't work. (Strike 2)
Because I'm hourly, I have to clock in before working....and my computer wouldn't connect to the wireless network at my house so I could log in, but I had to join the call. I decided to leave that drama for when I finally got to work. (Strike 3)
So, today can only get better right?!?!?
I got to work and realized that in the hurry to get out the door, I didn't get my lunch or my limes (for my water) together. I can't really drink plain water....and I neeeeeeed my lunch!!!
I'm over your drama, Thursday. You can stop it now. If you're trying to throw me a wrench so I blow it today, you will not break my resolve. My desire to be fit and healthy will overtake you and you will be gone in a matter of hours. You will not break me.
Monday, August 08, 2011
After just passing through my first weekend on the Ideal Protein eating plan, I thought I'd post about eating out of "boredom."
Boredom isn't an emotion. In reading a few books on eating normally, the challenge when you think you're bored is to dig deeper into your being to see what emotion you're actually trying to placate with food.
Being on a strict eating plan this weekend, I found myself constantly turning to the thought of food (sometimes, I was legitimately hungry, so I'd find something on plan to eat). So, I'd sit with the question - "what are you actually trying to feed?" - which is a hard question if you normally feed that feeling with food. For me, the answer wasn't something simple like...feeling lonely. It actually has roots in that, but it goes a little deeper.
Not so long ago, I was in a job that essentially robbed me of my will to do anything other than work. It seemed my day consisted of waking up, going to work, coming home, passing out. Weekends were sleeping, waking up, watching my recorded shows from the week, going to sleep. I didn't want to hang out with friends or go out because I was just too exhausted.
It was during this stressful, adrenal gland-depleting time that I would continually graze through the weekend. I'd get cravings for something and I'd eat it. That's all I did: Watch TV, eat, Watch TV, eat. And the pounds packed on.
When I began working through normal eating and identifying emotional triggers for binging , weekends were the first thing that showed their true nature to me. I used to call it "boredom eating" but it wasn't.
The truth of the matter was: I was judging myself. The Negative-Me inside kept saying things like "You should be going out!" "You should be thinner!" "You should be out with friends!" "You're so lazy for sitting here all day!" You should...You should...You should. I didn't give myself the freedom to do whatever I wanted on the weekend. (A friend called it "Shouldding all over yourself.")
Since I'm depleted and exhausted (from adrenal fatigue), taking it easy on the weekends and recovering is actually GOOD for me. So, I told that Negative -Me to shut up. That what I was doing on the weekends (or not doing) was MY CHOICE. If I needed to recover and rest up, then so be it!! ...but the habit of grazing through the weekend had been built up (over 4 years).
...So, fast forward to this weekend, where I can't eat whatever I want or whatever my body is craving (that will come once the weight is off). The habit of reaching for something to eat has been so ingrained in my body, that I was literally fighting the reaction to grab something to eat all day Saturday.
Once I sat and realized what was going on, the rest of the weekend was "easy" - meaning, I knew what was going on and I gently checked my actual hunger level and either ate (because I was hungry) or reminded myself that recovering is good.
I knew that choosing Ideal Protein would bring a lot of emotional eating triggers to the surface where I'd have to confront them head-on. I know that years of emotional eating habits won't be shattered in one weekend, but at least I know what's going on now and I can do something about it instead of mindlessly going through the motions.
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